LucidDreamer09

So I meditated for the second night last night, once again loving the effects. I'm currently using a meditation guide which focuses on accepting the universal mind, which is perfect for me as I find it hard to accept and get very scared. However, I'm thinking of trying another one at some point to see what it's like. Anyway, I had my first visual hallucinations! I reached the point of feeling like I was floating that I always get, and got OOBE like vibrations, when suddenly it got even more intense and I could see these faint purple patterns in my eyes!! It was awesome, as I've never had these for some reason. Anyway, unfortunately that got ruined as, lets just say sexual energies propped up and it was too hard to concentrate. I'm going to try to work on that. Anyway, like the previous night, I had an intensely vivid dream. However once again, I forgot to write it down. This is what I remember.

1) I was in an area that looked like the woodland area I used to wait for my bus at secondary school. It was twilight, with a beautiful purple-blue sky. I was with other people who I can't remember unfortunately, and we were waiting for a bus. I was at the far left of the woodlands at one bit that I remember. Another bit was me remembering that I was running away from whoever I was waiting with, laughing. For some reason I remember holding some sort of cord. Was it the OOBE cord!?

Last night, I meditated for the first time in ages! It left me feeling great, although I was interrupted my my friend phoning me! Anyway, when I went to bed, I had some very strange dreams. Unfortunately, I can't remember most of them - I need to remember to write them all down!!! But what I do remember is that I kept getting "messages", I think from people, reminding me that I had just meditated. My dreams were very vivid, and I had what felt like an incredibly deep sleep. The weird thing is, I went to bed at 11:00pm, had this incredibly deep sleep, and woke up at 12:30am feeling completely refreshed! That's the first time I've woken up like that in a long time! I think I may have had a lucid too, although I can't remember it.

1) I was at Ryan.B's party that in RL is due for this saturday. I gave his Mum money for alcohol in RL for a bottle of strongbow. In the dream I gave her the money for one bottle and asked if I could pay her back for a second, which was fine. It was nice weather - about 5pm, sunny with a few clouds. I also asked Amy to buy me a draw of cannabis. When Ryan's Mum came back, she'd bought me just two cans of cider, which were very posh and about 13% each?! I was really confused, and compared the percentage to wine. It cost £15, i was only planning to spend £3.50!! I was a bit annoyed but not too bothered. Amy came over to me with the draw, and it was in a regular plastic clingfilm bag with a HUGE amount of weed in it for £10. I was very confused and on closer investigation, realized it was some sort of plastic model of moss. I refused to take it and asked for my money back (although I don't remember giving her any in the first place). I told her that she had to bun me on her weed as I wasn't gonna get messy otherwise and she refused, saying that she had hardly any left. We went into a tent she had set up for some reason, and in it was some sort of bench, with loads of little bits of weed in it. It was like the garlic weed that I had in a previous dream! I moaned at her telling her she had enough for at least 3 joints! The tent was red so the light was very dark inside.

2) I was driving with my Dad, and I dropped him off at Waitrose. I carried on driving, and suddenly realized he wasn't in their to guide me! THIS WAS ILLEGAL! I was on the dual carriageway now and was very very scared, and just wished it was a dream, constantly doing reality checks (that clearly didnt work ). It was a cloudy sky. I was so scared at what my Dad would do, and whether he would notice if I just parked it where I found it. I ended up getting lost, ending up in Staffordshire (a place I didn't know existed, how weird).

Had a dream last night, and attempted to recall it, and this is what was written on my phone.

1) Out at mine people meeting swam! Stole my fagMartin chocolate spread Clo so funn. (sic)

Yeh. Hahahahah! The only bit I actually remember was being sat outside on my patio with some friends in fairly nice sunny weather with a bit of cloud.

1) I was outside late at night - it must have been about 2am. I was in a field, and I think there were several people with me. I was crouched on the ground using the mixer that I use to mix my music. However, at the bottom it had various knobs that when you twisted it, it effected certain higher conciousness aspects, I assume lucid dreaming, OOBE etc. However, I was really interested in using the stargazer feature, which allowed you to stargaze better. There were lots of stars in the sky. I don't know how I could see the mixer as it was very dark. I don't think I was working it very well. Suddenly, either I approached her or my friend Kelly approached me, but she realized I wasn't working it. She owned all the kit, and said she would help me. I was using the wrong kit, and the actual kid was about 6 feet to the right of me. We crouched there and used it.

