Curiouser and Curiouser

So I'm crazy busy! argh!
But I had a second lucid dream
I flew! and found M. Two of my goals in one dream! Yesss! But I couldn't look closely at anything, and everything kept going black. But I never woke up! So I think I'm getting better at this

Dream 1:
I am with four people, my brother B, and two adult figures (One of them was my dad, I think). The two adults have a large metal tank with legs. They are filling it with helium to make it float, and I don't think that makes sense/will work, but it does. Me and B are supposed to compete to glue these light bulb contraptions on to the sides of the tank, but we get distracted. In the end, he wins, and I am very upset. We get in a fight. He points at himself and says "smart" and then at me and says "dumb". I storm off dropping f-bombs.

Dream 2:
I vaguely remember being in some sort of large inside play house.

Dream 3:
I am in a room that is my "knitting room". I am sleeping there, but I almost feel as though I shouldn't be. It is adjoined with more rooms in a building, but the other rooms aren't my. It is my office/some sort of workplace. A girl is here, even though it is really early in the morning, and I feel the urge to hide under my covers from her. She comes in later and tells me she wrote and expose on one of my coworkers dogs. I talk to my mom about this, and decide to prove the girl wrong by cooking some sort of dish with cheddar cheese on top of it. It works! Huzzah.

First dream:

I wrote some key points. down, but when I woke up I couldn't remember much more than what I'd written.

I am at school buying lunch with C (from jr. high/currnet) and 2 (?) other friends who I don't remember. S walks by with a friend and casts me a scathing glance. I feel satisfied.

Second dream:

I am in band, but band is taught by Mr. Kn (my teacher from media in high school). M is in band with me (and she was in my media class for a while!). M offers to drive me to our competition. I am in her car - it has a dark red roof that is "pressed velvet". I suggest she gets a chandelier for her car, and feel please with myself for making this funny suggestion. We go somewhere and I buy new shoes. Throughout the dream I struggle to hold all the things I am carrying - my new shoes and old ones, my ipod, other things.

We get to the gym for the band competition, but we are there almost as a prank. We perform, but are obviously not trying, and are just making fun of the other bands. We have no instruments. Someone says "get into groups of three!", and we line up in threes. A police man comes and starts to talk to Mr. Kn - we are in trouble for making light of the competition. I walk away.

I woke up this morning at around 8 AM, and realized that I had once again failed to have a lucid dream, and only remembered a little bit of one dream about getting really drunk on beer, working at a cash register for a really long line of people, and messing around with two friends. I was so frustrated that I told myself "You are not leaving this bed until you have had another dream, and it had better be lucid". So I lay back down in bed, but I couldn't go to sleep again for another half hour (because I really wasn't tired anymore).

Finally, I managed to get back to sleep.

FIRST LUCID DREAM:

I am shopping for a present for my brother in a strange store, but there's nothing very good for him, and one PEZ dispenser costs 10 dollars. They keep boarding up the shelves so that I can only see stuff through the side. I find an awesome skirt that makes you look like Kairi from Kingdom Hearts, but when I look back they've all turned into other articles of clothing.

I walk into another part of the store and do a reality check of plugging my nose and breathing. I realize it works and am SUDDENLY LUCID! YAAAY! I do the things that I read about not to lose it, so I try to spin around and look at the rest of the dream, but it fades out a little as I do this and I feel myself waking up. So I don't do anything. I don't move a muscle and I don't open my eyes, I just start to visualize until the supermarket fades back in around me.

This time I try the undressing trick that I've read about, but I only manage to take off my shoes - the rest is too difficult.
I'm too worried to try walking through any doors, as the dream feels very fragile to me. I remember I wanted to try and find M in my dream, so I imagine him being in the other room, and I call out his name loudly. It makes me wonder if my real body is yelling as well.

As I turn the corner I see him, but his back is too me and he walks into a freezer. This frightens me, and I'm worried that if I get too frightened I will wake up, so I don't follow him. I walk back into the supermarket and notice how clearly I can hear the music coming through the loudspeakers. I walk out the doors and am at the beach.

I wake up. And do a happy dance!! Yaaaaay!!!!

I kind of sort of did it!

At one point in the night I half woke up and remembered what to do, so I told myself I would become lucid. I felt sleep paralysis set in and realized I was dreaming. Unfortunately everything stayed black and I eventually lost lucidity.

