Sea of the Unconscious

My fiancée and I visited my sister’s apartment. She was living with her boyfriend, J. J went back to the freezer, which was located in the bathroom. J stated that there was a large ice penis sculpture that had appeared in the freezer. Intrigued, I investigated. Their bathroom was larger than the rest of their apartment, with multiple rooms, many stalls, urinals, and squat toilets.

Everyone followed me into the bathroom, and J sat down on a squat toilet. He took a plastic skull, and instructed us how to use the squat toilet. Water was shooting up from the toilet, so he used the skull to shovel water over the crotch of his pants. He instructed the men to put their penises into the water-filled skulls when they peed. Someone ate one of the plastic skulls during the demonstration.

When we all vacated the bathroom, a young lady was kidnapped and brought to the tope of the apartment building. A couple of my friends pursued the kidnappers. These people abducted women, put masks on them, and offered them to a monster. This female monster was tricked into believing that these female humans were the male mates to the monster. Somehow the monster reproduced, and gave birth to three male offspring.

It was recommended to me to have a second spinal fusion. I went along with it because I thought it would help. I was in first grade, but I was around 18 years old—as were all the other students.

Despite just having surgery, I was not experiencing any pain. I was hardly participating in the class, and considered using my recent surgery as an excuse. As class went on, my level of discomfort and pain increased. I was about to leave the class when my fiancée showed up. She hugged me from behind, and became extremely irritable and scolded her for touching my back. She hugged me again more gently, but still touched my back, thus causing me pain. We hung out in the classroom, no longer paying attention to the teacher. We rummaged around the teacher’s desk, and asked the teacher if she had an audio jack in her computer. I decided to introduce my fiancée to my teacher, but forgot her name. Mrs. White introduced herself instead. Yet again my back was in great pain.

During lunch, a colleague of Mrs. White’s visited the classroom, and performed some magic. He took several objects, and summoned the same objects from the past. For example, if the object was created in 2000, he would have summoned it from 2000, when it was brand new.

The scene changed, and I was the passenger in a car. The pain was overwhelming. I laid down as best I could in the back seat, resting my head on my fiancée’s lap. I was almost crying from the pain by the end of the dream.

My parents and I were going on vacation to Alaska. A man—a guide presumably—was planning our Alaska trip, but he was not a professional. Then my dream replaced the trip to Alaska with China. We were in a park with a lot of water or fountains. My dad and the guide were walking ahead, leaving a small girl behind—a female relative, I assumed she was my sister or cousin. She was left behind because, though she might have been full of energy at that moment, she’d be too slow or tire out quickly later on. I picked her up and carried her with us, but carrying her around was rather uncomfortable for me.

We were supposed to go to Star River in China, but we went to Star River on the moon instead. We could breathe on the moon, which confused us. We saw astronauts in space suits, and a pile of poop. I poked it before realizing it was poop. The river was dried up, and had been dried up for years, but the erosion was still etched into the moon’s surface. The guide had intentionally misled us there. Other tours were led to the moon’s Star River instead of China’s Star River, it was a tactic used to waste time. We were disappointed that we were not at China’s Star River. We went back to China, and waited for our turn to take a tour of Star River. We waited in a cafeteria.


Interpretation
The moon, Alaska and poop (it looked like my duck’s poop, which I have seen an awful lot of these past few weeks) were all residue from the day before. The little girl might have represented my mother--after all, she was only there when I did not see my mom. My mother is often left out of international travel plans because of her pain and movement issues. My father, sister and I went to China in March without inviting my mother, realizing that she’d be incapable of walking so much. She was rather depressed the week that we were gone, and I’ve felt bad about it ever since. I sometimes view my mother as a child: incapable of managing on her own anymore. I also need a lot of patience with her, like I would with someone younger. I have been offering to help her more at my inconvenience because I know she can’t manage on her own. I also try to protect her from my sisters’ judgements about her, even though my mom drives me crazy too.

I was standing in my bedroom. The lighting was very dim and yellow, almost like what you would see cast off a small fire. I remembered that lights and colors were subdued in my dreams, and became lucid. I don't think I did any RCs, I skipped to trying to stabilize the dream. My dream body felt like my real body, so I was initially concerned about moving or speaking with my physical body. I first rubbed my hands together, but I didn't feel or notice anything. I chanted, "Lucidity now!" a number of times, increasing the volume of my voice to try to force the dream to become more clear. I should have chanted something about vividness instead.

I think the dream was still dim and vague, I don't remember much about it anyway. I summoned a mirror to try to complete TOTM. I think I expanded the size of it. I tried pushing myself into the mirror, imagining my fiancee on the other side. I tried to imagine the mirror's cold touch as I went through it. I don't remember anything after that. Seems I didn't stabilize my dream well enough!