I've been lucid dreaming ever since I was... really young. It's just something I always did. But lately, I've been thinking about what triggered that in the first place... aside from being naturally pretty "aware" and addicted to a lot of videogames....
I, as a child, had a lot of nightmares.
Not a WHOLE lot of nightmares. But enough of them. And I would remember, sometime during almost every nightmare, coming to the realization that, "Arghhh, this better be a dream.... Wait. It is a dream. Aha, I'm dreaming!"
I know it is this way for quite a few people. Nightmares trigger lucidity. Almost every time I have nightmares, I become lucid. Now, upon becoming lucid, I used to still run away from the nightmare, so it wasn't exactly enjoyable, but lately I've started facing my nightmares instead, and it's not scary at all. It's kind of exciting. And mostly empowering. Calming, in a way.
I used to be so scared of my shadow figures... the people who kept chasing me and trying to kill me and shoot me and whatever... but now I just let them shoot me. Because when I have a nightmare, I have a lucid dream. And now I understand that these "enemies" are all inside my head. They are ME. They are the parts of me that the other parts of me have been rejecting. They are the problems I still need to solve. They are... my brain just feeling weird. Whatever they are, instead of trying to run away from them, I approach them now and I love them.
I know it sounds kind of crazy but... really... All you need is love! And as soon as I let them realize this, we're all happy in my head and the nightmare is now a pleasant lucid dream.
(So thank you, all my attackers, assassinators, conspirators... it's thanks to you guys that I've become lucid.)
Next time YOU go to bed... don't fear nightmares! It sounds really hard to do at first, especially if you've been a victim of them for so long. But try. Try to deal with them. They become less and less scary... until it becomes something you look forward to.
I heard Stilton blue cheese gives you weird dreams and nightmares sometime. Now I gotta try that. ; D
Anyway have any suggestions or personal anecdotes about how you can make a nightmare helpful instead of harmful? Do share!
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