side notes

This was one of those dreams were I felt like I was just watching a movie or something. I wasn't IN the dream.

There were these twins at a party who collapsed because of intense leg pain. One of the twins was obsessed with girls, the other with video games. It turned out that they had been in an accident or had some kind of disease which they knew at some point would cause their leg muscles to atrophy. Someone called 911. It cut to them being at home with their parents (they were either in their late teens or adults that still lived with their parents). The doctor was also there and told them they would experience bouts of extreme pain for the rest of their lives and they would have to go to a care facility. It then jumped to their parents asking questions that they would use to choose the perfect facility for them. Every time they asked a question it would turn to the kind of screen you would see when making a decision or talking to someone in the Animal Crossing game series (at least the DS version) and the background of the menu was a pale yellow. One of the questions was whether they wanted to stay local (and it then zoomed in on a section of land that seemed to be around where they lived. it looked to me like the area near palm springs, CA) or go international (those were the two options). One of the twins wanted to stay nearby and the "game" chose a place for them right away. The other twin wanted to go to Japan. The screen then turned to a google maps type thing with the same pale yellow menu. It zoomed in on an area in Japan and I remember seeing labels for individual businesses (for example, there was a little pink fish with the name of a fish market next to it, etc). Then I woke up.

Then today in History class this article we were reading used atrophying muscles as a metaphor for something we were learning about.

So, I went on a camping trip and I was too cold/tired/busy and it was too dark to keep my dream journal. When I came back I didn't have time to keep track of my dreams. I have been having some cool dreams lately though and I am going to attempt what I was doing before (keeping my hard copy dream journal and then posting when I have anything particularly interesting). I would like to mention a cool dream I had on my camping trip though.

I had a lucid dream inside of a dream. I was dreaming, and I was in control of the dream (I was shopping and I bought this green floral dress and befriended the shop keeper and then ended up having a huge party in the dressing room area) then I woke up and I was like "Oh, I have to write that down" so I wrote it down and I went down to breakfast with my mom (we were staying in a hotel or something) and this lady was offering me all of these brightly colored pastries for dessert (they weren't cooking from the menu that morning for some reason) so I got this green cake thing.

Then I woke up and I was in my tent and it was such an odd feeling. I hadn't really been controlling my "lucid dream" I just thought I was having a lucid dream. It's difficult to explain, but I am 100% sure I wasn't actually lucid, I just thought I was.

I haven't given up again, I've just switched back to hard-copy dream journaling. It's easier to do at school first period then. I'll post here if I have a lucid.

I got a book about lucid dreaming for Christmas (Lucid Dreaming by Robert Waggoner) and I'm reading it right now. I'm thinking that concentrating so much of my time right now on the subject will make an LD tonight much more likely.

Anyways, Merry Christmas!

Sidenote: I decided against polyphasic sleeping. I woke up on time (at 3:30am) and stayed up for an hour but I was so tired and I thought of how exhausted I would be for weeks as I was transitioning and I decided it wasn't worth it. I am going to continue waking up in the night (though about an hour later) as a WBTB.

Dream 1: Pre-Three Thirty
I was with my friend Jacob (who seems to be in all of my dreams right now). We were eating vanilla ice cream that looked kind of lumpy and homemade (like the kind we made in chemistry class with liquid nitrogen). I remember saying something along the lines of "more food?" or "I'm so full but I'll eat this anyways" and I kind of remember seeing a ton of plates of food in front of me. We were sitting at a table in the middle of a square in a European looking city. We were watching the area as if we had been placed in a movie or a book and were watching some story take place, though I can't remember anything happening in front of us and I don't think anything was happening. I also remember Jacob saying "well it's up to you" as if we were deciding what we would do.

Dream 2: Post-Three Thirty
I was in some kind of room with people from my school. My friends Cora and Davida were sitting with me. One of them was sitting on a chair like this, the other was sitting on one of the arms, and I was sitting on the other arm. We were talking and decided to go outside. We were in a square similar to the one I was sitting in with Jacob but instead of being a flat square it had a round "pyramid" (like a round staircase up to a platform). We went back to the room and we were talking to this boy Adam. We went back outside and Adam's ex-girlfriend Hazel was sitting at the top of the stairs. Then we were looking online at some kind of message board about NaNoWriMo winners/losers (Cora and I both attempted NaNoWriMo which ended at midnight and lost).

