lucidkara

I am at safeway shopping alone. The store is pretty busy. There is a man standing with his cart. The wooden floor rips beneath him and a great white shark bits him all the way up to his torso. The shark holds on and doesn't move. The man starts to scream " not again" as this would be the third time it has happen to him. We all are standing in fear for the man but we know that the floor is not going to rip beneath any of us and no sharks are going to bite the rest of us. After a while the mans screaming subsides and he is only moaning now. He pushes his feet through the bottom of the shark and continues shopping making small quick steps.
*memory laps*
Im in the forest. There is a small tribe of people that live amongst the trees. I can't speak their native language but I was sent to teach them how to make wells with clean water. Apparently I knew this skill in my dream and I wasn't worried about not knowing how. The problem was that the forest was very dense and wet and there were jaguars everywhere lurking in the trees. The natives were not afraid of the jaguars but I still was. I decided to go back to the house I was going to stay in while helping the native people. It was an elegant sprawling mansion and I couldn't speak the language of the people that lived there. I was beginning to become frustrated.

Me and allen for some reason are living at allens moms house again. I believe leo lives there too. Allen left in the morning and I was supposed to go to work. I couldn't find a shoe so I laid on the bed. Allen came back and said he needed a ride. We both hopped into my car. We were driving around some back roads and farms. I was late for work but I didn't care. As stopped at a farm with one farmer boy and two farmer girls. I realized that I would never be a farmer. It was getting late and we drove to Nancy's. We were gonna live there now. They cleared out a room for us and I had to blow up an air mattress. Nancy made spaghetti. It was the single most delicious plate of spaghetti I have ever tasted. She sent me and kyle on a mission to deliver some food to a poor old man in a house with two grand daughters. We had trouble finding the house. The man was deafer then shit and it was impossible to talk to him.

Was driving me and dina to the grocery store. As I started downhill my oil change light came on. I got really scared and I drove back home. I asked some random guy that was dingy looking wearing a ripped up jean jacket and jeans. He was super dirty. I knew allen didn't know how to change one. I parked. He came over and was just standing around drinking a beer, looking at the inside of my car. I started to get angry, the guy was wasting my time. I noticed that in the apartments next to mine tiny creatures were dancing and circling in and out of the apartment. They were super dirty colorful and they were quietly singing a chant. I couldn't make at the words. They somewhat remind me of the aliens that appeared in one of my lucids that actually took place in that very spot. Weird since I've only encountered them those two times.

I had gotten a really nice hotel room with allen and some other people. We were ordering lots of room service. The room was really over the top like at the balagio. There were lots of purple and gold tones. We were all going to go see deadmau5 in concert that night. (Funny since we saw them a couple nights ago in waking life). We get there and everyone im with is dancing near the back. I kept wanting to take better and better pictures so walked closed and closer to the stage. I managed to get practically on the stage in the right hand side. Then a bouncer guy lead me to the back of the stage. I got to meet deadmau5 and sofie. I kept taking pictures of them but they warmth coming out very good. I was getting frustrated but I was excited to tell allen ad everyone that I got to meet them. I was officially allowed to walk and go anywhere on and back stage.
*memory laps*
Me and allen are graduating high school. We apparently are in the same grade and are graduating at the same time. We were to sit at a giant long table outside with white table clothes. Everyone who was graduating was at the table. The grass around us was brilliant green. There were bleachers for the parents and families of the graduating to sit and watch us. Lindsey was in the stands. Her and allen were cuddling. Then allen walked back to the table as if nothing happened. I was pissed and humiliated. we got into a fight and allen kept saying that he couldn't deal with me being mad at him. Matt was sitting next to me and kept asking if I was okay. I kept shrugging him off. I needed to get away from everyone so I ran to the woods. There was a house there that I had always deemed as haunted but now people were clearly remodeling the place and it looked quite nice. I stopped and peeked in through the windows to get a better look. White walls were in the house (huge dream sign for me). There were lovely paintings on the walls and modern furniture. I had for a moment forgot about allen and I walked around the woods. Then allen came out of nowhere and I remembered what happened earlier. In a weird playful way I decided tp "get him". We were both suddenly on those weird two wheel scooted things you see mall cops on. I was chasing him around the woods. It was quite fun as we were jumping them ans having a lot of fun. I finally caught up tp him and I made him fall over. I was laughing. He grabbed me and pulled me into a tent. We sat there talking for a long while. I was no longer mad at him. For some reason I was assured that they didn't actually cuddle and that allen didn't like her like that. (Though I saw them in the act earlier in the dream). We get out of the tent and walk around the woods some more. Lots of deep greens and browns. We come across a tribe of young people. They are brown from the mud and they hold sticks as weapons. I am somehow not afraid of them and we pass by them. They raid the tent.

