Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

This Tuesday i gotta get some dental work and stuff done, getting spacers in my teeth and shit >__> molds, xrays, etc. I really am nervous.

Originally Posted by Erii

This Tuesday i gotta get some dental work and stuff done, getting spacers in my teeth and shit >__> molds, xrays, etc. I really am nervous.

Chin up errr
At least your dentist does something, here in the UK I get next to nothing because my teeth aren't 'bad' enough.

I hate getting work done on my teeth ;_; and ahh in the past they never even said anything that I would need work done on them (braces etc), except just this year. I won't need them for that long because my teeth aren't terrible, but it really urks me because most people get braces on when they're like 2 :<

I was planning to get my laundry done and over with today, but the only thing that kept me back was not having change in quarters, dimes, nickels, etc. So I had to go to a CHASE ATM to withdraw 20 bucks (and fucking $3.00 mother freaking dollars is their fee for withdrawals).

The problem is, the machine doesn't give $10, the least is $20, and I didn't want to put $20 in the change machine at the run-down (but really cheap) laundromat next to an Asian Restaurant because the last time I did that, I barely noticed that it took a while for it to give me another $10 in quarters, and thankfully a lady caught that and gave me my quarters.

And I also didn't want to use up my $100 I got as a good luck gift (since I'm using it to subtract off any other unnecessary spending), so I decided to use the $20 to get some change back by buying Sweet and Sour Chicken at the Asian Restaurant conveniently located next to said laundromat.

I go in the restaurant, there's this cute Caucasian girl looking at me as she's eating with mostly guys, and by that, it's safe to assume that she had her boyfriend sitting next to her.

She did one of those looks most females I see with a boyfriend do to me. She quickly glances over when her boyfriend isn't looking and just stares at me lol. I'm like "derp" and turn my head back to the lady at the cash register ordering my meal.

When the lady calls one of the staff, who is eating, I could already tell this fucker was going to try and half-ass the cooking so he can go back to eating (and the place isn't even that busy, in fact, it's understaffed most of the time, but at the same time it doesn't NEED any more waiters/staff members; but thankfully the guy is a really good cook at making Sweet and Sour Chicken). So I sit down to wait for my meal, and eventually the girl and her boy group go up to pay the meal they had, and I was sitting on the chair to wait for my meal, so it's close to the register.

Then I do one of those quick glances (just a reflex we all have), but when I do, my eyes immediately look at the girl's face again. God damn it, it's like she has a magnetic force and my eyes are susceptible to her fucking cuteness.

And I know in the back of her head she tried to look at me again, but she kept her posture and was just listening to one of her friends or whatever. Really? Really? Fucking Really? I thought if you had a relationship with someone, you should at least have the dignity to not look at other people in a slutty way god fucking damn it. I mean everyone looks at people, it's natural, but she did it in a way that made it apparent that she could care less about the boyfriend she had (and god was she fucking cute, I think she's just waiting for someone better to be honest, no way someone that cute settles for less)....

Finally got my meal, the cooker comes up to me to give me my take-out and says "Here you go buddy." But he said it in a non-agressive rushed voice because he probably wants to finish his meal before it gets cold. I just use the pretentious facade of kindness and say "Thank you."

Now I'm here, all stuffed up because I had to find some way get some change, and I couldn't go to the other stores, because they were most likely closed on Sunday, and I'm not going to ride my bicycle at a longer distance to find that out.

Now my stomach is fucking full, I regret eating this Sweet and Sour Chicken (but god damn it's sooo fucking good), and now I'm too lazy to do the laundry, so I'm going to do it Monday, but I have a feeling I might put it off until next week since I have a lot of clean clothes to use anyway.

Sigh....fuck, the whole "living alone to try and keep up with the ideal of saving virginity for marriage because of vague reasoning in my head telling me to not go after a girl just yet and try to have sex with female demons in my dreams instead for greater satisfaction" is REALLY starting to annoy me, but man does it feel sooooo good being lonely and trying to induce these sexual dreams that no one in waking life will know about but ME, MYSELF, and I.

It feels fucking kinky doing this silent treatment shit on myself, in fact I'm compelling myself to go more into the abyss and just indulge myself into a potential Succubus Dream Guide.

It's a necessary evil, and goood it feels so good and sooo wrong at the same time because I know that when that happens, I'll start to lose interest building human interaction like making friends, etc. But I'm already content with what I have now. I don't know, it's like a Spiritual awakening, but also an invitation to depravity and insanity as I create more facades to cope with reality as I try to have the fucking time of my life remembering my dreams and hopefully having lewd lucid sex dreams with female demons.

