A'hoy a'hoy,

I thank anyone that reads this, for I know it looks like a lot.

Recently in the past two to three weeks, I have finally brought my mental or physical problem to the professionals. The information and details within my tests and discussions with these people have brought much interest to sleeping stages, and thus, I searched for it on the internet, and found this website.

Ergo, I hope that the following will be read by anyone on here and that your feedback may be of some support or advice I may greatly be able to use.

The Diagnosis

In the future, I will soon be put through tremendous amounts of tests. Blood tests, phsycials, and possibly even a cat scan. Apparently I have major symptons for:

- A physical disorder, such as: enimiac, brain tumour, or some other deficiency
- Schichzophrenia
- A major sleep disorder
- Unexplained
- etc.

If the tests all prove that I'm phsycially prefectly healthy, then I will be sent to counselling.

The Problem

I've been suffering from day hallucinations for a long period of time in my life and recently they have become more frequent. While conscious, I will have these occurences of hallucinations.. I'm not sure how else to describe them. Most of the time, I will pass out when it happens, sometimes, I just vividly see it, like intense day dreamings. It feels like instense deja vu and a dream mixed together.

Visions I have seen vary completely, however never involve myself. I've only seen things from a vantage point to whatever the vision was. In the last month, I recall having around 8 hallucinations. In the past, it would only be about 1 every 5 months or so.

Whenever a moment like this happens, I also feel a sharp feeling in my left temporal lobe (where your brain processes images along with many other related things) It is not painful, simply a sharp feeling, like an itch, but inside. This indicated them that it may be something physical.

Nothing in life has grown in correlation to these occurences. The closest thing I can feel in closest correlation, are my beliefs. Others say that it is stress in life cause by the amount of bad luck I've been having...

I try to look past that.. this problem I've been having for a long time... and I'm not sure what the end result will be.. depression, is a side result..

How Does This Relate To Lucid Dreaming?

The other possible catalyst for these hallucinations is the fact that I have been having lucid dreams for the entirity of my life. I love these dreams and control them to do whatever I wish, just like all of you.

However, I have been repeatively awakening within the real world and believing it to still be the lucid dream. After reading this website, the "reality checks" is what would seem the to be the best suggestion, however.. I have tried this, and I day hallucinate the reality check the be false (so I'm told).

The fact that I'm aware of this, however, is the sympton for schitzophrenia.

My Lucid Dreaming

My dreams during sleep often portray completely random and abstract things. When in control of it, it is hard to comprehend what is going on and keep lucidity (this also happens in reality with me, thus the drug prescriptions).

Some examples are:

- I created a long stretch of an empty street, with many street lights, and focused upon each streetlights beam of illumination.. and then thanking the light before moving on
- I helped.. something, create a door, and opening it revealed a sky of stars
- Me and another being created a planet
- I manipulated the Earths atmosphere to spin as fast as possible, heal itself.. then implode

My Day Hallucinations

As this is theorised to be confusing lucid dreaming with reality, my self-awareness of this perpetuates the symptons for schitzophrenia and further, unfortunately, induces further day hallucinations.. so believed.

My day hallucinations almost NEVER relate to myself. Examples:

Catalyst:
- I hugged a friend of mine (no faint)
Hallucination:
- Seeing her cry profusely

Catalyst:
- Shaking a mans hand I trained with at a previous job (fainted)
Hallucination:
- A man walking into the job room with a rifle and unloading a fierce burst into everyone

Catalyst:
- Focusing intently upon a busy intersection(fainted)
Hallucination:
- Seeing the intersection carpet bombed, shrapnel and cars attempting to fly out of the mushroom cloud but eventually enveloped into it

Catalyst: (this is my first hallucination that I can remember, when I was 8 years old)
- Watching a movie with family, I zoned out away from the movie and focused on the wall.. listenining intently..
Hallucination(?):
- Hearing a voice whisper to me a date in the future

My Thanks To You

For anyone that took the time to read all of this, my great thanks to you and respects. I appreciate any feedback and your patronage is greatly appreciated in my current life situation.

Thank you,
~ Michael : O'nus[/i]