Hiting the road

**labyrint** · 12-23-2011 11:30 PM

I've been spending this fall mostly meditating my life and practicing dreaming since I turned 30 years at septemper and didn't like a bit what my friends were thinking that should mean. Life after 30 they had in mind was nothing like I felt on that moment nor how I was seeing my future could be like. So I started to work on introspection and ask myself what do I want, wdi need, hope and dream of. I started recalling bits and pieces of my past, and what I've dreamed then. Call this 30 years crisis if you like. I call it stopping for a while.

I happen to had the luxury and opportunity of not having any responsibilities that disturbed me in during that time. It had been my top priority for four months now. I don't force you to believe in this, but during this time I've had many days (or more than 12 hour wake cycles

) that seemed to last for week or so. In a matter of how many emotions, memories and thoughts flowed through me in that time. Sometimes time was very slow. Sometimes I got deep within my experience that I started to use word shared dreaming describing the phenomenion if I was able to really communicate with someone. That's because many days felt very in-my-dream-like, ppl more like DSs and even the illusion of being able to share this deep quest I was experiencing with someone was best described with word shared dreaming. Some people struck themself out of the DC status, and prooved to me that they can share borders of the proverbial quicksand I was in.

I've also been blessed to in perfect enviroment for this kind of sinking. I live in nice 3 floor commune with some incredible people, who have supported me while I was doing this. Even semi-incorporated my time sense and view that I was dreaming during that time. Hurraye for the beautifull free minded people...

OK, but so much for the past months. Now I'm more awake in the-participating-in-others-waking-life-sense. I've also figured out what are the top things I wan't to do and face.

So I'm hitting the road and adjusting to travelling life style for undefinied amount of time. Now I think that it means atleast some years. I'm not leaving in a hurry but settling things here in Finland first. If I look to the future, I could see myself starting my journey around March-May. I have little savings for the start and small monthly incomes that will run till end of year 2012. So I'm not jumping on total nothing. I've started to getting rid of most of my material possesion. For some I must find good home first. I planning to travel quite lightly. I not tied by any plans yet and not planning to get myself tied to any kind of limiting schelude. Yet I have many places I'd hope to see. I've also hitchiked quite a lot in my past, but mostly in Finland and only in nordic countries.

I'd very much like to meet some likeminded dreamers and maybe also some not-so-like-minded

That's why I started a thread about this. So feel free to PM me if you are interested. Though I've posted mainly to beoynd dreaming and babled crazily and unstabelikely about things and stuff here, I'm not that crazy. Or atleast I'm not dangerous. Chances are I've only been lame.

I'm also planning to write stuff on the road to various places of internet. I'm not going to keep a blog or travel diary nor anything personaly trackeble form of writing. Not because of any kind of paranoia, but 'cause I want to share my travels in dreamlike way and dreamlike languge that doesn't give clear picture of the author nor the places he's passing by. Call it artistic expression if you want. Atleast I've got mostly dreamviews to thank of huge improvment of English expression.

OK, that's all for now (folks)

EDIT: oh, happy and merry X-mass time whatever it means to you and however you are spending it

**Original Poster** · 12-24-2011 02:21 AM

I tried that but after I quit my job I procrastinated too much and didn't have the funding to do much. I'm still considering just giving everything up and traveling though. I've spent some months in the woods working on my survival skills but only five miles from my house and I knew exactly where I was. I'm not up to just wandering off yet. Having money saved feels like a must. I don't know how that Into the Wild guy did it for so long.

**Spartiate** · 12-24-2011 04:20 AM

Originally Posted by Omnis Dei

I don't know how that Into the Wild guy did it for so long.

You mean the guy who died after a few months?

**Grod** · 12-24-2011 04:28 AM

live among the forest as a true spirit

only then you can transcend

(i guess)

**Spartiate** · 12-24-2011 04:33 AM

Live in the forest.

Die in the forest.

Decompose in the forest.

You are now one with the forest.

**labyrint** · 12-24-2011 06:44 AM

I have couple of plans and starting points. I'm more in tune with cities than wilderness. Countryside is also fine. I think I'll have to suiting situation and company to reconnect myself with the wilderness. There are some squats, castles and churches I'd like to visit. And people too. I'm planning on taking my time to synch myself with places I arrive to. I'm more aware with mytholocigal, fictional and dreaming side of places I've got in my head. I assume that the 'reality' I'll first intersect with will be much different. Still I believe that these images and expressions I've of those places aren't completily nonexistant. So my travelling will be like one foot in the imaginarian version of place and one foot in the given place people are living their lifes. That's how live in my homecountry too. I'm familiar with lots fiction handling atleast the western world. Classics and popular stuff from different ages (aka narratives). I think they'll guide me quite well. I'll be reading, painting and writing while I travel. I'm avoiding situations where I would be stuck in some place for months just to hang out and waste my time on getting myself wasted. I'm going to have time of my life but also move forward on progressive pace.

Before I'll leave here I'm collecting photoes and a portofolio of the boardgame I've been desinging and building througout this year. It's very unique and quite mindprovocing. It concretely has many levels, lots of cards and time and care invested on it. I've been connecting different mythologies, popculture, fiction to real world places while designing it's world. It's too big and heavy to travel along. That's why I'm taking good photoes and portofolio of it. I'm going to translate main idea and maybe more into English while travelling. Maybe I'll stop somewhere and build another original piece of game (not identical) but it'll take time and work space. Maybe I'll run into people who are willing to partisipate on making smaller and more compact commercial version of the game (one that doesn't violate copyright laws.. problem which I haven't had with 'homegrown' version), maybe I'll run into someone whois interested into making net version of it. You'll never know. Maybe I end up into some travelling theatric group or circus. Maybe I ran into an unicorn.

Given that nutcases are nutcases they are, and there'll be year 2013, I must survive after my money revenue runs out. Without binding myself to any place or boss.

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