lucid

So I have only been journaling my lucids on here. It was pretty tedious doing journal and electronic for every dream.

This one may have been supp induced but it wasn't intentional.

Bed: 1000 pm.
Supps: 500 mg valerian, 100 mg 5htp, 3mg melatonin, multivitamin.

I was up working and needed to get to sleep but didn't feel tired at all. So I took these hoping for some great sleep. I had never tried this combo before either.

I woke around 130 or so and went back to sleep while I was thinking about different dreams where I saw my hands and became lucid. More pictured it than anything.

I was walking through a neighborhood with some huge houses. I was admiring one house in particular which had some huge stones and looked very rustic, not really like a castle more like stone henge but a house. It was pretty amazing. There were a few other houses but this is the one that caught my eye the most. I saw a kid walking up the street and I asked him if it was his house, he said yes. he ended up going to a different house and I thought it was funny he thought i was taking about that one. I also thought that he would be impressed with the house I was going to. I wound up on another street and realized that this isn't where the house I was going to was, I thought my environment was weird and I did a RC, hand wavy fingers and think I had 6 fingers. LUCID: I looked at the ground for something to stabalize on and saw a leaf. I picked it up and had some clothing kinda blocking my vision. I had a coat or hoodie or something on and struggled a bit and got it off. I looked at the leaf and started to really look at it. It was a small green brown leaf with 5 or so points on it. It was getting dark out and I tried to will it lighter and think it lightened a bit. I focused more looking for imprefections on the leaf and found a black spot on it. Feeling steady enough I put it down. It was dark out now and I decided I would go back to the cool house I saw and look around it. I passed an outdoor eating/siting area and kinda patted a lady who was with another lady on the chest (because I could). I got the the area with the houses but it was now houses with sheets/white walls that you could see shadows through. The first one I approached had two shadows of a male and female. I continued on and found one with a female in it. She was getting un-dressed and layed on the couch to take care of herself. I approached the curtain and peered over and said "hey" which freaked her out and she hid. I went around since it was just like a room divider and she was hiding under the couch. She was dressed in black leather type pants and the dream ended here.

I didn't do what I had planned so it was a kind of a waste of a dream. Should have stabalized more and longer. At least it was a lucid.

Well I just typed this whole thing and it didn’t save right and now I am starting all over. Going to type on word on my computer then copy and paste. Sucky.

Bed: 1115
Supplements: 100mg 5htp, 250 mg Valerian Root
WBTB: 4 am
Supplements: 250 mg Valerian, 4 mg Galantamine, 500 mg Choline, .4mg Melatonin

I was a little restless getting back to sleep but after about 45 minutes was able to.
I woke up about 45 minutes after I fell asleep not thinking I had slept at all except I remember a fairly vivid dream. I recalled a bit and then went back to bed quickly.

Non-Lucid: I was eating with others and an ex-coworker was among them. I was being very quiet and then all of a sudden broke the silence and asked if they still worked there. I had a hard time conveying what I wanted to say during this dream. The words would come out slurred or very quiet and the DCs had a hard time hearing me. The scene turned into an office type area and we continued to chat about work a bit. I left to look for my room since now I was a hotel . I went up a couple of floors since my room was 501 or 50 something. I passed some stairs and saw a couple more people I knew and said something indiscernible to them as well. I was on floor 5 but it was a bunch of offices and this area I wasn’t supposed to be on. Not sure of this transition but I ended up outside by a bay. The weather was grey and wind. There was a large boat and a bunch of shopping carts lined up in the water, they were moving up and down with the waves. I went around the boat to a pier area. I needed to get across the bay but there was a huge line of people to take the transportation boats across. The line was behind and above me on a wooden dock area. I stood there wondering how I could get across, thought of swimming or taking a different boat but could figure nothing out. I woke from this and recalled for a bit then went back to sleep.

Laying in bed with my eyes closed there was a female with their arm over me, not sure who it was at this point. They had their hand on my boy parts and the dream got a little sexual at this point so to keep it PG13 I thought something was a little strange shortly after this and did a RC.

