Before i even seen the movie or known about Bonnie and Clyde, i am into and a very old fashion person, i started to be this way since i was 13 ever since i lived in europe for 2 years off and on at the azores island of Portugal, at Terceira Terceira Island - Azores - Portugal - YouTube
I was surprised that i loved how people lived in this small island and most people there are farmers. And this is coming from a city girl i was born and raised at the largest city in Canada now. In this place i was at everyone knew me because of my parents and grandparents were from there before they came to Canada, everyone worked for themselves and helped others when needed, everyone was friendly etc, but you just got to watch what you say or do because gossip goes round and comes back in one day lol. This place taught me a lot in life and how people used to struggle a lot there and i don't know why i can relate to it at that time and somehow loved the 1930s feel of this place in 1998, like i stepped back through time and it is incredible feel.
After that i changed the way i looked at things, i came back to Canada around 16, went back to school and finished, by early 20s i have yet to know about bonnie and clyde. Until i saw the 1967 movie the first time, i saw it as just another love story movie and thinking it never happened in real and it was just another hollywood made up plot. Funny this is, i thought bonnie and clyde in the end would get away again and have a happy ending (just like any other love story), but i was shocked that they didn't and actually cried for them because they seemed happy together, and the way they died baffled me. I told myself, "why are you shooting at them? they love each other." what a darn thing to say eh? lol
After that between 23 to 27yrs old i gone about my life, then around when "Public enemies" movie came out, i got compelled about the movie plot and known nothing about Johnny dillinger, i only was into the year 1930s. I saw it the first day it came out because it was around near my birthday June i think. I don't know why i was so excited to watch it, only because of 1930s and guns and action was involved, i love hardcore action movies also with some love story connected, ironic right?
Then the past few years i started to get into researching about 1930s gangs, and i really didn't know what public enemies really meant by, so i started online researching, then wiki showed me what was part of public enemies and bonnie and clyde was listed as well. I was surprised that bonnie and clyde really was real and only some parts of the movie happened, i did deep research and i now am very annoyed that all i read is about word of mouth and nothing was 100% accurately said, with all the he said and she said.
Around last year i started thinking more about this guy that i so very can't get over from grade 7-8, during those times we had a strong connection, and when i was close to leaving Canada to Portugal i had a spiritual dream of him coming to me and unlocking what we have and i woke up sinking in the bed. Then when it was time to leave i left and never went back to that school again. Ever since that day til now, close spirit connections with/from him kept going in cycles, kept dreaming of him and school years, kept having thoughts that someone was telepathically speaking to me and i always had a feeling of a need to be with "someone" even though i was dating i kept having this until now as if who i am with isn't meant to be.
So since last year i had dreams of him once again, and then in late 2012 i started having dreams of 1930s and how people dressed in my dreams were in that time period. Since then til now, dreams of my dream guy(school guy) and my past lives are almost in a point like it's about to inter-connect because of all the chain reactions between them both.
This guy (don't want to use his real name) who i have a strong connection with in real and in dreams used to be Clyde, and i know he is still having the same attitudes as he was still living, he is secretive and doesn't like facebook and avoids anything that makes him vulnerable to authorities and federals, he still thinks the same but is not aware of what he is doing.
I know it's scary but i am feeling this as of right this minute because he senses that i am talking about him. One thing he is doing opposite now is avoiding me, but i sense it is killing him now and he is disturbed with his life now, i wish i could help him he tried doing so in school, i seen it, and he couldn't try to avoid because we have a magnet between us. In school he avoided me after he knew we both were attracted to each other, and people was starting to talk about us and assuming we were bf/gf.
So after that he started being cold and told me not to speak to him, which that actually hurt me too much. Then months passed and he started to come back again and i pretended to ignore and he kept trying to get my attention and when he did he loved it. Then after a time he avoided again but i know he doesn't want to, and all i seen was him with his small group of buddies obviously talking about me and i know he still does now plus from a psychic i went through recently months ago said he keeps talking about me to a close friend and wants to make a move but is scared. He is still affected, like last time we both saw each other, and i feel it still and it's not going to die off.
The reason why i love the first Twilight movie, because it has so much of that similar feeling of "can't be together, but want to" story.
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I liked being there temporarily, it's nice and all but i like my city life now and won't change it.
The only thing i can do now is commune telepathically and through dreams (shared), communing through spirit is all i can do now without invading his real life he has now with a different woman and kids, and i got the same life as he does but we both know we aren't meant to be with them and spiritually know we are meant to be. Yes it is hard, it's his choice and i leave it all up to him to make his move, knowing that he likes to decide things on his own and be his own boss, he doesn't like others telling him what to do.
I know he is spiritually thinking to come back and be like what we used to without any trouble, i receive his thoughts most of the time and in the past month i have recurring images and thoughts and feelings, that he is right out my door and me seeing him and his reaction of that very moment, but i see him as himself in this lifetime, but whenever i invision him as today, his image quickly turns into someone else, and i can't help it, he wearing a suit or not his image changes just like how my dream was showing me in seperate parts. And if i do come across him again, i don't know what will happen to me, but when i invision him seeing me, i really want to faint or feel faint. These images/visions started when my dreams became more recurring about my past life as Bonnie.
What got me more to see if it really connected was when i saw his youth mug shot online when he was 16, it looked so much like him when he was 12-13 in this life and had a faded tan, and was skinny. But now i seen his pics from this life he changed and added more weight, of course he always wants to look tough despite who he is on the inside. Added muscles and all, but when i see that, i tell myself this wasn't you when i last saw you, you aren't this way, your better than that.
Plus he has some tattoos on his arm and on his back in this life now, his past life he did have tattoos on his arms, but both are different tattoos. Bonnie had a tattoo on her upper right thigh of a heart with arrows, i never got a tattoo but i have an odd looking birth mark on my upper right thigh that is a shape of a heart, that sealed the re-incarnated proof.
I always thought that birth mark looked odd until i noticed recently that i have to look at it a certain way to be a heart.
The only thing that i learned about reincarnation is that, we come back again to do right or to meet again where it was left off and re-do the past and do better. Some souls that come back again, usually didn't move on and feel that it needs to reunite and try again, this is what is going on with me and him we both didn't move on and we still have us to deal with before the next lifetime comes. I have other past lives already done and over with, and moved on, but this hasn't and i know he knows that something needs to be done before we move on.
What happened between us in school years needs to be corrected, we actually had to start a relationship on that year but timing wasn't right but fate is poking us now and saying "Look what you did, now you need to do something to stop your souls from crying"
I can only watch this one time, i got crazy dizzy only on 50 seconds of this. Fainting spells and all, i can't imagine me being there or driving by it.
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