Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Taosaur

So, canceling out my windfall, I've discovered my new-ish roommate is a reverse-acclimater. For the past 2-3 months, he's been keeping his room 80+ degrees with an electric space heater. Something should have clicked from the fact that he's never wearing more than a wife beater around the house. I include utilities in his rent, and didn't catch it until now, so I'm kind of back and forth on whether to ask him to kick in extra on the bills. I figured from the start that I'd come out ahead in some months and behind in others.

We've taken measures to rein it in (cranking the furnace, which is cheaper with my gas plan, but less comfortable for me), but the electric bill is already at least $100 higher than it needed to be :/

I could see a 14-year-old girl thinking it's okay to maintain tank-top temperatures in December, but a dude my age? C'mon.

Wow.... what a moron.
My brother does the same thing, although he doesn't put it up to 26, only 20-21 or something.
He says "I should be able to not wear a jumper if I feel like it!"
Well guess what? You can't bitch! Coz the planet ain't gonna fuckin allow it!

Seriously....It's about then that I figured out there's no way we're gonna stop climate change
with idiots like that in the world.


And congrats you two for trying to curb your alcoholism.

Ew I gotta go to the orthodontist Monday and Tuesday for consultations
*sulk*
And this Friday, Monday and Tuesday are all finals.
Ew
.____________.

Good luck!

I now have a purple wine-stain on my lip that won't come off... I've tried soap. It just doesn't seem like it will come off. I'm glad I don't have school anytime soon.

The morning after I've drunk a lot I always feel like an omelet so badly, so I'm going to make one.

Lol, I've seen that red wine stain way too many times. Although it's not really purple.... that's odd.

The wine is more purple than red, so it makes sense. Is the red wine you drink actually red?

Originally Posted by Dianeva

The wine is more purple than red, so it makes sense. Is the red wine you drink actually red?

Well white wine isn't exactly white either...

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I now have a purple wine-stain on my lip that won't come off... I've tried soap. It just doesn't seem like it will come off. I'm glad I don't have school anytime soon.

The morning after I've drunk a lot I always feel like an omelet so badly, so I'm going to make one.

Time to put on some crazy purple lipstick..

I was preparing for my next exam with a friend earlier today, and I discovered somthing... It's a fucking difficult subject. It's super interesting and fun and everything, but I hardly manage to solve any of the excersises... This is going to be very tiring.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

'tis was

My daughter had me near tears again. I really hate those get-togethers. She was putting me down for my clothes and my being 8 minutes late. I could tell right away how angry and upset she was, then she refused to get our picture taken.
When we sat down she commented that I looked frustrated and I said I was- that I was happy to be seeing her, then she turned around and jumped down my throat for no good reason.

Then I had to listen to her apologize for the next couple of hours lol.
She's upset with the kids at the facility because they're telling staff that she's trying to sell them her meds and such. She's been getting written up though there's no proof about any of it.
She also told me that my other daughter had an MDT ("Court") today and I will be SO MAD if she did and no one bothered to tell me. I think her source was mistaken though, because her brother had one.

I don't even know.................

Depending on how adventurous I feel tomorrow, I'll either ask hubby for some extra money or I'll pawn my DSi or iPad to hold us over until Sunday. We ate way too much fast food this week and now we're paying for it because there's no money left and we still need food and smokes for a few days. Live and learn, I guess. Well, I don't know if I'll ever actually "learn"

Originally Posted by Dianeva

The wine is more purple than red, so it makes sense. Is the red wine you drink actually red?

Ummmm, yes. lol

Did you get passion pop or something?

BlahBlahBlahLUCIDDREAMloltrollol

I've been speculating on whether or not I should have the mentality of a perfectionist. I used it for a while during High School, but it caused unnecessary stress, but it forced me to excel, to make myself look overqualified compared to the rest, at least that's what my ego would like to think.

I'm starting to think that when I do master lucid dreaming, hopefully I can find things that I'm really good at that I never bothered to analyzed. Sometimes I think I'm just lucky most of the time to be able to do certain things, I keep degrading my self-esteem not because I feel depressed, it's because I want to become better. You can't become better if you're full of yourself.

I've been trying to practice humility almost naturally nowadays. There's always someone better, but I'm starting to think that is just society's way of creating some invisible entity that is always growing more exponentially than I am. That makes me feel inferior. When I feel I did something good, it sickens me to have to conform back to that invisible tangent that gives me a good slap in the face and makes me think that this is nothing compared to those better than you.

I hate it, but I don't want to become the best, yet I want to become good enough to be considered the best, we all do don't we? I want to be the best not because of others, it's because I want to feel content and at solace of my abilities as a human being. We can become anything, but we can't become everything. But it's that hedonistic demeanor in me that constantly over-analyzes things that forces me to distort reality, like learning to make myself distant from my parents.

It's not because I want to, but I feel it's necessary if I'm going to survive long enough here. I can't become attached to them for too long, despite of the universal acceptance that our families will always be there for us. I'm starting to think that I can make a family with myself now, my subconscious, everything.

