DeDromer

Both non-lucid.
Apparently I'm having the fear to make other people upset...


- I'm at work. My manager tells me that I have to deliver immediately a version of the application. I do it but there is an error. The manager is angry on me. I deliver a new version but there is still another error. The manager is increasingly angry on me. I finally delivery a new version without mistakes but the manager doesn't check it and comes to me shouting and saying that I was slacking and that I have to work much harder, which was feeling very unfair to me because I was really working hard.

- This is very very long. I'm not sure about where this dream is placed, but for sure not in italy, and I might be wrong but it was also not looking like The Netherlands. It could be something Scandinavian. Maybe Norway, on summer. I'm in a theater, with my parents, to see a sort of musical with a religious background story. After the musical, I go back with them and they tell me that they changed the bathroom and they put a new shower (what a coincidence, this is something I'm planning to do for my house). Then I go around with the bike with my friends, off road. We even cross a river with the bike. Then I meet a group of girls and there is in particular one with whom I have a click. Later on I'm in a restaurant with my girlfriend, waiting for my friends to show up. Casually the girl of before was showing up, with a friend (a guy). I then let my girlfriend alone with the guy and started to flirt with the other girl. We danced together. We sat on a table the two of us and then at a certain point I realized "hey, this is wrong of me! I forgot my girlfriend at the other table!" and the girl "what??????" (she was thinking that my girlfriend was actually just a friend). I go to the other table and find my girlfriend incredibly bored and annoyed with me that I let her alone, she didn't like the company of the other guy at all. I say "let's go on the other table, my friends are not showing up" and when we come back to the table where the other girl was sitting, she was incredibly angry and frustrated and she started to shout at the other guy for a very trivial reason. My girlfriend sits very far away from me. I then wake up.

In the first dream I talked partially English and partially Dutch. In the second I spoke in Italian with my parents and friends, In Spanish with people around and with my girlfriend (that doesn't make any sense) and in English with the girl I was flirting with.

Non lucid dreams:

- I'm in Netherlands with the company of an Italian guy. He's a summer and brother of a girl i met in real life, but I never met him directly. In the dream he moved in Netherlands under advice of a priest (?). A friend of mine was there and I said the guy that my friends knows his sister, and the guy was like "how can you know i have a sister if we never met before and I didn't tell you so". I then tell him that I'm becoming daddy (this is true) and he congratulates me. I ask him if he has children and he told me that he prefers not because his girlfriend is handicapped. I then fantasize of the fact that I can casually sing with him. We go to the church for a mass and I think that this fantasy can become true, but I sing and he disappears from my sight.

- I'm with my girlfriend at the house of her ex. I discover from her that one of her ex was the brother of the sunset of my ex band. Talking with him I discover that he had also a relationship with my ex and that both of us dumped her because she was too religious for our tastes.

Most of the dream signs here are about weird dialogues and misplaced people.

Boring non lucid dreams
- I put the green container outside. I think about the fact that it's almost full.
- I compare with my girlfriend our books.
- I meet some friends. One tells me that he will not arrive at 50 healthy because he drinks too much.
- I go in a bar speaking Italian to the barista. The guy didn't speak Italian so I tell him in Dutch that I'm going away.

I'm upset with a friend. I therefore walk in the village with two pillows that I want to throw in his face. The motivation I'm so upset: he never asks me how I am or invite me for activities. I find a friend of mine and stay for a drink, then i continue my quest. I find the house and I go inside, but I find another friend. He asks me why I am there, I explain what he's going on. Suddenly I feel that I no longer desire to be rude to the other friend, and that friend arrives. I let him know why I'm there and that I am no longer upset with him and glad to see him. I give him back a tool that he lent me and I stay for a drink.

This dream was dull as fuck. Next time I want alien invasions and sex underwater lol

There were hitmen. And to contrast them we decided to become hitmen ourselves. Who? Me, an ex colleague and another guy. Why? No clue.

