So, this is my first post. I joined just a little while ago. I don't know why I am so nervous. Maybe too much excitement, too much coffee. *giggles nervously* I am very excited to join this family because of the amount of respect and individual, positive, helpful, caring attention people give to eachother is overwhelming to me. I'm apart of a few other forums, I don't frequent them as much anymore because people are extremely mean and unfair to eachother. They constantly put people down and I for one am against that. I am just overjoyed at the amount of respect, even having a real person to welcome me. *anxious for my personalized message* :vibes: (BTW I absolutely love your selection of smilies. LOL)
I checked out this site last night after having a discussion about lucid dreams with my friend. I experienced my first recollection of a lucid dream and I had a million questions but no one to ask. He gave me great advice; seek out a forum. So I did just that and was so thrilled to see you have a forum. I've read over the rules and guidelines and I've been doing some research on lucid dreaming for a while. However, I would definitely not say I am an expert. I enjoy reading at the computer a lot, and lucid dreaming has always interested me, I always envied people who could lucid dream often(or recall their lucid dreams I should say). Lucid dreaming is something I've wanted all my life. I want to be able to go to sleep at night and just enter a whole new world and be able to do there what I am not able to do in the waking world. I can be whoever I want to be, where ever I want to be. I'd be in heaven, so to speak... and if I actually wanted to go to heaven. I'd just fall asleep, fly on up to the sky and sit on a cloud and sing like it's going out of style.
Umm, so I guess you want to know more about me? Well, firstly I shall introduce myself because it would be rude if I didn't. *minds her manners*
My name is Lacey, I am 19 years of age and I've been a daydreamer since I can remember. It's what relieves my stress and just takes me places. However, daydreaming isn't the same as lucid dreaming. I want to take my dreaming one step further.
I'm a nanny for my sister. I will actually be moving in about a month or so. Which saddens me now that I have found this site. I may not be able to have access to a computer for a while. I'm not sure, so please, be patient with me. I'm undergoing many changes in my life and relocation is one of them.
I would like to throw out in the open something about myself because I feel in this forum people will not judge me(I have a horrible problem with being judged by others in a negative way and sometimes with being honest. Not that I lie, I just leave out certain details about my life because like I said, I have a horrible fear of being judged. >_<). I will probably refer to certain people(most likely in my dreams, and I want to be comfortable with explaining who they are to me). One of them I would like to explain to you who she is so you have a better understanding of the relationship we have so you can also better understand me. I'm currently in a relationship of 15 months(my longest relationship prior to this one was 2 months, and it was actually with the same person a few years back) with an amazing person. Her name is Amber, and she is the single most important person in my life. She's my rock, my moon and my everything *starts sobbing* LOL. I hope that homosexuality/bi-sexuality, isn't a problem here(I have a strong feeling it isn't *phew*). I'm very shy when it comes to my sexuality because I am constantly judged for it. Not in a "boo I hate gays" kind of way. They look at me and my girlfriend and instead of seeing a loving couple, completely taken by eachother, they see a couple of girls seeking attention from others, mainly males. This is most definitely not true. And it frustrated me to no end, so as a result of that we are very private people when it comes to our relationship. PDA is always at a minimum because a) we do not like that type of attention from others and B) we do not like making other people uncomfortable. ie: family member, friends(making them a third wheel ect). I am very proud of the person I am, and I'm very proud of my sexuality. You will never catch me parading around town with rainbows and naked women on my clothing, telling the world how gay I am with my girlfriend. Like I said, I am very shy, but proud of my sexuality nonetheless.
I'm a extremely friendly person, and I enjoy good conversations. I love to learn new things and just for the record I love Enya. LOL *is listening to her right now* I like to think I have a decent sense of humor, but sometimes I can come off as 'annoying'. I don't mean too, I'm just a chatterbox who is overly friendly.
I guess that's enough for now. Thank you to everyone for their time, I hope to become a great addition to this already great family & friends. I'm a bit shy, and even though I am very opinionated I will withhold my opinion, once again my fear of being judged kicks in. It's a hard habit to break, but hopefully I will overcome that fear, at least here. It'll be nice to have a place to go to and be 100% comfortable, with myself and others.
So once again, thank you to everyone. Thanks in advanced to everyone who will help guide me on my journey. Hugs are free for everyone! *runs towards you all, arms spread*
EDIT: Oh, I'd like to add that if anyone has any questions(I guess about me. Even ones that aren't about me, ask them anyway! ), please don't hesitate to ask. I find that answering questions is a lot easier than introducing or explaing/giving details about me and my life(which seems like a lie since I have this big introduction right above me. LOL).
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