My name is Louise Byrne, I'm 25 with a 3 and half year old autistic son. I'm Irish and a solitary Wiccan. Currently I stay at home to care for my "differently abled" son and we manage to survive solely on benefits. I'm a lesbian, and only came out 2 years ago.


I live in Ireland on the east caost in a town called Arklow, Co.wicklow

I have ADHD and a history of anxiety attacks and self harm,. I also suffered from post natal depression after my son was born.

I was very recently dumped by my girlfriend of one year for another woman... My closest aunt has stage 4 breast cancer and has only months to live. My nana recently had surgery to remove a tumour from her lung and my grandad on the other side has had 4 heart attacks in the past month. also i'm going through court proceedings with my ex over our son.

I dream that i was sleeping in the first house me and son lived in which was a horrible, dark and damp place the years i spent there were the worst in my life. So i dream i'm back there in my bed and conor, who is still only one, is sleeping in his room. Then i'm pulled out on my bed by someone wearing a leather face mask(from the texas chainsaw masacre) I stop myself from screaming, because i'm afraid if i wakeconor this person will hurt him to. he drags me to the bathrom which is only 5 steps from my room and throws me violently into the tub that half filled with freezing water. he stabs me repeatedly and all i can think of is "don't scream, don't scream. if you wake conor up he'll kill him too." i bleed to death quickly in the bath but before i die gold fish swim out of my wounds and around the tub.


i had it 2 years ago when i was living in the house in the dream and it was recurrent, i began therapy and it stopped. but in the last two weeks its back with me as the murderer