Well I'm 16.

I live in quite a large house, and here I am in my room all alone at 00:20 and even now if I hear a slight sound I'd get up and check, im always like this.

I've had sleep paralysis before multiple times and its freaked me out.

When I'm going to bed, and im saying "i will remember to recognise I am dreaming'", even if I hear that slight noise I look quickly, and I really want to lucid dream so bad, but im incredibly scared

Like Ill end up outside in the night sky, and it'll seem like 100% real and I'd be scared, and see something in this tht'll frighten me even more