First, i would like to say hello. That being said, may i jump right in, as i am rather desperate. I apologize for my openness. Since a very young age i have had a "special" relationship with the dream world. Memory of dreams came natural, seems i didn't have a choice. I would often sleepwalk/talk. Of course as a child i had no reference so dreams were dreams right. Around the teenage years my dreams became furious, unrelenting. I was learning Judo at one point, and found that i learned quit well in my dreams also. At this point i realized i was having two types of dreams, one that was fluid, changeable, and the other that was shocking and dramatizing. Either way, i have woken every morning my whole life with pools of sweat, a completely drenched bed, and completely exhausted from the nights dream. So, after graduating highschool, i am ashamed to admit that i spent six months doing nothing but sleeping and working out. I had no idea what lucidity meant. I did however practice identifying objects in my surroundings like an inventory throughout the day. It lent itself well to becoming aware in a dream, i would see a tree, and say, look a tree, then realize i was in a dream. Some were different though rare, and again i apologize for the complete ridiculousness of this, but, they would play out in my real life. As interested in all this as i was, real life was knocking on the door and i moved on. My dreams however did not. Unfortunately i have spent some years now self medicating, at least to forget the intensity and get some kind of sleep. Things are only worse now, its like someone is banging on a door with a sledge hammer, and im peeking through the window, still seeing what's going on out there, or in there, just not facing it. Im done medicating myself and avoiding whatever this is. To wake up in my sons bed at the same time as him, when he was 4, and have him say "Dad, that Kid at all the cake" and me say" that wasn't a kid, that was my cousin Crystal, shes just really short, before i even realize what i said, made me think i better get my head together, as it seems i have passed on this curse. Sorry, i know its not a curse, but,.well. I am soooo lost.!!!