LUCID: I did some stabilization with my hand for a bit then started touching stuff around the room. I rubbed a blanket on the bed which was very fuzzy and really focused everything. I touched the window which was nice and cool. I was in a cabin type room with wood paneling and tall narrow rectangular windows. Instantly I thought of TOTM invisibility and the infamous girl’s locker room. Fortunately there was a school across the street, unfortunately it was an elementary school and that wouldn’t work. I hit the window with my elbow, broke the glass and went through. The school was till across the street, I was in a parking lot/street area with roads/highways above. I noticed many people around and thought about the new years resolution TOTMI yelled focus a couple of times and it seemed to focus a bit more. I saw a police officer about 100 yards away and was going to ask him. I looked down at my clothes and I was wearing a white shirt. I wanted to be in a suit or something nice. I tried a few times to will new clothes but had no success. I got pulled from the dream but was able to DEILD right back to a scene with a smaller boat. I was headed toward the boat to get in but was pulled back out of the dream. DEILD again and very wary of getting pulled out again I didn’t open my eyes and didn’t move. I was in a boat moving along a canal (feeling). There was a lady in the boat talking about mailing a package and she was concerned with the size and the price of the box. The boat stopped and I was out of the boat. I reached out for something to grab and felt something with my left hand, a rough wall, stucco. I opened my eyes and was solid in the dream. We were at a strip mall type place that was outside with grey stucco. I climbed some stairs in front of me and entered some glass doors into the first shop I found. As I entered the shop there was a rack of coats by the door, I touched them to anchor myself further and yelled “focus” again as I turned a corner. I saw 2 guys and a customer (girl from the boat) at the counter. They were all looking at me since I just shouted a moment earlier. I thought of the new years TOTM again and walked up to the guy at the counter behind the register. I asked him “what is your new years resolution” he was very perplexed with this question. After a few seconds of him thinking he said got out …. “To think” and I said sarcastically “you want to think?”, the then said “ well I have an inspection coming up”…. “To pass inspection”. I was good with this answer and then backed up. I had a plan for the opposite TOTM. I stood on my hand (this was not graceful like I imagined, more like a neck handish stand then a full on hand stand). I said “gravity is reversed today”. This was less dramatic than I anticipated as well but they did float up in thie air like they were in space. I flipped back around content with this and as I left I told them “opposite day is later this month”. Outside I looked for somewhere to do invisible task and saw a lady and two kids go into an apartment area. I flew/floated across the street to an area with houses/apartments. I went into a door. The room was bare and dark, marbled grey and black and kinda futuristic looking. There were many doors but all of them were locked but one. I went in the unlocked one and it was a tv room with a couch and a big dark window above the couch. 2 DCs were in there, one was Eddie Murphy and the other was some Arabic guy. I looked down and had a bunch of clothes on. I took a big snow outfit type of clothing off with some difficulty. I grabbed a football with some writing on it off of the entertainment center and began to toss it back and forth and hold it like I was going to throw it. Eddie wasn’t happy with this and he asked me about my broken window. I said that it didn’t matter anymore. I decided I was going to fly up and out the window. I took off and landed on the windowsill. I think I might have had an FA here but not sure. Behind me I knew it was a counseling session for people who thought they were in dreams but weren’t. To be sure I wasn’t crazy I did a RC again… phew still dreaming. I was perched on the window sill and in front of me was a huge pine tree; I thought of crashing through it but decided to focus on TOTM. Across the street were a dirt parking lot and a restaurant there. I flew over and landed in the lot. There were a few RVs in the lot and the restaurant was a seafood restaurant and it was up some stairs and off of a wooden deck. I decided to make myself invisible then. I closed my eyes and thought about brining my hand in front of my face and not being able to see it. I felt I was invisible and my eyes were still closed, right before I opened them again I thought about people who said that they can’t close their eyes when they are in a lucid or they wake up. I thought about me doing it just finds and at that moment woke up.

This was around 7am and I got up and wrote good notes since some of the details from earlier started to fade. I went back to lay down and hadn’t been asleep for but a couple minutes when my daughter got up. Not sure if the supplements did everything or it was a placebo effect. I am going to keep experimenting every few days.

I took a nap yesterday since I was beat from barely any sleep the night before and decided to try to WILD. I was very relaxed and had many scenes and thoughts drifting around my head. All of a sudden I found myself somewhere and I 'knew' where I was and what was going on, that feeling you get sometime in a dream that you just know something even though there is no evidence to support it. Anyways WILD: On a hillside with big rocks almost buried. We were fighting waiting to fight the Germans. They would run down the hills and sit on our heads and necks and either fart or pee or both. As soon as the motion started of the dream I woke up realizing what was going on jolted me from the dream. I wont count this as a LD though since it was probably less than 5 seconds.

Last night I tried 5htp as a sleep aid and it seemed to work, I slept a little restless but peacefully. This morning had this pretty vivid dream.