Hey guys,

Thought I'd carry on doing little blogs in my dream journal again!
So I haven't touched drugs in over a month and i've been focusing on college, writing music and dreaming! You can hear my latest song HERE!!!
On top of this, I've recently got very into OOBEs, although they are quite terrifying and I can't work out if I want to carry on with the practise of it. I'm gonna listen to some HemiSync tonight to see if that changes anything.

Had a few short dream fragments last night.

1) I was with my friend Ryan.B and we were talking about the atheist union at college and who started it. Ryan asked me who started it, before guessing that it was Ollie.R. Although he is an active atheist, I told Ryan that it wasn't him, and it was in fact Henry.F. Ryan didn't realize this and was somewhat surprised. Suddenly we were in the atheist union's room in college. I don't think they have their own room, it was a very generic room like a detention room. It was quite small and rectangular, and there was a table taking up about a third of the room in the middle. There were no windows, but a light was on. Henry was sat on the left end and I was sat on the left end of the back. He told me in a kind of disappointed, sad and maybe a bit jealous tone that in fact it was Ollie that started the atheist union. He then preceeded to play the "first song(?)" of the atheist union. It was an indie song, and sounded like a cross between Mitchell Goes Bananas and my band.

2) Maria. L was organizing an event on Facebook, I think for her birthday. I told her (wall post I guess?) that she shouldn't do it when people are busy (no shit hahaha). Then, someone told her not to do it when she is in portugal (people are so dumb in my dreams )

3) I was at a festival with Ryan.B. I think it was Reading, although it looked a bit like 2000 trees. Ryan and potentially myself was very drunk, and was talking bollocks to the guy who owned a kebab shop. He told us that the fish stall behind us about 100m was owned by his sister.

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In terms of dreams, I've realized that my dreams very often mix up the settings. For example, I'll "know" that I am at college, but it'll look like my bedroom. This happens every night, so I've started doing RC's based on this, making sure the place I'm in looks normal.

I have a bit of OCD with getting old, unrecalled dreams off my chest, so here's a weird dream I had recently. I was on a strong nicotine patch, and I had the most intense dream EVER. I was laying in bed, and the walls were breathing. My bed started rumbling, so I sat up, and it was like an earthquake. all my furniture was moving, it was horrifying, and all from 3rd person XD

Sleep - 11:30pm
Awake - 6:00am

I was in my car with some friends. I think it was Matt.B, Will.N, Tom.R and Ryan.B, although I can't be sure. It was cloudy but it wasn't raining. I think I had just been driving. We were parked randomly in the middle of the motorway, and my friends were jumping out of the car. They ran to the side of the road and escaped through some bushes. There was a motorway bridge about 20 yards in front of me up high. I was really annoyed and upset that my friends had ditched me and my car. I don't even know why we stopped, or why I was driving in the first place considering I haven't passed my test yet and have never driven on a motorway! The motorway was dead, and I didn't seem to be worried about other cars coming along and hitting the car. It was about 3pm.

I think I jumped out of the car and walked the same way as my friends did, before randomly appearing at some sort of family gathering that my Dad was at. I knew I had to explain myself to my Dad, but I didn't know what to say. I told him very clumsily, beating around the bush, and he got extremely angry and emotional. However, I remember being confused that he was so upset. This makes me think that maybe it was Matt's car, not mine. I'm not sure, it was all a bit hazey. He went mental at me, screaming at me in front of various other people that were on the drive way of this house. I flipped out, out of sadness and anger and all sorts of mixed emotions, and hit these thick china plates that my dad was for some reason holding, up so that they flew in the air and smashed on the ground quickly. I cried harder than I have ever cried before. It felt like the most emotionally raw moment of my life.

