Lover of life, but scared by premonitions! HELP!

**theworm** · 03-09-2013 07:07 PM

Hey everybody. I'm 23 years old and live in the United States. I have come here because frankly, I'm scared. I used to reject everything metaphysical and deny that the subconscious played a very large roll in my life but everything has changed recently. Last weekend I took MDMA or ectasy at a party. I've done this quite a few times before, but this time was different. For the most part, the night panned out pretty much as normal, had a great time talking to friends and dancing. But things got weird when I went to go to bed. It's normal to see fractals when you close your eyes on MDMA but this time, something weird happened. I feel like I had a vision. I'm scared as I even type this, but as I was lying in bed, a date appeared to me, so clear that I felt like I could reach out and touch the floating numbers. The numbers were a date: 9/26. When I saw this number, I immediately felt this was the date (or around the date) that I was going to die. I also hot the sense that it would be in a car accident (I have been in a car accident before, when I was 17) Whenever I think about the vision, I get a metallic taste in my mouth, like that of blood or something and my hands (as they are right now) get cold and clammy. I'm hoping that this was just the drugs, and not a premonition, but at the time I was so convinced that I sat up in bed and shook my girlfriend awake in a panic to tell her what I just saw. THis date has no other significance to me, and when I was about 18 or 19 I told my ex girlfriend (As she was breaking up with me) that I didn't expect to make it past age 24. I didn't remember this until I had the vision. Did I create a prophecy? Was this arbitrary number I picked true? I'm hoping somebody might have insite or experience with this type of thing. I hope I'm just going crazy and not really going to die. Please help.

**Zoth** · 03-09-2013 07:54 PM

There's a good insight about these events:

Take a look at that video and relax. On the other hand, yes you are going to die. But when you die, you won't be alive to experience it, so don't worry about it

It might help to know that to this day no one has successfully performed a premonition under controlled settings. All you did was hallucinate or dream about a date (if it was really a date, you cannot even be sure of it), and that does not indicate anything that will happen in the future. Many times we just dream of things we have a secret fear of, and that's completely normal.

And by the way,

**Xanous** · 03-09-2013 08:28 PM

I wouldn't worry about it. I had a similar experience, however not with drugs, but during meditation. I got a vision or thought that I would die at age 32. I have a few months til I turn 33 but I'm pretty sure it was all just in my head. Just live your life. We all die eventually. Why fear it? Why worry about it? Personally, I would not put any stock into anything my drug induced, meditating, or dreaming mind came up with. Do you really want to worry about dying every year on Sept 26? Or perhaps its September 2026? You just can't worry about it. It's not worth it. And for what is worth, I don't think you are crazy either.

You're going to be fine.