non-lucid

In this dream I'm on another charter bus heading to a different summer camp (I've had a previous dream entry of going somewhere else). I'm not sure who exactly was on the bus, but I remember thinking how this time there are a lot more people who are younger than me because that's the case I'm in irl as a senior. We get off in the notion of getting lunch on the way there, and it's this very open place with the ground made of concrete. On the right of where the bus stops is some gas station and on the left side is a row of unfamiliar buildings. Our group goes into this big alleyway on the left side as we have our sights set on this food court place. This smaller kid named Alex tells me to look at him so I turn around and he's running towards me but then we walk into this food court place together. When we enter the place it looks familiar to some cruddy food place I've stopped in before irl with my show choir group. The tiles are gray and blue and there's one lunch line place not giving out food. We turn back and go outside to this open theatre looking area right outside the food court entrance. There are two rows of 8-10 benches facing the front. I step into the middle of where the benches are facing which I presume is the stage as I see this noose on the ground. Somehow I get this overwhelming feeling of dread like I've just been sentenced to death. Apparently I was to demonstrate to the group some sacrifice just like Jesus did since we were supposedly going on a youth group retreat. The view goes to third person and I'm hanged in the demonstration, but then the action goes back into the food court as we search for food. There was a path to the left diagonal of the court so we go to that path which has stairs that we walk up. This place was a lot more complex than I had previously thought, so we navigated until we found a pizza place which reminded me greatly of my favorite pizza place irl. My friend Kolby asks me if I have the money so I reach into my wallet to find a 5 dollar bill and 2 ones. I order a slice of pizza and the guy says its 7 dollars and some amount of cents, so I don't have enough money. But I just brush it off and grab the plate from his hand and the pizza has an order of fries on top of it too. I get outside to the theatre place and see the noose and start to freak out, but some dream figure I presume to be the host of the show grabbed me and walked me away. He was bald and had a brown robe on, sort of like a sherpherd, and told me that I was to play the part of God and that Kolby was to be hanged. So I went to the back right corner of the theatre to play my part and the dream ended some time after that.

Another dream I was playing a call of duty match against my friends Chris and Paul. It was supposed to be a 2v2 but I think my mind allowed Chris to be on both teams which made no sense. The first round starts and on the right side of the map is an old abandoned town and on the left is a gigantic hill with trees and a field on either side. The round ends with me losing, and in the second round Paul and I see each other across this big hill field place on the left but he snipes me. The third round I go into the town and look down my sniper scope to see both Paul and Chris lined up. I take a shot but apparently they were decoys, and when I turn around there are many decoy soldiers that were 2D distracting me.

Last dream I had I was in my dad's garage and some girl from my school named Lindsay comes over because I was supposed to apologize to her. I awkwardly go for a hug but she doesn't hug me, so we sit down on this tall table with three seats. Then my dad was there talking to Lindsay, and there was a record playing on a record table next to the table we were sitting on and there was a two liter sprite bottle on our table. Suddenly, I'm in some restaurant with my youth group leader named Luke and my two friends Sam and Kolby. There are 8 chicken strips in a basket and a hotdog in it too on this table we were sitting around. The place is open with light coming through the windows. Apparently I could have the hotdog, but then Luke said it was a fish hotdog that he caught from the river so I decided I didn't want it anymore.

