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I woke up in the back of an SUV. I noticed there was another girl beside me, and I had no clue how either of us got there. I looked outside and noticed that it was early pre-dawn, the sun wasn't quite up yet but it was light enough to see and it was quite foggy. I could see the buildings of a big city very close, and wondered how in the world I got so far from home and in the position I was now in. I asked myself if I could see those building so clearly from my home town, and logically realized that no, I could not. Then I see that one of the buildings is actually upside down, it's hanging from the sky instead of rising up from the ground. I'm dreaming!

I open the SUV and disregard the other woman, she's just a dream character, and not in any danger. Looking around I am in the middle of a very busy city street, but not a big city with big buildings, a small city with only one and two story buildings. I decide that because I am finally lucid for the first time in months, I need to go find K. I start walking down the street to my right. I notice the people I am walking past all look like monsters, there's a girl with medusa hair, a ghost, and some zombies. I am not afraid though. I stand as straight as I can and picture myself in a fantasy game style tattered leather dress with a dagger by my side and light leather armor. I figure if everyone else looks like monsters I might as well look like a hero for my dream. A guy who looks like a young slender man waves at me and I politely say hello but keep walking towards what looks like a cinema.

Everyone else walking the direction I am is going in there, but I can hear screams coming from inside as I get closer. I know there is something scary in there, something so scary it is scaring even the monsters around me. I stop and consider if I should go in or not. If I encounter something scary, K might come save like he used to do for my nightmare. Then again, it's been a very long time since he's had to save me from a nightmare. He may not show up and I may scare myself awake. I decide not to risk cutting the lucid dream short and turn back towards the SUV.

I see a glass jar candle on a ledge and take the lid off from it. I start walking again, this time throwing the lid in the air and catching it so I can focus on something and not get caught up in the dream events surrounding me. After several tosses though, I realize I threw it too far forwards and I'm not going to catch it. My first instinct is to lunge forwards so I can catch it, but I stop myself because I feel like I can feel my body sleeping, and if make such a big exaggerated movement I think I might lunge out of my bed and wake myself up.

The lid hits the ground and rolls to the left,striking the bottom of a bar counter. My lucidity is slipping here because I don't realize it's odd for a bar to be outside instead of in a building. I start walking towards the bar with the intent to ask the bartender if she has seen K. She is really busy though, and I am recognize that there are at least 3 people shouting their orders at her or trying to get her attention and it's very unlikely she'll have time to talk to me.

I turn back to the street and keep walking. I pass the SUV, now walking towards the big city buildings, and see another less busy bar. This one has stairs behind it and a bridge that connects the bar to another building. The stairs are butted up against the bar and there are railings not walls, so I go half way up the stairs and wait for the bartender to walk towards the back of the bar. When he grabs some bottles from under the stairs I call out to him and ask, "Hey man, I'm looking for someone. Can you help me?" his response is very half assed and he's not really paying any attention to me, "Aren't we all? I'm busy." Undeterred I continue, "His name is K. Do you know him?" at the name, the bar tender's head shoots up and he looks at me startled. "What business do you have with K? Are you a younger woman? You're not very pretty." I'm annoyed, I'm not going to argue because I wouldn't consider myself attractive either. "No, I'm not pretty and I'm probably middle aged, but I need to find K. Do you know where he is?" The bar tender shakes his head, "It's none of my business." and starts to turn around. "Wait, I'll pay you!" I tell myself there's a pocket in the dress I am wearing with cash in it and so there is. I hold out first a $5 and a $10 and the bartender scoffs. I imagine the ten becoming a $20, and then the five becoming a $50. The bartender takes the money and tells me to look in the building across the bridge,in the dark hallway, the first door on my right. I thank him and go up the stairs and across the bridge.

I see a dark hallways to the left, not even inside the building yet, and think this must be it. A guy is walking out of the door on the right as I approach the hall. He has blood around his mouth and covering his arms up to the elbows and is wiping his mouth on his shirt. He jumps when he see's me, and takes a step backwards, "Who are you?" "I'm looking for K. is he in there?" "What do you want with him?" "My name is B, I've been looking for him." He opens the door, but doesn't let his guard down, watching me the entire time instead of actually turning his head in the direction of inside the room. "Yo K, there's some girl out here looking for you."