Short sexual dream. Im sitting on a bar stool. Im wearing my high waisted short yellow shirt. Allen is Eatting me out and it feels in credible. I wake up and feel slightly numb down there. Would wake allen up but don't want to disturb him in case he is having a lucid. Fall back asleep.

Me and allen were at our apartment but it looked nothing like the one we actually live in. There were some other people there but they were all random dream characters. For some reason we had a ton of barbies in the house. The barbies were evil. They would hid behind dressers and behind clothes in the closet. Their goal was to wait for us to fall asleep and then they would kill us. At one point I watch as one makes movement in a closet and I cover my eyes in fear. Allen says that we need to destroy all of them now. I grab one. She appears not to be evil or alive but for safe measure I take her to the sink. At fiery she was a really beautiful barbies but as I started to dump her head in the water and hold it there, the colors start to fade and she becomes more and more scary looking. Then I see that she starts to move her head and is clearly holding her breath. I hold her arms against her body so that she can't move them. I experience a strike of terror as I watch the barbies struggle. I had a weird thought that maybe if she didn't die from the drowning, she would come back and cause me to drown (which is one of my most feared ways of dieing). I quickly pulled her head our the water. She turns her gaze to mine. another strike of terror. I run to the kitchen with her to allen. Allen tells me to chop her up into tiny pieces so that if her evil soul reenters her body, she wont be able to use that body to kill us. I grab an oversized butcher knife. I lay her out on a wooden chopping block. I can see that she is weak from the drowning and isn't moving much. I was surprised at the fact that she wasn't fighting to stay alive. I begin to chop off her head, than arms, then legs. I rechop all the pieces. Finally when I was satisfied that I couldn't chop her up anymore I despised of her in the trash. I was relieved that was over but still panicked because I had so many other barbies to find and chop up. Allen gets a phone call and walks away. I go back into the bedroom to find another. I am scared to walk anywhere they might be binding in case they jump out at me in a big group and attack. I decided to leave the room and wait for allen to help me find more. Allen meets me in the hallway. He looks out of breath and hurried. He said that he was being forced to move away for his job. I began to sob because I didn't want him to go and I was scared I would die of he did. He looked really upset and then said that he would stay with me. I hugged him really tightly for a long time. Then we went back into the room. One thing I noticed about the apartment that I didn't mention earlier was that it was filled with children toys, cartoon blankets, and was very messy. Total opposite of how it actually is.

I was moving out of parents house. For some reason I had a huge collection of bugs including spiders. I remember feeling to scared to look at the glass cages. I was in awe of the fact that they were still alive and that I had never few them. A spider or two jumped out at me and I became very nervous, itchy, and miserable. I decided to just leave the house how it was. I was in my car. I had had some sort of arranged marriage with some old wealthy man in bellevue. We were gonna meet at crossroads mall. He pulled his lexus suv next to my car. I waved but wasn't happy. Then I saw a huge car pill up on a freeway. It was very clear that people had died in it. Two cars were on their sides with no people in them.

Was driving up near my grandparents house. Allen was in the car. I ended up speeding past a cop and got really scared they would pull me over. for some reason I knew that if I got pulled over they would take me to jail. I races behind some buildings and sought refuge in what appeared to be a small strip mall complex. I waited for a while and allen was suddenly gone. I walked inside one pf the strip malls buildings. There were bushes covering the outside. When I walked in I quickly realized that it was a whore house. There were many rooms with beds and bathrooms. I was a little disgusted by it. Each room was assigned a guard to sit in the room and make sure the johns were fallowing the rules. Ew. I was informed that I was to become the madam of the whore house or they would tell the room cops that I was here. I hesitated but then decided it would be better to just be the madam then go to jail since madams didn't have to have sex with the johns. I had my first customer come in. He was the werewolf guy from true blood. I was shocked that an attractive guy would need to buy whores. I assigned the first room to him. I was being snoopy and decided to stand kind of close to the door to listen in on the conversation the guy and the whore were having. I could hear him explain that he got into an accident and they had to rebuild his "thing" so that's why it was all misshaped. I began to laugh quietly to myself at this. I now understood that there were two types of men who used whores; creepos that can't get any and normal guys who were hiding horrible disfigurements. I now found it fun to be a madam. I decided to stay and clean up the space a little bit. The walls were wooden to I tried to find paintings to hide to walls since I hate wooden walls.