Side note: I was supposed to start a polyphasic sleep schedule last night (the Everyman2 is the only one that works with school, my core sleep would be from 11pm-3:30am and my naps would be 6-6:20 both am and pm) but when the alarm went off I got up and turned it off and then convinced myself that I didn't want to do it. I spent all day today coming up with reasons to do it and hopefully tonight I will actually get up for more than 30 seconds. When I got back into bed I began to attempt a WILD but I just fell asleep almost instantly.

My friend Jacob (and his entire extended family which I have never met) was throwing me a surprise party (my birthday's in June) but invited me over to help set up (dumb). I walked in and one of his older female relatives told me I looked like Jacob's grandma when she was young. Another one walked up and said "No, she just looks like a grandma." For some reason I didn't find this offensive. Another relative walks up with a box of presents wrapped in christmas paper and says, "These are for you. We paid $17 for each one." I thank her and start opening them (at this point my friends Ryanna and Fiona are there too). They are all toys for children. One is this thing that is a board with balloons tied to it that stay near the board until you lift them up and then they float like they're full of helium. They have facts on them and other educational things geared towards first or second graders. In another present there is a barbie with blue eyeshadow. Then the girls and I went on a scavenger hunt (part of the party) but we weren't really looking for anything, just walking through a path looking in the bushes with every step. I found out that they had gone to Cuba without me and I got really angry that they hadn't invited me or even told me. When we got back there were more people there for the party. There was an area with very deep, bright green ivy and it was an outdoor bowling alley thing. There was an easel with a photograph on it (the type you see at weddings or bar mitzvah's) but it wasn't of me. It was of this boy River in my grade who is kind of weird and made fun of. I went to preschool with him. He was making a stereotypical commercial male model pose (like the ones you'd see in a JC Penny commercial on TV). I heard this boy Gabe say, "Jessie, bowl with me." I said I would when his friend Cole jumped out from behind him and said, "No, bowl with me." They looked at each other and made slightly angry faces.

I got a weird night's sleep last night. I made a sound file a few nights ago that has five hours of silence and then five seconds (a bit too long but I'm too busy to remake the file) of a sound and then an hour of silence and the sound and then another hour and the sound. I played it last night and I woke up at 4 when I heard the noise slightly confused and just really tired. I fell back asleep and none of the subsequent sounds woke me up at all. I also don't remember any dreams and I didn't feel rested at all even though I got about 3 more hours of sleep than usual. It wasn't the first time I had listened to the track and it woke me up every time before (and didn't prohibit me from getting a good rest) but last night I just didn't sleep very well.

Hopefully I'll sleep better tonight.

I decided to re-read my dream journal and I not only realized that there have been even more precognitive connections that have occurred. I also remembered this morning 3 dreams from a couple of weeks ago, but I cannot remember if it was something that happened while I still was keeping the journal or if it was from after I stopped.

Precognitive: I mentioned going to a party with a girl named Bella that I had met twice. I saw her two more times in the past two weeks (after not seeing her for two years).

Random connection: I realized that the teacher in one of the last dreams I wrote about before I left for a while (about the wedding) actually looked a lot like WakingNomad.

Dream 1: A group of friends and I were in Japan. We were shopping and running through this mall that was purple and matrix-esque (though I have never in my life seen the Matrix so I actually have no idea why I think that). We were trying to buy things for a party we were all having together. I also kind of feel like we were in the part of Monster's Inc where they have the doors on those clothesline like things but we were using them for transportation.

Dream 2: A boy I liked and a couple of people and I were at what I thought was Knott's Berry Farm. It also felt like it was the theme park on the Santa Monica Pier but it was supposed to be Knott's. We decided to work there and we were in charge of running this small white rollercoaster. We just were walking around the track area for a while and then the boy I liked took his lunch break without me. For some reason it really hurt my feelings.

Dream 3: I was on a field trip to knott's berry farm but we weren't allowed outside, we just had to stay in this giant tent that we shared with another school. There was a section in the front with silverware and some tables that was mostly for us and was about an eighth of the size of the whole tent. I remember runing back and forth the length of the tent and the other school getting mad.

None of those were from the same night or recent at all, they just came to me today but I remember knowing of them in the past. It's kind of weird.

I gave up on my dreams. As cheesy as it may sound in a normal context, it is a much more mundane thing to say on these forums.

