Mydera

I am dreaming a lot but still having trouble remembering exactly what happened in them like I used to

Dream One (Fragment): I'm with a guy, and I think we're in a car and driving around some city and get out a few times to get food or something but I can't remember. all I really remember is that he was taking me away, helping me escape something or some one. I was constantly checking behind me to make sure I wasn't found.

Dream Two (Fragment): I was following a man who was looking for his fiance. She was supposed to be in a church, but it was much bigger and fancier than I expected it to be and there were a lot of people walking towards it all dressed in tuxes and fancy dresses. Inside, the mans fiance was Madam Red from Black Butler.

Dream Three: there's a pond with a truck parked in the center and a ramp that leads out of the water into the truck. There are little numbered egg shaped holes all up the ramp. Suddenly I start laying eggs! For some reason I am sure that the eggs are supposed to go into the little holes. I start putting the eggs in the holes and then start freaking out because I'm running out of holes to put the eggs in but I feel like I can't stop laying them. I climb into the drivers seat of the truck and try crossing my legs to stop the eggs from coming out, but I can feel them pushing out and I can't resist the feeling like I need to push them out instead of blocking them. I reach down between my legs and two eggs pop out into my hand. I'm starting to question this suddenly. Why Don't I have pants on? Why am I laying eggs? What do I do with them? Another egg pops out, and someone walks up to the truck and I hold out the eggs to them and then think, "Wait... who would want to touch these eggs?! It's pretty gross considering they came from my body... then I wake up and can't help but find the dream funny.

Dream Four: I open a box and find a black and cream cameo pin, but instead of having a face in it like the cameo pins my mother owns, it has a night scene with mountains, a huge star in the sky, and a woman reaching out to the star. There's a note in the box saying something cheesy but sweet about me being the star someone was reaching for, and that whenever I feel down to remember that to this person I am a star, and if I need something to reach for that person would love to be my star as well. The note goes on to describe that while neither of us are in a position to be with the other, like stars we will outlast the current events and find our chance to shine. I run my fingers lightly over the cameo and feel very happy and like I can get past anything. Then the phone rings and I answer it. It's my BFF Ambies and she's asking me if I talked to someone. The person she wants to know if I've talked to is the one who gave me this pin, so I say yes, and she tries to console me telling me she's so sorry it had to be this way. I don't understand why She's consoling me, and say as much, that I'm happy and don't need consoling. Then she tells me that the person was supposed to tell me that he didn't want to see or talk to me anymore, and to leave no room for any misinterpretation. I run my finger nail along the cameo pin and then tell her that's not what he said at all, and she tells me that's what he was supposed to say and asked what did he say? And I think about reading the note to her, but then wake up.

Lots of water dreams last night, an indication of how stressed out I am right now. Water is usually a comforting element for me, though it may not seem like it the way it's portrayed in these dreams lol.

Dream One (Fragment): I'm in a trailer that I think is supposed to belong to an aunt. It doesn't actually look like any trailer I've ever been in though. It's storming, I can see the rain and lightening in the dark outside the windows. I think that at some point me and whoever was there with me were throwing pokemon balls to have a pokemon battle or something. My aunt calls me, and at some point I leave and I see the trailer from a car window. It's daylight then, and the trailer is white with a gravel driveway and very well kept law and flower bed.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm in a store that had a lot of wood and fancy lighting giving it a golden upscale feel. I'm looking in a glass case at a kit that you buy that will allow you to make your own cream and fruit filled chocolates.

Dream Three: I'm in a restaurant with my best friend, whom I am actually not speaking to right now in waking life. We're sitting down at a table and we've ordered our food but it's going to be a while before it will be ready. There's a girl we both sort of knew in highschool with us, as well as my kids. My kids are getting restless and I am uncomfortable so I decide to take them outside to play while we wait on the food. my best friend, Ambies, decides to come with us even though I don't want her too. I'm too nice to tell her as much though and just bear with it. Outside my kids start drawing with chalk on the sidewalk and I notice that we are at the beach. An ex boyfriend walks by heading in the restaurant, but I ignore him and am relieved he didn't seem to notice and recognize me as I am uncomfortable around him. After a bit, I decide we should go inside to see if our food is ready yet. Inside, I notice that my ex is seated at a table near ours, but am happy to see that where he's sitting my back will be to him so he can't see my face and my hair is very different from when we dated and I doubt he'd recognize me from behind. I sit down, and suddenly he's walking over to our table. He ignores me though, and instead leans over the table with arms and elbows laid out across it and he's talking to my best friend about fixing something. I feel angry because I'm being completely ignored and she's getting the attention that I excepted to get from someone I know. Not that I expected positive attention, I had been expecting him to be an ass, but I still expected some sort of reaction, not being ignored -_-

