lucidkara

I was a young Asian woman living in Japan. The lighting in the dream was like a white/bluish lighting which is abnormal for me since my dreams usually have a warmer yellow glow to them. This entire dream was like an Asian action film. I had a slightly younger sister with me who I had to protect from some man that was going to kill her or rape her, I am not really sure. We kept having close calls of being caught by this man where we would have to run through the city, ally ways, down stair well. It was like something out of one of the Bourn movies. I was wearing a brown backpack with a lot of stuff in it and yet I was still faster then my sister and I kept having to pull her by her arm. At one point we are running through this construction area with square white concrete pieces ever where. I jump from square to square and then I hid my sister and I behind a piece. The man had been trailing us the whole time. We had lost him for that brief moment. He walks by and I can see his shoes. He stands for a moment and then disappears. I can remember hearing my sister and I breathing heavy. I look at her scared face and wake up.

I was in Amsterdam for some unknown reason to me. I was extremely excited to be there but yet I was anxious because I had absolutely NO money on me and $0.00 in my account. I knew that I was going to have to call Allen and ask him to wire some money into my account for me. For the time being, I decided to explore the city and have fun. I was traveling alone and I found this extremely enjoyable (something I might consider doing one day in my waking life). I remember strolling over bridges, looking at rivers, and feeling the warmth of the sun on my back. It was really sunny with a brisk wind. I came to this really big night club like thing. There was a ton of people there even though it wasn’t night time yet. There appeared to be a line but I casually walked past everyone and went inside. Inside was large and square shaped with black walls and floors. There were bright strobe lights with green and blue beams above the crowds. Everyone was dancing in a really hard core way but I was still just casually strolling through the crowds, bobbing my head to the beat of the music. I then came upon stairwells that lead to a basement. The music wasn’t very loud down there. The floor was cement and there were plastic sheets hanging from the ceiling. There was a small crowd of about 6 people down there wearing heavy winter coats. Though this may sound like a scary situation my mind was very at ease as I knew this presented no danger to me. I began to chat with the people down there casually as if I knew them. Then a blonde man walked out from behind some sheets eating some food on a tray in his hand. Everyone seemed excited to see him. I saw the food and remembered that I had no money and that I still hadn’t called Allen. I didn’t say anything to the man but he seemed to know what I was thinking because he told me that he got the food for free from a school cafeteria and that I could get as much as I wanted for free too. I was happy to hear that and I felt as if I knew that I would be taken care of. I hung out with all the people down there for a while longer and then me and the blonde man went back upstairs to the club. I wondered around and danced fro a while longer. I went back outside and was walking down a narrow ally. Woke up.

Unfortunately for me, a combination of moving =/ and having the typing on my cell phone die has caused me to no the able to record my dreams as well. I tried having a pen and paper next to the bed, but in my sleepy haze between the hours of 2 am and 7am, my hand writing becomes completely unreadable. Below are some brief excerpts to dreams I CAN still remember. I wanted to give justice and remembrances to them since lately my dreams have been incredibly vivid, adventurous, and long. I am hoping that my potential new method of dream recording will work until I get a new phone.

Was inside of a large house at night with Allen. The lighting was dim and it was pitch black outside. Allen and I were somehow stuck inside of the house until morning. I had picked up the horrible talent of being able to see ghost. Unfortunately, the appeared to me in the way that they had died so they looked incredibly terrifying. I don’t want to go into specific details about how they individually died because its really messed up and I would prefer to one day forget this part. Allen and I were going from room to room trying to find a place to lay low for the night. Allen cant see the frightening ghost and so he wraps his arms around me and guides me through the house so that I can cover my eyes. We find this really large, yet cozy in a way bedroom. Its fashioned in the country cottage style with red and yellow accents. When we first walk in we have to hide under a coffee table, I am not sure why but some man we needed to hid from walked in and we waited for him to leave before crawling out from under it. We both sat on the bed feeling a strange since of safety. Then once again a ghost presents itself to me. I burrow my face into Allen’s chest and armpit to not have to look at it. He wraps his arms around me yet again and I explain the horror that in unfolding before me. Allen was strangely comforting throughout this entire dream.


I decided to do some charity work for an organization that dealt with finding cures for people suffering from a blinding eye condition called coloboma. My little brother in waking life suffers from this so I felt a great amount of compassion for the organization. Allen told me that he thought doing charity work was a stupid waste of time and then he sort of just walked off and out of the dream. I was now walking to wherever I was supposed to meet the other people in the organization. I appeared to be in some sort of school soccer field. There were people in white cotton tee shirts standing behind a chain fence. My ex Zac was there. I walked up to him and asked him what he was doing there and he said he was there to help too. I was really excited that I knew someone there so I had an instant friend. Then the dream sort of turned into an adventure. We were going through a sort of obstacle coarse together and although the obstacles had nothing to do with an actual charity work, it was still all in the name of finding a cure for coloboma. We were crawling under low ropes, climbing trees, hopping logs. At one point were were rowing through a rapid river. It was kind of hilarious looking back because even though we were doing incredibly strenuous activities, we managed to hold a light pleasant conversation throughout the entire dream, as if were were just sitting there talking to each other.