But still! Yay!

As for my dreams, the most vivid one I remember was in M's room. Since I am visiting family I told myself that the next time I saw M I would be dreaming, since that's the only place I will see him for the next few weeks - but it didn't work. Anyway, in the dream M's room was covered in multiple very large, colorful, beautiful paintings. Two of them were paintings I had done, but they were mediocre compare to the one on the other wall. I looked at it for a long time. It blended into the wall behind it on the edges.

Unfortunately I don't have time to write any more now - maybe later.

No luck again last night I will try harder tonight. I am determined!

Anyway. First dream:

I am in a store (Nordstroms, I think), in the back. It doesn't look like a warehouse, but that is the purpose it serves, this is where they keep all their items before putting them on the shelves. It's also connects to some sort of performance hall. There are dancers around. One of the dancers is talking to me, and tells me that there is a special discount magazine for people who have been confirmed dancers for two years. I want to get the discounts, but I have not been a confirmed dancer for two years. A big group of girls is by me, and they start singing. They are mostly Latina. A large black girl in the front is singing a solo.

Second dream:
I meet a boy. Me or my sisters have recently started playing some new game, and the book we use is open. Me and the boy are talking about it. I have a baby with me, and he takes it from me and walks somewhere. I follow him and see him exit a building. I go back to my original spot, (but I know that he will be coming back there soon) and my younger sister comes up and coaches me. She points out that I am wearing socks that say "Blondes" on them, and this boy is a brunette, and that might hurt his feelings. I put my shoes on to hide my socks, but she tries to convince me to put on one of her shoes, which is velcro and much too small for me. This confuses me.

Third dream:
I'm riding in a car with E, S, and probably A although I don't really remember who the third person was. It's more like a sled though - it has no roof or doors, and I feel concerned about this. I drop my cellphone off the side, and we pull over and I run back and get it.

At some point in one of my dreams I think I had a new puppy, but I don't remember.

First dream:
I'm in an enclosure of wooden buildings, they feel like restaurants but no one is eating. Everyone around me is wearing wristbands. The song "Mary Jane's Last Dance" is playing in the background. The part of the song that goes "Oh, my my, oh, hell yes/Honey, put on that party dress" loops a couple times.

I woke up, which was good since I was trying to MILD, and wrote down my dream. I lay back down and entered sleep paralysis, but when the dream started to fade in around me I got scared and woke myself up! I'm so mad!!! I was so close! Oh well.

Second dream:
I'm moving in to my suite, but when I go to the office to get the key, CSC tells me they lost it. I'm really upset, and we ride somewhere on the cart. There's another person there but I don't know who. I lift up a cloth and look under a chair and find the key. I start to move into my suite, but the building is very different in my dream. The outside is a bathroom, and there are towels folded for us.

Third dream: M is talking to N about a couple articles in Hi-Fructose. He keeps talking to her, and their laughing together about whatever they are talking about. I feel really jealous, and he puts his hand on her harm. (It's funny because that has actually happened, minus the Hi-Fructose) I try and talk to him about it but he gets upset.

Fourth dream: Me and M in bed. Yes! Not surprising. Great dream. I woke up pretty randy, haha. Only weird part is that during there was almost like a digital screen in the bottom left corner of my vision, with different icons I could choose. I know I have to pick one, and go through all of them. I think they represented Hi-Fructose pictures, but that might be one dream bleeding over into the next.

So my MILD was slightly more successful this time, in the sense that I actually woke up after one of my dream cycles. Last time I just slept through the night. So I feel like by practicing ADA, frequent RCs, and trying to MILD through mantras before I go to sleep, I am (slowly but surely) getting closer to a LD. Haha wow, I don't think I've ever used that many acronyms in one sentence before.

I'm going to be trying to write my dream journal in present tense from now on, as I've heard it is better for recall.

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In my first dream I am hanging out with the two girls who I have probably spent more time thinking about than any other girls in the world, S and C. (If only N was there as well, it would have completed the triforce of bitterness and pent up whatever). All three of us are trying on identical purple lacy dresses. The dresses are very strange.

