Is it possible that your conscious mind is so asleep it just can't wrestle control of a lucid dream? I believe I had my second lucid dream this afternoon*. But it was strange. I wasn't conscious enough to formulate any of my dream-awareness plans and certain aspects of my thought process seemed "switched" off. For example, I don't recall the beginning of the dream or how I became lucid. But I was in a room with two bulldogs running around on the floor (I don't own dogs) in a place that wasn't my home with people who weren't my family, however in the dream I understood that these things represented my home and my family respectively. Somewhere along the line I said "I'm dreaming" then went to stabilize the dream by first, bending down and rubbing the skin of the dog (also petting him in the process, which was real enjoyable) and I marveled at how real he felt. Secondly, I began to rub my hands together, which felt rough and real. At this point I think I was going "asleep" again because I knew I had to keep feeling things, but I didn't seem to have the ability to realize that I could exercise other senses or needed to stay mentally engaged in the dream. Two half-processed thoughts came to mind, one, I needed to keep feeling things. I hobbled around and stopped at an old woman (I had my hands outstretched and I was about to feel her up when I thought- okay no that's awkward ((One because she was staring at me with a "No you don't, buddy" look, and secondly because she was f-ing old, bro))) but instead bent down and rubbed my hands on the carpet.
My second simultaneous half-thought was "This isn't where I want to be" for a lucid dream. But I couldn't conjure any other thoughts. I couldn't process where I DID want to be, I just knew I didn't want to waste my time here. So I closed my eyes and spun around. The world went dark but a black and white linoleum tile floor began to appear below me (I no longer had feet or hands). But it stopped there. Somewhere the idea to do a reality check came and, seemingly unconsciously at this point, I did one that I rarely EVER do in real life-- I grabbed my nose (didnt have hands at this point, I think the dream went into 3rd person without me being there) and I felt myself breathing heavy. I had the sensation of my chest pushing against something soft and the realization flooded in that this was my sleeping body breathing soundly, and it awed me. But then the sensations took over and I "woke up". But I only opened my eyes briefly, without moving, and went back to sleep so I don't know if this was a real awakening or a false awakening.
It doesn't matter because by that point I didn't have control anymore. I think I just dreamed in a non-lucid state by the time the "reality check" happened. But I can't tell.
Do you guys know what happened? What was this? Feel free to ask me any questions about it for clarification.
All I know is the dream that happened immediately after was realistic, but it was definitely non-lucid. However that um, linoleum tiled floor became the floor for the next stage upon which that dream started.
* For some reason my best results with dream recall seems to be afternoon naps. however the naps kind of last about 4 hours. Maybe my circcadian rhythm is messed up, I don't know.
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