FRAGMENT: Cant remember much, just remember that I was having some underwater escapade dream that was very long and exciting. Usually I am unbelievably scared to go underwater so I must have been the furthest from lucid that I could possibly be. The only details that really stick were swimming past a sperm whale, seeing an underwater city deep below me (Atlantis?), and being able to breath, speak, and swim really well under water.

FRAGMENT: I was in some sort of jungle, thick and dense like the Amazon. I was with a bunch of people but I cant remember who. I was wearing one of those funny hats that people wear on African safaris. I think I had a machete that I kept holding straight out ahead of me. I was the leader of the group, thusly I was walking ahead of everyone else and shouting orders back top them. There were jaguars in the trees and large pythons slithering on the ground, yet they were no danger to me…. Sucks because I know that this was a really good long one with a lot of adventure. I wish I would have written it down. =’(

I was staying at a REALLY nice hotel. It wasn’t you typical swanky high end hotel, but rather really modern and funky. It had a really chill vibe even though you could tell that it cost a small fortune to stay there. The lobby was massive with giant over sized dark red pillows on the floor instead of couches. There were Persian rugs and waterfalls along the walls. The stair cases were absolutely massive brownish granite and huge pillars were on either sides of each case. I was on something.. acid I think. Beats antique was there along with shpongle. They were all sitting around a hookah and talking casually. I sat with them and we all spoke to each other as if we had known each other for years. I was taking hits from the hookah and was really happy. I told the one massive chick that I loved her belly dancing and that I wanted to learn to do it. She stood up and started to show me her moves. I was fallowing along with her and I was nailing it! Everyone casually clapped for me and I sat back down. After a while I decided that I wanted to explore. I said goodbye to everyone and went on my way. The hotel turned out to be in downtown bellevue and there was a waterfront connected. Suddenly I was accompanied by someone. He is a dream character and not a waking life friend. We were walking around and talking about some adventure that we once had had. The actual conversation is hazy to me. Then I wake.


This was the first TRUE nightmare that I have had in a while. I was on a train. It was super huge, with many rooms and cars. There were really big bedrooms within the train. I apparently was a mother of two young girls. The train was super haunted and we couldn’t get off. Every time we went under these really long tunnels the ghosts would present themselves and the whole train would shake uncontrollably. I was in a bedroom for me and my two daughters. I knew that a tunnel was coming up and that we would see the ghost. I was trying to comfort them and tell them to close their eyes, not to open them NO MATTER WHAT they heard until I told them it was okay to open them again. Then suddenly two little girl ghost appear. They were incredibly real looking and extremely terrifying. They were trying to terrorize my daughters and my daughters couldn’t keep their eyes close. The train shook and me and my two daughters got thrown to different corners of the bedroom. Then the two ghost girls showed their dead selves. They were laying on the ground all chopped up and bloody like the two little girls in “the shinning”. Their limbs were rolling around the cart and their bloody heads were laughing. My daughters were screaming in fear and I was screaming to them to close their eyes, that it wasn’t real, and that it would all be over soon. One of the bloody limbs rolled onto one of my daughters and it looked like she was going to have a heart attack. A mother ghost then flew into the room and at daughter about to have a heart attack. I jumped into the air at her to get her away from her. When I did that all the ghosts turned into a black like smoke and disappeared. The shaking stopped. I swooped up my children to comfort them. I was so frighten I was shaking uncontrollably. I took them over to the bed. We all sat under the covers. I had a strange sense that it was never going to end. That we would never get off the train and attacks like this would keep happening. I decided to try and find a way out. I told the daughters to stay under the covers, for some reason I knew the ghost couldn’t really torment them if they stayed under them. I decided to leave the bedroom and do everything I could to find some possible way off the train. I started to explore. Suddenly the dream shifts. I am no longer a mother, but rather me as how I am today. Allen was suddenly on the train. I see him in a door way. I turn the opposite way of him and saw a revolver starting to float in the air. I started to run to allen screaming. I jump on his back and he starts to run us into another bedroom. He shuts the door and tells me to get under the bed. I do as he says and he fallows me. We are laying there under the bed when the door creeps open. The revolver drops to the ground. We lay there staring at it, not sure what to do. Then it floats up again a little and shoots at us. Usually I would wake up way before this point in a scary dream but I stayed awake enough to see the bullet fly through allen and then tart to hit my arm. I wake up extremely quickly and I was super frightened.