And I'm a Christian, oh the hypocrisy, but I accept my wickedness....I'm one of those Christians who just signed "I agree to the Terms and Conditions." And that's because I keep using the fact that I almost died twice in situations where I thought I had no chance as my personal scapegoat to make such hypocrisy apparent in my life while concealing it from the public.

FUCK!!!

And lol, this lady I added on Facebook (I'm not into the drama mind you, it's just weird how she said this to me) she asks if I know who she is, and that it's happy to see me...

Great, another person from Guyana is going to stalk me....I hate that country, I hate being born there, it's a failure, a pathetic show of dipshits.

And these videos should help some people here have some kind of temporary solace as we all continue with the bullshit we let into our lives.

I just finished watching Contagion. That movie's so sad.

One of my friends on Facebook told the guy I like that I like him.

That reminded me to go on Facebook lol

This is what I get from a girl

for Valentines application ♥
Are You Cute : yes
Best feature : idk lol
Kiss Or Diss :diss
Date or Pass :pass
Honest Rate : 7
Approved or Denied : approved


She's Lesbian, so I don't blame her, but come on man, why wouldn't you want to date me? It's not as if I have chloroform and a tissue handy with me...sigh...I know these women are lying when they do these types of statuses.'

They do it to make themselves (both guy and women mind you) look more independent.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

She's Lesbian, so I don't blame her, but come on man, why wouldn't you want to date me? It's not as if I have chloroform and a tissue handy with me...sigh...I know these women are lying when they do these types of statuses.

Someone on facebook, being partially-truthful?! WHOA. (Sorry about the sarcasm.)

Facebook disgusts me sometimes... then there are those "games" that females play, trying to raise awareness for something or other, but they never tell me what they are raising awareness for... A bit counter-productive eh?

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

She's Lesbian, so I don't blame her, but come on man, why wouldn't you want to date me? It's not as if I have chloroform and a tissue handy with me...sigh...I know these women are lying when they do these types of statuses.'

You say she's a lesbian, and then you ask these questions.

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

Someone on facebook, being partially-truthful?! WHOA. (Sorry about the sarcasm.)

Facebook disgusts me sometimes... then there are those "games" that females play, trying to raise awareness for something or other, but they never tell me what they are raising awareness for... A bit counter-productive eh?

lol don't worry about the sarcasm, I never take Facebook seriously....it's like trying to become a billionaire by selling rocks there.

Lol, she only knew me from an English AP class one time, so she was basically lying to me lol. Anyway, yes EXACTLY.

I know a few people who want to spam "Oh my god canz you guys pl0x0rs read my essay 4 me 2 g3T fr33 m00nies and schl0rships pl0xors?"

And then there are the ones that say "Bad guys aren't good and Good guys aren't good enough." Which makes me speculate what in the hell was the purpose of going with guys if there can't even be a middle man.

And then there are the ones that say "Guys are allll savages.. SMH" and all that bullshit, and like 2598253925 girls like it.

Then when I counter-argue with those statuses once in a while (and it's so funny to see them contradict what they say and go like "oh").
Then they brag about being all "HAPPY and the world should be HAPPY AND FREE AND KIND TO EACH OTHER AND WE SHIT RAINBOWS TEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEH" when it's obvious these fucks are just using it hide that they're sad inside.

And don't me started on the "TBH" statuses...those are hilarious it almost makes me want to cut my private parts off. And then there's the man/girl who posts statuses about how everyone should pick up a book and read and learn something for once when they use a FUCKING KINDLE
AND ESPECIALLY "A REAL FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T TALK BEHIND YOUR BACK."

You can always get a pet dog or a sex slave for all I care, you can't expect friends to not talk about you. I mean...come on...

Sigh....I'm glad I don't friend a lot of people on Facebook, I would be falling for the same stupidity they're into.

EDIT: Alyzarin, lol a date as in going to the movies or something, nothing wrong if I date lesbians lol. I know, it sounds weird, but yeah, I'm the type of guy that lesbians probably are going ask to go out with if they're bored because I'm socially oblivious with human relationships.

Pair me up with a girl, no matter what her preferences are, I'll just be a their little pet, it gives me more insight on them since they tend to reveal a little too much about themselves to me.

The last girl I hanged out with said that I'm not the type of person to worry about what girls think about me trying to get their vaginas...I almost wanted to laugh, but I couldn't, otherwise she might've kicked me out of the car...but really, I don't like vagina that much to just go for a girl just for that.