Dream Four: I am riding in a car with my husband and kids and my mother. We're at the beach, and the lighting is bad, like it's not quite dark or it's very cloudy and overcast. There's water everywhere, everything is flooded. I find it beautiful to see the water rushing over fences and streets and such. My mom is talking about how she can't get to her house because the driveway is flooded. Somehow my car becomes and SUV though and we drive through the flood to her house. Inside her house she's freaking out over needing to get her dogs out of here and to a place where she can get to them to feed them everyday. I walk into the kitchen with her and help her get her dogs out of the kitchen, then I notice a cage with a lizard in it. The lizard is hissing at me, and I notice there's a net around the cage, and a potted plant near the cage is growing up and through the net. I walk out of the room and find my husband in the living room with my mom and an animal control officer. My mom is thanking the animal control lady for helping her rescue her dogs, and then saying that my husband and I will help pay have the cost of their services. My husband agrees and goes along with it, but I'm mad because we're the ones who rescued the dogs not animal control and even if they had been the rescuers, I feel like it's moms responsibility to pay it. Then my husband hasn't got any cash and we're freaking out because we don't know how to pay our "share" that my husband agreed to when we have no money. I wake up.

I know I dreamed last night, but rather than laying in bed and remembering the dream I just jumped right out of bed and started my day... and lost everything. Still journaling to make myself expect it and maybe remember to remember before getting out of bed, lol.

I didn't have time to write this yesterday as my day started early and was busy. As a result, I only remember one dream when I had remembered two upon waking.

Dream One: I'm with my husband visiting a friend who lives far away and is getting divorced. In the dream we are getting into our car to follow her to the lake. Instead of going to the lake though, she stops at a little building and wants to show me that this is where she's moving out to. She goes inside an apartment, but I stay outside and notice that her husband has followed us. In the dream I am afraid he'll see that she's living here so I tell him we just stopped to use the bathroom and to go on ahead and we'll meet him at the lake. He doesn't want to go though. I start arguing with him, he's worried because he knows she wants to leave him and he just wants to be close to her. I'm telling him that he's smoothering her and making it worse and to just go ahead. The whole time I am freaking out that she's going to come out of her apartment and he'll see where she's moving too and she'll never escape him. He tried to go into the ladies bathroom nearby and I literally flip out on him because I know she's not in there but want him to think she is. I start screaming and pushing him and telling him he's fucking crazy trying to go into the girls bathroom and that if he doesn't get fucking lost now I'm going to kick his ass. I start unloading that he's making my best friend miserable and he's just being a fucking cry baby about everything, that if he really cared he'd have made an effort when their marriage went south to begin with, not waited until she was already one foot out the door to do something about it. The building apparently has a mcdonalds in it and I am shoving him among the tables and people are staring at this huge fiasco I'm making, literally ripping the poor guy apart for every little thing he's done to hurt my friend... just to hide the fact that she's going somewhere else. He starts crying and finally says he'll leave. He walks out the door and I feel relieved and start to walk towards my friends apartment door again. When I walk past the bathrooms though, someone comes out of one and my first thought is, "Could that be Kurasawa?" but when I look up he's not Kurasawa, he's just some average guy. My friend comes out of her apartment and I tell her it's a good thing she didn't come out earlier and start to relay the previous events to her, but when we get into the mcdonalds the average guy from the bathrooms stops us. He asks where we are going, and we tell him the lake. Then he tells us he has a boat and he can follow us then take us for a ride in his boat. We politely decline telling him we're going with our husbands, but he insists he can take our husbands as well. I wake up.