I was at work and for some reason I had decided to leave. Allen and I met us at a really modern movie theater. I had really good feelings towards him but for some reason I wanted some alone time so I told him I was gonna go see a chick flick and that he could go spin the staff and we would met up later. He kissed me on my forehead and said okay. We parted ways. I suddenly realized that I was wearing an EXTREMELY sexy outfit, fishnets, booty shorts, and a sports bra. I looked hot as hell and I could tell that everyone was looking at me. The security at the movie theater told me that I didn’t have to pay and that I could skip the line. I was stoked. I decided to get a pretzel and cheese. I walked into a movie and sat down. It seemed like I watched the whole movie in the matter of two minutes. I have no idea what it was about. I left the theater and decided to walk back to work. I was shocked to see that no one was working and the front doors were open. The place was packed with customers. I got really anxious and started to help people. There was a super annoyed guy waiting in line to get a loan on a gun. I was helping him as fast as I could and I kept calling out for todd to help me .

I went to go visit Dustin for some reason. I had gotten a new job and I was super excited. We decided to sit at his place and smoke. We both got super baked. This is really funny because I don’t actually smoke in real life. I cant remember to much of this dream since I had it at like 330am and I didn’t record many notes of it. My last note says “newday”. I have no idea what I meant by that but I am assuming after the smoking the dream turns into a new day…? Lol

I had a huge lot of gold that I wanted to sell. I was going around to a ton of different coin shops and pawn shops trying to find the best price that I could get. It was really nice and sunny outside and I was wearing denim shorts and a tank top. I walked into an antique looking store and I saw Oprah there. She had a pet tarantula that was given to her by Barack Obama. She explains the story to me and I can actually see what she is saying to me play out like a video. Barack had surprised her on her show with his pet tarantula and scared the shit out of her. I talked with her for a long while about how I was incredibly scared of spiders and how I probably would have punched the president if he did something like that to me. She laughed and told me that she would be right back. She wanted me to watch the spider for her for a few minutes so she could go to the bathroom. I normally would have said no but it was oprah and obamas spider, and it was in a milk jug so I knew it wouldn’t get out. I agreed and she left. As I waited for her I noticed all the intricate novelties laying around the antique shop. My mind must have been really imaginative last night. Hundreds of different old dolls, chairs, clocks, and painting were everywhere. As I waited, Carla walked in. She was in a very mischievous mood. She quietly walked over the milk jug with the spider and started examining it. I told her to put it down because it belonged to Oprah and Obama. She didn’t respond to me.he slowly started to carry the spider jug towards me. I slowly started to step backwards and out the front door. I could see that she was unscrewing the top. She knows how bad my fear of spiders is and I knew that she was going to do something that I wouldn’t like. I started to now jog away from her. She started walking faster towards me with the top off. We were now in the paved driveway of the place. Now I was running. I turned around to look at her and she was pulling the spider out and letting it down on the ground. It started to run towards me but I was getting enough of a lead that I knew it wouldn’t catch up to me. I woke up a little sweaty and my skin felt that tingly itch I experience every time I encounter a spider in real life.

Allen and I were in school together. It was the first day of the quarter and we were visiting all of our new classes. We were both wearing bck packs which was strange because allen never carried a backpack to school, he always made me carry his crap in my bag. After checking out our first few classes we decided to go ot our last class. We actually sat down there. The seats were arranged in a messy circular formation. There was a really pretty brunette girl across from where allen and I sat. Even I couldn’t help but to notice how hot she was. She had long curly hair and was wearing an army green jumper. The teacher began to talk and allen interrupted her to make an embarrassing announcement. He then looked at the hot brunette and told her “I think you are just incredible, really, amazing”. I was so humiliated. I should have known right then it was a dream because not only would allen outwardly hit on a girl in front of me, but even if I wasn’t there or we weren’t together, he doesn’t give big complements to girls that he is attracted to (all apart of his “game” =P haha). I got really pissed at him and we left the class room. I told him how I felt and it was like he suddenly realized how bad he had messed up. In a weird way I got over it because I knew that wasn’t typical behavior for him and I just kind of moved on (as if a part of me realized that it all was just a dream… =/). We went walking around outside of the school. I forget a big chunk here but there is something to do with seeing a big flag outside something to do with my car. Then we get home. I look in the mirror and I notice that my eye lashes had almost completely fallen off. Only little stubs were left. I start to panic. I can hear allen talking on the phone in the other room to someone about how long my eyelashes naturally are and my panic gets worse.

