Thread: New and curious

Hi,

I'm not sure if you're interested in knowing anything about me so I'll keep the introduction short for now. If you need information to answer my questions, or want to know stuff out of curiousity, feel free to ask. English isn't my first language, and I'm not really a good writer.

I don't know if what I'm reading about on these forums is what I've experienced myself, but the "DILD" seems to be something I could identify with.

My "dreamstory" starts when I was young, like 7 to about 10 years old. I was having nightmares almost every night, for no apparent reason. I'm not sure why I remember all this so clearly, but I do. In one of my nightmares I became aware of it as a dream. At first I didn't know how to deal with it, because all I wanted was to wake up. Then in a dream I tried crossing my eyes and wham I woke up. I used this technique in all my bad dreams after that. This consciousness started happening in my other dreams as well, where I didn't use the awareness to wake up but to alter the dreams into something fun. Many of the times though, the dream would turn bad and go into a nightmare. I would immediately know when it turned, it was like the mood of the dream was flipped with a switch. I crossed my eyes and poof I was safe, all good. Then in one of the many dreams where I realized the dream was going bad something changed. I was hanging out with one of my friends in his house when darkness fell over everything and I realized it was time to get the hell out. I actually told my friend in the dream "this is only a dream and I'm gonna disappear now". I then started crossing my eyes, but instead of waking up I started flying. No good, because the mood of the dream was still of a nightmare. I figured I had to try something else, and most likely with my eyes. After trying to blink and like pinch my arm and stuff I just forced my eyes open all I could, and it worked, I was home safe in my bed. After that I had to use this technique to awaken. This awareness disappeared after a couple of years. I've never been able to come to the same realization in my dreams. Boy do I wish I could

Anyway, this story isn't really what I'm curious about first of all. I hope it could be of entertainment to someone here Of course it would be awesome to be able to learn to become aware of the dream while in it, but I'm currently being haunted by a different kind of dream. This is where I could use some ideas and thoughts from you.

I wake up, very often stressed, as in my brain is telling me something is going on, I have to do something, something is wrong etc. It's usually nothing really scary, but it happens. I don't wake up from a dream as I can remember. The most recent "dream" happened last night when I was sure my window just over my bed was about to fall in on top of me. So I got up from bed, pulled up the blinds and started holding the window in place. I then realized that I couldn't stand there all night so I lay back down while having one hand on the window. I woke up a little after, my hand still partly up the window, and went to the toilet. When I got back my head had cleared a little so I shrugged and pulled the blinds back down. Other incidents are I wake up and think my sheets needs to be put in a certain position, at certain intervals, so I really work on getting it done right. It can go on for minutes, and I'm really trying hard to make it. The other night I got up from bed, went over to one corner of my room and repeated "orange" like 20 times before realizing I was an idiot and got back to bed. All this seems like half dream half awake "zones". It often brings half hallucinations, like the patterns on my pillow looks like some animal lying besides me, which of course can scare the living shit out of me. Sometimes I see shadows as a lot more than shadows, and its extremely real.

These kind of dreams started happening to me about 5 or 6 years ago. But it's only the last 2 years or so they have started happening so frequently it's bothering me.

Do any of you have similar experiences, or any idea what might cause this weird behaviour? I'd love to get help dealing with this, so in case you can't, a referral would also be much appreciated.