thx for the quick response

I think you're right, I did feel like I was trying too hard. I tried my best to keep my awareness, but my mind keeps drifting off and thinking stuff like "whoo something is happening gogogo faster". Logically I know I should just relax, observe, and be aware but when in the heat of the moment I have a hard time doing it.

I guess this is just a mental discipline issue and there's no easy way around it except to keep practicing?