And I wake up for real this time -_-

Dream One- I am in a large city standing on some sort of bridge walkway over a large and busy street surrounded by very tall sky scrapers. There is a man and a woman, dressed in very nice clothes standing in front of me talking excitedly to each other. What I can remember of the conversation they were making plans and preparing for something. I think they were my parents in the dream? I was really too busy just looking around at how huge and busy this place was to listen to the conversation. I remember everything in the city having kind of a bronze and gold tone to it with rounded edges everywhere, kind of futuristic I suppose. A guy stands behind me slightly to my right. I couldn't remember when I woke up if he was my boyfriend or Kurasawa, but I remember that he made me feel super comfortable and happy as if we'd been together forever. He steps forwards and reaches out for my hand and asks me if I would "Like to leave these two here to make there plans and go see what our rooms here are going to look like?" I take his hand and we walk into the big building to the right. The entrance to the building is absolutely stunning. There's a HUGE golden arch over the door with bronze accent lines above and below it. Inside the line that makes the top of the arch are many decorative white and grey moons that start as new in the beginning of the arch, full in the middle, and new again at the end of the arch. Inside the building are many double doors. We walk up to a set and he presses a button. The doors open to a HUGE elevator. We each walk into separate doors, but both doors are connected to the same double sized elevator. Along the back of the elevator is glass so I can watch the buildings around this one as we go up. I find myself freaking out a bit internally about the height, so I decide to stop looking out the window and distract myself. I turn to face the guy still with me, and walk in his direction. I am aware at this point that walking feels like I am wearing high heels. When I reach him, I reach up and wrap my arms around his neck and hold him close. He returns the hug and absentmindedly pets my hair while telling me it will be alright, I will get used to the heights when I ride the elevator every day. When the elevator stops, it opens up right to a room. It looks like a hotel room, with two beds, two desks, and a door that leads to what I assume is a bathroom. There really isn't much to look at in the main room, so I walk on through to the bathroom. What I find instead is a closet with three toilets inside of it, and another door. I mention out loud how incredibly awkward it is to have three toilets in one room because who's going to want to use the bathroom in front of and with three other people?! The guy laughs and shrugs and says something about how he could see it being useful in a party scenario where everyone was too trashed to care. I walk through the door on the other side of the closet to find a bathroom, this one also has three toilets, but a sink and what looks to be a HUGE tub on the other end. While I stop and stand at the toilets trying to figure out why on earth a room with two beds would ever need six toilets, the guy goes straight towards the tub to check it out. I hear a lady scream, and the guy start apologizing profusely and backing away with his arm over his eyes so he can't see. Turns out there was some chick naked and soaking in the tub that we couldn't see over the rim because the tub was sooooo big and she was laying back in the water. I step in to apologize for him and ask why she's there. Turns out that the room next to the one we were in shares this bathroom, and she lives in the other room.

Dream Two- My mom calls me and wakes me up. She claims that my work was canceled because of the are's gas shortage. I think this must be total BS because my work doesn't close for much, and they'd probably expect us to walk or borrow our kids bikes My boyfriend wants to know why she's calling and I tell him, he suggests calling the employee hotline to make sure. I dial up the number and as it's going through it's typical thank you for calling spiel, I wake up.

Dream Three- It's raining and windy outside. We are living in the house I grew up in, but it's my boyfriend, my kids, and I. My mom's there too for whatever reason. Mom and I step outside to see what's going on b/c the weather seems super crazy. a HUGE gust of wind comes, literally blowing us sideways like in a cartoon. The rain gets so heavy as well that the ground is flooding enough for the wind to make waves that wash over us. some trees start falling at the neighbor's house and I am relieved that our house isn't close enough to any trees to get hit. My mom falls over in the water and the wind. I help her prop herself up against one of our cars, and then rush to the garage to find a rope to help her into the house with. I tie the rope to the garage door, and carry the other end out to mom. I tie that end around her waist, and then go back to the garage and pull her in as she tries to walk and swim back to the garage. As soon as she is inside I close the doors and think everything is ok, but then we hear some loud crashing sounds. We look outside and the power lines are being blown over. We watch as they start falling and realize that the power poles are close enough to hit the house. I start running through the house trying to tell everyone to get on the other side of the house. I can see the poles hit the house, but they don't immediately crush the places they land, instead the ceiling starts dipping and bowing. My son is arguing because he doesn't want to leave the room he is in and the game he is playing, but I manage to sound urgent enough for him to leave the room JUST as a power line presses it's way through the ceiling and opens a big hole in the house. I am so relieved that everyone survived that, that I wake up.

Dream One- I am a horse running through the desert. I have a bad back ankle on my right side. There is an old man chasing me, and I am terrified of him. I see a gift shop and run inside. I change myself back into a human before the old man makes it into the store. My human form has one of those foot and ankle braces on the right foot. The gift shop keeper stares at me wide eyed and in disbelief. I hope he doesn't tell the old man what happened, but don't take the time to tell him anything because I want to try to get out and away from the shop before the old man can see which direction I go in. I walk out the front door of the shop just as the old man is walking in. He doesn't pay me any mind because he is looking for a horse not a girl. As soon as he is inside and out of sight I dart around a corner and wake up.

