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1/16/2017

Just your average dream tonight.

I was taking a walk with my mother and we got to this part of the trail where we had to switch shoes or something like that but my mom decided that she would swtich her shoes in a way that made no sense. Like there was mud or something and she was weraing flip-slops so she had to actually put real shoes on, but the way that she did it made no sense to me. Anyway, that weirded me out a little bit and then we continued to walk, we never talked during our walk.
Then suddenly, but seamlessly it transitions to a special place for me, and we are walking towards the beach of this special place where I would always come as a child and throw rocks into the lake. I did not want to go down there as I had too many good memories there and I did not want to ruin those memories with my current ones and I would not go down there until I was a happier person. I then looked ahead of my life and I thought that I should go down there and then the next time that I was there I would be able to go down there and be happy about my life, but for the time being I did not want to go down there and I remembered what I did the past summer of 2016 and it made me sad that I was not happy like I once was.
We are back where we started and we are walking through the woods and we get to this open field and we just start walking through it. It's a sunny day and it's a nice day to be walking. Then not too long after I see a plane go by in the sky and it's a smaller plane, it was moving really fast, and then I see I larger place farther up in the sky moving at a more resonable speed. I then contemplate my vision and how depth affects these things and I wonder why the smaller plane is smaller than the larger one. Odd thoughts. After that we are turned around and we are starting to walk back to where we started, but we started just walking, so we weren't going anywhere really.
There are houses to our left, as if this is a gold course or something like that, but when w get close to this one house, there are 4 massive dogs guarding this house I would assume, they are outside and tied up to the house, they go crazy and it makes me a little scared as I do not want this 4 massive dogs chasing me down. I start running and then we go by this one house with this one massive dog. Just unworldly large. It's chanied up to a trailer with a car on it, and when it gets mad, it actually moves the car and trailer without too much effort. At this point, I am like "this is not okay," and I really start running to somwhere, and I could sense that it got free, I didn't see it, but I knew it was on my ass. I lost my mom during all of that, she is no longer in the dream with me. I run into this random house and I lock myself in this weird playroom sort of with glass doors, there is not furniture in this room, but there are things on the floor and I assume it's for the dog. Of course the dog follows me into this house and I am really scared now. Then the owners come home and now I am going to get caught, I go and hide in a corner of the room and I can see the owners out of the corner of my eye and they look like a normal family. The wife comes into the room and does not see me at first but then she looks at me and she could see that I was scared, and she gave me this weird look and then just walked out of the room. They have many dogs and now the dogs are playing with each other and now trying to kill me. Then I see my dad in this house, by brother is in the house too, but I could not see him. I look at my dad out of the corner or my eye and he's just talking to the homeowners. I am hiding and wondering when I would get caught for home invasion. My dad sees me and gives me this warm sort of look and then I come out of hiding. I am surprised that they do not want to kill me for entering their house and it's all too weird for me. It ends.

I guess the dream was more vivid than I thought. Bit odd, but I do not feel as though there is too much happening with this dream and it is what it is I guess. It is not like the other dream I had two night ago, little better emotionally. Oh well, until next time.

1/13/2017

The dreams that I had tonight were not of anything good in my life. They were of someone that I refuse to acknowledge out of respect and I do not write about them if they are in my dreams. They were a person that had a great impact on my life and I feel as writing of them will not bring anything good. For future reference: this persons name starts with L.

The first dream was that I was in school and I was walking by them and I could see something different and off about them. They refused to say anything to me. It hurt me on the inside, I could tell that they were done with me and they wanted nothing to do with me. I watched them move around and do what they do, and I could tell that something was off and they were not in their normal state. It made me sad. I knew I could do nothing to help them, but just watch. It ends.

The second dream was focused on the same person. In this dream, they "jumped off the deep end" and they were acting far more crazy and outgoing than they normally would. This honestly disgusted me in a way as I could see that they lost a true sense of themselves and I even tried asking their friends what happened to them, but was shortcoming as they knew nothing either. This was a total opposite of the previous dream. They drew on their face and jumped and shouted all over the place, even though I could not hear a word they said. I lost them, mentally, and they lost me, they lost themselves in the madness and I was terrified of them.