I was driving my car. Allen was in the front passenger seat, some old lady that was related to allen in some way was in the back middle seat and two other dream characters were beside that old lady. We were on our way to some sort of cruise ship thing. I was driving for a long time on many highways. I wanted to play music in the car but the old lady hated dub step so we sat in silence. This made me slightly annoyed that she was in the car with us. It was really hot and sunny out and the sun rays sort of impaired my vision while driving. I was coming up to a really scary exit. It went really steep into the air, it was narrow with very small side rails. It twisted around a few times before it connected to another highway. There was a huge body of water underneath me so I was really nervous driving. The old lady got super scared as a beam of light hit my eyes while doing 60mph at the top of the exit. She jumped to the front seat and wrapped her arms around my head. I shoved her off of me and started to yell at her. I hit a side rail and almost fell off of the road into the water. Allen helped me keep her in the back seat. I slowed way down and made it to the connecting highway. I had a huge wave of relief when I got there. We pulled off of the road and were there at the dock to get onto the boat. Dustin was suddenly there. I hugged allen and told him that while we were on the cruise I didn’t want to hang out with the old lady…EVER He agreed.


I was having a huge family get together at a family house that I have dreamt of before. This kitchen has appeared in previous dreams but is nothing like any of my actual families kitchens. It has white floors, white tile counters, and a blue backdrop. I always feel extremely comfortable here and I am always eating and dancing around the kitchen. My dream family (which is always with me in this kitchen) is there. Everyone is laughing and having a good time. I felt so extremely at home and peaceful. I look out to the backyard, it is the same large, green, luscious yard that it always is in this dream. We set up a super long dinner table outside with crisp white cloth to cover it. Everyone is grabbing bowls of fruit and other food and placing it outside for a feast. I don’t know how I didn’t see the 643246037 dream signs here. I assume it was because I was so at peace and happy that I was happier accepting it as my reality and not a dream.


Me, Allen, Leo, Izra, Stephanie, And Yeva all go to visit Gherman in Russia. Me, Izra, Stephanie, and Yeva arnt supposed to be there so Leo, Allen, and G had to hide us in a small bathroom, where we couldn’t barely leave. My dog Baron was there for some reason. For a long time the 4 of us hid in the bathroom, I sat in the tub and we talked. Then the 3 boys let us out. We go to the backyard. It is super dark out and really late at night. The sky is purple and filled with stars. I grab my phone out to take a picture (dream sign) of its beauty. I then go to upload it to facebook and leave a status of something about how “wonderful it is to be under the Russian sky” or something lame like that. Its starting to get light out and we are all supposed to go back to hide in the bathroom before Leo and G’s father wakes up. I go back into the bathroom and wait. A while goes by of me playing with baron before I realize that I am alone. I decided to try and find everyone. I started walking through the house (which by the way is gigantic) and I hear leos dad and step mom in two different rooms near me. I creep around as to not be seen by them or heard. AT one point, I have no choice but to walk by Loe’s father. I walk quickly and I don’t look at him in the eyes. I can see that he is looking at me with a strange look on his face, but I just keep going. I make it past him and I head for the bathroom. There is a library next to it and I stop there and try to look as if I belong there. I pull a book off the shelf and pretend to be reading it. There is a blonde man in the room. He looks at me and says in English that he can tell I am not reading the book. I explain I don know Russian and he promises no to tell anyone. Just then everyone comes walking in through the front door. They are covered in sweat and are wearing gym clothes. Allen says “Heyyy!! Oh shit, I forgot about you!” as he walks towards me. He explains that they went to yoga and that now he needed to get ready for an event an dthat we all had to go back to the closet. I was livid.

For for some reason in my bathroom looking in the mirror. Allen was sitting on the bed in the bedroom. I couldn't see him but I knew he was there and I was talking to him about lucid dreaming. I look down at my hands and they are all fucked up. the right one is huge and missing two fingers. The left is too thin and awkward. I instantly know I am dreaming. I don't need to perform and more reality check but I do another hand one for fun and get an odd number of finger. I being laughing and cracking up. Then white swirling light starts spinning around me. I start hearing the music to atc " around the world" and I am singing the song. My voice matches incredibly to the music. It is the coolest thing in the world to me and I sing louder and louder and the light swirls quicker around me. I know that I should stop and control the dream. I know the singing is getting me excited and that I risk waking up but I do t want to stop. I can sense the presence of my dream guide. I have never met him before but I know he is there. I don't think he is human or animal. I have never had the problem of waking up from a lucid in my life before from getting over excited and yet it happened this time. I know I am about to wake up but I accept and continue singing. I decided not not completely waste the experience (though that beautiful white light, swirling around me, melting my surroundings, and lifting me I in the air is NO WASTE) and I work on feeling what it feels like to he in the dream state. I can sense it even now. The energetic buzz running through my body. Then I wake up and im fully alert. it was probably one of my shortest lucids, only lasting about 5 minutes, but it was really nice after a long dry spell.