My Gma was incredibly ill. Im not sure which, im pretty sure it was Nancy. I had to drive over to her house and watch after her. I told allen that I would come home afterwards when other people came to watch her. I hoped to be back that night. Her house was a sprawling mansion. It was done in a very old style with gold and red accents, a large stair case and huge paintings. I was in a different room then Nancy. Dave called and wanted to know if I would like some Starbucks. I said yes. He brought me the most delicious drink. It was like a super cold chi tea late but it had a chocolate twist to it. It was incredible. I looked at the clock and saw that it was 1 am. It was pitch black outside. I called allen but he didn't answer. I called leo and got no answer. I tried allen one more time and got the same results. For some reason this made me really sad. I really wanted to go home and snuggle with him but I knew he was sleeping. I decided to stay at the mansion and go to bed there since I had work the next day and it was significantly closer to work. I went into a bathroom and it was as big as my apartment. The mirrors were so massive the stretched to the top. There was a bluish tint to the bathroom that didn't match the rest of the mansion.

Me, allen, dustin, and a group pf their friends are walking around a city. The city is beautiful with lots of cathedrals and interesting buildings. It very sunny out and there are street vendors everywhere. I see a lady with pieces of plank wood sitting out. The plank wood has designs on it that look like people. She claims that they are intact super old petrified humans and that for a small amount of money, you can buy a piece and throw it. If you can break it you can win a prize. I grabbed a board and very quickly realized that I wouldn't be able to grab it. I set it down and all of us walked into this underground secured parking. I somehow knew the parking garage and I knew that the bottom floor had ferraries. I jokingly suggested we go down there and bash them up. I wasn't serious. Everyone laughed. We make our way to the bottom and see some old ones and a massive locked closet. The closets gated door is open. We walk in. It's a super secure closet where the close are on rotating metal bars that are controlled by a remote. I turn on the remote and the clothes start to rotate and spin. I marveled at how nice and electronic the closet was. It must have cost a lot of money. I didn't understand however why it was inside of a parking garage.

Allen is doing hand stand on my night stand. I am annoyed.

False wake up. Im sweating so much my clothes, blanket, and bed is wet

Go to call allen, I can hear grandparents talking about me on the line. They are trying to call me. I hang up and try again a few times but the same thing happens again.

I was super tired and didn't do any formal wake back to beds. I also did a half ass meditation. =/ I did wake up at some point and I remember that I had a long dream but was so tired that I couldnt get myself to write any of it down. All I have is some tiny fragments now...
- I was in a car with allen.
- I felt tension or anxioty.
- I was dressed in some type of business attire.
- I went into a grey building and was nervous but it is not clear to me why this happened.
- Color's green and orange somewhere.
This is pretty pathetic considering last nights well recorded dream adventures. If anything, this makes me more motivated to not be so lazy tonight.

I was myself but in some way I was Lisbeth salander from my book "girl with the dragon tattoo". I decided that I needed to flee Sweden. I managed to hope on a plane with no ticket. I wasn't sure where I was going but I knew it was going to be the farthest location possible. The plane was sooooooo strange. First class was in back. Their large comfy seats made up most the plane. Then there was just a small bunch of cheaper seats up front, about 10 per row. The isle way was the best part, it was huge. No bumping into other people. I casually walked down the isle. I realized that they may want to see my ticket so I decided to hide in the bathroom. The bathroom was gorgeous! Tan leather seats. The toilets were regular seats with little holes in them. It was a spacious shared bathroom so multiple people had to use it at once. Lucky for me no one else came in. There was a huge window in the bathroom. I sat on a comfy over stuffed seat and I relaxed as I took in the view. Next thing I know we are landing. It is somewhere so beautiful and warm. Some type of tropical island. I land and I am united with allen. Im so happy to see him. We walk around and then get a room at a hotel. The room has white walls and floors and is a little shitty but we don't care because were happy. Two cleaners are in there cleaning. We notice a giant spider and a cleaner smashed it against the wall. We become nervous about the bug situation at the hotel. We decided to tip the maid a $10 bill. The money was not US, KRONOR, EURO, or PESO. I am not sure exactly how all my money was like this. We go explore. The water is crystal blue, the land is beautiful, and tourist are everywhere. I snap photos of allen and I as I walk. We still don't know where we are. I hear a man say that we are in Aruba! I was excited because I've never been there before
I was wearing jeans and I felt a little warm. Suddenly the air gets to a more comfortable temperature.
(Dream signs in this dream that I unfortunately overlooked: white walls, taking pictures with my phone of scenery, having weather change as I will it to)

Fragment: me and allen are talking to Stephanie over the phone. She says that her, g, Izra, leo, and someone else are at a rave. They begged us to go. We don't really feel like it but we say okay. We walk there and were tired. We walk in, its nothing like a rave, more like a bar with white sheets splitting up rooms. We realize that the place is huge with many rooms. Potentially it gets more rave like but allen wants to leave. We walk outside. The outside is a pier. Stephanie calls and says 3oh3 is there and other popular bands. I tell allen we can go back but he says no. I say okay and we walk home.