Suddenly, it was a website, possibly facebook. The dream turned out to be a short-film that my friend Charlotte.C had made for a series of films with her friends acting for media!! This was very odd as I thought the film was a dream, and this was reality - kind of like a false awakening! The website had a list of about 10 short films that she had made, each with a cast list of about 5, all of which I knew. I starred in a few of them, and most cast members were recurring. I thought the film was incredibly put together and captured the emotion perfectly.

This was quite a frustrating dream. When I woke up I could recall and awful lot, but I decided I was too tired (*cough*lazy*cough*) to write down what I remembered. I really should have as, as expected, a lot of my recall had gone by the morning. Oh well. But this is what I remember

I was sat on a sofa in some sort of villa, probably in the Canary Islands as usual. It was very sunny outside but the windows were shut. There was some sort of back door the left of me that was open, and light was coming through that. There was a sofa to the right of me at a right angle, my sister closest to me and my Granddad further. My parents were sat on another sofa to the left of me. We were all looking at a big flat-screen telly that was mounted onto the wall. The room was a kind of big reverse L shape, and the TV was on the bottom bit of the L. I can't remember what we were watching, but we decided to leave to go for a walk. It was obviously linked up to the computer, as I had accidentally left up xvideos.com on my browser !!! I tried to keep it cool and pretend it wasn't mine, but I wasn't very successful. I kept trying to click it off excusing myself, but an error message kept popping up preventing it from going. I got more and more flustered as it went on, and my sister started to let off the occasional giggle. My parents didn't really seem bothered although maybe a bit embarrassed, and my Grandad was just oblivious to what was going on xD The whole situation was quite similar to what has happened when I've had a website up that I didn't want someone to see and they walked in haha!

Anyway, after that shambles had finished, we decided to go for a walk. It was suddenly dark outside. I don't remember the transition between being indoors and going out. I always go for walks when my Granddad is about, so I walked with him whilst the others were behind. I can't remember where we were going or what, but we ended up in a very dark, grimey back alley of some sort of building. There was a big metal staircase thing from the metallic balcony of the building to the floor, with a small spiral at the middle. As we walked down here, I suddenly saw a strange boy I know called Connor. B. He was stood where we had just came from, and gave me his weird creepy cheeky look. He said something that suggested he was waiting for something to do with scouts (as I used to be in scouts with him). We left him again, and walked through another alleyway I think, which led us to a more normal looking suburban area. I don't know where the hell we were, it was definitely a foreign country as the architecture wasn't anything like ours in England. We walked around the wall perimeter of some sort of field. I suddenly remembered that someone had organized a big get together on that exact field. I didn't want to bring it up as I would have felt bad ditching my family as they always moan at me for going out when we're meant to be doing something. So I kept quiet as we continued to get to entrance of the park field thing. Here, over the wall, we suddenly saw masses and masses of people. It was really strange what I saw - I first saw a few people, but I also saw significantly more people suddenly appear behind them, as if they were photoshopped on or something. They were all in a huge, messy circle around the field, playing what I thought was rounders. I knew a lot of the people there and I knew the person who was organizing it, but I can't remember who it was now. I said something to my Mum like "Oh my god, I forgot *so and so* was organizing a get-together here tonight! Would you be angry if I went off to play with them?" They didn't say no, but they didn't say yes either, it seemed to be left down to my choice. As we got to the entrance, everyone was now sat in a massive circle doing various strange positions. I saw Ryan and Will, who I ran over to say hi too, and ask them what the day was like so I could decide if I was staying or not. They said it was awful, and everyone was really angry. I looked around, and it was true that everyone was looking very bored and miserable. They said that the 3 girls (not who I thought had organized it) were very popular and had turned it into an awful boss-about session. My parents were continuing walking on ahead, so I thought I would give the day a skip considering everyone was so bored and go on with my family. I kind of walked backwards whilst talking to them, apologizing for not staying this time.