Game of Thrones setting/time. I was in a kingdom and we were on a very steep hill trying to conduct business. I had a couple of flags from other kingdoms I was trying to get up hill. We were the step children of the kingdom, I guess we didn't have it very good. So we were getting made fun of thorough a window from a girl/queen of another kingdom. I went down to the window and ripped the screen off and grabbed her head and pulled it through the screen (game of thrones style). I got a little trash talk out of the way when the body guard came up to me with a spear/weapon, I released her and shut the screen. The lord of our kingdom just got back from the store, he had gotten some portable flooring and some outside chairs I guess to spruce the place up. There were a lot of people sitting around and I helped him get things set up. Moved some of his wood flooring parts and some IKEA chairs onto it. That's about it.

Ok well I was out of town and didn't have the time to do these on a daily basis.

29Dec13

I took notes on this one after the fact, a couple dreams after and wrote the night after I had it so it was pretty fuzzy.

I was dating or met and started dating a girl. There was another girl (her friend) who was dating one of my friends. Bars and clubs. Rode a bicycle with both of them down a street and going up and down street curbs. Other girl began to go crazy and tried to steal my car, I got in passenger side and pulled e-break so she couldn't take it. Ended up at a show where both of them had been performers. I took a seat for the show in a theater in the second row down, had to pass a few people and sat next to an older lady who had to move her leg or her purse. The intro was someone from the dukes of hazard apologizing for the crazy girl not being there and sorry they could not perform that night. The second act started with tall skinny girls dancing, they were all fully clothed from head to toe in heavy woven fabric doing crazy dancing.

30Dec13

This one I went lucid in and took notes right when I woke up. There was a lot more before this but I only remember snippits.

Started with me on a ship. I was going to the aft end and up a couple of decks. I went outside to see how the deck looked to see what shape it was in. For some reason I was carrying a blanket. Anyways when I got there it was really rusted but it looked like it had been freshly painted in some spots. In the water was clouds of stuff either dirt or rust. I turned around to head in and at this point is was night. A girl who worked for me was standing there and was very sad. I talked to her and found out that her husband had died. I asked from what and she said it was something crazy like malaria. I consoled her and hugged her deeply and for a long time. She climbed into my lap like a child would and straddled me. A few more people showed up there or were there and I just noticed. I knew or had the feeling that her husband was a jerk and bad for her. I told her that she should go out with another girl that was there and they should tear up the town, trying to break up the tension. Another girl crawled up to the girl who was very young, maybe 2 and I was surprised she was there by herself. I told the girl that I would take care of everything with her husband and left. I got up and started climbing stairs up and thought, "oh I have a lot to do, stressful" this was a cue to do a reality check, hands, fingers were 5, 6, 7 nice.

LUCID: I thought of flying up the rest of the way and then remembered I was working on anchoring. I looked at my hands in detail, wrinkles and hairs, moved closer to the light to get better detail. I now felt anchored! I was half way up stairs but now I was climbing up boxes. I climbed to the top and now I was on a stack of boxes and crates in a big open area, still on a ship. I anchored again since I was in a new place. Once I finished thought what should I do? I thought try to shoot fire balls from your hands? why not? This was one thing I had on my bucket list. I put my hand in the air and did some moving and thought and some words and said "fire!" and threw my hand forward. The ball went it was a ball a little bigger than a baseball, it was kind of a puttering fire ball, it was black and then on fire and black and kind of moved this way and that way. This is not the type of ball I wanted to shoot. I imagined more what I wanted it to look like and threw another. Much better it went faster and kept fire and straight. I threw it towards a couple of people and they jumped out of the way. I threw several of them all around me at people. fun. How about ice? I then threw ice balls around me in a similar fashion, these were just like snow balls. Then I tried electricity/lightning, my favorite by far. Balls of light went and when they hit gave the DC they were thrown at a nice jolt. To my right there were a couple people who looked like they were going to retaliate, so I began to use both hands and threw a barrage of fire balls towards them. Needless to say there was no retaliation. There was this really large guy behind me who I had thrown a couple of balls at and he dodged, I hit him with lightning and it zapped him. I finished throwing balls and climbed down the boxes. He was kind of mocking me so I thought of something else I could do, a "finishing move" I guess. So I threw both my hands in the air and said "Meteor!" and brought them down, at this point it began to rain meteors and got the mocker. I was thoroughly pleased with myself. I headed toward a door that was in front of me to further explore. As I reached toward a door knob the big guy grabbed my leg and pleaded with me not to go. I kind of stressed a little bit since he was so big and I didn't know if I could get him off of me. I shook once and he went off a bit. I started getting a bit mad and thought that if I couldn't get him off he was going to get it, I didn't have a plan for it but it was going to be rough for him. I did one more shake and he was off. I opened the door and walked into a neighborhood. The grass was green, it was a nice blue sky. The neighborhood was nice and I had just stepped out of the front door of a mid sized house, stucco siding and the clay shingles on the roof, 2 story. The house next door was similar as well. I noticed a big tree with green leaves. The road was a light blue like it hadn't finished loading the color yet. I practiced anchoring and probably didn't do it for long enough. I began walking toward the house next door and contemplated what I was going to do, break into the house? whoosh... out of the dream.

