Dreams of Hash

3:48 I rem being briefly lucid in a park like grissom with jessica. Im walking with jessica in the park and i believe i fail reality check several times but something keeps making me want to until i start to notice i have six fingers. I almost didnt notice as i was just looking at my hands and not counting at first, but it looked like too many fingers so i counted. I still had a little doubt from the times it failed but the reality check then consistently gives six fingers so i know im dreaming.

When i realize it i start getting a little too excited, the excitement seems to come in like three intense waves before i finally start walking and rub my hands together and keep it from fading. I start trying to do the first thing that comes to my mind which turns out to be shooting a ball of lightning up into the air. I imagined energy flowing to my hands and then thrust them foward but it did not work. I tried using sound effects but that didnt help either. I try a few times but with no success decide to try and fly. I do the energy thing and thrust my hands towards the ground hoping to send me in the air but i just stay there.

When i do this jessica kind of copys me and makes noises moving her hands too which was pretty funny. I rem jessica was talking to me during this all as well but i was just kind of ignoring her. After trying for a while I started listening to something she said but cant rem. I dont rem past this so i must have lost lucidity because i didnt wake up right after this dream.

Got very little sleep last night...

8:45 Had a dream i was making some food and it looked like hard boiled eggs with green shells. After i had made it in a bowl i rem looking at it and it looked like rice with broccoli. I rem in the dream my mom shows up and eats a large portion of my food and in the dream i get really angry for whatever reason.

At this point the food has changed again and is now cereal like cheerios. I start talking to my sister, saying i dont mean to get so mad so easily but mom doesnt even care about her diet and she is eating my food. I then say to my sister, i just need to meditate i cant believe i got so mad. dont rem past this.

10:55 Was fixing a bowl of some kind of oreo cereal and readin the ingredients on the box

5:25
Stir Fry
Just a flash of someone cooking a bunch of mushrooms and onions and stuff in a frying pan, Its really big to begin with but they get another size thats even bigger.
6:46
Passenger
In the passenger seat of a car driving through a city at night. There are some people i never even see in the back seat of the car and they are being obnoxious. We are listening to some music which in the dream reminded me of 30 seconds to mars. I cant rem now exactly what it sounded like but in the dream i rem it being very detailed because at one point i wanted to practice being present in the moment in the dream. I rem doing so and focusing on the music and the sights to bring me into it. I start to and within a few seconds feel immense bliss in the dream, much faster and more intense than what i usually experience in waking life. I rem being kind of overwhelmed and wanting to talk to one of the people in the car about it, i start to look around the car but i never actually look at any dcs. The dream must have been very realistic as being in the moment did not trigger lucidity for me, Im glad my awareness is starting to come through more in my dreams though.

(I dont rem how the dream gets to this point, or if its even the same dream. Im a passenger in a car at night again and the scenery looks similar but i have a hard time finding where the flashes link up.) Now I rem driving somewhere with jessica and austin. We pull up to a parking lot, driving up a hill and turning the corner, it has one of the gates that you have to pay a toll to raise. The scenery actually reminds me of la noire. When we get there, jessica is driving im in the passenger and austin is in the back, austin says to jessica youre not gonna be able to get in through there or something similar. She doesn't listen to him and drives right through as he says it again. She pulls up and now im watching our car in third person and it looks even more like a video game, similar to la noire. She parks kind of funky like going over the lines and i dont rem past this.
WBTB Flash
Just remed a flash of walking through the house at night, and its like a WBTB attempt. I go get a banana to eat before going back to bed. I just vaguely rem walking to the kitchen and getting one but dont rem much else.
8:42
I'm innocent
(When i woke up from this dream for some reason i sat up, and it really scrambled my mem of it. I did my best to put it in order thought)I rem being in like an office setting with jessica but we dont work there. We are in like the lunch room but we can hear whats going on where everyone is working. I can hear elaine benice from seifeild. For some reason shes in there and asks everyone working, who here watches fox news. Me and jessica kind of smirk and look at each other as we listen. I think about peaking out to see who all raises their hands and elaine asks again but this time says like fox news at 9 or something.

Next thing i rem is we are back at my house and the cops have showed up. I dont rem exactly what we did but in the dream i know it was weed related. The cops are asking my brother and sister all of these questions while me and jessica stay in another room. I rem worrying that they will search my room but then i reasure myself that they probably wont just start searching considering they are just asking questions. Then i try to think if i even have anything and in the dream and conclude that i dont.

