I believe you should talk to her, just tell her all you need, be done with that because it is obviously troubling you. If you have her email, maybe try writting her, just tell her everything you wanted. If you are wanting or expecting her to answer, then I think that is your problem. The fact that it is over and that you need to move on are pushed upon you since day, but I believe your heart,soul and mind want a sort of a confirmation, that the relationship of you two has at its time been something great, when reading it feels as tho your mind is partially stuck in past, in a memory where you felt good, fullfiled, amazing and is denying to accept something like that,that feels so right is over. That and the fact that after all you two had you did not have a chance to even tell her how you feel. That is why I think you should simply write to her, but do not focus or hope that she will reply.Do it for yourself, so you can release the accumulated pain and words that are bothering you for so long.
Other then writting to her, I suggest you give yourself time. Do not push yourself into supposedly happy, good enviroments on purpose, do not try to fabricate fake happiness.Doing this might be the reason that the dreams are reoccuring. Take time to heal. I have been in a similar situation like you in life, in fact, I have been on both sides of this story and what really helped me was just being, not faking that I am happy, not faking that I am not in pain, not believing my life ended, just living my life one step at a time, not letting anything beat me and a fair amount of dreaming.
I wish you all the best and it will get better!
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