Me, allen, dina, leo, Raechel, alicia, and some other people I know are at this pool party. Were all chilling in the pool, drinking white wine, and having a good time. I have one of those inflatable sea monster tubes around me. I keep cracking jokes and Raechel keeps laughing way more then she should be because what I was saying wasn't that funny. In turn I laugh at her. Then we all realize we have to go to the airport. We all get out of the pool and suddenly are there. Dina, allen, and Leo all have to board a plane to Russia. I give allen a kiss and say goodbye. Alicia and I go to the airport bar and decided to get some drinks. Some guys are hitting on us, including the bar tendor and I am getting tipsy. I then get a sudden burst of energy and tell alicia that her and I should hop the next flight to mexico. She agrees and starts jumping up and down in excitment. We rush to the flight, drinks still in hand and slopping over. We get tickets just in time. We run to get to tthe plane in time to board it. We find our seats and sit down next to eachother. We continue to sip our drinks and ask the flight attendant for more. We start planning our trip, like staying on the beach to tan, going out at night, and eatting A LOT of mexican food. I am so excited for all the cheap shopping. the plane starts to take off. I lean back in my seat and close my eyes while smilling. I wake up

Allen and I we're at some huge party thing. There were lots of VERY attractive people there. It was in some sort of mansion with huge stair cases and lots of rooms. The colors deep red and gold stand out. Allen and I were being very distant from eachother. He disappeared for a while and I began to look for him. For a long sequence I was going down different hallways and opening random doors but I couldn't find him. Finally I opened a door to a bedroom and found him with 1 other guy and 3 girls having an orgy. All of the girls were blonde and wearing white pearls around their necks. I was shocked at first and then furious. I started to yell at allen but he didn't seem to care. I ran out of the room and out of the mansion. As I run out of the mansion I notice EVERYONE at the party is now naked and having sex. I somehow was now on the streets of downtown bellevue at night. Allen then came after me. I started yelling at him but he seemed to not care and had an attitude about it. I walked away from him and called my friend Raechel (my go to girl in waking life). At first I was crying but in just the way Raechel nows how, she calmed me down. I was nolonger depressed and angry at allen but more so just felt like he fucked up and that it was his problem and that no boy that cheats on you in worth your time or energy. I was now gladly exploring bellevue at night. All the shops were still open. I walked by nieman Marcus and peeked in. Then there was a sudden shift in the dream. There is a memory break here and suddenly allen hasn't cheated on me but has rather asked me to make a porn with him. He takes me out to dinner at some really nice restaurant with red curtains and warm lighting. I am eating linguine with clams and it is incredibly delicious! At first I am laughing at allens offer but listening to it because I find it so hilarious. He is sweating and frantically explaining to me that if we just make one Porn it will get us enough money to buy a really nice condo in Amsterdam and enough to comfortably live off of. Now I am intrigued by his offer. He explains that we need two other people in the Porn and that he already picked them out. It was one short blonde girl and one short brunet guy. They wernt hot but they went terribly ugly either. We talk about it for a while more and decide to do it. We all meet up in a hotel room and all 4 of us feel super awkward about it. I can tell allen isn't into the girl and im relieved. Me and the girl do our make up in the bathroom and form some sort of friendship. Allen and I left a backpack (I don't know what it has inside it but I know we need it) in the car and we decide to run and get it. We get lost on the way and start walking around the city aimlessly. Its daylight out and really nice. We forget about the Porn all together. Allen gets a call. The other two people finished the Porn but allen and I are going to get paid anyways. Allen and I are super happy and relieved. We start jumping up and down and cheering in joy. Allen wraps his arms around me and we continue walking around the city some more.
*Funny side note, I wake up and tell allen he cheated on me in my dream, he pulls his arm around me and we snuggle and giggle as we fall back asleep. We wake up a bit later and Allen had a dream that I cheated on him too... we both laugh at this.

ALL MY DREAMS FROM THE WEEKEND GOT DELETED FROM MY PHONE! !! Effing HELL! >=( Here's todays at least. :/


Allenn and I had decided to split up and just be friends ( I contribute the dream starting this way to a minor fight we had before bed last night). We were both okay with the decision but we both wanted "custody" of our dog Baron. We decided to do normal day activities together with baron as we would have as a couple. Even through baron looked the same and was still a dog, it felt more like he was a baby. Allen was carrying baron (who btw is a pug) by wearing a front baby pack like in the one in "the hangover". We were leaving a grocery store and I was putting stuff in my car. Allen had stopped to flirt with some girl putting away her cart and I just rolled my eyes. We then go to a mall. There is a really big electronic store with tons of neat gadgets. Allen and I are playing with a flying plane for a while and running around the store. We set baron down and let him chase after the plane. Its super cute and were laughing a lot. (dream sign: all the walls and floors are white). Allen and I then check out some weird robot thing that is serving people "tab" soda. It looked like it would have been super high tech in the 70's but now was just kind of ridiculous. We realized we didn't have baron anymore and we started to look for him by crawling on the ground and calling out barons name in weird voices. We are cracking up laughing at eachother and were both not worried about baron being missing because we are certain we will find him. Baron comes running up to me with his tongue out and I scoop him up. We leave the store and we get in my car. Allen is the one driving now. I am not sure but I think we are nolonger broken up here. We both somehow knew that we were back together without us ever saying a word about it. Allen leans over to give me a kiss on the cheek. I smile. Then I remember that I had money in my wallet. I pull out some pink money and I knew the total was $2,200. I was really excited! I wasn't sure how I got it but I knew it was mine. Allen was excited for me and asked me to buy him another staff. I rolled my eyes but decided I would as a surprise. I recognized the street were on. Its northup, the one by my place.