In my second dream I am watching 30 Rock with M and Zach Galifianakis. I feel a little weird because Zach's wife is on the show, and I think it must be awkward for him to be watching her on TV since they got divorced. (I don't think he's even married in real life) Zach Galifianakis turns into MC (me and M's friend), and he shoves wooden stirring spoon heads covered in cous cous into M's mouth. I wake up and write down the notes from my dream. I try and fall back to sleep visualizing myself becoming lucid, but it doesn't work.

In my third dream I'm at a sort of banquet put on by my two guy friends G and A. A lot of our other friends are there, along with Emma Watson. Throughout the dream I switch back and forth between being myself, and being Emma. At one point I am going to use the restroom, and all the toilets are really weird boxes on the walls.

That's all I remember. Maybe tonight will be the night for a lucid. I WILL NEVER GIVE UP! Hahaha

I tried to attempt a MILD, but I think by the time I went to bed I was too tired to do it properly. I fell asleep pretty much as soon as my head hit the pillow. I have a vague memory of waking up once during the night and trying to convince myself to write down a dream, but that might have been a dream itself.

Calcifer was in my dream!!

(A strong and powerful fire demon! )

He had fallen apart somehow, and I was searching through a gravel path finding the pure white stones, because those were the stones that were a part of Calcifer. I put them together, and Calcifer formed back into himself! I was holding him in my hand.

I remember at one point me and M were driving back and forth different places because we kept forgetting these, and he was getting really frustrated. We drove back to his house because he forgot his belt, but I somehow felt like it was my fault.

I was at a store (it was sort of Target-like, but all the shelves were really tall) looking for black tights. I had a pair, but they were way too big for me, and when I looked at the size they were an XL. The only tights I could find in a S were sparkly ones, or leggings that only went halfway down your leg. Me and M were going to a dance, and I was going to wear this short halter top black dress I have, but I needed black tights to wear with it. While shopping I suddenly realized I had no clue how formal the dance was or anything, and I got stressed out about it. I decided to just use the tights that were too big for me, and we left.

On the way to the car I was with my family instead of M, and I was going to the event with my little brother (but it wasn't weird at all, just like a fun family thing. I'm not even sure if it was a dance anymore.) He showed me the bow tie he had bought and in the dream I thought it was the COOLEST THING. It was all frilly and it had a taxidermy alligator head (like the type I bought M in San Francisco) attached to it. Then, in the car, I was actually going with my little sister, and she was telling me something about her jacket and how she had decided she wanted to go with me.

I have a vague memory of a train as well.

I have horrible recall from last night, not really sure why.

All I remembered when I woke up was a really lumpy, nasty looking sausage in a bun with one bite taken out of it, and it said Pottermore above it. I forgot everything else.

I started thinking about N this morning though, and I'm pretty sure N and her boyfriend M were in my dream.

Oh well, better luck tonight hopefully.

I was really hoping for a lucid dream last night, but no such luck. Really weird dreams too.

There were a bunch of super tall girls competing (much taller than me - which is saying something as I clock in at a healthy 5'9"). I really strongly disliked one of them, some blonde girl. I don't remember why. We were taken to a hotel (me and my group) by the guy in charge, and at first we were upset because we had the building furthest from the center/main event (I don't remember) but then we realized it was by the water, so we were happy.

I went to some sort of party , I wrote down that S was there but I think it was actually R and I just got them mixed up. M was there and I remember getting upset because he was talking and laughing with R the whole time, even when she was being snarky. It wasn't a big deal though, and I left with Mo and Ra. They had a fridge in their car, which was really funny since it kind of makes sense since they always have the munchies.

I remembered something else later, and I think it was part of a different dream but it might have been from the same one.

I was moving into my suite (pretty obvious why I dreamed about that), but the suites in my dream were totally different than in real life, and I only had one roommate. It was just one really small room with two beds and a giant tv on the wall. My dad was helping my move in and my roommate had already brought all her stuff in.

In another part I was just watching a story about a little boy that captured a pony (it looked very my little pony-esque, not realistic at all), and was doing experiments on it. He was taking blood and collecting urine samples, and then he was making it drink a mixture of the two. That did not feel as weird and gross in the dream as it does now that I'm awake, but I remember hoping that when the two mixed it would just look like strawberry lemonade so it wouldn't seem so gross - but it didn't, it was just a dark orange-y yellow. Ew.

I'm working on being more constantly aware. I hope this pays off sometime soon!