More dreams last night

1) I was at my friend Bronia's house for her 18th birthday party. In RL, she's having this birthday party next week in a hall, but in the dream it was in her house. On top of this, her house looked nothing like her actual house. I couldn't really tell if it was a good party - it had the makings to be a great party, but everyone seemed a bit miserable. I'm not really sure what the time was. We were in a rectangular kind of living room - I assume it was night time, and the lights were on. A telly was directly in front of the sofa I was sat on. To my right was Leo.H, Chloe.R and some others I can't remember. I was talking to Leo, asking him to please get me laid by someone, as he's supposed to be my wingman. He suddenly remembered that and immediately sprung to action, although he did it really loudly so that everyone could hear! I think he first suggested Chloe who has a boyfriend, or it might have been someone else that obviously wouldn't, and he knew she'd say no so my final resort was my friend Devvon. I think Devvon is very attractive so I got pretty excited at this although she looked at Leo as if to show that she thought what he was doing was weird, although not necessarily saying no to me. I had to look at Leo as if to say "Seriously dude, you're so weird" when Devvon was looking at us 0 didn't want her knowing it was all my plan. Some other beef happened in which Leo and I upset some people, although I don't remember what happened.

The reason I wasn't aware of the time is that the next thing that happened was when I had just woken up at about 7am. There was no particular gap. However I assumed that the party was at about 3am as it was getting quieter, but maybe it was 7, I don't know. I was walking through a hallway that was similar to the carriage hallways on trains where they have the toilets and cafe. Whilst walking through here, Bronia's Dad came out of nowhere!! I was shocked and scared because, despite knowing he's a nice guy in RL, he was a strict dick in the dream. He looked nothing like her dad - in fact, he looked like Hal from Malcolm in The Middle, if he had spent a few hours on a tan bed, then ripped the top part of his purple shirt to reveal his hairy chest He asked me where I was going, and instead of telling him a lie and saying I was going to the toilet, I told him the truth - that I was going to his fridge to get some breakfast. He was not happy with this, saying "No!", and declaring that if the fridge hasn't the exact same contents when he checks it, he will go mental. I got a very strict vibe from him, and thought it was strange that he still let Bronia have the party.
When he left however, I went for it and stole some breakfast anyway, didn't think he'd notice. However instead of taking some substansial food, I took a jelly bean and a jelly bean the size of a plum!!! I put them in my jumper pocket, eating the small one and playing with the bigger one for a while.

I was now in a lift with all of the parents of Bronia's friends, on the way out of the house. I don't know why they were all there so organized at the same time, or why they were going out of the house in the first place, but they didn't have their kids - I think I was just a spectator. Maybe they were going INTO the house, but I had a vibe of them leaving. It was fairly tense - either Bronia's Dad was in the lift too or they had just met him - or alternatively they were about to meet him. The Lift was grey but fairly light as if there was a window, but there wasn't.

2) This was a peculiar dream. It wasn't very vivid at all. All I remember was approaching this pub in either a car or a bus, ready to get out and go in. I started thinking to myself, "it's so strange that nothing spiritual such as dreaming, lucid dreaming, or OOBEs have happened yet today!" YET I WAS HAVING A POTENTIAL LUCID DREAM RIGHT THAT SECOND, gaaaaaaaaaaaah.

After a couple of nights after logging back into Dreamviews, I had a couple of dreams last night