Was traveling with allen, leo, dina, and gherman. First we stopped in ireland. I can't remember to much that happened here. We stayed in a really cool little place with red lighting. Their were Persian rugs on the walls and tons of oversized pillows on the floor. There were absolutely no windows. In the center of the room was a hookah on a wooden table, much like the round one I have at home. We all sat around it. Allen was laying underneath an archway with a hookah hose hanging out of his mouth while he was saying something funny. Me and leo were laughing a lot. German was dancing in a corner by himself. We did some traveling in the city but its mostly a blurs of us walking down streets. Next stop, italy. We get there and its really sunny out. Hoaggieville for some reason is there. I get super excited and order a few sandwiches. I finish them and I go back to get 8 more to eat later. Allen is making fun of my for being so obsessed but I don't care. Next were all planning on going to a movie theater. Allens ex girlfriend is suddenly with us and I fell tense. I saw something random and she calls me a total idiot. I was shocked at her rudeness. I say id rather be an idiot then a total Bitch and she laughs it off sarcastically. Allen is sitting at my side. Though he doesn't stick up for me, he is snuggling me, wrapping his arms around me and resting his head on my shoulder. I felt really good that he was showing me so much affection in front of her. We get to the movie theater and she it still with us, still being a Bitch but allen is kissing me and is all over me so I don't even care that she is there. She starts to cry and then she leaves. We all chanted when she left because she was irritating everyone. Allen decides that he doesn't want to are the movie anymore but wants to be outside in the sun and i agree. We sit on some bean bags outside together and snuggle while looking at a view of hills.

Me, Allen, Gherman, and Izra are walking around in a book store. They all seem really bored but I am not at all. I find some books written by Stieg Larsson. He is the author of my favorite trilogy, girl with the dragon tattoo. There are made up books by him and i sat down and started skimming through them.One was about a ghost in a cartoon village. The pictures in the book seem to come alive! I am not turning pages, no am I really reading any words. The pictures on the page move around in a way that tells a story. I skim through a few more picture books by him and i grab a handful of them to show them to the boys. The are in a separate room. I walk in and its very dark. There is a bed in the room and Gherman and Izra are laying on the bed in a very still position. Its a little strange and I give them a weird look. I turn the corner to find Allen in a well lit adjacent bathroom. I show him the books but he is not impressed as he is not a fan if Stieg Larsson.
*Memory Laps*
I am at a really nice outdoor dinner party next to a wide rushing river. There are beautiful tea lights being hung between polls. I dont know any of the people at the party but I am still very comfortable. I look my best, even in an oversized sweater, and I felt really good and relaxed. I was enjoying munching down on some delicious steak strips that were marinated in something incredible. Many people there were on a diet and I felt sorry for them because they didnt get to enjoy the delicious food. A man sits with me and asks me about my modeling career. Apparently I am one and I answer by telling him it was going fine but I start to ignore him to eat some more food. He is obviously hitting on me so I ignore him even more because I am not into him. Then I get up and I board someones speed boat. I am relaxed with the wind blowing through my hair and enjoying the perfect weather and sun shine.

Allen and I are walking around Seattle. Dustin and Jemma appear out of nowhere and are walking with us. My head is on Allens shoulder as I walk. We go inside a restaurant that looks a lot like cha chas night club. Stephanie meets us there and we all order milkshakes. Allen is complaining about how many calories are in the milkshakes. Stephanie decided not to finish hers. At some point Allen and I get into a light hearted argument. Next we all go to a concert. It is an outside one and looks a lot like a music festival. It is really nice and sunny out but not to hot. The music theme there is rock which isnt really mine or Allens scene but we enjoy the music we are hearing and we are dancing to it. The festival area looked a lot like the gorge, with a magnificent land scape all around.

FALSE WAKE UP: I wake up to my alarm going off. Allen is next to me and complaining about how my alarm woke him up while he was having a nice dream. I turn it to snooze and think to myself that I was really bummed out that yet again I didnt have a lucid and how it will be many days before I will have a chance to sleep in and have a wake back to bed to increase my chances. It seems that as I close my eyes in this false wake up my real alarm actually goes off. DAMMIT!!

