LAJ

Non lucid, but lots of themes.
Reconciliation with Ant Imp. Hugs and drums. It was very nice to see and hold him. Still sad about how we parted ways. Thought he would be in my life for a very long time. Very nice feelings. I've recently been thinking of setting up my drum kit. I also have an ongoing battle with carpenter ants in my home. Maybe that triggered Anthony (Ant). I ended up writing some music that, of course I don't remember upon awakening.

Very Brief lucidity triggered by big cats. I flew away and lost lucidity. Oh well.

Lucid. Kept waking up in frustration of not being lucid. Finally I went lucid. I was at an Estate Sale with my mother. It was in a camper that somehow transforms into a VW beetle. Anyway, there wasn't much worth taking. Maybe a couple of vinyl records, but they had scratches. Then I see someone I know running away - wearing a different jacket than he was wearing 2 minutes before - so that triggered lucidity. Immediately I took flight and then had a close call with a helicopter. Back to ground. Ask for J. Don't see him anywhere. Suddenly I noticed 2 guys wrestling around on the ground and there he was. He looked up and laughed and said hello. Got up gave me a hug and we had some fun. There were moments where a flash would happen and for a moment he would look differently. Made me nervous but he was close enough.

non lucid. My house in the city is now in the country. A long winding country road to get there. There is a path that goes out beyond a pond/lake and there appears to be a second part to our house. I thought "cool, more bedrooms". But the kitchen was dark. To get back and forth I ride some kind of motorized saucer shaped sled. The second part turned into some kind of hotel for young singles. Don't know how that happened. Then I guess it wasn't mine anymore.

Fragments. Non Lucid. Somewhere in a high rise and I'm supposed to marry this older distinguished man. He is very into me, but there is something funny about his eyes. He kisses me passionately. I suddenly remember that I am already married.

Non Lucid. Walking after dark with DH and some friends to get to a venue. We parked in the wrong place, so the walk is going to be long. Oh, there are cars falling out of the sky and we're dodging them. A Car pulls up and I know the driver - Chris H. Kind of the one that got away. Says we can ride with him. I notice that he is huffing nitrous oxide while driving. That causes me discomfort and I had to take the wheel at some times. Ended in a collision. Chris gets out and yells at me for what I did to him 12 years ago. Whatever. We never made the destination.

Lucid. Found a kitten in my basement. I asked it how he got in our house. Said that the door was left unlocked a few nights ago. The kitten then turned into a boy and that triggered lucidity. Usually when I turn lucid, I have tasks I want to do (conjure someone or talk to my subconscious) but this time I just wanted to see where the dream would take me, so I just went with it. He was a boy, but I still regarded him as a kitten and wanted to show him something fun, so we went flying. He kept turning older. We flew through an unknown urban neighborhood and was looking for a place to stop. I tried to "draw" a house in existence but that didn't work. We found one and it was dark and dirty. I found a mirror and kept willing my reflection to change on command - that was fun. I then saw myself aging - from now to 30 years in future. It looked incredibly accurate. The boy/kitten ended up rejecting me. Somehow I get the sense that maybe it is representative of desires that I don't allow myself, while my life is slipping away.

Kind of vague and the scene kept changing. I was living with my brother in a loft. JC moved in with us and asked me why I'm not singing or performing. I didn't have an answer. Also pointed out my thighs. The cat litter boxes kept getting over full.

kind of trippy, somewhere there are lots of buildings and mechanical objects. Once again realize I'm topless and I recognize I'm dreaming. Lucid immediately. Flying around these urban landscapes, wondering what I want to do. Called for J but nowhere to be found and I was ok with that so I conjured my subconscious. It took the shape of my older male cousin. I asked how come I can write beautiful music in the dream state but I can't remember it once I've awakened. I'm stuck when writing music in real life but it is amazingly easy to do while dreaming. My subconscious said that I need do "real' work on myself, both inside and out. Marry the creative with the physical life. Stop living in my head. I also asked what should I be doing with my life - the answer was I'm a long ways off to getting the answer to that question. Do more work.

I asked about J not showing up. Subconscious said I'll have to wait another week or so.