31st - Not much recall and only snippits.
The funeral of a friend and a moment of silence.
Waiting for others when I was leading, they would not follow. it was a mall like area.

1st - Not much recall and only snippits again but maybe an OBE?
Main thing I remember is falling asleep, I felt dream bodyish and just kind of rolled out of my body. I looked back in my bed and saw my wife sleeping, I didn't' see me.... or did I? My mind was playing tricks on me but it was definitely a dream now that I am remembering. I never became fully lucid since my mind convinced me I was just up from bed, don't remember what happened after that.

So this is my second dream journal entry and just so happens I went lucid during one of them. I am trying to focus on dream stabilization and anchoring right now.

I tried to go to sleep with a mantra both initially and when I woke at 130 but it just seemed to keep me awake so I just fell asleep naturally.

1. Something to do with circuits and circuit cards with lights and switches. When I woke at 130 I didn't try recall that much and didn't take any notes since the longer dreams would come later in the night.

2. Woke at 415 with this one. Was in a hot and desolate type place either west Texas or maybe Iowa and was with 2 DC, maybe a cousin and my brother. We were talking about where we were going to take everyone swimming. The cousin wanted to go to the beach and I said maybe we could go to a pond or whatever watering hole they had around here. Cousin said the hole only went waist deep. Not sure if this transitioned to my next dream or it was an all together separate dream.

Found myself on my ceiling looking down. The floor was outer space and I could see earth. There was a large ball of light going into Earth and I thought, cool this is something I wanted to do in one of my dreams (I thought it would be cool to see what would happen if an object I created hit earth while I was looking at it from outer space.) LUCID - I realized this was a dream but at the same time realized I wanted to work on dream stabilization and anchoring. I studied my hands, not like I normally do but I focused on the hairs and wrinkles, it was pretty shadowed where I was in my room so I moved over to the light so I could see better. I could see my hands very detailed, and had the nice warping motion of my fingers. I felt pretty stable in the dream now. I looked where the Earth was and It was gone. I headed to outer space. There I was floating/falling to no where. I was kind of lost as to what to do, this was the first time I had been to space in a dream. So I decided since Earth was gone I might as well hit another on my bucket list and try to go to an alien planet. I didn't see anything so I closed my eyes and wished for one. Nothing. Closed my eyes for longer and wished harder, nothing. Ughh. I then thought what about falling into the ocean on earth? I closed my eyes again and imagined what it would be like to fall in the ocean.... splash! I came out of the water with my arms raised high, there were people everywhere around like it was MTV spring break and they all cheered like I just scored a touchdown during the super bowl. Awesome. I was on a beach, the water was just over ankle high and there were people in swimming suits everywhere. I decided to anchor myself a bit since this was a new dreamscape. I looked at my hand and saw I had a flap of skin hanging off on one of them. I felt stable and began walking with everyone else toward who knows what. A DC girl was walking by me and I tapped her, looked at her and said " Did you know this was a dream?", she seemed unimpressed. I was still telling myself at this point that it was a dream. I walked to another girl in a suit and turned her so I could see her face, and whoosh out of the dream I came. I remember having a faint worry that the dream would end but kept going.

3. Some sort of game. Was on a boat or something in lava in a ditch or gully. the lava was cooled at one part but still hot and I had to get out of the boat. I barely got around a column and burned myself a bit. I was not in another area which was high above a square colleseum type area or ruins with stone columns and grassy areas on the ground. in the middle of this was a small person maybe a dwarf. I was on a non-stable sort of platform. there were objects around me, a gold rind and a couple of stuff animals and maybe a shoe. tried to grab at the rind and it vanished (with a cha-ching game sound) grabbed at a couple other things with same result. managed to grab stuffed animal and threw it at dwarf. the began to change form and also said something along the lines as "yes that's it". threw another thing at him and he changed to a raccoon I believe. I woke shortl