Really wishing I had written some notes last night. I had a dream I didn't want to forget and was so sure 'd remember the whole thing that I didn't take notes. Now of course I don't even remember what was so great about it, lol

Dream One(Fragment): I'm somewhere that reminds me of a marsh or swamp in the idea that there's water all around and just little bits of land and a path here and there. I walk along some land path until I see a small boat. I half step half jump from bit of land into the boat. On the boat is a table. I set down at it, and then my friend J is there and he's sitting down across from me at the table. I can't remember now what we talked about, or even what happened after that. I do remember waking up feeling so happy and content. thought to myself I don't want to forget this dream... maybe I should take note? But then I though no, I couldn't possibly forget something so good. And of course I forgot >.<

Dream Two(Fragment): I am on a dusty dirt street. There's a man there in an aggressive stance. He's thin, and is wearing just a black speedo and a black cape. I'm not laughing though like I think I would have in a normal scenario, lol. Instead I am trying not to run away, but just avoid the whole thing. I walk behind a building nd I see three nail files laying on the ground. There's a big one, and two little ones. They have comic characters on them. I know one is Spiderman and another is wolverine, I don't remember what the bigger one was. I look up and see another guy in a speedo and cape, only this one is much much heavier than the first, floating above the building I am next to. The building has a collapsed roof and the wall in breaking. It's made of like cream stucco or something.

Only got about 3 hours of sleep last night so no real dreams to speak of. However I did wake up to my daughter crying thinking I was in my friend J's house and was pretty disoriented for a moment. Pretty sure that was due to thinking about wanting to hang out with him soon. Just writing in an effort to correct my recall.

I just have notes and fragments today. My dream life isn't what it used to be, I totally blame stress and crap in my waking life.

Dream One(Fragment): I see some old friends from college C and M. They are telling me that I can borrow a telescope from their old high school and use it to watch the stars. My husband wants to do this, but I don't want to be responsible for it and I feel like he doesn't have the right since we're splitting up anyways and they're my friends not his.

Dream Two(Fragment): I am in a strange neighborhood talking to my husband in a driveway. I see a truck pull up and it's some friend of my husbands. I leave on a bicycle to deliver cupcakes I've baked for my cousin. I get lost and can't figure out how to get to her so I call and tell her I baked her Chocolate cupcakes and need directions to her house.

Dream Three(Fragment): I am wandering around with my friend J and an old Frienemy B. I start to follow J when he walks away, but then I decide not to. Either he doesn't want me following him or I feel like maybe I shouldn't, I don't remember which. So I turn around and go back to a big tree in the middle of a yard. B is climbing on the tree, and wonder how he's managing it since he's so heavy and doesn't seem athletic at all. urns out the tree has built in hand holds so it's not the great feat it appears to be. I start climbing it myself and J comes back and asks us what we're doing. I reply that we're climbing the tree and he should join us. Then my grandma shows up and tells me I have to go home. I apologize to the guys and grudgingly go home planning to come back later and not tell her where I'm going.

Dream Four(Fragment): I'm standing outside a tent. I go inside and it's got all these different rooms inside. There's even a bathroom inside that I can hear a shower running in. I quickly duck back out into the living room" of the tent and my bff calls. She's talking about the tent belonging to J, and then I am telling her she shouldn't have set it up until he was around. She's so sure that everything is ok having it set up early, but I tell her heard someone in the shower. Turns out a friend of mine D was in the shower and he comes out and complains that he heard someone in the tent while he was shower and wants to know ho saw him naked. I promise no one saw him naked and then go inside the tent just to find it completely flooded. Ambies is freaking out and I'm telling her I told her not to pitch it and she should have listened to me, but all she wants if for me to tell her what to do so that J isn't ma at her. I insist that I already did, don't pitch the tent, and she didn't listen to me then and it's nothing I can fix now.