Dream Two- I am in a pool with my boyfriend. The pool looks more like a race track with lanes that go around it though, not like a big open pool. There's also a few water slides you have to climb up and slide down. oddly enough the water flows UP the one side of the slides and down the other, but I don't think anything of it in the dream. I am nervous about going around the track as in the dream I am very visibly pregnant. My boyfriend tells me not to worry about it, I don't have to go around and on the water slides if I am worried about it causing trouble for me and the baby. He helps me get out of the pool, and I call out that we need some paper towels. A woman and a little boy come running with a package of 18 rolls of paper towels and I find myself thinking that is way more than we needed. The woman asks me how far along I am, and I admit to her that I am 25 (?) weeks. I wake up and have to check my stomach really quick b/c I do NOT want to be pregnant and the dream freaked me out a bit lol

Dream Three- My boyfriend and I call the real estate agent that sold us our house last year to ask her some sort of question, though I can't remember now what that question was. She says on the phone she will be right over, and then there's a knock at the door. It's her, that fast. She is about 100 lbs heavier than she was when she sold us the house. She walks straight to the table and drops down a clip board and a bunch of papers. She informs us that she was going back over our paper work and we had sold our shed and the fracking rights to the back 10 yards of our property to the real estate agency when we bought the house, so they were going to remove the shed and set up a miniature fracking operation in our back yard. I flip out, and run out the back door where I see lots of people. There are some people I work at the furniture plant there, and then other people that look like construction workers and contractors. They are pulling a shed off our property on a big truck and trailer, and they are cutting down the tiny woods behind the house. I don't mind the trees coming down as we had talked about taking them down anyways, but I am super pissed about the shed. I tell her they can't take the shed because my boyfriend wanted to make a forge and smithy of it. She tells me they can because I sold it to them. I demand to see the paperwork and she takes me back into the house. She pulls out first a signature card from work, and I triumphantly point out that my signature is NOT on it. Then she gets flustered and pulls out more papers, these unfortunately with my signature on them. I tell her those are the papers she said sold the ground and airspace rights over our house to us, and she tells me we should have read the paper work ourselves rather than trust her. I start to get really, realy mad, and that is when I realize I am dreaming. Like a switch being flipped, I calm down instantly and just walk back out the back door. This isn't real and I don't need to worry about it anymore. I want to fly away, so I try flapping my arms like wings. I can't get off the ground that way, but notice that my shadow is cast on the ground in front of me. I envision big black feathered wings sprouting out of my back and flapping. I lift off the ground about 6-10 feet, but can't get any higher than that. I go over to one of the few remaining trees in the yard. I flap up to a branch, grab it and climb on top. then I flap up a few feet from there and repeat the process. They are about to cut that tree down though, so I fly over to the neighbor's tree to continue trying to get up higher in the air. At the top of the Neighbor's tree I remember that I am supposed to be searching for Kurasawa whenever I before lucid. I look out over the neighborhood in the direction of the dark creepy house he had been in the last two lucid dreams. The house is not there, instead there's a whole city beyond our neighborhood complete with a HUGE hospital building. Since it's the thing that draws my attention most in the landscape I decide to fly to it and look for him there. I land in front of the hospital, and they have a reception window outside like a movie theater might have. There are three ladies inside the window. I tell them I am looking for Kurasawa and ask them if he is there. the receptionist in the middle asks me if I am talking about Kurasawa Kusuki? I tell her I do not know his last name, I'm just looking for Kurasawa. She picks up the phone and calls Kurasawa and tells him that he has a visitor, then asks him if he can meet me in Tiffany's office. She tells me that he will see me, and that Tiffany's office is the second door on the left. I go through the big doors, and find a second door on the left, but it's the wrong office. An Asian girl asks me if she can help me, and I tell her who I am looking for and what the receptionist told me. The girl offers to take me to the right office, and I thank her profusely. She leads me onto an elevator with glass on two sides that allows me to look out over the city as the elevator goes up. It's so beautiful because it's now night time and the city lights are sparkling. Suddenly the girl starts waving her hands at me, then says something. I snap out of my trance looking at the city and tell her I am sorry for zoning out. She laughs and starts singing Gangnam Style while bobbing up and down like an umpaloompa. I can't help laughing at the silliness, and she smiles and tells me that I shouldn't be so serious and I should have a little fun. The elevator dings, and we walk off. I feel like I am starting to wake up, but I try so hard to make it to the right office. I find the second door on the left, and walk in. I wake up, but I keep my eyes closed trying to DEILD. I see a flash of Kurasawa in seafoam green scrubs walking down a hall, but then go into another dream instead.

