all i can do i vague dream recall, i was only able to be fully aware i was dreaming for a very short time. maybe 3 minutes total and that was 3 years ago.

i just cant keep my mind on one thing, and it takes me almost an hour to fall asleep, by then i could have throught up hundreds of random things.

all i want is to be able to feel things in my dreams. i want to go to a beach and feel the sand between my toes, or fly and feel the sheer rush and wind in my face.. or sex up my favorite anime fantasy's, what ever comes first.

but my dreams are complete nonsense and more than half of the time, my eyes are closed IN my dreams, and i cant open them.. one time i tried opening my eyes so hard i wound up opening my real eyes and imedately woke up. (same thing happened when i was fully aware of my dream that one time, i looked in a mirror, my face was fucked, so remembering a "technique" to fix that, i closed my eyes tried to open them, but couldnt. tried so hard it woke me up")

what can i do to concentrate better?

(unrelated: i know this is an old account, but im hardly here, iv just been out of work for a while and i sleep more than anything now, so i want to atleast do interesting things while im sleeping, but i cant)