Hanging out with allen and leo in my room. We all are talking about our dream books that we are keeping. They are regular not pads with hand written dreams. Then it gets to obvious that its a dream and I don't realize it. I begin to fly around the bedroom. From corner to corner, over the boys who are sitting on the bed. Instead of them being impressed, they are annoyed by my flying antics. Allen decides to play a trick on me. I sit on the bed and he is going to scare me and grab me. I somehow now have super strength too and when he reaches for me I hold leo up as a shield. I start laughing and calling them noobs.
*memory laps*
Then were at our yoga studio. Its pitch black outside. I am standing in the doorway writing down a dream I had. A guy walks in and im in his way so he says something rude to me. I retaliate with something clever. He tells me that he iz going to tell gary the owner of the studio and kick me out. I call him a jackass and I don't believe that he can. Then Nancy walks in. She is pissed at me for some reason and I have no clue why. I become super upset. Ray walks in and I try to explain to him that Nancy shouldn't be mad at me. I explain to him that I have a dream journal for no reason. I start to wake up here. I can feel my real body. I am aware of the dream and yet I don't become lucid at all. In the dream I rub my hands together to try and get back into the dream. When it started to work and I just continued with the dream as though I wasn't aware of the dream. It continues for a while with me just walking the yoga studio for a bit. I wake up.

I was with allen and Stephanie late at night. We were planning on driving somewhere, the location has escaped my memory. We somehow knew that we needed fur jackets. I knew I had 1 mans and 2 womens at the shop so I suggested we stop there first. I unlock the door and type in the security code. Not many lights are on. I heard these loud thuds coming from upstairs. It sounded like something large was running back and forth. The 3 of us stood there scared looking above us. Then I heard it coming down the stairs. We hid behind a wall. I looked out and it was my aunt Rachel. I was so relieved but a little worried she would be mad that we were borrowing the jackets. She didn't seem to care to much. She was in a hurry. Next thing I know orin my old dog, and Barron my current dog were there too playing. Customers started to walk in the door. I began to get anxious and I was trying to tell them that we aren't open. Nobody was listening.

Allen and I are out at a bar. The bar looks like a 1950's style diner. Sitting on either side of us is the "bro's" from high school. Me and allen were a little drunk and having a fantastic time talking to eachother and cracking some of our usual inside jokes like "oh" and "youuuuu little BETCH". I was having a lot of fun. The alcohol served to us looked like it was diner style milkshakes. The bros were having fun top

Was in a pool with allen. The water was bright blue. It was at some hotel resort. There were other people around and in the pool. Allen was making me laugh a lot and he was being really goofy. We were pretending to be sea monsters and we were loudly talking shit about the other people at the pool. I was extremely happy. Then we mellowed out for a bit and sat near an edge talking.I felt a tremendous amount of love towards allen. Then my cell phone rang. It was Taylor. He told me that he had many fake mont bell jackets that he could sell me in bulk for a low price. I was a little sketched out but I felt like I should do it. I asked allen what he thought and he just nodded and looked away. there was a shift of sadness. I had to get out of the pool and talk business. I went to my car to write some notes down. I was there for a while and annoyed because I wanted to be with allen. Finally I was done and I ran back to the pool. It was now no longer sunny out. Most people left the pool. Allen was sitting alone. He looked sad. I ran to him and he said he needed to leave now for a while. I don't know why but I knew I couldn't go. He told me to get back in the pool. I did as he said and he left. Then I realized I was alone and slightly cold in the pool. I looked to the deep end and felt a sense of fear. I go out. Then a fat woman walked up and dived into the deep end. Little bubbles surfaced. She didn't.

Much of this dream has been forgotten. I am thinking that this is a cross between dream and fragment.
- I was in a giant outdoor fair type thing. There were many restaurants but the strange thing about them was that they were all completely outside. There were many booths and chairs. There were fences to separate the different restaurants. It was super sunny out. I saw some people I knew from highschool at a booth. Alyssa was sitting next to Mandy and Alicia sat across from them. I walked up and could sense there was a secret being kept from me. I asked. Finally alyssa suggested that she was having sex for money. I was in shock.
- I am in a grocery store in line.
- the store is packed with people.
- I am wearing denim shorts and a red tank top.
- I was looking at my phone while holding a melon.
- I was thinking about Allen.
- there were flashes of red and bright yellow
- I had a plastic bag in hand.