6am

1) My dad dropped me off at college in his car. It was a cloudy but bright day. The college had the same drop off point, except the part that I walked to from the car was completely different - it was similar to the courtyard area in my secondary school. When I got out to walk to the courtyard bit, Dad drove to the carpark, again similar to the one in secondary school and parked up. I walked towards my secondary school hall, which instead of having the normal roof had a blue tent marquee very similar to the NME and Lock Up tents at Reading Festival. Quite near in the tent, many people were crowding around two guys suspended above us at our head height somehow, writing names on a board of some sort. It first looked like a terribly organized sports team sign up, however it soon seemed to be some sort of request list for a DJ or for acts to play a festival. Everyone was shouting randomly names chaotically and the men, who were probably about 20, were just writing the ones they heard the most or with most clarity. I don't remember the names being shouted. Someone started to shout "LIL B! THE BASED GOD!!!!!", and a few people including myself started joining in. This was followed by people shouting for OFWGKTA or ODD FUTURE, GOLF WANG. My dad appeared behind me to the right around this time, and I thought if I joined in with the Odd Future chants it would impress him, so I did so I started shouting JAMIE XX, but no one joined in and I didn't notice the men taking any notice. So I continued to start shouting it every so often, until a man in front of my turned around to inform me that he put Jamie XX up ages ago. I was a bit embarrassed by this and thought I must have seemed really desperate. Suddenly reality was facebook (this seems to happen quite often ) and a girl wrote a wall post on the event saying that she wanted to buy me a drink! Everyone laughed at her including myself, although I was secretly pretty chuffed. I commented on it in the persona of a mentally disabled guy in my college who always flirts with girls in capital letters on facebook. It got 5 likes, and I was chuffed with this, but also felt like a bit of a dick to the girl who was just trying to be nice. Next thing I knew, everyone had left. I looked around me to see no one, but sort of knew that if I turned around, the girl would be behind me. I tried it, and in fact she was. She had medium length curly blonde-brown hair, was quite short in height and had large boobs She looked like my friend Tamara. I started chatting to her, however she was French and spoke pretty poor English. I thought she was just nervous but she was just quite illiterate. This created a really awkward situation as there was a strong feeling between us that we liked each other, but we obviously couldn't really express it. Suddenly I remember my Dad who was nearby, who speaks very good French, and thought I'd drag him over to make some conversation. I told her that he speaked French and she turned to him, and said something in french quite shyly and quietly. He understood her perfectly and replied perfectly, which was weird as he doesn't speak THAT good french and struggles to understand it. They were talking for a while and I thought I'd show that I wasn't overkeen by leaving briefly to go for a wee. The toilets were where the cafe food normally was in the hall. When I came back, I was very confused to see my Dad and the girl speaking about insurance and mortgages! I assume they were now talking in English because I can remember my Dad saying "You find the richest people you know, and take a £700,000 loan from them to pay for your house!"

7:15am

2) There was some sort of police academy crossed with a job seekers club situated in my kitchen. I don't know why I was given the impression that it was my kitchen, as it looked more like a small village hall or a staffroom than a kitchen. Everyone was sat on those awful brown plastic chairs including myself, facing the front. It was bright in their with internal light, and gave the dirty impression of a scout den or youth hostel.

3) In real life, I really dropped a course at college and in return had to do a journalism club. I turned up to my first lesson of this club at a lunch time. I was sat towards the front of a classroom, once again in my secondary school It felt like it was either night time or just had no windows as the light was very orange and warm. The classroom was similar to one of the maths rooms at my secondary. I knew a couple of people in the class including my Polish friend Claudia, my Nepalese friend Akriti and a couple of people from my ex-Japanese class. I was waiting around whilst the teacher was getting ready, and more friends came along! Aiden and Layla from Japanese, Marko one of my best mates, and various others that I knew. The class seemed like a huge doss. The teacher - who was very, very attractive, young and by the looks of things a shit teacher - was just standing, watching everyone chat. She was quite tanned but definitely English, about 25 years old and quite tall. She looked like someone from my old drama group. Next thing I remember, we were watching some sort of educational video, whilst my teacher decided to get her boobs out from the top of her bra They were very fake and spherical, but were beautiful all the same

1:30am - 10am

Didnt have any dreams last night, which was disappointing considering that I tried hard to remember them.
Oh well, I'm sure my recall will take a while to return

Haven't been logging my dreams recently, and I have no real excuse for it
I had a bad time recently with LSD and the last few months have been very traumatic and uncomfortable, but I am almost completely better

Anyway, I'm feeling very positive, looking at life and trying to go on a spiritual journey.
I'm very interested in Astral Travel at the moment, and I'm experimenting in that at the moment, although cannot beat the fear barrier D:

So anyway, I should start by recalling recent dreams.