Then there were storms brewing off in the distance - looked like tornadoes - I felt like I was going to wake so I rubbed my hands together to stay grounded. Went to the basement of some monstrous building to wait it out.

Stressed about a triginomotry class when I havne't been to class. Couldn't finish the exam because I started with lengthy essays. Feel as if I will not graduate with a passing grade. Somehow went lucid and got the heck outta there. Flew through the window and was flying up in a larger room doing somersaults in the air. While flying I decided to conjure my subconscious. When I land from flying there was a girl sitting at a desk. I know she is my subconscious but she doesn't want to admit it and she didn't want to talk to me.

That is the first time I've had my subconscious be uncooperative . Frustrating. It usually works wonderfully - they take the shape of a random person and answer any questions about myself. Pretty amazing stuff. Though one time I made out with my subconscious.

This one was short and not too memorable. Frustrating really.

At first everything is random and nonsensical. Then I realize I'm pregnant - at the doctor with a blood test with confirmation. Yet, I've been pregnant for some while. DH is happy and I am happy, yet reticent. Not sure when this happened or how - no memory of that. The rest of the dream is making preps for baby to come and the psychological transition to becoming a mother.

Next appointment at the doctor - I learn that I am pregnant with a little boy and he is dead.

non-lucid novella of a dream. I'm walking along the edges of these randomly spaced pools of water. I have a memory of having been under water with Great White Sharks, all I saw red, so I kept my eyes close.

I suddenly notice fins in these pools of water. In each oddly shaped pool, there is a GW Shark. They have red mouths. One in particular, maintains eye contact as I walk along his pool. He swam to the edge and started to come out of the pool. As he was coming out he turned into a man and said 'Hi, what's your name?" I told him and somehow he led me away from the pools and we were suddenly in my neighborhood in Los Angeles. There was some back and forth banter about who we are and what we do. He was caught off the coast of Carolina for harassing surfers. He would snout their surf boards. I said I would find that terrorizing. He just thought it was a funny joke.

I asked him what he would like to do next. He said just enjoy your typical day. So we drove down Sunset, saw the sites, hung out and talked. We ended up at Mel's Diner for some burgers and shakes. By this point he was holding my hand - not really in a sexual way, but in an acceptance of a friendship kind of way. He told me that he appreciated me showing him my world and he has had one of his best days.

So now he wants to do something for me. "Well, what did you have in mind?" His reply . . ." Let's go swimming" My heart dropped to my stomach and I stopped in my tracks. I felt tricked. Truthfully, I regret not going.

Very short memory of this non-lucid dream. Riding in the passenger seat of a car with my mother driving. There is a man with a parachute that didn't open falling out of the sky and he slams face first into the rocky wall. I demanded my mother pull over to help. She didn't. Argument about stopping. I really wanted to help, but couldn't. Deep sadness.

Started with the house on Potter we were going to buy. There were renovations and all the flooring was wet, felt like walking through a swamp. So I went outside and I was suddenly walking down a road where I grew up. It is the middle of the night and I notice that I am topless. That triggers me to go Lucid. That is always a moment of elation and almost immediate flight. Flying fast through the night sky up above the trees. For a second I think about keep going into space or the moon again. But it was scary and isolating last time so I decide to conjure J. My flight starts to descend on a modern house I have never seen before. I go right through the window. I see the reflection of J in a mirror in the hallway. J is sitting at a dining table waiting for me. I'm greeted warmly. I'm there long enough to savor the moment and then its gone.

No longer lucid and back in the Potter house. There is a giant map of Earth on the wall. In the middle of the map is a giant whale. I go to look closer and someone had cut all around the whale. I thought about placing cork board in the cut out. The floor is still wet.

Trippy Dream of back and forth. moving around. leaving friends. leaving family. confrontation with my bro's ex-wife. people aren't where they are supposed to be - New Yorkers in Chicago. Me, back to Los Angeles. Then back to Chicago. Then to West Virginia. Told my brother I didn't understand anything happening and that I was suicidal. Miss my friends, miss my life, suicidal. And then I considered it. I wonder what it would be like to kill yourself in the dreamworld.

Not a lucid dream