Was living in a shitty apartments on the bottom floor. A man in the apartment above mine rapped my dog. I was so furious that I knew I had to kill the man. After sitting there upset for a while and holding baron I went upstairs and went inside the mans apartment. Strangely, Lisbeth salander from the book "girl with the dragon tattoo" was inside. She was on my side. She quietly signaled to me that the man was sleeping. We went over to him tip toe and began chocking him until he died. Then Lisbeth and I quietly signaled to each other once more and I left. I felt a great deal of relief once he was dead. Then I walked downstairs. The scene changed, I was in a big house. This guy who had a crush in me in school was there. He was hitting on me, and I was slightly creeped out. Then many people from highschool were there. I had to pee. I went to the bathroom and I started to pee. There was dirt on the wall and an invisible ghost started to write the word "clean" into the wall. I got up and began to yell at the ghost. I said I wasn't afraid of it and it to leave me alone. I got pee on my leg when I got up and I was frustrated. Then the bathroom door opened. That guy with the crush was there.

The entire dream was from third person perspective. At first I saw the outside of a large Bavarian style building with brown and white. It was snowy outside. Inside it was like a giant warehouse with cement walls and floors. There were a total of two stories with and open floor plan and wide stairs connecting the floors. The cement floors were stained. The main dream character I was watching was a young mixed woman on the slightly heaver side. She had short curly hair. She was walking through the warehouse, meeting men on set up dates and deciding who would move with her to California. All the guys were tall. There were about 3, maybe 4 guys in total. She picked out a guy with blonde hair who looked and acted like a weirdo. She kept talking about how they were going to live with her sister and then find her own place. They had to do some type of obstacle together where they were walking on wooden beams and crawling through giant yellow foam pillows. It was kind of a weird dream for me. Not the most enjoyable or adventurous as mine usually are. Maybe because I wasn't one of the characters in it?

Allen, leo, and I lived in a giant white house that was like a wharehouse. Some parts of it were indoors and some were out. We had a giant gym with a huge basketball court. Allen had many friends that were at the basketball court with him. Allen looked short next to his monster sized friends which is strange since he is 6'5. His friends were all at least 7 ft tall with huge hands and fat heads. They all demanded that I start making them sandwiches but I was overwhelmed and not sure we had enough supplies to feed all these beast. I was happy to see allen though so excited to play basketball with his new friends. I began to explore the giant house. Leo came up to me and told me dina was in the house somewhere. I was excited that she had arrived and I wanted to find her. I began to crawl through a maze of chairs stacked on top of eachother. I finally made it to what seemed to he a massive garage filled with random shit. Sure enough dina was there. She brought along with her was a pet cat. I was so happy that we could now have a cat in the family. I stated hugging the cat and making small talk with dina. Then I noticed olga there. She too decided to move in. She brought with her a TON of random shit forge house like a white dinner table with all different colored chairs and home made chair cushions. They looked like an old lady made them but I thought it was sweet of her and I thanked her.

Me, allen, and leo, and some made up dream characters were sitting in a white living room. We could see outside that their were christians going door to door singing and spreading the word of christ. We obviously wanted nothing to do with it. I ran to the door and tried to lock it. The christians got there before me. They put their hands in the door way and started to walk inside. I told them to leave and they started to sing about how I need to be a christian and I was super annoyed. I sat and talked to them for a bit, much of the conversation I forgot. Finally they agreed to leave. I told them to have a nice day spreading christ love and they laughed. I dead bolted the door as they left.

*memory laps* me and allen are in my car, im driving. The road is windy and there are huge green trees close to the road. The forest is dense on either side of me. I think allen and I are having a mild argument.

*memory laps* I am looking out the window at the shop. There is a tiny house across the street. Todd claims its his new house. I keep wanting a better look at it but my vision is slightly blurred. I decide to walk outside to get a closer look and I watch it get bulldozed down.

*memory laps* I am looking in the mirror at myself. I open my mouth. My teeth all look like black pearls. They are shiny and glowing slightly. I was really upset. Why had my teeth gone black? I though that I should bleach them asap and I wondered if other people would notice them

Its all such fragments last night. I had absolutely no recollection of what I dreamt last night when I woke up. Pieces have come back to me throughout the day.
-leo was there, I was annoyed with him
-i was driving in a car
-it was dark out at some point
-i was dressed professionally
-i was in a hurry.
That's it. Very very strange for me.