I'm with my friend Kolby as we're in some giant waterpark that's based in the middle of an ocean. We believe this is beachweek and there are 100s of people in this place including life guards. I go down some slide that is more of a ramp into the clear water. I look down to the bottom to see an interesting coral reef and I start to think this is paradise. Kolby's brother (shawyn) walks by with his group of older college student friends and I nod my head to him. Suddenly, the lifeguards start grabbing kids and screaming at them to show I.D. that they are 21. Kolby and I exchange glances then run to what seems like a call of duty map. Now him and I believe we are just leaving school from a long day. It is crowded on this bridge, so I shove some underclassmen out of my way. Then I see a girl that I saw last night at a christmas party irl, so I walk behind her and whisper something provacative and vulgar into her ear and she gives me this look of desire as if she agrees to what I just said. Kolby yells that we're going to miss the bus (even though I don't ride the bus anymore). We are walking around a bus loop where there is a row of buses behind each other. As we pass the first one, Kolby says "dude that's your bus" and it starts to drive away. I sprint after it leaving kolby behind and start to bang on the door sort of like in Spiderman 1. My friend Will from school screams at the bus driver to stop and as the bus stops and the doors open, I see it's my bus driver from elementary school. I get on and sit down across from Will and another friend that I have recently converted to lucid dreaming named Luke. I start to explain to both of them what lucid dreaming is, but I never actually realize that it this was a dream so the dream continues. We round a corner and ramp into the air but hover safely to the ground soon after. That's when it ended.

It's so frustrating when I explain what lucid dreaming is to a dream figure and I don't actually do a reality check to start the lucid dream.

I was on a charter bus going to what I believed to be a younglife camp (youth group retreat) like I had just previously done IRL last weekend. At some point we turn onto a street and start heading up this steep hill. In the dream I'm thinking on how there's no way that the bus can make it up the hill, and soon enough it stops and starts to roll backwards. This hill is easily 1,000 feet in my mind. Everyone starts to freak out as my choir director Mr. B starts to shout that everything is going to be okay. By this point we're somehow in a building that looks like something from the video game Dead Space. I run into another room and cause some sort of mischief, I don't really remember, but some latina cleaning woman comes over and starts to inspect the trouble I caused. She looks really suspiciously at me, then my IRL friend named Katie C. tells me that I'm kicked out of the retreat. I beg her and she says "no", then I beg again, and immediately she changes her mind, which was really bizarre but my mind didn't pick up on it. Finally we are back on the bus and we arrive at the camp. It looks like two really crappy buildings in a desert, so I'm having second thoughts. Suddenly, I decide that I would like to go home and am on what I presume to be my friend Mason's motorcycle. I'm happy that I can ride this motorcyle home because I've never driven one, but then I realize I can't leave Mason stranded without a ride so I turn back. I'm on this bridge on some highway where I see the camp in the distance so I ramp off the side onto another highway road. There are no cars, so I cut back and turn around to ride to the camp again. Then something else happens but I wake up.

Really not sure where these two dreams fit in with each other, but they're all I can remember from last night

In the first dream I'm in my friend Moo's room from his old house. In my mind we're in his dorm room in college. But anyways in real life I get drug tested for marijuana because I got in trouble with it, so in the dream when a bong is passed to me I pass it right along. Moo then takes out a syringe and I ask "is that heroin?" and he says "yes" then shoots some into his arm. I turn around to look somewhere when he pokes me with the needle, so now I'm "high" off of heroin. I've never done heroin so all I can really base feeling high off of is through weed, so that's what feel like in the dream. Moo asks me if I feel anything but I just sort of brush off the question as my eye sight becomes very blurry and wobbly. All of the sudden I'm outside in a very open backyard with a bunch of small dogs. These dogs are wrestling and running around as my point of view is right above them. Then I can feel my body as I'm laying on my back in the backyard. Moo and someone who I believe to be his dad are standing over top of me asking if I'm alright but I'm non responsive.

The second dream had some other part to it, but this is when I start to recall it. I'm standing with a large group of people in a wooded area. This thing in front of me sort of looks like a log flume but with cars. It's a path that starts as a bridge over some lake but then goes up over a hill. The path is full of water and has railings on both sides to keep cars from falling out. Someone makes a joke about how I can't drive my car since in real life I can't drive until February. So I forget that comment and jump in the log flume and then start to walk on the railing. I don't know what happened right after that but then I'm in a group of people in a very gray area. I think it was raining but I just remember making a joke and having these like 10 people laughing at it, and I remember famous artist Imani Blair was there too.