I stayed awake for a while trying the free-fall WILD technique with no success, although it was very relaxing.

When I did fall asleep my first dream turned into a nightmare.
I was in somewhere that felt sort of like a mall, and I helped some guy find my old drama teacher, Mr. H (God only knows why he was in my dream, haven't seen him in years). Mr. H said he hadn't really wanted to see the guy. I watched a clip of a movie that reminded me of Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind, except the two main characters were running through some sort of cornfield and getting caught. Mr. H told me it was a really dark movie. Then I was sort of living it out.

I was with M and three other people (one of whom was a pig? I don't even know) and we were in a cornfield, but it was inside a big room with high glass ceilings (it was night time). The pig guy chewed our address into the corn, and left behind things that could give us away. One thing was a mug. As we're leaving the lights start going out so we run and make it out just in time. The other three leave, but me and M realize that we could get in huge trouble if they find out we were there, so we try and get back in but a tech guy stops us and says we're not allowed inside. We pretend we won't go in and he leaves and we sneak in.

A ninja comes and attacks M and sort of sexually assaults me. Then we're running and Mr. H is back except now he owns the cornfield and is the bad guy. I remember how the movie ended, and this is the part where we get caught, so instead I lead M to the back yard and we are climbing over a tree to leave through a hole in the fence (The backyard is my backyard from my dad's old house). Then I wake up.

My second dream is mostly about the cast of Friends, and I don't even remember myself being in the dream, I was kind of just observing. Something bad happened to Rachel. Joey was worried about his kid or something, and some sort of official went to his house but Joey's baby ape was there, and the official thought it was his human child. The ape showed the official how far he had completed in his workbook and the official was impressed. Joey had a small white dog entered in a dog show, but he knew his dog wouldn't win if they followed the rules, so instead when it was his dog's turn he wrapped him in fabric and dressed him up like a piece of sushi. Everybody cheered.

That's all I remember. What WEIRD dreams. Oh well, at least my recall is getting pretty good, haha.

So I don't remember much about these dreams besides the notes I jotted down this morning, but I'll try to flesh them out with as many details as I can remember.

In my first dream I was in a library of sorts, sitting at a long desk with lots of other people my age, with another long desk across from us. I left to talk to some people, and I was trying to get something figured out I think, and I figured it out and got back to the library before it closed, but the desks had already been folded away, and the guy told me they'd already packed up. Whatever that means. So I walked home with three of my old friends, A, S, and E. A and S tried to hide from me, but E wouldn't go along with it and A got mad at her.

In my second dream I was in relationships with two guys at once, some lean guy (that's all I remember about him, was that he was lean) who was my only boyfriend at first, and CSG who I started dating after and who I was so much more attracted to and interested in. (It wasn't REALLY CSG though, it was just kind of like him. In my dream it was obvious it was him, but he had no plugs or glasses, and he wore his hair up in a big tribal hair scarf thing.) CSG was an amazing boyfriend, and most of the dream was just stuff with him, although I only remember one part where we were cuddling. He really really liked me, and was upset that I was dating someone else at the same time. I went on trial for having two boyfriends, but I don't remember the result of that. After that I was in some sort of lingerie store with S, and Paris Hilton was there. I went on to have some sort of weird dream about Paris Hilton and her sister. The main feeling left from the dream was a longing for the fake CSG DC. I think I started to get lucid at the end of it, but then I woke up.

NSFW! MATURE THEMES! Okay, I warned you, fair and square.


So I had this dream last night, I don't remember much of it anymore because I waited too long to log it. But RCS was with me, and we were just sort of touching, and I started getting more and more turned on. Eventually he slid into me and was touching me at the same time. I was getting really, really into it, but then I remember B(M) and stop it, even though I definitely do not want to. We (RCS and I) walk around somewhere together, and I start touching myself, partly because I'm so horny I almost have to, and partly because I'm hoping it will turn him on so we start again.

Anyway... that's probably the most sexual dream I've ever had in my whole life. I really enjoyed it, haha. I hope this isn't too inappropriate for DreamViews, I guess I'm not sure what the rules are regarding that.

So I finally had my second sort of lucid dream. I realized I was dreaming and pressed my tongue to the roof of my mouth like they tell you to, to make sure you don't woke up. I told my friend that we were dreaming, but I don't remember what happened after that, and I lost lucidity.