All not lucid.
- I'm doing things. I'm with friends. I use tool and materials. The thing generated mess in the house of my parents. My mother complains about all those screed on the floor. Bah

- I'm in the pub with my friends and also my ex (never seen her before) and her new boyfriend are with us. I accidently say something that makes them having a discussion. He becomes defensive and sarcastic. I talk to him, I apologize for what I said, it was not my meaning to cause him troubles. I advise him to calm down and be nicer to the girl because for experience she doesn't appreciate that behaviour.

- I participate to a running competition inside a supermarket. Only one runner can run per time. The total distance is 5 km, the tach is the perimeter of the supermarket (inside). I do one round and I think that I finished, but the woman at the information point tells me that it's not enough. I do other five rounds. But they're also not enough. I swear that the feeling of running was incredibly accurate.

Night with long preparation. Tried the 'catch the butterfly' technique, I got up to vibration and hallucinations (I was seeing the face of my cat) and hypnagogia and semi paralysis, but didn't manage to fall asleep. Then I had an unintentional wake back to bed. and...

- dream (lucid): I was in a dark room, doing something at the computer. I hear my girlfriend crying in another room, I went there and she was in the bed, complaining that I was hiding something. I was cuddling her and assuring her that it was not the case. A weird thing is that I could hear her breathing very loud even when she was talking (probably I was hearing my girlfriend next to me in RL). After a while I notice that something was quite odd in that house... because it was not my house! I don't live there, I was in an unknown house! So the solution comes: it's a dream! I immediately go out to see how was the outside and I remain speechless: I was in Iceland!!! (or probably in Netherlands, but I was thinking that I was in Iceland, and expectation is reality in the dreamworld, so...)
I try to run and to fly but I don't succeed. I can walk, but pretty heavily. I find three chairs in the garden, I throw them in the air to test the gravity: the chair were moving very lightly and planing pretty slowly, like there were baloons. I arrive to a forest. The sky was beautiful full of clouds and the forest full of vegetation. I try to summon a woman, but this attempt make my dream vanish. (I think that I'm done with summoning for the moment). I wake up.

- dream (lucid): this time I'm in my bedroom but something was off: the mirror reflected my image slightly out of sync. Enough to me to understand that it was a dream. So I'm in front of a mirror, what is the best way to go outside? Easy: entering in the mirror! Funny thing: part of the mirror was solid and part was a portal. I was using the solid part to facilitate my movements inside the dream. I find myself in the same forest of before. This time I can run and even fly. I was flying pretty slowly, but always next to the street. I was feeling incredibly free and happy. At a certain point I stop flying and I put my shoes out because I wanted to feel the ground. I could feeling very clearly in a very accurate representation. At a certain point a man and a hot blond woman come on a jeep. The man looks at me threatening and wants to attack me. I desire that I could not do anything bad to me and as soon as I was approaching me I found that I was dead. I go close to the woman to approach her but the dream vanishes.

What a fantastic night!

I'm writing just before to go to bed again, so very few details.

- dream (non lucid): I was on a roller coaster where the cart didn't have any protection, but only a bar that I could grab to avoid falling off. I found this detail pretty suspicious, but I justified it thinking that the gravity was protecting me.

- dream (lucid): I was going on a motorbike (never did in my life) and suddenly had a very long jump. To long, I was almost flying. I noticed this inconsistency and got lucid: suddenly the sky took very incredible colors, the effect of the sunset with the clouds was gorgeous... But lasted just a couple of seconds and the dream vanished.

- dream (non lucid): I, with my girlfriend, were keepers of a big villa. The owners were on vacation and were coming back the day after. We caused some damage and there was an incredible mess, especially at the third floor and no time to fix the situation.

Tonight I made very dull dreams about stuck toilets and needs.
I'm not wasting my time describing them.

But I got lucid! I was in a car with another guy who was driving, at a certain point I see a shop with a sign with written "dream sign" (I appreciate the sarcasm of my mind), things that could not remain unnoticed so that I did the nose reality check, and for the first time I could breath! I became lucid, but I was too excited and I woke up almost immediately. Damn!

- Dream (non lucid): I'm back to university, presumingly in Amsterdam. This university is much cooler than the one i actually did. I surprised the professor with my excellent knowledge about databases and for being able to write in Russian and in Persian, although a native speaker made me notice that I have a problem with the "maticagne" (eh? I looked this word up but it looks totally made up - it sounds Italian but it is gibberish. I found something in French but it has a different pronunciation).