1) I was on holiday, I think in Majorca or another package holiday resort place in Spain. I was with my friends, by a swimming pool sunbathing. Some sort of stir was caused - I'm not sure if we were drunk or what, but people were being very open about their opinions. My friend Ashley, who I have a bit of a crush on, approached me and started angrily ranting at me, about how she used to like me so much and I treated her like shit when she fancied me, and how she had moved on. This kind of happened in RL, although I didn't treat her like shit, I just had a girlfriend. But I stopped her when she finished before she would start again, and told her straight up that it was because I really liked her, and couldn't find a way to tell her. She was very pleased by this, and it seemed to be an automatic indication that we still both liked eachother. I was very happy at this, and I woke up feeling love and happiness, but was very disappointed when I realized it was a dream

Haven't remembered many dreams recently!
I think it has something to do with my new sleep schedule that has come with starting college again...
I need to start getting earlier nights

All I remember really from last night is that I was in my friend Katherine+Sarah's garage where me and the skate park lot had previously had a party. I'd left a lot of beer there previously and I presumed they'd nicked it, but they hadn't which gave me a lot of respect for them It was like a conservatory and was cloudy but light outside. I then went upstairs to katherine's room and to thank her for the party, I bought downstairs a cupboard full of kinder bueno's But on the way down I bumped into her stepdad, when I realized it was his cupboard and not really my write to carry! When I got outside again, it was a long field and it was completely quiet, but it was supposed to be the wednesday of reading festival so I was sad. It was dark now.

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So last night I went to be quite late for a college night (11:30ish) and woke up at 7:15ish, and whenever I do this I seem to have pretty crappy recall

On the plus side, it's been a lovely summers day today here in England! I've been sticking to my one fag a day, which is proving much nicer. I hated being addicted to smoking! I'm aware many people probably would say that if I'm having 1 fag a day then what is the point in not fully giving up, but I disagree personally! To me it's like a coffee :-)

I started my second year of college today, which was pretty good! I have a new, amazing philosophy teacher who has proved very helpful already, and I'm doing an extended project qualification on Buddhism which will be fun too!

Last night, my friend showed me a wonderful video on spirits and chakra, and it's changed my life. Generally, I'm a very happy guy at the moment - it feels strange being this happy after so long of being down!

Tonight, I'm going to set my alarm for 5 hours after I go to bed, as that's proved pretty successful for consistent lucids recently!

Much love to you all, stay happy and love everything!

Calum xx

SIDE NOTES| NON LUCID | LUCID

Last night I went to bed at about 10:30 and dozed off pretty fast.
I woke up naturally at 3:15am and remembered the following dreams:

1) I was looking at what appeared to be a card game. Each card fit into a square shaped grid. The way the cards had been layed out so far was kind of in the shape of a Nazi Swastika. The table that the cards were on was made of green felt. On each card, there was a different picture of a woman in a bikini. On the other side of the cards was the typical red+white weird pattern you see on standard playing cards. It was more of a puzzle than a card game, as you had to put the cards in a certain pattern. However I didn't understand how to work it out, so I more or less put the cards in a random order. When I'd completed it, it turned out that the puzzle turned out to be a really deep, moral lesson, made to teach you about the plastic fakeness of photo-shoots and how natural girls can be so much more beautiful without make up. Overall, I got 95% which I was surprised with considering I randomly guessed. In addition, this result really mate no sense considering there was only about 8 cards.

2) Someone was teling a story about how they found a monkey. The story was being told on some sort of radio or news magazine show. It was very fat and very lazy, resulting in it never leaving the house and becoming a massive slob in the person's house. I saw the monkey in my mind, and it reminded me of the infamous obese Asian baby, or maybe Buddha. I saw the owners take the monkey shopping, and he had to sit inside the trolled in the little seat like a baby does. I think the shop was Sainsbury's. It was very light in the shop, as it always is.



At 3:35am, I went back to bed, after getting a drink of apple juice, having a pee and writing my dreams down.

