I have been doing meditation for a few days so I'll just say what happened in each of them
-1st day : I was sad and crying as I moved away from my parents and have to live with some roommate now in different city cause of college, I sat down before my bed, my roommate gone as he always is so I closed my eyes and started relaxing, in almost a moment my breathing went relaxed my head feels uncomfortable so I slowly lean in down so it's hanging down. I keep on meditating the thoughts coming at me are chaotic just rushing right into my face, I just watch them fly by but after a few minutes I get a huge headacke, I am unable to keep on so I go to sleep.
-2nd day : I was still feeling sad, and before sleeping I sat on my bed, got instantly relaxed breathing and calmed down a bit, then I started watching my thoughts pass by, they weren't so chaotic as before but as I kept on after a few minutes I got a headacke, I tried telling myself to remember my dreams and then went to sleep, so I had one dream.
-3rd day : I was feeling quite better about the whole being moved thingy I wasn't sad at all so before bed again I sat down on my bed and relaxed, my breathing quickly going relaxed too, I layed my head down and kept on meditating, my thoughts are wandering in chaos again but I manage to get trough them it's calm now and I keep on seeing a few random thoughts pass by, but they never stop, I begin wondering, will it stop? Did I get there? How do I know when I am at the "Goal" I try thinking to myself and I hear a voice talk to me, it seems to be friendly but it says talking to me right now hurts it, so I just ask him nicely if I can get a dream, maybe if he can help me to lucid, it says sure but that it should go now and that I should sleep. So I feel a finger on my forehead gently push me over in bed and I lie down in bed all relaxed quickly falling asleep. I have one more dream.
-4th day I do the same thing as usually with meditating, thoughts go chaotic and again afterwards a few random thoughts now and then and they don't stop, I try to talk to that voice again and it speaks to me again, it says that I need to try harder to lucid dream, that it can't give it to me on a platter, it's not what I meanth, I need help to lucid dream because of my fear, but it seems to want to get rid of me fast. But I don't want to bother it too much so I decide it's enough for now as I got a headacke again so I go sleep, saying goodnight to the voice.
-5th day I do the same thing XD. Thoughts chaotic, this time I try to imagine myself in a enviroment but I don't end up in a enviroment I want, I see a river and a Huge eevee in the middle of it, it looks at me and growls, the river glowing blood red, it's a river of blood! I get scared but I do not want to leave, I want to know what's going on. I walk a bit looking at the eevee but it quickly growls again the river glowing blood red again and it swings it's huge paw at me trying to hit me, I manage to dodge, I don't want to fight, I want to calm it down, I run around as it keeps on attacking me the river glowing blood red, I jump on it's face as I'm quite smaller than it, I hug it and it stops, I see the river turning icy blue and a tear running down the eevee's eye. It doesn't say a thing but my meditation stops forcedly.
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