Harr

1/13/2017

The dreams that I had tonight were not of anything good in my life. They were of someone that I refuse to acknowledge out of respect and I do not write about them if they are in my dreams. They were a person that had a great impact on my life and I feel as writing of them will not bring anything good. For future reference: this persons name starts with L.

The first dream was that I was in school and I was walking by them and I could see something different and off about them. They refused to say anything to me. It hurt me on the inside, I could tell that they were done with me and they wanted nothing to do with me. I watched them move around and do what they do, and I could tell that something was off and they were not in their normal state. It made me sad. I knew I could do nothing to help them, but just watch. It ends.

The second dream was focused on the same person. In this dream, they "jumped off the deep end" and they were acting far more crazy and outgoing than they normally would. This honestly disgusted me in a way as I could see that they lost a true sense of themselves and I even tried asking their friends what happened to them, but was shortcoming as they knew nothing either. This was a total opposite of the previous dream. They drew on their face and jumped and shouted all over the place, even though I could not hear a word they said. I lost them, mentally, and they lost me, they lost themselves in the madness and I was terrified of them.

These dreams affect me in my WL as well as I knew them once very well, and I guess it hurts a lot when I dream of them in such a desperate state.

1/12/2017

This is the only one I can remember well, there were others, I know, but I cannot remember the content of those dreams.

I was at an airshow of some sorts. I think it was, I was just walking around with my brother and looking at things, I did not see anything airshow related, but in the dream I got the sense that I was there. I have a blue band on my wrist showing that I am supposed to be there. Well, after that, I got a little bored and I decided to walk off somewhere by myself. It was a sunny and clear day so there was no problem with that. I walked off to some train tracks and then I was suddenly in some sort of building. Like a utility building with train tracks cutting right through the middle of it for maintenance. I see these dumb kids playing around the tracks just skateboarding and whatnot. I do not like them and they make me mad by just playing around. I am in the building and I see a kid on the tracks. He is clearly knocked out from an accident, and he is just laying there and no one is helping him. I notice this but I do nothing of course and I am just standing there like, well, nothing really. I wonder why he is not being moved off of the tracks before a train comes, but that is beyond me at that point. We are apprently waiting for authorities to show up. Then soon enough, I hear a train coming, well, I more or less sense it coming and I can tell that it is not going to be pretty. Then I hear it, and I can see through the cracks of the door to the building that we are in and I can see the train coming. It is going to kill the kid just laying there. Then I suddenly grab this woman that is freaking out now and I am sort of getting anxious and I drag her out of there before it get's ugly. Now I am running outside and I am running to nowhere really, there is this fence in front of me and I am nearing it and I do this sort of slowmo thing where I jump over it and do a flip. Looks cool and cinematic. Now I am entering the same airshow that my brother is in that I was in before I got bored and walked off. I now look at my wrist again and I see another blue band on my wrist, the same as the other, it's just another addition. I see my brother on some swings with some random kid whom I do not know. They are swinging high as if it is different from normal swings. I get a little uneasy. It ends.

No LD's tonight.