I still have my goals for the future, I haven't lost my way, but I have lost the time (for the past couple of months at least) to write in my dream journal. I told myself I would be good this time, that I would write up my dreams every day. I was good for a while but then it turned to writing a weekly digest of my dreams and then I just got lazy. I truly was excited about the Shared Dreaming class but I let AP Chemistry and friendship problems derail me from the class (though they probably were more important in the long run considering I can still learn shared dreaming). I feel ashamed to have given up so quickly.

I am trying again though. I still am as interested in dreams as ever (possibly even more) and I am going to try even harder this time to stay on track. With almost every thing I do I fail the first time and subsequently get closer and closer to succeeding. What began as writing down about one dream every six months and giving up after that one night in the fourth grade blossomed into writing a detailed dream journal every day (with multiple dreams each day) for weeks. One could say I've been building up my dream journaling stamina. Hopefully I'm ready for the marathon this time.

That's it, I just wanted to state that I'm coming back and that I hope to disappoint myself less this time.
xo. jessietea

Thursday:

Dream 1: Religious?
I decided to reread a series of books that was very popular in the dream. They looked like a mix between the Series of Unfortunate Events books and the Chronicles of Narnia books. I was reading them near a pool in the middle of nowhere in California. There were mountains and it looked like the kind of area you'd drive through on some kind of road trip within California. I was rereading the books so I could make a religion based off of them. I "read" the first of the seven (I never actually thought about the contents of the book I just remember telling someone I just finished the first book). Then I was looking for some type of white bird or something to fly overhead.

Dream 2: Hairstyles
I was in a small white room. My friend Maxx decided to french braid my hair. He was braiding it when my english teacher Nathan walked in. He said that when he french braids hair he likes to "earl" it sometimes. (I do not think there is such a thing, but in the dream it was taking a piece of hair and just wrapping it around in the middle of the braid and then continuing).

Dream 3: Ann
I was at some kind of pool party. This english teacher that some of my friends have and hate was there just walking around. I was standing with two boys in my math/chem classes Jake and Ian. Jake was telling Ian that if he looked up from his house he'd see Ann M___ (I'm not giving her full name, she's a boy in our grade's mom) because she was going to be at a Grizzly Bear concert. (In the dream this had something to do with the fact that it was supposed to be at the Hollywood Bowl and Ian lives close to the Hollywood bowl). They started laughing.

Dream 4: Tumblr for Homework Help
I was on tumblr and a girl in the grade below me named Maddie (who doesn't have a tumblr in real life) was asking how to do something in biology on her tumblr. I started responding to her even though I've never taken biology.

Friday:

Dream 1: Stuck
This one's a little foggy. I was stuck in some kind of pod thing that kept going underwater (in this pond) and then being flung into the air or something. Either I had to be in it or one of my friends so we were trading off. That is all I remember, but it was one of those dreams where it is pretty boring, pointless and annoying and it seemed to go on forever.

Saturday:

Dream 1: Paper Dresses
The whole school had some assignment to make dresses out of paper. They were due the next day. I asked where we would get the dress forms and they said they would order them tomorrow. (obviously that makes no sense because they were due that day) The assignment was to make one on a water bottle (a tiny dress) and one that was life size. I just remember that the school looked different and that my friend Siena finished hers early and was standing on the other side of the street. I also remember having to go into the P.E. office to get something.

Finally, a note. The dream I had before about project runway being inspired by top chef that ended up being slightly precognitive is eerily similar to something else. The challenge in this week's episode of Top Chef was to make a chocolate DRESS. It was Top Chef inspired by Project Runway!

Hey, sorry I've been really busy with school lately so I haven't had time to post online. I have been keeping track of my dreams though. I didn't have any dreams for the past two nights but last night I had one long and very vivid dream and one semi-vivid dream. I do not have the energy to type those up now (especially because the first one is quite long) but I will post them tomorrow. From now on I probably won't be posting every day but I will be posting about every day.

I had another possible precognitive experience that I forgot to mention in my last post. I had this dream about button candy the other day. I never really get to eat it except for at Easter (my mom always seems to buy it around Easter). Today my dad got home from a long work trip. He had been to New York and various other places. He had stopped at Dylan's Candy Bar while he was there and got me some candy. He pulled out a bag from Dylan's Candy Bar and one of the items he got me was giant button candy (each dot is about an inch in diameter).

This is getting curiouser and curiouser...

