I am now aged 19 but from as early as 4-5 years old i have been plagued with a very frightening dream, the dream in itself is not scary, but i always without fail have the strongest feelings of fear that i have ever experienced... and i am not easily frightened.

I posted on Yahoo answers yesterday asking for thoughts on the dream but found no help... search for the title Help with night terrors! in yahoo answers mental health section if you want to read the topic (cannot post links here yet)

I will try to explain the dream here too in case you don't feel like following that link

While i am having this dream i am aware that i am dreaming yet have no control over the dream and cannot wake myself up... in other dreams when i realize that i am dreaming i can always wake myself up, though not control the events of the dreams despite efforts to. This dream however is different... this is partly why i am afraid of the dream. So, i will try to explain what happens and feelings etc. in real time yet may miss something out and come back to it at the end.

I am in a pitch black open space, i cannot see what the place is but can only describe it as a loft or attic with no light on yet 100o times bigger and no apparent exit. Looking around i am noticing that i feel scared, i am being watched. The things that are watching me are so small and numerous tht they appear to be moving as a single being yet i know with the certainty that only comes with dreams that they are thousands, and they are evil. When i realize that i am not alone i am surrounded by mounds about 8 feet high, more like very little hills, yet they are soft and hard to climb over, like black plastic bags... know that i have to get ahead of these "things" and reach something before they can. climbing over the mounds with difficulty i come to a road with a set of traffic lights and a zebra crossing in the same place... The "things" are ahead of me as i have to wait to cross despite no traffic or other people, as the road is still in the dark place, i start crossing. Now i am unsure how it comes about but i am in a waking state now, in the real world. I am not in bed but in the middle of my bedroom, i start walking about the house, looking in rooms, going outside and looking up and down the road, looking in cupboards. I prefer to go into rooms with a light, and if i see a person i stop and look at them, i feel confused. i usually end up sitting on a hard surface before snapping out of it, more then not it is the toilet seat. While all of this is happening i am fully aware of what is happening yet cannot stop myself from the wandering and searching. I have a terrible feeling that i have to find something (i have no clue what) but i have to get to it before "they" do, i still feel them while in this waking trance state, or something bad is going to happen.

While all of this is happening i r have no control over anything, and am filled with the strongest feelings i have ever felt, panic and pure terror. This is not because i cannot stop myself from wandering or anything, it is them, these "things" that i can feel.

Also while this is happening i will see an object, like a coin, or cushion or anything really and i get a really bad thought, like if i lost it i would have to replace it, then this burden of replacing the item suddenly grows a thousand fold, and i am overcome by even more fear and terror though i don't understand why.

Also in the topic from Yahoo answers i explain another dream (though i described it as a single time it was seperate occasions)

I am lying in bed looking at a wall or the ceiling but cannot move, i feel very sharp and heavy things pressing on my chest, about an inch underneath my collar bones, one on either side of my chest. I can move my eyes, then i see myself standing in the doorway holding my quilt, when i see the quilt in my arms (in the doorway) i can feel my arms getting very heavy (the "me" that is paralyzed in bed) and i am overcome with fear and terror, and the burden type feeling from the last dream.

The other one was me looking at myself from my bed (in another house i was living in at the time) again holding a quilt rolled up, then i fly into my own body and am suddenly awake in the middle of my room, this was not accompanied by any particular feelings and i just fell back to sleep when i got into bed.

If you wouldn't mind i would like opinions or interpretations or advice on the dreams.

I know that i am afraid of these dreams, yet i think about them all of the time, they don;t happen often, perhaps once every few years (the latest being 5-7 months ago) yet since i was a child it has always been the same dream, never changing. I would like advice on how i can control what dreams i have, as much as they frighten me i am fascinated by them and would like to experience them more often, to help me understand and remember more details about them. Any advice on how i could do this would be great. Things like recall and how to take control of the dream would be nice too.

Thanks