Xanous' Dream Journal

I was trying to incubate a beach dream during MILD. It didn't quite work out. I was feeling really wakeful alread and was afraid I wasn't going to get to sleep in the first hour so I have to keep it short to quite my mind enough.

#196 - MILD - 4:49AM

I am driving to/from that I think was the beach. Was is the Georgia trip? It starts snowing ridiculously hard and the scene whites out.

I have a FA and I know that I am dreaming. I am in the house from my late teenage years. My parents are milling about not paying attention to me. I remember the task to hug a DC. My dad is the closest and I reach out and hug him tightly. I remember negative feelings I have toward him and I let them go. I say, "I love you, Dad." He doesn't really seem to react much to this but I feel good telling him that and I continue down stairs.

The scene skips head. (Who wants to walk down stairs in a dream?) I am at the front door and when I open it I see that it is snowing with some accumulation. I say, "Oh! Snow!" I take a long slow floating leap off the porch but realize the snow is not that deep. I turn over to my back and think, The snow is deep. The snow is deep. When I land the snow is sure enough deep but it's a little too deep. I create a large deep hole and snow caves in on me.

I have another FA. I start to reach for my DJ but something feels off. Am I still dreaming? Do a nose plug and blow through. It didn't feel very clean so I blew harder a few more times. Once satisfied I get up and exit the door. I realize I am in the first house I bought with my ex-wife. I see her sitting in a couch in the living room at the end of the hallway. When I get to the living room I notice my mom on the other couch holding a baby. Ignore them and sit next to my ex. For the moment I feel like I am in the past. I hug her and remember old feelings and the good times we had.I begin to make out with her. It seems awkward that my mom is in the room but I know that if I ignore her she will not exist. Everything feels like it used to but soon she starts morphing into my current wife. The scene becomes very much like Vanilla Sky and I push away from her feeling guilty and confused.

I have another FA. I nose plug and continue out of the room. There is a long hallway in the darkness and as I walk it begins to grow and stretch longer and longer. My crotch feels odd and I get the feeling like some force is holding me back. I start to panic. I realize this is turning nightmarish so I relax, calm myself and focus on moving forward. Almost instantly I am at the end. There is really large living room with a kitchen bar to the left. Where am I this time? It's too dark to see but I notice some red led on the wall. Must be a smoke detector I reach on the adjacent wall and feel for a light switch. I flip it expectantly and a the light on a ceiling fan brightens the room. The room looks alien yet familiar. It feels like some apartment. I yell making funny sounds just to hear the odd dream sound of my voice. Then, I try to think what to do and all I can remember is the fireworks task. I spot a buffet with a lot of junk on it. I start rummaging around and pick up a match. I say, "There's the matches." Then I see a single bottle rocket. I looks just like a Moon Traveler. "There's the firework." I put the match in my mouth and then the bottle rocket. I have to break the stick to get it to fit and have a hard time swallowing. I feel like I might choke so I just let it sit there and it quickly dissolves. Now I point my finger across the room at some glass sliding doors. I feel uncertain how this so I just point and wait. I try to focus on the bottle rocket shooting out of my finger tip but I wake up before anything happens.