So I very rarely have dreams on a normal school night, I just don't get enough sleep to be rested enough to remember my dreams. Until now I thought the only way to combat this was to go to bed around 9, which I doubt will happen again for the rest of the school year considering my workload. This was until last night... I had a dream and I remember a large chunk of it pretty well. I stayed up quite late last night and I was stressed so it can't have anything to do with being well rested. Then it hit me what was different about last night. I was listing to music! I always need some sort of background noise so I'm always playing some sort of "meditation" music when I'm falling asleep, but yesterday I listened to this rather sad and calm mix CD I had made. That is the only thing I could think of effecting me, lyrics. I'm not sure if this would make any difference at all, and one night isn't enough of a test for sure, but it might help. Needless to say, I'm listening to the CD again tonight.

Dream 1: Woodshop + Tumblr + Party?
There were three sections to this dream, and I have no idea what order they went in because they weren't really cohesive. I'll just post the parts in seperate paragraphs.

-I was with two girls that I am okay friends with (in real life they kind of hate each other, or just mutually dislike). They were kneeling next to a bed on opposite sides in a purple room. They each had pieces of wood about the size of a paperback book in front of them. I think they were supposed to be decorating them but they were both very plain, if not completly plain. These weren't supposed to be art though, they had some purpose. There were other people making these too, also kneeling against the bed, about 15 people in total (it was a really long bed). I walked into what felt like a class and the "teacher" (who was standing in the middle of the bed pacing back and forth) told me I would have to catch up.

-The same two friends were on the website tumblr making a blog (this segment of the dream will make more sense if you are familiar with tumblr). I asked if I could reblog photos with them. They said no. I walked over to these two boys I'm friends with (I have no idea where we were). They said I could post on tumblr with them.
(this shows how totally and embarassingly I am addicted to tumblr)

-I was at a party with one of the girls from the other dreams and both of the boys. We were outside on some sort of patio and there were lights strung between the trees. The boys had one glass bottle between the two of them and I had a glass bottle that looked identical. The bottles looked like the kind you would fill with colored sand and closed with corks. They were both filled with a clear (possibly slightly pink tinted, probably alcoholic) liquid. I asked them if they wanted to mix them even though they were the same thing. They said no. Then the two boys started talking about some game like World of Warcraft.

No recall last night. I laid motionless in bed for about 5 minutes without the slightest fragment of recall so I called it quits and got ready for school.

I did discover something fascinating about my dreams though. I had a dream that should have been in my dream journal entry for Friday, and I forgot to post it because I wrote it down on a separate piece of paper and then completely forgot about it. It involved my math teacher handing back a quiz (the one I took on Friday). I got a 90%. Then for some reason my really nice math teacher turned evil, and not "oh I hate this teacher, he's evil" evil, but super-villain evil. Anyways, today I actually got my quiz back and I actually got a 90%. Even weirder is that one of my dreams from yesterday had to do with my day today. My family never eats California Pizza Kitchen, but my mom picked up a cheese pizza from CPK after work today.

Two precognitive-ish dreams in the span of 3 days? That seems pretty bizarre.

I went to a party last night and one might say I did some things that would destroy my recall. Needless to say, I do not remember my dreams from last night. Luckily I don't have to wake up early tomorrow and can attempt some DEILDs or just work on my recall.

So I went to bed at 9 o'clock last night and it was exactly what I needed. I remember a fragment of one a dream and a large amount of another. I also feel so much better. Sadly that was pretty much a one time only thing, I don't even understand how I had so little homework. Tonight I have a ton of studying to do so I will not be going to bed early. I would also like to say that I am keeping a DJ every day, but tomorrow I will not be home at all. I'm going to write my dream down at school in the morning but I cannot post it online until Saturday. Now, on to the main event!

Dream 1: ???
I was with my friend Jacob.

Dream 2: Alone at His House
I was at my friend Maxx's house, though it looked like a mix between his house and the house from the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, and we were in the kitchen. His mom walked in and she looked nothing like his mom (she was really tall and blonde, his real mom is 4'10 and has black hair). She took a box of something out of a cabinet and then left. A bunch of 17 year old boys showed up and we ended up hanging out with them. Then we weren't (I don't know what happened). All of a sudden I was just alone in Maxx's kitchen. He was gone and his parents were gone too. I just sat on the computer for a while, shopping for bikinis. Then his mom came downstairs (even though she hadn't been home) and started yelling at me for staying up too late (the sun was just setting). For some reason I just slumped in a corner hugging the laptop close to my body.

Not very interesting but better than no dream at all. I know there was a lot more to the dream because I felt like it was really long when I woke up, I just don't remember the parts in between.