When I awoke at 4:27am, I remembered the following:

3) It was around 12:30am, and me and Leo were in my bedroom having a lads night in with music and chats. The light was off, but we could see somehow. I was lying on my bed on my side, and Leo was sat against the wall under my KoRn poster. He might have been on a chair, but there isn't one there in real life and I didn't see him really. My bed sheet had been pulled off and my bed was generally very messy, as always. I think it was quite an awkward night - Leo and I have always wanted to have a lads night with music, and it is occasionally awkward with just the two of us but we're usually stoned but it doesn't matter, however we were sober. I was showing him my ambient music playlist through my CD player, playing Kid A by Radiohead - one of our favourite songs. However I was showing him some sort of crazy sound effects through the speaker of an electric UFO I have hanging from my ceiling It was like the experimental noise music that I listen to all the time, and it went in time with the music making it sound even stranger than it normally does. Leo said he liked it, however I felt that he was just being nice about it as I was making my own music pretty much, and when the sounds turned into experimental distorted Aphex Twin style breakbeats I could tell he wasn't enjoying it. I figured he'd had enough of this, so I stepped down and turned the light back on to chat or whatever. I could hear that my sister had just come home from work at Sainsbury's and I thought it was far too late for work. I looked at my bedroom clock to check the time. It was my normal clock, except in between the numbers were strange pale colours, as if normal pinks, yellows, blues, greens and reds had been taken and added to a small amount of white paint. I immediately knew that I was dreaming, but plugged my nose and breathed just to make sure - I could breath, and was now lucid

I don't think Leo was here any longer, as he is also interested in lucid dreaming and I would have told him ecstatically. I sat up on my knees from my laying position, rubbing my hands and touching things lots as I did so to ensure that I stayed lucid. I was getting ready to pull my weigh up and chuck my weight off the cabin bed by holding the wooden beam across it. I was worried that this would stop me being lucid, as the post is very wobbly in real life and the fall is quite scary. However, I did it anyway and it felt exactly how it always feels After performing several more RC's, I decided that it was about time for me to use a lucid to have fun, and not just walk around in excitement like I always do Whenever I think of what to do when I'm lucid, I imagine going to a beautiful field with blue skies and huge stretches of grass hills, with one massive oak tree where I would sit in the shade in awe. I figured I should go to this place, as it would be the perfect first proper lucid dream. I stood in the middle of my bedroom with my arms outstretched, fingers pointing out. I began spinning, but my room was very messy, and my movements were pretty slow and not very smooth at all However I imagined the perfect field, shut my eyes, and hoped for the best... but the best was not good enough, and nothing happened I think the reasoning for this was, like my recent lucid where I tried to spawn MDMA, I didn't TRULY believe that the transformation would occur.

Suddenly, I was in the spare-room arguing with my Mum + sister. It was dark in the hallway but light in the spare room. I still haven no idea why everyone was still up at this time, or where Leo went My Mum was sat at the computer and my sister was behind her. I think I was still aware that I was dreaming, but I had no control and didn't really feel very lucid at all. My Mum was telling Nicola about the new "image" of our landline telephone. She either meant the picture that pops up when you are called, or that we got a new headset. Either way, for some reason my sister was really angry about this.

I was now in the living room with my Mum. She was having a go at me about something, but I can't remember what. The lights were on in the kitchen and in the far left of the living room, but not in the section that we were. Strangely, I plugged my nose and breathed to test if I was still dreaming, and I couldn't dream, so I said something like "See what you did Mum!? You stopped my lucidity!!!" She seemed interested for once that I had been having a lucid dream. I find it quite amusing that I was aware that I was dreaming and that I had been lucid and that I could still be lucid, yet I wasn't lucid

No dreams remembered last night...
As usual when I'm getting back into dreaming, i'm going through the stage of waking up and not being bothered to write them down. Gotta get on that!!!

In other news, I taught loads of people in the last few days about lucid dreaming. I love how amazed everyone is when they hear about it. I remember how shocked I was when I discovered it :') I've also been having more metaphysical+philosophic conversations without freaking out recently, which has been nice. Finally, today I decided to give up smoking! I was walking with a friend talking about LSD Fractals and we used smoking cigarettes as an example. I couldn't deal with that thought and just wanted to cut the loop. The weird thing is, as usual I said "Oh I'll just finish this tobacco pouch!" and my friend moaned at me for it - however I actually ended up losing my baccy during the 2 minute walk XD

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