In fact, my brain just goes blank and I'm wondering what I'm doing with this person and start dreaming about things I could do with other people instead :/

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

And then there's the man/girl who posts statuses about how everyone should pick up a book and read and learn something for once when they use a FUCKING KINDLE

Don't be a Kindle hater! Kindles are just less-practical versions of books! Maybe they ARE learning (I do not own a Kindle, nor do I plan on owning one in the foreseeable future. I'm just sticking up for the Kindlers.)

People on Facebook are outrageously idiotic. But most of my friends are smart people... (I keep the occasional sillyhead for entertainment/conversation.)

RANT: Why can't people talk about controversial things? No one ever wants to talk about controversial things. "IT'S A TOUCHY SUBJECT!" ... Umm. OK. But I like talking about touchy subjects to know what people think!

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

And then there are the ones that say "Guys are allll savages.. SMH" and all that bullshit, and like 2598253925 girls like it.

That's because guys are all savages. (Kidding! )

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

Pair me up with a girl, no matter what her preferences are, I'll just be a their little pet, it gives me more insight on them since they tend to reveal a little too much about themselves to me.

Well that just makes me paranoid. You probably wouldn't know it from this forum, but off the 'net I'm usually afraid of revealing much of myself to people.

[complain]I hate Sundays because I'm always depressed because i have to go to school/start life again for 5 days. I wish I didn't have such bad social anxiety to make me the way I am. I hate having to fear fainting from anxiety when I accidentally forget to take a dose of my medication.

Sundays suck.
[/complain]

Ahhh fuck... I'm getting down again. sitting here with a beer and getting that sense of worthlessness again. bah, this blows.


On a separate note, IRC is boring

Originally Posted by OldSparta

Ahhh fuck... I'm getting down again. sitting here with a beer and getting that sense of worthlessness again. bah, this blows.


On a separate note, IRC is boring

Feel better, OldSparta! I'm regretting taking those benzos, headaches and chest tightness. >_<

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Feel better, OldSparta! I'm regretting taking those benzos, headaches and chest tightness. >_<

That's not good O.o might be the beer though :/

EDIT: Ok I am retarded. I guess those beer was two days ago :/ Might wanna think about not drinking and taking those again. Trust the advice from the drunk, depressed guy!

Originally Posted by OldSparta

That's not good O.o might be the beer though :/

It's both, I get withdrawals from taking GABA drugs. It probably wouldn't have been quite as bad if I had stayed away from those beers, though.

So... I got curious and tried cutting myself... Umm Ow. Why the hell would people do this willingly. That fucking hurt.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

It's both, I get withdrawals from taking GABA drugs. It probably wouldn't have been quite as bad if I had stayed away from those beers, though.

More than likely

EDIT: I'm not a cutter. I'm just a curious idiot.

Originally Posted by OldSparta

So... I got curious and tried cutting myself... Umm Ow. Why the hell would people do this willingly. That fucking hurt.

For a variety of reasons. Usually not because they're bored and want to see if it feels good, though. Lol.

Well, I know it's not suppose to feel good But like... It still hurts. No endorphins or anything.

Well I don't ever cut myself or do anything really serious because I don't want to be found out, but for me it's because the pain is distracting from depression and also when I'm that depressed I don't like myself so I like the thought of hurting myself. :/

Well, I'm depressed, but this isn't helping. I'm now depressed-ish and stinging like a paper-cut with vinegar. then again, I have very... Mild(?) Depression. might be easier to deal with if the depressing was very bad.

Well, I mean, I don't think you should really be too bummed that you're not to the point of getting something out of hurting yourself lol. I would imagine that it regularly takes a good deal of depression to get started. Back when I had it really bad, on my depressed days I wouldn't eat or talk to anyone or even really move, I'd just stare at a wall and think about how suicide would make things so much easier. Those were the times when I'd want to hurt myself and stuff like that, though I do occasionally still have urges to but it doesn't get quite that bad anymore.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Well, I mean, I don't think you should really be too bummed that you're not to the point of getting something out of hurting yourself lol. I would imagine that it regularly takes a good deal of depression to get started. Back when I had it really bad, on my depressed days I wouldn't eat or talk to anyone or even really move, I'd just stare at a wall and think about how suicide would make things so much easier. Those were the times when I'd want to hurt myself and stuff like that, though I do occasionally still have urges to but it doesn't get quite that bad anymore.

Ah, well, glad I'm not that far. Then again, like I said, I just got curious, lol. And it's good you never did... well. commit to suicide. You're a nice person