Heres something I think about a lot and find very hard to explain but I will try:

I see everything through a first person perspective. I know only my own conciousness and no one elses. i hear only my own thoughts. To me, all life is told as my story. My friends and family are background characters. I'm the protagonist. What I constantly wonder is if others feel like this, like they are the only ones aware of their own conciousness like this. If they feel the same, they must be the main character and I their background character.

Why do I exist if only to tell a pointless story just like a million others (birth-life-death) Surely If I am this aware I must have some importance. I must have some great deed to carry out. Perhaps I am the most important person who has ever lived and the universe was formed around my existance.

I know this must sound confusing to all of you because it is almost impossible to put into words. So any thoughts?