Jessica is nowhere to be seen in the dream now and i go back to my room. I rem sitting on a couch that looks like a really fancy bed and looking over seeing my bed against the window like i had it along time ago. The blinds are my old white ones and the window on the right is partially open. I rem looking at all of this and knowing it was strange but not really knowing why.(seems my awareness is slipping in here and there, just not in full force.)

Now i go into the hallway and ask lissa in her room if the cops are still here. My brother closes the door kind of laughing but i cant tell if he did because the cops are still in the room. I stand on my toes and theres is like a two inch gap at the top of my sisters door. I see her and my bro in there laughing, my bro sitting in my sisters computer chair but no cops so i relax. I go back to my room and my brothers friends comes in smiling. Dont rem past this.

5:53 *in school parking lot, looks jus like vista where i used to park for cre writ and jessica and alexis are both parked through out kind of far away and equally spaced. The whole time i am sitting around waiting for alexis to take off hoping he will give me a ride.

When he is finally ready he just takes off without even leting me know and jesica points it out to me. Annoyed i head over to where she is parked and ask if she is about to leave, she says yes so i get ready to go with her

*At home in the garage with lissa and im talking to her about how im trying to avoid david. Im talking about it really lud and i notice we have a bunch of windows out in the room. I say some things about him along the lines of not liking him and eventually i notice him walk by the windows and go to our back fence.

He kind of peeks over like hes spying or something. I crouch down by the windows and in the dream am not worried about him seeing me through them. I keep watching and i notice that the window im looking through is slightly open. At this point im worried he was listening to what i was saying to my sister.

7:12 *in the garage on the computer when my brother comes out and closese the door. The cat is under the desk and my bro gets on the ground to try and put on his collar. I pet the cat but try to avoid helping because i dont want the cat to dislike me.

*was in a classroom at school but cant rem any detail

8:11*In class discussion in cre writ and my teacher asks me someting about america. By my answer he starts pacing the room telling everyone, here is someone who doesnt care. A dude in the class to my right, looks like aaron from cre writ says something sending me into a little speech. I say to the class something like, its not that i explicitly dislike this country or anything but i know there are many other places i could live and be happy, im not deluded into thinking this is the best place in the world.

The class talks about it a little bit more and prompts me to say i think it was a joke, refferring to what ever got us on this topic in the first place. My teacher agrees and points out that what aaron says takes away from the joke factor and just makes me look ungrateful.

*Have a flash of being in a classroom and it looks kind of like my middle school. For whatever reason i am whiping my ass in the class. im at a desk near the front and pretty close to the door. Ther is a girl sitting next to me and another girl behind her. as i am wiping that girl jamie comes in. Each time i wipe i turn so that i am facing the other side of the room. I realize later in the dream that this puts my bum right where jamie would have passed and also makes it seeable by people in the hall...

*Have a flash of talking to my uncle in the living room, in the dream i had left some samurai show on or something and when he turned the tv on the samurai show continued and caught him off guard.

*Short vague flash of waking up ad thinking it is today, i notice its almost 10 so i get ready to go to the park with jessica.

June 7 Non Lucid

Was in a soccer game more like club than school but a little of both. It started with the coach telling us to circle up and one of the players began saying the line up. He said my name which was surprising in the dream, we all line up and i start tying my shoes. I rem seeing that guy juan and it looked like he was pissed for not starting the game. It feels like i really spent a good portion of the dream tying my shoes and i started to feel pretty anxious as everyone began lining up on the field and im still on the sideline tying. I finally finish rushing the second shoe and i start walking towards the center of the field hoping to be able to play center mid.

I ask if anyone wants to play it and two of my teammates turn to me and say they want to, one of them is already standing in the middle and has his foot on the ball. I keep walking to the otherside and ask da, if he is playing wing despite him standing in the center towards the front. He starts to say something when i correct myself and say striker. I move to the outside of the field and say ill play wing. Da looks at me and says your gonna have to run up and down the line. I looked down the field and noticed the shadows on my side and the open sun on the other side. I figured on defense ill be fine itll just be tough sprinting down into the sun for offense. I tell him that i should be good for a while.

Its time for the game to start and my team has the ball first. For some reason it starts with one of the fullbacks and he tries to pass it out to me but a player from the other team easily intercepts it as it was a pretty slow pass. I start running back on defense anticipating any passes to the wing but he plays it through the middle to another player on their team who easily puts a wormburner into the back of the net. He aimed for the bottom corner of the goal on my side and in the dream i couldnt help but feel i should have run and tried to block it but i was just a bit too far away. Da looked at me as if he thought i was actually responsible for giving up the goal.