The dream starts as I'm in an alley way... I guess I can describe it as being wet with buildings surrounding every position except for the front which is looking out on some sort of lake or ocean. Like most dreams, I can't connect what was happening before, but I know that I had a small pistol in my hand and I was shooting at two classmates, Allison and Kassidy. In real life, I used to talk to Kassidy before I found out she was still sleeping with her ex while talking to me, so I ignore her now. They ran behind a building to the left of my sight on what I presume to be a path that is in between the building and ocean/lake. I shot a few times in their direction and then gave up for a few seconds. Then I realized that I could cut them off, so I turn around and start running in the opposite direction of where I was looking, and this happened to take me into the front hallway of my house. I ran in that direction out of the front door and turned right to cut them off. It was night by now.

I saw the outline of two people sitting up against a tree and I knew which one Allison was, so I started to shoot the other one. This person that I shot happened to be one of my best friends named Kolby, and this upset me greatly. I turned around and ran into my cul-de-sac where there was a trampoline. I jumped up onto the side railing of it and sat there with my legs hanging over the side. A few of my friends named Ryne and Sam were also there on the trampoline jumping. I started crying harder than I have ever cried in my life at the fact that I killed Kolby and he was gone forever. While crying, my voice started making a weird high pitched noise which Ryne started laughing at, which wasn't helping at all.

After that, I hopped off of the trampoline when my friend Moo came up to me. I somehow was now upstairs in my room in my closet as I hid the gun in some box with another gun and a lot of bullets that looked like airsoft pellots. I ran downstairs to see my mom was saying that Moo had killed Kolby, so I screamed at Moo to follow me to my room. For some reason, I knew someone was out there with a gun coming for us next, and Moo knew that as well. We ran into my room and I opened up the closet to get the gun. Moo watched as I picked up the clip that was missing some bullets, and that showed that I was the one who had shot Kolby. In that moment, my friend from school named Franco kicked the door open and started shooting a pistol at us. Kolby was laying on my bed dead with Ryne also dead. I took the loaded gun and shot at Franco who disappeared behind the closed door for a second. Then he ran in for a final moment and I shot him right in the neck, killing him. Moo and I looked at each other for a couple of seconds before I woke up breathing really heavily.

Last night, I had no lucid dreams. But, I do remember two of my dreams, so I'm going to attempt to interpret one of their meanings.

First Dream
Setting: In the front lawn of a building called "The Ashcreek Clubhouse." It's a simple brick building that has a few white doors on the front and sides. In front of it is a grass lawn with a row of bushes lining the outside. There's a road leading out of it into an intersection. There also sits a yellow bus facing the building on this road.

What happened
Somehow my mind comes to the conclusion that I've recieved an accpetance letter to James Madison University. I pick up a piece of paper which I believe to be the acceptance letter and start to write the beginning of an essay on it. All around me are people who I do not remember who also have figured out which colleges they've been accepted to and are writing essays for those colleges. I take this letter and continue to write the essay for JMU as I walk onto the bus from a door on the opposite side of being normal (where the driver sits). The bus is filled with many of my classmates all writing their essays as I walk to the back of the bus and sit down in the back seat, still writing this essay. The entire bus is stressing out that we need to get these essays done. I run down the aisle and get off the bus on the right side this time. Waiting outside is one of my friends from a youth group named Cody. He takes my essay and starts to rip it apart, then runs over to a jar of Peter Pan peanut butter and tips it over. This makes me furious so I run over and stick his face in the jar of peanut butter and he starts to suffocate in it. Then I take him out and throw him on the ground in front of the bus as I repeatedly stomp on his face and body.

Interpretation
James Madison University is my top choice for colleges, so I've been stressing out lately on if I'm going to be accepted or not. This explains the stress part of having to write this essay. Also, these past weeks have all been dedicated to applying to college in my class, so everyone has been talking about it. That is why there are so many other people writing essays for colleges. Last night, my youth group met at a local restaurant and Cody was there harassing me the entire time. He's really short and two years younger than me, so he likes to annoy me to feel as though he is interacting with me. He kept bugging me last night, so I feel the dream showed it, as well as the aggravation I have towards him. Also, I love Peter Pan peanut butter, so that's a given.