Quote Originally Posted by DuB View Post
I haven't tried healing a DC before, but I can relate to the part about feeling sick, disgusted and guilty after hurting a DC. In my last lucid I decided to get some payback on a DC who had been an asshole to me in the dream before I became lucid. "Some payback" is an understatement - I actually stabbed him through the heart . As he gurgled and writhed over onto the desk in front of him, I suddenly felt intensely disgusted with myself. Literally sick to my stomach. It didn't occur to me to try to heal him, though - instead I just walked away and tried to shrug it off, telling myself it was only a dream .
I think the thing to keep in mind is - live and learn, you know? You found out that it's not for you - you can't do that kind of thing, even though you know it's just a dream. I was lucky I'd read about lucid dream healing, because I hated what I'd done and really wanted to fix it, and as soon as I fixed it I felt much better, I felt like things were "right" again.

I don't know if I'd feel different if I were defending myself in a dream - I haven't had a lucid where I was being attacked and had to defend myself with violence - I think if that happened and I were lucid I'd probably try another way of resolving the problem - talking to whatever was attacking me, or holding out my hand and thinking "stop" and believing that I couldn't be harmed, that kind of thing.