Had a text from Taylor, it was time for me to meet up with him to pick up something. I can't really remember what. He sounded irritated so I was not looking forward to seeing him. I got into my car. I was driving down a one way when a car was going the wrong way on it and hit my car head on. It wasn't a very serious accident but both of our cars had marks and dents in them. I was super pissed. The guy threw his hands up in the air as if it was my fault. There was another car behind his but he wasn't apart of the accident and then he sort of disappeared during the excitement of everything. I got out of my car. The air was slightly smoky and foggy. He got out of his car and walked towards me. He asked me what the hell I was thinking. This sent me over the edge. I proceeded to call him a fucking moron who doesn't understand the concept of a one way street. I pointed to a sign that I guess re enforced what I had to say though I never actually read the sign. The man stood there in a daze. After a few moments I could see that he knew it was his fault. We both walked across the street into a white building with large windows because the air was getting even more smoky (funny because the cars looked not that bad). I started going on and on about how this was his fault and about how he needed to pay on whatever damages he made to my car. At first he was fine but then he suddenly got pissed. He grew angry with me. I don't exactly remember what it was that he had against me but he knew something and started to use it against me. I suddenly became way more sweet and I started telling him that we needed a friendly agreement. That seemed to please him and we decided not to get insurance involved (good for him because I was going to sue) and that he would pay me later. Good for me because he wasn't going to use whatever he had over me. I went home. Me, allen, leo, and dina were living in a new place. It was super modern with black wood floors and white walls and lots of modern furniture. Allen was setting up our bedroom. Apparently dina and leo got the master bedroom so allen was working on making the two smaller rooms somehow work together as one room for us. I told allen about the crash bit he wasn't the least bit interested in my story.

There was some sort of crevice in the ground by i-90 that was mostly covered by rock and leaves and large bushes/small trees. There was a news cast around the crevice and a shirtless sweaty tan man sitting on the ground. Ambulances were scattered about and people were tending to the man. I listener and watched as one reporter talked into a microphone and a man filmed. She said the man fell into the crevice nearly 30 feet and crawled his way back out. I paused for a moment and I could actually visualize and see the mans decent and crawl back up the crevice. This scene took me several minutes. I could even imagine the mans grunts and he made his way out. The news lady said that if he fell on his head, he would be dead. (Obvious I know). I walked slowly to the edge of the crevice. I looked down into it. I felt invisible to all the people around me. There was a warm calm feeling that I got from ths crevice and I had an extremely strong urge to crawl in.

Was at my apartment. Big huge clue from the start that I was dreaming, my walls were all white!!!! Damn myself for not realizing it! Especially since my walls are beige. It was especially dark throughout the apartment with a mild blue glow. I don't know why but I remember running my fingers through the white carpets. They were more like shag carpets then what I actually have and it felt so smooth. Its a shock that I didn't realize I was in a dream because when I think back to it, I had a strange buzzing feeling inside myself. The same buzzing feeling that I get whenever I've had a lucid in my apartment(s). Allen and some other people were watching tv in the game room. They were completely distracted and disconnected from me. The only person who I was really interacting with was my sister. She was a few years younger then she is now, id say about 10. We were crawling around my apartment and giggling. We kept making funny faces at eachother. We were both in pjs. I can't remember exactly what she wore but I had on a white cotton shirt and allens blue boxers on. The movie everyone was watching was making loud intense noises. I looked out a large window I was the game room (another sign because the game room window isn't that big). The giant alien robot thing from war of the worlds was walking around outside. It turned its light towards us as if looking at us. I knew that I needed to hide from it because it was going to enter the phone and that my sister needed to hide too. Yet I wasn't worried about anyone else. Everyone else didn't seem real enough to think about worrying about. (It seems to me I was on the cusp of lucidity and yet I was having to much fun and not being conscious enough to fully turn lucid). Even though the alien robot thing was bad and a killer machine of some sort, I was laughing and having fun finding odd places to hide. It became a sort of game between me and my sister. At one point I hide under the kitchen my kitchen sink after pushing the garbage can and cleaning supplies out onto the kitchen floor. My body is super contorted and I crack up laughing I open the door and yell out for Hailey (my sister) to come look at me. She runs out and starts cracking up too. We hear a thud and we both say "oh no!" To eachother in a joking way. We know the
robot is around the corner. I grab Hailey and she squishes under the sink with me. There is no way in reality that this would actually work. I shut the door. Were both looking at eachother and softly giggling. I can see us not together in a third person point of view.

Walking down the street between home and work. I see I giant st. Bernard dog!