As we walk back to starting positions i blame the goalie in my mind, and in the dream i knew our goalie was new. I dont rem how the next kick off started but i rem da kind of taking over my position and leaving me nothing to do. At one point he had the ball down the line and there were two guys on him, i ask for a drop and it looks like he tries to but the ball goes out of bounds, it looks like it goes off his foot. He quickly runs to throw it in and it looks like hes going to throw it straight to my chest but instead throws it over my head to someone behind me who in the dream reminded me of adrian. He took the ball up to the center and here the dream starts to shift.

I cant rem exactly how it happens but im no longer on a soccer field with a team but am instead playing in the house with my sister. She takes the role of da in the dream and i can sense some tension. MY mem is starting to get bad but somehow i get the ball and it is like a volleyball with a hole in it and it is going flat. I get ready to try and score a goal, the goal now being inbetween chair legs but notice that my cats food bowl is under the chair and my cat is eating. I tell my brother who i guess is my opponent at this point, how are we supposed to score like that? I walk away looking closely at the ball in my hands. I see the holes in it, very small but just big enough for a bit of air flow, and try to flatten it all of the way but for some reason it wont work and the ball manages to keep some air in it somehow. Dont rem past this so i must have woken up

7am Back in school and in like a cafeteria with austin and it is like a free day or like the last day of scholl or something. There are two big black dudes in there and they are like crappy rappers and they are being really obnoxious. Me and austin comment several times on how crappy they rap and how they never leave people satisfied at a show. They also do several pranks in the cafeteria but me and austing complain about how they always get someone else to do the stuff for them and they just watch and laugh.

I rem this really skinny short black kid with glasses who you could tell was trying to be hard doing some dumb prank for them. They were all gathered around a trashcan in the middle of the cafeteria and they had a red slushy inside. They said something to the kid about it cant rem and the kid pretends like he is going down on a girl and then comes up and spits the slushie everywhere as if she were on her peiod. Everyone in the cafeteria especially the rappers starts to crack up but me and austin just think its stupid and continue to complain about them.

*I have a flash of talking to my brother about soccer. That guy charlie or at least someone who reminded me of him was there and i think we were in the living room. Chris was talking about how his past pickup games had been and i think someone asked if mauricio had been playing out there, chris sad he wasnt there lsast week and then talked about how it gets so crowded they have to do 30 v 30. He then said that alot of times they split up into groups of thirty and have like two seperate practices. At this point charlie says something like ismt that hard and chris kind of scoffs saying you got guys who watch soccer every day or something like that. Charlie says something else and chris says something about the first picks for every team being really good and dad agrees with him.

*I have another flash of being in a cafeteria, this time im sitting at a table with a bunch of chicks including sarah. austin is sitting at a table behind me and i know in the dream that he wants to hang out but i keep laughing obnoxiously at something with these girls. I rem vaguely someone trying to grab somethng on my tray or something like that and us all laughing. I rem spmething pink and slimy on the tray.

11am (This flash is cool because at one part my sense of time gets messed up and i remember recording the dreams from earlier in the night during this dream, couldve been a good time to question my reality, unfortunately i just went with it.) On some kind of trip with my brother but we brought sarah and her two sisters as well. I rem at the beg just lying in bed and sarah is holdinng my arm/ Im a bit uncofortable so i start shifitng position and shifting her position trying to get more comf. While im doing this im watching gunxsword on a flaat tv on the wall to my right.

She ends up taking up a good portion of the bed and her arm is across my chest but for some reason its extremely heavy and making it hard for me to breathe. I move her more and she says something like you keep touching me. I say sorry im trying to get comfortable. She asks if i am watching a marathon and i dont rem what i say but i rem thinking to tell her its on tv or something. She starts to get up and as she does she puts a whole lot of weight on me and kisses me. I rem feeling her tongue but only briefly as she made her way over me and out of bed. As she did this my brother came in grinning to ask me something. I dont rem what it was but i get out of bed and go through out the hotel room picking up boxes of open cereal.

Earlier in the dream i had looked at a clock and saw it was 12 and i thought it meant at night. I even rem thinking in bed i wonder how my dream recall will be on vacation. When i get back to the room sara is sitting on the bed and i can see light outside so i find out its actually noon. I readjust to not going back to sleep but instead getting up for the day and i even rem my dreams from this morning thinking oh yeah ive already dreamt this morning, in the dream. I get back to the room and her sisters are there now as well i believe. Before i had left i got a text from some chick named anna who i dont even know in real life. My bro tells me there is another message on the phone and i am afraid sara or her sisters will get it and see.