These dreams affect me in my WL as well as I knew them once very well, and I guess it hurts a lot when I dream of them in such a desperate state.

1/12/2017

This is the only one I can remember well, there were others, I know, but I cannot remember the content of those dreams.

I was at an airshow of some sorts. I think it was, I was just walking around with my brother and looking at things, I did not see anything airshow related, but in the dream I got the sense that I was there. I have a blue band on my wrist showing that I am supposed to be there. Well, after that, I got a little bored and I decided to walk off somewhere by myself. It was a sunny and clear day so there was no problem with that. I walked off to some train tracks and then I was suddenly in some sort of building. Like a utility building with train tracks cutting right through the middle of it for maintenance. I see these dumb kids playing around the tracks just skateboarding and whatnot. I do not like them and they make me mad by just playing around. I am in the building and I see a kid on the tracks. He is clearly knocked out from an accident, and he is just laying there and no one is helping him. I notice this but I do nothing of course and I am just standing there like, well, nothing really. I wonder why he is not being moved off of the tracks before a train comes, but that is beyond me at that point. We are apprently waiting for authorities to show up. Then soon enough, I hear a train coming, well, I more or less sense it coming and I can tell that it is not going to be pretty. Then I hear it, and I can see through the cracks of the door to the building that we are in and I can see the train coming. It is going to kill the kid just laying there. Then I suddenly grab this woman that is freaking out now and I am sort of getting anxious and I drag her out of there before it get's ugly. Now I am running outside and I am running to nowhere really, there is this fence in front of me and I am nearing it and I do this sort of slowmo thing where I jump over it and do a flip. Looks cool and cinematic. Now I am entering the same airshow that my brother is in that I was in before I got bored and walked off. I now look at my wrist again and I see another blue band on my wrist, the same as the other, it's just another addition. I see my brother on some swings with some random kid whom I do not know. They are swinging high as if it is different from normal swings. I get a little uneasy. It ends.

No LD's tonight.

MILD day 1

Before going to sleep, I repeated my mantra. Yet, I was really tired and do not know whether I successfully "MILD'd".
- Woke up at 02:00 (Natural waking apparently) and went right back to sleep before I could think of anything.
- Woke up at ~03:00 after a dream, but could not remember enough to write about here.
- Nothing more until the alarm went off and I had to start my day.

In conclusion, it was a rough start, but I will be sure to be more intentional tonight and moving forward. I do plan on trying to mix in some WILD's as well when I can, or FILD's. Whatever I feel like.

2/9/2016

None of significance or that I can remember. (Really tired last night)

No LD’s tonight.

2/7/2016 No editing, very vivid, though, getting closer to LD's!!

I was in this large recreational ball pit that was in some sort of a skyscraper and there were windows slightly above it so that we could see out. There were stairs on either side so that one could leave the ball pit. Now, there was someone in there causing trouble. I do not know who, but in the dream I did. (I was off to the side and just observing). I do not know exactly what he was doing to cause such a ruckus but people were leaving the ball pit unhappy and there was staff starting to come and see what was happening. There were multiple attempts to have him pulled out or “shot” out of the ball pit, none of which worked. They shot him with some type of bullets, I assume rubber, but he did not budge. Then after some while, people started to gather around this open room, and there was more and more staff that were there trying to get him out. It was all somewhat calm. Then all of a sudden, this “mega guard” that I assume was nothing to mess with, came out and went straight into the ball pit. There was no physical confrontation, they sort of shook hands and they walked out together. They were both wearing some sort of basketball sports clothing that were bright colours. As we walked out of there the people that came to watch this spectacle formed a row so that we could leave, patting us on the back and such. I did not like that so I decided if someone touched me I would strike back. (That did not happen) I enter into this cafeteria type of room with many tables, people moving about getting food and whatnot. (Same building, brightly lit and all) I come to this table where there is a laptop and I am working on building a website of some sort. That code was not real, as I do not know much about that, but I could assume it was dealing with <div>’s if you know what that is. I sat there alone, frustrated that my programming is not working trying different things to get it to work. It ends.

No LD’s tonight.