dreaming about being stabbed in the bath tub

**LuluB** · 06-28-2012 09:58 AM

My name is Louise Byrne, I'm 25 with a 3 and half year old autistic son. I'm Irish and a solitary Wiccan. Currently I stay at home to care for my "differently abled" son and we manage to survive solely on benefits. I'm a lesbian, and only came out 2 years ago.

I live in Ireland on the east caost in a town called Arklow, Co.wicklow

I have ADHD and a history of anxiety attacks and self harm,. I also suffered from post natal depression after my son was born.

I was very recently dumped by my girlfriend of one year for another woman... My closest aunt has stage 4 breast cancer and has only months to live. My nana recently had surgery to remove a tumour from her lung and my grandad on the other side has had 4 heart attacks in the past month. also i'm going through court proceedings with my ex over our son.

I dream that i was sleeping in the first house me and son lived in which was a horrible, dark and damp place the years i spent there were the worst in my life. So i dream i'm back there in my bed and conor, who is still only one, is sleeping in his room. Then i'm pulled out on my bed by someone wearing a leather face mask(from the texas chainsaw masacre) I stop myself from screaming, because i'm afraid if i wakeconor this person will hurt him to. he drags me to the bathrom which is only 5 steps from my room and throws me violently into the tub that half filled with freezing water. he stabs me repeatedly and all i can think of is "don't scream, don't scream. if you wake conor up he'll kill him too." i bleed to death quickly in the bath but before i die gold fish swim out of my wounds and around the tub.

i had it 2 years ago when i was living in the house in the dream and it was recurrent, i began therapy and it stopped. but in the last two weeks its back with me as the murderer

**melanieb** · 06-29-2012 04:20 AM

Moved to Nightmares and Recurring Dreams.

Are you on medication for anxiety?

Lucid dreaming can be used to take control of a dream and turn it around or into something innocuous. Have you made any attempts at lucid dreaming?

I'll keep an eye open for your response.

**LuluB** · 06-29-2012 09:19 AM

I have but can never seem to gain control.... i have a perscription for Xanax for my anxiety but i only use it if i'm in dire need because i'm worried about dependancy. so i probably use them about twice a week... if i'm a bad one. normally less, but now that i'm thinking it i have been needing it more in the last week since the break up.

**melanieb** · 06-30-2012 03:48 AM

Lucid dreaming can help with the recurrent dreams. I would suggest starting here: http://www.dreamviews.com/f49/all-da...gyoshi-113253/

It has a lot of information and links to a Beginner's Guide in the first post. Both of those might help.

If lucid dreaming isn't enough for you, and your use of anxiety medication continues to rise it might be time to consult a professional therapist/psychologist. The key is to feel good about yourself, your dreams and your life.

Visiting with friends or a support group might also be useful. It's important to get out of the house on a regular basis.

Solve the issues you can handle on your own, get help with the rest.