Deanstar

YES! I went back to sleep (considering it's saturday and didn't have to do anything) and more dreams happened. (Didn't consider exactly how much dreams or the richness of their content much still I started recording them here).

I didn't do any technique, this just happened. But I will say I was praying, and part of my prayer I had asked for better dreams and Lucid dreams. Also my room feels 10 times lighter since I got rid of the sonic doll. So now seems it was granted pretty much straight away! (Jesus Christ is awesome) So I really am grateful. Thought I should record it soon as possible and I guess this is where I write everything for now.

I was at my old neighborhood talking with a friend use to know there, and I was looking at the sun and noticed it looked a bit different. And I say jokingly hey the sun looks like a portal. He looked at it, and it started opening like a portal. My friend was amazed by what happened next was kind of kool. It basically started moving more and more, and it was like a vehicle in the yard I can't explain how it transformed but eventually it was like shooting bullets. I started to flee from it, as it had turned basically into a some sort of battle tank. Then it was coming towards us, and I thought it's definitely going to shoot us now.

(other details of dream but no time to explain everything)
Since this was a very strange dream, I went sort of into lucid mode right here, and thought, okay, lets make this into a car chase. And I started looking for a car to drive (seem to do this a lot, my dream self is obsessed with car racing). I went to go in this really poor 1960s car for a joke, but when I got in, it had no steering wheel. So I thought ok screw that. I couldn't really find any car that I liked. So I simply created one. Some blue really rockin car.

With the tank behind me, I started making buttons in the car, to shoot out bullets out the back lol. And I had fun with that for a while, this thing wasn't really any match for me when I was Lucid. I think it's the same spirit that attacked me in my last dreams. Then I saw the brisbane river and I was going pretty fast and this is when the dream turned into an explosion of realism, I turned my car into a flying device with another button, and started drifting over the river, by this time whatever was attacking me in my dreams (through the tank sun thing) it had faded away as my clarity had increased. I now was in awe of the river, the city in general, looked so beautiful, and I was trying to examine the scenery while I was flying through the air. Sometimes I fly without anything, but since I had turned my car into basically a flying machine I was going extremely fast almost like a plane. It was pretty amazing as I could see things way more clear than in real life, every detail of the buildings, the lights, the water, that free feeling you get when your in total clarity in a dream. I considered it was time to start experimenting or to verify something in this place. So I started looking over everything in the city, for things in the dream to see if I could verify some information. I went over to a football field and noted a game being played out. I can't remember the score of the game but the ball came my way, and I threw it back, and the referee said, see it's people like that we need to thank, (lol dont know ). Then I think with the beauty of everything that I became distracted in trying to verify some information I could bring back or something, and I had started recording lotto numbers, on a screen not that i expectedIto win lotto was actually trying to get results that already had come up) thinking that if I wrote the 6 numbers or so down I could verify that I had obtained some information. After writing them for a bit I thought this is pointless, I should be seeking God directly, so I stopped and sought out a different plan, for some reason this guy started irritating me, I don't know why but I punched him. His friend said, if I were you I would go fight him. I thought maybe this is good boxing practice, so I started boxing with him, which was kind of fun for a while, I wanted to do other stuff but the dream had ended. I think I lost my Lucid ability to go further because I did something inappropriate.

(notes: First mistake, trying to verify information in dream in wrong way. Does not work to go looking for things in the way that I did, that's not what that dream dimension is for and it seems to lead to chaos. Secondly too violent, almost to the point of bullying a dream character. I think if I reflect on these mistakes, I can get better success next time, as I'm still learning and all my faults come out in my dreams which I wouldn't otherwise know about. It's also interesting to see a pattern of attack in my dream, which i don't think comes from me, but it real demonic force involved fighting me in the actual dream world)

That's all for now.

Want to write this while it's still fresh in my mind.

