Thread: Hi

Hello there, DV. I've decided to pick lucid dreaming back up. I spend a lot of time on the internet posting, and if I want to post I might as well do so about lucid dreaming, to keep it in mind more.

Let me tell you a bit about myself. When I was first lucid dreaming "for real", in the sense that I had a good idea of what I was doing and I was on here, I was fifteen years old. I'm now 20, and things have gone downhill since. My mother died, I've failed in school, had terrible girlfriends, been on antidepressants and done drugs. While the latter is generally positive, I can't help but feel a bit worried that I'll become addicted, no matter my self control. After all, they're filling a hole in a way. I'm now unemployed, studying part-time over distance and trying to figure out what the fuck to make of myself and my life, and how to help myself out of this anxiety-depression "thing" I have.

The reason why I want to pick it back up is because I felt the best I have in my whole life when I was 15, and it was not due to outside influences. The only problem now is that my motivation is very intermittent. And, as you probably know, persistence is key when it comes to lucid dreaming. I welcome all and any input and help. Thanks for lending me your time.