I wouldn't put it past you to come up with something -- can imagine you with an underground lab. Haha, the more rage and power I feel before the act, the heavier the sedated effect is for me. And to be honest, the more I feel before, the more I'll tease in some fashion.... using a ton of dopamine? Given the inverse correlation between dopamine and prolactin... it's no wonder I'm quite immobile. I mean.... it feels good to be largely immobile. That's interesting... I'm gonna buy around 700-1000g of piracetam to use as a nootropic -- no try before you buy big, Wolfwood? Naaa. Only sold on prescription here, but I may have found a place. If not, then I can try Noopept (similar mechanism of action, 1000 times stronger, no prescription). Heard of it? Also found that Piracetam reduces the short-term memory loss associated with marijuana use.... so take it, and start sharing your dreams again.
(continued) I drank a little the other night and smoked some blue lotus - a non-hallucinogenic herb - and I was in my backyard at night. The tree beyond our fence looked like it was on fire, and there were exploding diamond patterns of purple, light blue, and orange making V shapes all over it, and it was pulsing and twisting in several different directions at once. Are yours that bad? I see. >w< Lol, my subconscious is headed in the complete opposite direction right now. I don't think I've really been horny since I stopped smoking weed. It's odd, because, as I said, I didn't even really develop any sense of normal sexuality at all until very recently, and it only really strengthened at the same time I started smoking weed again, so now that I'm not high I feel almost asexual. Though, I suppose it might rebound again after I've abstained for a while.
I could probably come up with some pretty nice sedatives. I actually can sometimes get off more easily if I'm feeling lazy, it just won't be quite as rewarding. Pfft, fall asleep or become immobile... sounds boring. Yeah, I've tried piracetam with MDMA before. I took five tabs, but my tolerance was really high at the time and normally that would have had me nice and relaxed with a good body buzz and a slight conversational attitude, but mostly I normally would've been chilling on couches at the club just kind of observing stuff and enjoying the high. Instead, I ended up ranting to a friend on and on about something I don't even remember now, and my eyes were shaking soooo much and I was constantly moving, at one point she just stopped me and said "You look like you're on fucking crack!" Short answer: it works. For most people, anyway, from what I hear.
You were in my last dream.... but there wasn't really any fighting... That's the damned focus of my subconscious, you see.
(continued) I wouldn't be surprised if it got weirder -- that's what I'd expect from you. When you appear in the dream world, I'll see how deep you go. ^_^ Yeah, I was gonna say... so long as you have your own outlet to be weak around, then it's all good. You've got their backs; someone's got yours. *Wolfwood waits for the PM, and then nicks the recipe to get rich*
Haha, laziness for me doesn't quite translate into quick effectiveness though. Not that I'm ever lazy when it comes to that -- quite the opposite. I need a chill pill. You crafting any of those? lol, after the orgasm is different for me.... I just fall asleep or become ultra lazy/immobile. Big contrast with before/after. That's crazy if you get the feeling of cuddling like from MDMA though.... 'coz that's some powerful feeling of interpersonal-connectedness. Oh yeah, you tried taking Piracetam before MDMA at all? Do a lot? Mmm, when I start zoning out, I notice them effects more so.... but the 'noise' or 'mini clouds' are in my vision quite a bit. Right now, I notice a lot..... though I am quite intoxicated. I said I wasn't drinking again -- lot of good that was, eh?
(continued) I'll take that as a compliment. Trust me, it only gets weirder the deeper you dig. And I'm sure you are a good boy, I wouldn't expect any differently. Sometimes it can be tough... typically it gets easier the further a relationship is established because people get to know me better too, but it's not always easy being the one who everyone lets themselves be weak around... it means you always have to be the strong one. It used to bother me more than it does now, though. Somewhere down I realized that that's the price you have to pay if you truly want everyone to be happy. I have people that I can be weak to now as well, so it's not like there isn't a balance. I'll PM you about the drug. I don't want my get-rich-quick scheme posted on a public page.
I can see that, I mean orgasming is great and the idea of sex is certainly appealing, but I don't think I'd want to just do it without really getting into it.... Unless I was feeling lazy, of course. X) Honestly, I think my favorite part thus far is after the orgasm.... I don't know if that's normal or not. >.> Lol. Afterwards I get cuddly to an extreme degree, especially if there's *cough* someone else "involved". It feels almost like MDMA, without the stimulation (actually, even the desire to talk a lot happens for me). Don't worry, I'm the same way. >w< I don't get the effects as strongly anymore though. You can train yourself to ignore them... but it helps if you stay sober for a long time while you're doing it, too. I still get the after-images and patterns and all that stuff if I try to bring it out, but normally I don't even notice anymore. Do you pay attention to it a lot?
(continued) You do give off an accommodating aura -- you're very bizarre actually. I don't have any deep, dark secrets.... I'm a good boy. *lies* Anyway, do you like/mind people pouring their hearts out to you? Go on then, what's this drug you've derived for inducing lucid dreams? ^_^ Send me some.
Tbh, foreplay is usually better than the act itself.... purely because it prolongs/extends and builds up the energy. The act just destroys it all; ends it. >.< Again, my friends don't understand why I like to be teased... they get annoyed by such things. They just want to do it. Psh. For me, it's insanely good. Haha, the bliss junkie -- that is certainly you. Yeah, may as well forget what you could've been, seen as you turned out alright, right? Personally, I think my perception has been permanently altered by drugs... It's not stable if I look at complex patterns. Jumps all over the place: a sort of double vision thing and constantly changing perception... like looking at a drawn cube/box. And I think my perception is more sensitive to after-images -- it only takes me a few seconds of gazing to be left with an after-image etc.
