Thread: Using LDs to help with 'issues'...

Hey. I don't know what more to say than that. As you may have seen, I am new...but not really. I was on here about two, three years ago now, but lost interest in luciding when school got a bit intense. Now I'm back...to deal with some 'issues' I've been having lately.

This may sound really strange, but I think that lucids will help me with this. For the past maybe three, four months, I feel like I've been kinda in a daze. This year has already been very stressful for me, a second semester high school junior. I'm overloading with AP classes (6 out of the 8 classes I have, and no free blocks) and also cramming in the college work (already...). I wouldn't have any problems with it but lately there has been a lot more stress on me, and I'm starting to feel it and recognize this "daze" I'm in.

If you read the somewhat emo signature, you might see what most of the daze is. It's really true: I have no sense of time anymore. I used to be really good about it, but my sense of time has been declining rapidly and is now virtually nonexistent. I can barely distinguish the days from each other. A Monday feels like a Friday, the weekend doesn't feel like anything special. I didn't get excited when the holidays came around, or when I celebrated my birthday just last week. There's just no special feeling to the days.

I'm also having horrible trouble with my memory, which is quite hilarious on one end. Things from long ago I can remember just barely, details slip out of my head easily. My short-term memory has died. I can't remember what I ate for dinner last night, what homework assignment I was just given ten minutes ago, or what my good friend told me five seconds ago. It's not that I'm not paying attention, I hear it, and after thinking or being reminded of it, I remember. But it's almost like I can't access the memory freely anymore.

I've kinda been ignoring this issue for a while, thinking it would go away after Winter Break was over, or after my birthday, or seeing my boyfriend for the first time in a month. But huge, happy, and wonderful things happened to me, and maybe broke me out of the daze for a few hours, but when things went by it all felt the same again. I once attributed this to being a teenager, or just having too high of an IQ (149, and it's not that useful). However I think it's either a stress overload or just a developed insensitivity to reality or the world. Seeing as my mom doesn't think the same way, and won't let me go to a psychiatrist, I turn to myself and my wonderful writer's imagination and I'm diving into the LD scheme of things again.

I chose lucid dreaming because back when I was thirteen and fourteen, and into it, I had a few spectacular, but short, lucid dreams. I have my dream journals from back then and completely remember those dreams I wrote down. And looking back on those dreams I can see things I couldn't see before, little signs that showed just how I was feeling. I was so excited for it; maybe I'm hoping a little bit of that will rub off on me and clear the daze until I get a true lucid.

I think a lucid will help me distinguish reality from the dream world, letting me do something spectacular that will make me feel accomplished and excited once again, and maybe help break this daze, and get me back into the scheme of things again.

Thanks for reading. :3 For those of you who didn't read, see below.

tl;dr: See user title and signature. My brain feels messed up, so now I'm in LDs again. Hey.

~hyperangel

Lucid dreaming can help with all that. =)

By preparing to lucid dream, you will learn to become more aware of your surroundings, and in turn more appreciative of life. By building up your dream recall, your memory will improve in other areas as well.

Hey, it's tough being in Advanced Placement land. Trust me; I've been there. Many a night was spent under the merciless rule of essays and projects instead of in my comfortable bed, partially due to the nasty habit of procrastination... Anyway, I suggest to slow down! Take a breather every now and then. Collect yourself with a couple deep breaths between classes (and during homework completion). It sounds bogus, but it helps the mind to focus and let go of stress. Also, do you have block schedule? If so, consider yourself lucky! (In the middle of my high school career, I went from the luxury of four classes a day to seven or eight--never a studyhall!).

A writer's imagination, eh? Sounds familiar. Keep writing, if you can find the time. Expression helps to expand the imagination as well as relieve stress. Writing will have the same beneficial effects as lucid dreaming; it'll make you more aware of what's around you, as well as how to value it.

As for the daze itself, I feel it's the byproduct of a tight schedule. Do you participate in any sport, whether it be school-organized or recreational? Exercise does wonders for the mood, as well as overall health. Not much else I suggest here, except for remembering to smell the roses every once and a while. Savor each bite of food you eat, feel the rhythm of the music you listen to, pay attention to your family. It's the small stuff that makes life grand.

Welcome to Dreamviews, and good luck!

back to DreamViews, hyperangel! Sounds like you have a lot going on right now. I wouldn't add any additional stress to my life if I were you, but starting your dream journal up again might not be a bad idea, since you enjoyed that before.

I think that trying to practice a lot of techniques that take time and sleep away from your already busy schedule might not be the best idea right now. However, maybe just journalling and thinking about dreaming a little when you have time might trigger a lucid.

I'm a huge writer...wrote a ten-chapter short story a few years back, and I'm just finishing up my novel that I want to get published (hopefully before I graduate, lols) .

XD I do no sports, not yet. PE starts for me tomorrow, but today I decided to get into the habit of taking a 30-minute walk around the block. I took lots of pictures of flowers and stuff. Nice.

I probably won't try for lucids for at least a week or two, just so I get a solid dream schedule and journal back up and running. Then I'm going to try DILDs, as I've never really been good at WILD-ing. WBTB isn't the best idea, as I need the most sleep I can get, so I'll just try identifying my dream signs and then trying to put it into a lucid context, like last time. And hopefully my mind has matured so much more, and is much more open to the idea of lucids. :3

Thanks for the welcome. <3