Hi, I'm not that new as I've been lurking since 2011. I don't know what keeps drawing me back to this place and I don't know what I'd like to gain out of this. Maybe more control over my sleep. When I was younger I would be able to lucid dream very easily. But now, I have no control and I do not do it anymore. And I never remember my dreams. When I do, they're nightmares that ruin my day. I have tried many things, including various techniques, binaural beats, foods, medicines, etc. to no avail. Maybe it is a lost talent.

A little bit about me. I am a student. I study photography and art therapy and also work for a lifestyle/fashion magazine in my city. I'm also a manic depressive with severe anxiety. I think it's my antidepressants (Elavil) that stop me from lucid dreaming. But I can't NOT take them. I have no control if I don't take them. I need to be in control.

I'm looking forward to meeting new people, and seeing familiar faces again.