Here I was knowing two languages that I of course cannot know. Well, knowing... I was actually feeling like I had no idea what I actually wrote.

Horrible

Well no, let's say that every experience counts, but this is by far the most disturbing and weird I ever had.
Preliminary information: I woke up in the night, being awake for one hour and half and then tried WILD.

- dream (lucid): I have no idea how but I got lucid. I would not say that it was because of the WILD because I lost continuity... But eventually I got a sleep paralysis, of I dreamt about having one, and then I thought: that's it, I'm dreaming! And I got lucid. As soon as I got lucid I had the most devastating lucid high I ever experienced: an explosion of colours and then matrix style computer characters. I was feeling my brain exploding and my blood like boiling (and no, I don't use any drugs ). I tried to summon a woman but it didn't work out at all (I could never get summoning right but this is my biggest failure). I was periodically rubbing my hands like advised by Laberge, what a weird feeling! I tried watching my hands and they were somehow looking bigger. I was in my bedroom with my girlfriend next to me, I got confused on the fact that I could be awake. So I tried by checking the reflection in the mirror: it worked perfectly. Even the feeling of the bed and the sound of my hand touching the bed, absolutely realistic. I eventually get stuck in my confusion, my girlfriend whispered "you're crazy". I give up.

After a while I wake up thinking how stupid I was to waste such opportunity. I should have tried other reality checks, I should have explored the dreamworld around me, I could have flown. I did nothing, just stayed in the bed and reality checking on the mirror. Meh. But OMG, what a crazy feeling.

- dream (non lucid): I proposed my girlfriend and she said yes, then also get ex proposed her and she also said yes. Then she told me that she was going took meet him because more similar to her.

- dream (non lucid): a woman that I know married another woman. Curious about her I ask her why, she said that she was bored of fucking around with men. I then ask her if she loves her and she admits that she doesn't.

Continuity, locations and weird dialogues were my main dream signs.

The two dreams of last night were about me being back in Italy.

- dream (non lucid): after two years and half in Netherlands I decide that I miss Italy and I quit my job, leave my apartment and go back to live with my apartment. I find a job in a not very nice workplace and I start a new relationship with my ex. (Terrible idea lol) I soon realize that I made a terrible mistake and that I desire to go back to the Netherlands. I discuss it with my mother but she is upset with me.

- dream (non lucid): instead of going back to the Netherlands, I decide to go to a different region of Italy (Tuscany I think). I go to live with a flatmate, a girl, which I find attractive and there is immediately a click.

Dream signs: in my first dream I ate a breakfast prepared by my deceased aunt, still alive in my dream. The food really had a taste though. In the second dream I receive a comment in Facebook by an ex of mine and the second time I read it the text is slightly different. I unfortunately rationalized it as my mistake and didn't become lucid.

I'm now struggling with recalls after days of super detailed dreams.

Dream (non lucid): I died because of electrocution by testing a Christmas tree. My vocalizing the fact awoke my girlfriend. I reality checked just in case of a false awakening, but I was awake for real.

Dream (non lucid): I was a woman. And I was in prison. I don't remember a lot about it but there was a room called "the last room" that was looking like a Church where instead of have a confession with a priest you could speak to a lawyer. But I was a woman and didn't become lucid. Meh.

No recall. I actually remembered something this morning but it was so incredibly dull that I didn't feel motivated to remember it.
Anyway I tried the WILD. I'm doing it since when I restarted actually and so far no result but I guess I'm getting better.

Before last night it was almost something like "1: I'm dreaming, 2: I'm dreaming, 3: I'm.... zzzzzZZZZzzzZZ". Yesterday I went up to 100 and restarted 3 times. I gave up after the third set of 100. I sometimes felt my body completely relaxed at the point that I was suspecting to have the sleep paralysis. I had some involuntary movement in my feet, so I guess I was getting close. Unfortunately I slept through and I couldn't retry it.

In the past my maximum result with WILD was to arriving at the point I was hearing a very loud crash and waking up from it. Here I'm a piece earlier.