Was shoping, trying to choose a hat to wear, I went to look in the mirror to try a beanie on that I wanted to buy. These other couple of people kept trying to use the mirror for silly things, like that lift up a painting they wanted to see about. I thought why reflect what you can already see directly? So I left the store and my phone rang. It was my mom, she said can you come down here, they want to interview you for some movie broadcasting. The phone was cutting in and out and wasn't working. I eventally said, 'sorry, phone is cutting out' and left it. For some reason was in a running mood and just started sprinting around the block extremely fast. Then I saw a wild pig! I tried to move away from it, but it was very friendly towards me, almost like a pet dog. I throw it an apple that was in my hard and it went after it. I took the opportunity to sprint away from it, and had some success, then I looked back (this is so gross) and it did this massive crap right across the road bigger than I have ever seen. For some reason my half sister was behind me, and she screamed "gross" I looked back an almost barfed but also found it extremely amusing. Eventually got to my location, and found my great grandmother (who is quite elderly) having some sort of trouble with her words, repeating words, I thought maybe she was having a stoke and I think they were taking her to the hospital. This dream starts getting worse. I start fighting with someone's son, I don't know who it was, but I said something to the nature of, "I'd beat your skull in" Then his father came in (that I recognized as someone I was close with for some reason) and said, no you won't he's my son, an he got extremely angry, then I said why would I hurt him I love that guy, then I said I had got carried away and apologized, then he said no sorry it was me. Then we both agrees we just had a temper.

The dream kind of skips through varies scenes, but I found myself in this prison camp thing. And everyone had a blade. And I was saying to this kid, (same one I had the argument with) you don't want to end up here, to waste your life in prison and get into drugs, you want to do something with your life. The prisoners or someone was disagreeing and saying no it's actually a productive life, I was repulsed and said how is it? They started secretly showing me their hand made blades and trying to discreetly slice my arms with it. They would gang up and then suddenly slice me. I thought I got to get security somehow. But security in this camp was very lacking. Eventually someone I recognized as a highschool student who died in a car crash, he was there and he had this needle that had aids in it, and he was laughing trying to stick it in me! He wanted to stick it in and break the needle tip off in me. I can't remember if he managed to do it, but a cop eventually came to my aid, and he had a machine gun and backed him against the wall.

All this was bad enough, but gets worse. I had a couple of false awakenings, in one of them I was on my computer researching an old friends books, except he was into alice bailey and luciferian stuff that was wrong, I was reading through it and disturbing all the subjects were on target and very interesting, but they were mixing truth and falseness it. I read his notes down that said like "It's been fascinating to watch the reaction between Satan and Gods people concerning this book" and something along the lines of that. I thought this is intense lol. The dream skips to a different scene again where my teeth feel a bit odd, I say to one of my suppose friends, these teeth here actually feel a lot sharper then they should. He checks them out and grins and gets excited, and I said what? He said, yep, you have been bitten. I got the impression he was saying (you become a vampire) I said, oh really? Great, thanks. Then I felt my neck and blood was coming out of it. And I said, "are you happy now? There I'm like you". I can't remember his response.

(creepy false awakening)
I suddenly wake up in my room, and think to myself. What is with that dream? Then I notice the top of my laptop is actually missing. I check my computer screen...I have actually taken it apart in my sleep, I thought Good heavens what have I done here? How did I do this to my computer? Then I realized there was another "me" that seemed to be extremely smart, and was trying to do things opposite of my agenda, that it had something to do with the vampire thing. I got out of bed, and my lights went down in my apartment, I don't know why but something in the building had been triggered. This is where I forced myself awake, because I didn't believe what had happened. Then I woke up from this...

I have never dreamt of becoming a vampire victim like that, but that dream was really fascinating. When I recall this material it seems to be really awful, but I hardly ever experience any kind of "fear" in these sort of nightmares. It's almost like the drama is just entertaining me.

(Note: I think I have discovered some of the problem, recently at a fair, I had brought home this sonic doll. And put it on my desk, just now and I can sense something has taken this doll over, it's got this creepy awesome little sonic smile on it, and it is more or less telling me "hope you liked your dreams". I need to get rid of this thing, it's got energy in it. I knew it should not have got objects that I don't know where they come from. It's probaly got some weird gypsy curse on it, I'm taking it down to the trash.)