I casually act like im falling on the bed to grab it. I get back up and check and see its anna and she has sent me a long message with a few emoticons, i spec rem / sara asks to see it and i start to leave the room saying oh its just a friend from the internet. I walk down a hallway thinking of how bad it has been in the past when she would check my phone and a huge amount of fear swept over me in the dream. I walked down the hallway planning to close myself in a room and check it out but the whole time i felt like sarah was right behind me. My eyes started to half open and then i woke up here.

Wednesday May 25 2011
7:00am

I was walking around in the backyard and i realized i was in a dream. Nothing really happened to trigger it specifically and my hand reality check did not even work but i just knew i was dreaming. I told lissa who was back there about it and said my reality checks didnt work but i rem going to sleep this is a dream. Im walking around the backyard and i decide to try and cast some fire spells. I decide to say it outloud to make it more effective and when i get ready i hear a deep voice in my head that is not me say fireball or blaze? like it was asking if i was sure what spell i wanted. I said fire ball aloud and moved my hand toward the roof of the deck. I saw yellow and a bit of red and orange light start to form in my hand and then saw a fireball although very small and not too vivid shoot from my hand and fly towards the house. It didn do anything to the house and kind of just dissapeared.

I tried to do some other fire spells but couldnt get anything else to work. On the side of the house i tried to make a wall of fire but nothing happened. I decide to try some passive control instead. I turn to lissa and say rem that plant ive been growing on the side of the house thats just ripe now. She said yeah as if she either knew i was dreaming or she was just playing along with my new plot. We head over ther to the side of the house with the water heater but i couldnt find the pot plant anywhere, only saw weeds and stuff. I told lissa as we walked towards the center of the backyard that I can find some in a jar but wake up before i get to the deck...

Friday May 20 2011
8:00am

Im outside on the left side of the shed and i see the cat lying in front of the shed facing it and he actually kind of looks dead. I dont see the dog anywhere in the yard and realize i'm dreaming. I look at my hand and two of my fingers look like thumbs. I look again and its the same thing. When i first went lucid i rem hearing a strange vibrating sound but it went away really fast.

I yell out saying im dreaming and running across the yard ready to start flying. I leap into the air and put my arms up like superman. It doesnt qutie work so i keep jumping in the air. I start trying to jump higher and higher and a few times i get pretty high up. The highest i got was about ten feet up. I begin jumping back and fourth over the barrier in the yard and get a good twenty foot leap going. Then i decide to head inside. Before i did one of the last times i tried jumping over the fence one of my feet kinda caught on it but i barely felt it and moved on. I remember on the way in just marveling at how real the deck and back door looked, there was not noticeable dif between it and waking life.

I go inside and go to tell my brother im dreaming. Him and his gf are in the study and everything is literally as detailed as real life. I go tell them and they seem skeptical so i show them my hands and easily i can jump up to the roof but they still dont catch on. I was worried they may try to convince me i wasnt dreaming but they didnt. I figure since i wasnt able to fly i can go smoke some dream weed instead. I go outside in the front yard and see the neghborhood is pretty active. At first im nervous to try smoking but i just remind myself im in a dream. I decide to sit on the chair in the front yard and smoke a joint. I decide that when i reach into my pocket i will find a joint but instead only feel a toothpick. I give up on that and figure ill go inside and get a jar of weed from my room.

On the way im hoping for the jar of purple hash from a previous dream. When im almost to the hallway crystals brother from down the street comes over and asks if i want to play soccer. I know he came over because he mustve seen me sitting in the chair outside but I ignore him and go back to my room but the lights are off and i rem that in dreams its supposed to be hard to change them. I try turning on my ceiling light but it doesnt go on. I then try my floor lamp but it wont work either. Its very dark so i head back out into the hallway and the dream begins to fade so on the way out i start feeling my shorts with my right hand. I dont want to lose it so i sit down in the hallway and start rubbing my hands together and saying outloud i am dreaming i am dreaming. I was worried my brother would see me and think i was crazy but i knew i was dreaming so i kept up with it.

My eyes were closed and i started to peek out and everything was like grey static but i kept rubbing my hands together and the dream scene reformed and i was back in the house in the hallway. I hear melissa come home so i go to the living room to tell her we are dreaming and that im about to smoke dream weed. I go back to my room and now the lights are on, so i walk over to my desk and get a jar and can still see its full of weed, well it has about 4 or 5 buds, way more than i actually had in waking life and it looks like violator kush. I get some papers and get ready to roll it up. I get really happy to have it and am ready to smoke when my bro comes in and starts talking to me about a book where a guy chriogenically freezes himself. The book has large white print on a brown cover, he is standing by the bed and lissa is sitting on it. He keeps talking and for some reason i let myself get engaged in the conversation. Then i wake up damint.