Dream One: I'm standing at my kitchen window looking out at the pasture while I talk on the phone. The clouds look very strange. My husband is talking about something, but I just keep looking at these clouds and how they're swirling and I think to myself they look like they're creating a tornado. Then they do make a tornado and I start yelling at my kids to get in the basement now. I'm sure at this point I am talking to my best friend Ambies on the phone, and I tell her I have to get the kids downstairs. I rush the kids down the stairs and then look out the storm door in the basement. There's debris flying everywhere but we're safe inside. I suddenly worry aloud that a cloud is forming in the direction of J's house, and then hang up with Ambies to call him and warn him. Then as I am on the phone with him I notice the clouds start bouncing in the sky. They literally drop to the ground with a great splash and then float quickly back to the top and drop again. I watch them do this a few times, and then I notice there are black dots in the pasture moving towards the house. They're people! I go out a side door that doesn't exist in waking life and rush down the hill towards the people. They're in various outfits of the past. There are cavemen and nomadic warrior and knights and so forth and so on. They all look quite stunned and bewildered, but no one tries to attack anyone, it's like they're too in awe and amazed by this different time to be hostile. I tell them all that it isn't safe outside and they need to get inside the house, and they follow me. Once inside the storm quiets and the people of the past begin trying to come up with a plan to get home. I walk around trying to check on everyone. I remember seeing a couple of guys stringing bows and a man sharpening a sword.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm in a shop that's round ad two stories. I'm descending some stairs that are circular and go around the wall. The whole shop is filled with those crystal prisms that throw rainbows all over the place as well as necklaces and bracelets and such made of glass beads. It's beautiful. I talk to the cashier about something but I don't remember what.

Dream Three (Fragment): This dream is a bit harder to remember. I was somewhere, I think I started out inside a store ad walked outside where I found Ambies and J. Ambies doesn't say much to me, but J does say something I just can't remember what. I go back inside, but I think I was supposed to go back to them at some point because they were waiting on me. Inside the store, I find a display set up with all kinds of nail polish and fake nails and such. For some reason I think this is important. I stop because I want to find the perfect colors and paint my nails so that something magical would happen. Like I'm either thinking that I can make a spell and weave painting my nails into some sort of ritual, or I'm thinking that I can use certain colors to direct and increase my energy flow when I try to summon something into my life. At first I think I can use some sort of cherry blossom pattern in pink and black, then I think it'd be too hard to do on my own nails. I decide instead to look for some blank fake ails and try to paint them then apply them so I can use my right hand on both sides. I am unable to find blank ones though, all I can find are ones with patterns already on them. I walk around the display several ties and notice all kinds of colors and paint brushes and such but can't find the blank nails I'm looking for. Someone says something to me, but I don't remember what it is, I think they were hurrying me along and it might have been my friend D. I tell him that I am looking for something and I will be there soon. I keep looking until I wake up.

I went to bed way too late last night.

Dream One(Fragment): I'm at the lake, on the pier, playing with Pokemon cards.

That was hardly worth an entry, lol. But maybe entries everyday again will fix my recall and all.

Still not much going on in the matter of a dream life right now. Waking life is getting in the way lol.

Dream One: I'm at the Cabin at the lake with a bunch of other people. It's got to be a party or something. I decide to walk down to the water, but when I follow the path to the water I end up at my moms old house instead. I go inside, and there are a lot of people there too. I turn left and go into the living room where my husband is talking to my friend L. They're talking about anime, and L is saying he likes bleach. I'm pretty sure in waking life he's never seen it lol. I start agreeing that I like Bleach as well and we talk for a bit about how bad ass Ichigo is. Then I get up to go to the bathroom. When I get to the bathroom though I decide I need to do laundry not use the bathroom. I open the bathroom door and it's dark inside, but when I go to turn on the light I hear someone say Woah! Some how L has gone from being in the living room to being in the bathroom and is completely naked. I try to apologize, but he tells me to turn the light on and get a better look. I laugh and shake my head not daring to turn the light on now that he's told me to, and then grab the laundry and duck out quickly and embarrassedly. I duck into a room that I seem to think is mine even though I never lived in that house with mom. I take off my clothes and put them in the laundry basket and grab a pretty dress with rainbow stripes. I throw on the dress and grab a bandana off the dresser next to me. I start trying to figure out how I'm going to wear it, wrapped up as a head band or folded in half to cover most of my head. As I look in the mirror trying to figure out what looks best, I find that my hair looks like it's shrinking. It's like it's growing in reverse, getting shorter instead of longer and at a really quick rate. Then I lean in closer and my face is getting dark and I have a five O'clock shadow coming in. I rub my hand on my face and freak out that I have a beard coming in! I watch as my face starts to morph and look more and more like my husband. I start to flip out and panic, thinking to myself that I don't want people to see me like this, looking like a guy. Then I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I start telling myself over and over to calm down, there is no way that I am growing a beard. I do not look like my husband and I do not have facial hair. This will go away. It works, and my face is back to normal when I open my eyes, though I haven't realized it was a dream. Then L walks in, and tells me that my dress is the tackiest and ugliest dress he has ever seen and he loves it. I make a sarcastic crack about how sweet that was, and then I wake up.