I was in a really nice modern kitchen of white and light blue colors. It wasn't my kitchen but yet I still felt very comfortable there as if I had been there many times before and it belonged to a family member of mine. I had on a white shirt and blue denim pants. I was wearing sneakers (I never wear sneakers). I was laughing surrounded by people I knew as my family but really they were just random deem characters that I had created. I felt energized, happy, and super positive. There was a large sliding glass door that led out to a huge green backyard that was obviously very well kept. I saw that two cops were standing there looking in on me. They were both female cops, on asian with hair pulled back and one white with her blonde hair pulled back. They looked extremely calm. Suddenly lettuce and cabbage leaves were all over the kitchen floor, heaps of it. I decoded to make the cops laugh buy covering my self in the leaves and doing the moon walk across the kitchen floor. The people inside the house and the cops outside were laughing hysterically. I felt really satisfied that I could make them laugh.
*memory laps*
Allen and leo are on a dock. They are so connected and I get jealous of over how close they are. Then I felt foolish for being jealous over the bond of two cousins since the bond of a boyfriend and girlfriend is much different.
*memory laps*
In the woods skipping around with allen, laughing and cracking our usual inside jokes.

Me and dina are for some reason in jail together. I think we may he high or something by the way that we are acting and laughing. We decided to sneak out to buy kittens. We had full intent to return to the jail that night. Somehow we make it past the guards. We go through a series of tunnels and large stair wells. The stair wells are like a dusty beige color. We giggle the whole time. Its dark outside and we run across the street to the pet shop. We spend a lot of time walking through the shop and admiring the animals. We find the kittens and we each pick out one. I of cores pick out a cute little fuzzy black one. We buy a little food and a water dish and a small cat bed each. Then we put out cats and other merchandise in boxes and head back for the jail. When we almost reach our cell I realize that we will need more food in just a couple days and I begin to get anxious about having to break out again. We make it to the cell and I play with my new kitten "chauncy" for a while. I get sleepy and I snuggle with him in my bed to go to sleep.

My first dream of the night is mostly fragments. Its really hard to piece how they went together. I know that at first I was in the vitamin shoppe again with allen. I was looking at all the energy boosters. Then I was Eatting steak at my mothers house at some point. It was incredibly delicious and I asker her how to make it. Next allen and I are apart of the werewolf gang in true blood season 4. I don't think we are werewolves though. Lastly, it was pitch black outside. As it is in so many of my dreams.


The world was possibly coming to an end. I was at my Gma lucys old house with my dad. We began to pack many items. I had a back pack filled with stuff that I considered necessary for when stuff started to go down. I packed tooth brushes, toilet paper, silver (since it went up really high in value and we were going to scrap it for cash), we each took a handgun. My dad had a pistol and I had a revolver. I packed clothes, food, small tent, maps, soap, medicine, extra. The list was extensive. The tv was on while we packed. The news caster was talking about how war and huge waves and volcano explosions were all going to happen at once. That is we wanted to survive we needed to head for the trees. Suddenly I was no longer at my grandmothers and allen was with me, not my dad. We only had $12,000 for all our cash I was trying to pack him up but he wasn't taking it serious enough. He was looking up staffs to buy and was just kind of hanging out. He went to the bathroom and his phone rang. It was curly blue (alex). I answered the phone. Alex said that he needed to speak to allen immediately. I told him id have him call him back. I knew for some reason that curly was going to offer to fly allen out to London with him. I also knew London was going to be hit by a huge wave and everyone would die. I thought about not telling allen that curly called but I realized that may back fire. I told allen and allen lucky seemed on board to stay. I was finished packing for us and I was ready to enter the woods.

I am a teenager again living at my parents old house. For some reason my sister lives is a little girl (about 5) and living there too. I watch some tv show with her and I braid her hair and scratch her back. In being a very loving sister (strange). I left her in the house and I decided to go outside. There was a woodsy are behind the house across the street. It had a small fire pit with logs all around it. All the neighborhood teens would hang out there. A small party is going on and everyone is drinking beer out of red plastic cups. Im sitting on a log in a flannel style shirt. I think it may have been the early ninety's by the way everyone is dressed. An older man with white hair comes out of nowherer. He is making flirting faces at me and I am trying togo avoid eye contact. He sits next to me on the log but I continue to stare at the fire. He starts asking me questions about what's me name and stuff. I ignore him. Then he super creepily tells me my sister is awake and I should check on her. I turn to him with disgust and run back home. I lock the doors and check on Hailey, who is sleeping.

Allen and I are at some swimming center. The pool is huge, like olympic sized. He jumps in and starts doing laps. I am not ready and I want to look around since the place is so beautiful. The place is like a palace. There are beige stone walls and pillars everywhere. I can't even begin to describe how huge the place was. There were beautiful white curtains hanging down from the wall where there were arches. I walked around for a very long time. I decided to go swim in the shallow area and let allen teach me. As I walked up it looked huge. But when I got in the pool shrunk to the size of a bath tub. I was alone in the tub and I thought to myself that it would be impossible to swim in this. I called allens name out a few times but no one came. I noticed now that there was a blue shower curtain next to me and I was in a white bathroom.