Is this the reason people rely on others so much? Because they validate a projection that they lack and need? What if people realized that lucid dreaming could be a way to be at peace with yourself instead of others doing part of it for you?

I think I know the reason why I don't really get along with most people. I've grown accustomed to not thinking about petty things like who made the best grade on an exam or what story or news someone liked. I just don't want those types of distractions, because it's going to prevent me from becoming better. But at the same time, I know I'll regret not conforming myself into the smallest things in life that would make me human instead of some philosophical...but why do we have to be bothered with that if we're all here just to make something of ourselves?

I see it everyday, my father, he tries to incorporate realistic and economic perspectives in the things that I do. Always trying to be analytical when he doesn't realize that I should be able to make decisions for myself. Sure I'll always be a child to him, but it's that condescending bullshit he gives me that makes me want to become much superior than he is. But when I do that, should I ever do that, I'm afraid he'll think that I know everything...which is a pretty lame excuse considering a parent spends so much time trying to make an adult, only to realize that they will inevitably become superior than their parents...

It has to be that way because there's no point making a child who's just going to live like shit. I think he thinks I am shit because I don't talk to him that much. He barely knows the accomplishments I've made in my life, the things that makes me stand out compared to others. It's my competence in wanting to learn and become more aware and more intelligent, not just on specific things, but overall.

It pains me to see a parent think their child doesn't know much in the world, and when we try to, they try to regain their authority by saying that we must know everything. Fucking bullshit, I guess the only way you can't talk shit to anyone anymore is when they're dead.

What really pisses me off the most is that when our parents' time comes, everything we've said in order to make ourselves think they're useless is going to come back and bite us in the ass.

I don't think I'll be ready should their time comes, especially my mother, because I keep taking for granted on how much she cares for me, even if she does get worried too much about my safety (I don't really do anything serious or dangerous).

I just don't like the small things in life anymore, at least not in this period of life where I'm trying to find out who I can become. I've become too analytical, just like my father....I guess History repeats itself subjectively...and that really makes me mad.

Originally Posted by tommo

And congrats you two for trying to curb your alcoholism.

Quitters

Originally Posted by tommo

Ummmm, yes. lol

Did you get passion pop or something?

I drank it all.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I think I'm going to try to be sober for a while too.

As much as I like to drink, It's not excatly helping me deal with any of my stress. I WAS suppose to be programming for the past hour, but I was on uberhumor laughing my ass off. That hour helped more for dealing with stress than alcohol has ever done.


Also this is getting stupid expensive (My money is flying away! )

EDIT: Yeah, I'm talking my "#DV's resident Alcoholic" thing off my sig.

lol, yeah, maybe if I lived in the US the money wouldn't matter much. But alcohol is way too expensive here.

I've got my final exam in 7 hours and I haven't studied so I'll be cramming all night. Self-sabotaging behaviour ftl.

Also, I've been a little too horny these past few days. sex drive, y u no slow down?

Originally Posted by Dianeva

lol, yeah, maybe if I lived in the US the money wouldn't matter much. But alcohol is way too expensive here.

It just hurts to see you say that... Alcohol is cheap in Canada, compared to Norway...

I woke up with a bell-ringer migraine this morning. I'm half cross-eyed and have to close one eye to read text. Driving to work is not an option at the moment... FML

Sorry to hear that anderj. I also have a headache now but I owe it to the irritation on this nasty Friday.
Luckily the weekednd has started for me already and I'll celebrate this fact with some vodka and black currant juice later. Just don't feel like going out this evening.

Gavin, good luck on the exam, you'll cope with it. Zhaylin, I hope hubby was in a proper mood and gave you the money.

Originally Posted by khh

It just hurts to see you say that... Alcohol is cheap in Canada, compared to Norway...

40oz in Canada is, give take, $40. A 40oz in the US is, if I remember right, is roughly $20. Now here is the saddest part. Gibsons Whiskey, is made like... 4-5 hours from where I live. It's around $40. Ok, it's got to pass customs, be shipped all over the USA, and still, it's LESS than if I were to buy it directly form the company itself.

I decided to take a quick half-hour nap last night and ended up sleeping in. I've got less than two hours to study, I doubt I'll be able to score 83% now. I had my alarm clock set and everything, I don't even remember turning it off. >_<

EDIT: Nvm, I have an hour and a half to get ready for school and get to class, that leaves me with just over an hour to study. My best bet is to do well on the multiple choice portion and somehow pull off a fluke on the written. ffs

EDIT 2: And here I am on DV when I should be studying... What the fuck is wrong with me?

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I've got my final exam in 7 hours and I haven't studied so I'll be cramming all night. Self-sabotaging behaviour ftl.

Also, I've been a little too horny these past few days. sex drive, y u no slow down?

I know the feeling, I've been friends with Baby Oil a bit too much now.