Hello,
so it's hard enough for me to achieve WILD in the first place, and the few times i did it was by chance (Eg. woke up in the middle of the night and in the last moment before drifting i retain conscious), those dreams where the best i had, mostly i don't have problem reaching hallucinations, i success one in every 3 times, but the problem is that my brain is a B*tch, when actually planning a WILD, and trying it, after finally getting my heart stop beating like crazy, and start the final stages, i get the idea that i failed, and that i get this every-time and it leads no where, sometimes i even have this idea while i am paralyzed and i un-paralyze myself (moving face muscles and breathing fast) i just believe that i am failing and that i achieve this point every-time and it leads to no-where, in-reality i never achieve this point, and i only realize that when i get up and halt the process. WHY BRAIN? WHY?
if my brain didn't trick me and i go on with the process (very few times, maybe 3 or 4) i start to get VERY, and i mean VERY scary hallucination, i can deal with buzzing, faces floating or even a demon whispering my name, but what i see is beyond that, and very unpredictable, one moment i am peacefully looking at the back of my eyeleds at the nice soothing colours swirling around,feeling i am going thrue a tunnle, happy that i achieved this point without my brain tricking me, then BAM *surprise motherf*cker* an awful face like i've never seen before flashes before me (only a scream missing to make it a jump scare), like it came from the very depth of hell, and i can't get those faces out of my mind to the moment, it's really hard to keep my eyes closed (and not pissing my self ) when this happens, and if I managed to keep them closed i just reverse back to the first stage (and as a bonus my heart is beating like crazy, IT IS beating and i am not imagining it).
anyone had similier problems? it wasn't like that when is started years ago, but i stopped LD all together and i am just coming back.