Thread: My First Attempt At Lucidity... Problems. Insight?

This girl I know commented a few months back on how every time I saw her, I'd tell her about the dream I'd had the night before. She mentioned my 'dream recall' was good and I should try to achieve lucidity. I kind of wrote her off, figuring it would take a lot of work. She mentioned it several times. Last night I got around to reading the pages on this site, mostly talking on and on about HOW to achieve lucidity, how hard it is and practicing dream recall and setting alarms and blah it did in fact seem like a lot of work... When I went to sleep that night I said F it I'll just try and see what happens. Here's what happened.

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Started with me standing in darkness. (After whole ordeal had ended, I realized each time I'd went to sleep it began this way. A spinning sensation, which I later determined was my eyes rolling around, darkness, and then color, sound, and other details, in no specific order, slowly coming into focus, painting across the blackness.) As the dream 'began', I was standing in darkness. The first detail that bled in was the sound of someone talking. I felt inexplicably inclined to ignore it and allow the rest of the dream to form. But then I stopped and said, 'wait a minute. How often do I hear strange garbling voices in the darkness and ignore them? Am I dreaming already...?'

So I decided to try to find out what the voice was saying. I focused on it, and realized it was saying INANE things that made NO SENSE. Like, 'Blue ducks vomit shoes on wednesday, as funerals squawk hairily in a timely manner.' I realized this made no sense, I was in fact, dreaming. I became lucid. I was amazed at how real the voice sounded. I wasn't hearing myself just thinking- I was actually hearing someone talking! The excitement of realizing I was lucid and the realness of it woke me up.

So I tried again. Went back to sleep. Spinning sensation, darkness. As soon as I'd felt the uncontrollable spinning sensation, I knew I was entering a dream state, so I actually started out lucid by focusing on that. Wondered where the voice was, focused on getting it to return, and heard it talking again. Staying focused on how nonsensical the voice was helped me to retain lucidity. I just stood there, listening to it, knowing I was lucid. Then I decided, 'if I'm lucid, then I should be able to control what the voice is saying. I want the voice to tell me I'm cool!' ...And then the voice actually DID. It switched from nonsense to saying, 'Alex, you are super awesome! You are so special and amazing and cool, aw man, you're great! You rock!' and stuff. I was so amazed it was doing what I wanted it to, that I woke up again.


So I had to go back to sleep. Again. Spinning sensation, darkness. Once again I started out lucid. This time no voice, images started forming around me instead. I became frustrated, because I wanted to go through the logical progression, you know? Return to the dream I was having before, with the voice, and go from there. But a different dream was forming, and that rubbed me the wrong way. So as the new dream was forming, I started exerting all of this force trying to change the dream back to the previous one so I could pick up where I left off. The force I exerted trying to control and erase the forming dream made caused me to awaken again.

So yet again, I had to focus on going back to sleep. Spinning sensation, darkness. Once again, I start out lucid.Colors start popping up... I figured to myself, 'okay, when I try to force the dream back to the previous one, I lose it and wake up. Fine. Screw going back, damnit. Take me to my living room!' The previously forming dream paused and blurred, everything became blurry, and when it came back into focus, I was standing in my living room just like I'd demanded! I looked down and saw my body, more or less how it looks In Real Life, except more masculine. (I'm a transguy. I'm almost always male bodied in my dreams. And in dreams where I'm not, my build/voice are more masculine. I feel this is 'the real me'.) I was wearing the same homey boxers and wifebeater type getup I usually wear around the house.

The livingroom looked exactly how it actually does. It was pretty unspectacular. So I said out loud after examining my dress, 'What the hell is this? If this is a dream, I want some sweet digs!' I was focusing on looking at my hands,forearms as I said this, holding my hands out in front of me. I concentrated on them for a moment, and they became blurry. When the focus sharpened back onto them, I was wearing Altair's armor on them. (That's Altair from Assassins Creed. http://www.gamerdna.com/uimage/ogQue...air_1_-jpg.jpg) The leather and steel vambraces were exquisite. I had not requested Altair's armor specifically, as evident from what I said ('some sweet digs'??, lol!) so I was kind of taken aback, both by the vambraces and at having such a vague request obeyed. Again I became excited and woke up.

Needless to say, this is more waking up/going back to sleep than I'm used to, and I found it kind of exhausting. I decided to give up on it and just go to sleep 'normal' and sort it all out later.

So yeah. Anyone will similar problems/insight?? It seems I'm able to achieve lucidity pretty easily from the start, but where/what methods to employ from there to tackle these problems? This has been rather frustrating, but the experience was rewarding enough that I'd like to try some more. If you have any advice, I'd love to hear it. In the meantime I'll be reading/lurking other threads to try to gain some insight... Thanks!