I haven't been taking my vitamins like I should, so my dreams are so blurry and fragmented it's crazy when I even have them. But here goes, lol.

Dream One (Fragment): I'm standing on the pier at the lake talking to my friend J. He's talking about how babies are being born with clear skin and insides, and that there is a small glowing blue orb inside each baby. He says my best friend Ambies is worried that I am going to want to have one because I like strange and paranormal stuff, but she really thinks it's a bad idea. I try to reassure him I don't want anymore babies, not even see through babies with blue orbs all the while He's really worried that I'm lying to him.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm running down a hill past some shops. I suddenly realize there is a big body of water and I'm about to run right into it. I reach out and grab a tree and use the momentum to swing myself around the tree and turn around before I end up in the water. I slide on the hill side though and manage to scrape up my leg as I fall. I get up and start jogging slower this time up the hill. A man with dark hair comes out of one of the shops and asks me if I am ok. I say yeah, and ask why he thought something was wrong. He frowns and says he saw me fall and just wanted to check on me. I thank him for his concern and then wake up.

Dream Three (Semi-lucid): I am bareback on a horse with my arms wrapped around a woman. I realize it's my neighbor, and we're riding the horse over by my dads house. I feel us slipping and I start to freak out that I'm going to get hurt, but then I realize I won't get hurt this is just a dream. I'm not hit by that euphoric wave of OMG this is a dream! but I still understand I can control the situation. I let go of the neighbor and grab the horses mane instead. When I do this the neighbor vanishes and I'm laying flat on the horses back hugging it's neck and mane for dear life whispering shhh shhh until it stops and I slide slowly around it's neck and look at it face to face. I decide it's a pretty horse, but I want to change it. So I think about it being a unicorn, and it's fore head glows and a horn grows on it. I climb back up and ride the horse only a minute or so more to see if it's any different riding a unicorn. Then I decide I'm lonely. I close my eyes and let myself slide off the horse, trying to imagine where L might be with the thought that I'm going to find him and hang out with him. I open my eyes and find myself in a brown carpeted room with golden yellow walls and lots of Manga, alone. I try to close my eyes and imagine falling again to L's side. I find myself in a grassy area with a short wooden table like you see in Anime all the time. There's a woman in a kimono having tea with a man, and then there's L walking towards them. For a moment my lucidity slips and I start to go have tea, but halfway to the table I realize this is still a dream. I change my course and run to L and jump on him. I start yelling, "I'm Lucid! L we're dreaming and I'm lucid. Listen to me, I am lucid and you need to be too!" But of course I must not have been very lucid or I wouldn't be trying to convince the DC he was dreaming lol. He tells me it's ok, he knows, then he leans in and kisses me. I kiss him back a bit shyly of course, but then I'm like what the hell, I'm only dreaming anyways, I'm going to make out with him, lol. Then he shoves his tongue in my mouth and we end up rolling around on the grass making out. A few times I got super excited and realized I'd wake up if I didn't stop so I had to push him back and calm myself down. This is definitely progress for me, because I struggle with waking up when I get too excited. I know I'll never talk to Kurasawa for long if I don't learn to get past it because he tends to end my dreams quickly by kissing me when we meet lol. I am disappointed though that I didn't go looking for him, but finding him will be easier if I work on my control and stabilization anyways.