Dream Four- I am sitting on a swing in the middle of a pond. The swing set is made of thick wood beams placed in the water in the corners of a square. The top of the swing set is three more large beams filling in three sides of the square. The swings themselves are just ropes suspended from the beams, threaded through wooden planks for the seats, and knotted off so they won't pull out of the hole. To my right sits Kylo Ren from Star Wars, and then to his right, on a swing on a side beam sits my brother. We are talking, but the conversation doesn't really interest me. Instead I am focused on my show on the water. I practice making wings appear, though I am not lucid enough to understand why or how I can do this. This time the wings are smaller and look like "bumble bee fairy" wings from the sims 3. My brother and Kylo Ren are both super excited to see this, and are plotting different ways I can use my wings to help them with things. I wake up.

Dream Fragment Five- I am looking at a fridge that has a little mini-fridge inside it where the crisper drawers should be and thinking that seems redundant.

Dream One- I am outside at a park of some sort with lots of trees and a small creek/river. They were doing some construction work building pathways with square covered resting areas with pagoda roofs. The pathways and resting areas are made of a very light colored wood. I am there with a group, perhaps a class or a tour group? We walk down one of the completed pathways to a pagoda rest area. I rush to sit in the corner of the benches that go around the perimeter of the area. A woman stands in the center of the pagoda talking about something, but I am not listening. Instead I am looking out to my left over the water and just letting my mind wonder. I turn to look at the speaker for a moment to at least feign interest in what she is saying. Suddenly a hand grabs the top of my head and another clamps down over my mouth and someone pulls me back and almost over the rail of the pagoda. My first instinct is to panic, and I let out a muffled cry under the hand on my face for a split second. Then my back touches my grabber's chest and recognition kicks in. It's Kurasawa, I can feel that otherworldly pull in my chest towards him. I relax instantly, and he whispers in my ear something like, "so you missed me?" He releases me and I turn around in my seat to banter back with,"Yeah Jerk, of course I did!" He smiles, and I am insanely happy and relieved to see him free since I still can not remember if I rescued him when I lost lucidity the night before or not. I wake up from all the happy excited feels.

6-12-2013

Dream Two- I'm on my way to my cousin's house at night. I haven't talked to her in years, but I find out she lives in the neighborhood in front of my neighborhood so I want to go visit her. "her" neighborhood is really a trailer park, but in the dream she lives in a real house, much bigger than mine, and the trailers and modular homes are all gone and just forest surrounding her. I ring the doorbell and she opens the door, happy to see me. We stand in the doorway because she is about to leave, she even has a baby in her arms and on her hip dressed in a puffy baby coat. She asks me to go with her because she is wanting to check out the local churches. I tell her I'd be happy to show her to the closest churches, and that there's a really creepy old house in the neighborhood behind her house (there isn't really, but this detail from my last lucid popped up, the house of the woman who has Kurasawa held prisoner) She tells me that she has heard about the house but it sounds way too creepy and she'd rather not go there. We get into a black SUV and I make small talk on the way to the closest church, letting her know I live nearby and how to get to my house from hers. As we are pulling into the church parking lot I notice a guy I work with, we'll call him E, walking through the parking lot. I roll down the window closest to me and call out to him. He comes over and asks what we are doing there, and I tell him about my cousin wanting to see the church. He tells me it's closed and locked, he had just tried the door and was leaving. My cousin says, "That's ok, we can just drive around it and maybe look in the windows?" and I agree. We end up parking the SUV and getting out to look in the windows to see what the Sunday school class rooms look like. We notice a playground behind where we park the SUV as well, and decide to go check it out to see if it's the kind of place she could see her baby playing at when he got a little older. At the playground, I turn to look at my cousin but she's no longer my cousin, but my best friend from high school with whom I lost touch a few years ago. It occurs to me that I am dreaming, no reality checks necessary. I tell my cousin turned friend that I am dreaming, but she is confused. She asks me what I am talking about. I grab her hand and lead her towards the church again, explaining that I am dreaming and I can control this world, so I can get her into the church, "Watch, E said the doors were locked and closed, but when we get to them they will be unlocked, or even wide open for us!" and sure enough, getting there they are wide open, and lead to a Victorian style hallway painted in blue and white filigree. I tell her to stay there where she's safe and can't get in the way, that I have to find Kurasawa because in my last lucid I had learned he was being held by someone. My friend doesn't want to stay by herself though, and the baby has vanished as if it never existed, so I break down and tell her she can come with me but follow me and just don't distract me. First I run out of the church and towards a small wooded area. Though only a few feet wide the wooded area is thick with brush and trees and looks impossible to get through, but I maintain my faith in the dream that when I get there the way will be open to me. Sure enough, when I get there I see a small path that I couldn't see before. On the other side of the wooded area is a large field surrounded by wooded borders like the one behind my house. I look out around the field looking for the house where Kurasawa is kept, but I don't see it. I curse and then run up the edge of the field, screaming at the top of my lungs, "Where are you? Evil witch who has Kurasawa, I know you are around here somewhere! Please, let me find the Witch!" I briefly wonder to myself why I am calling her a witch. I am a witch, and I know witches are not inherently evil. All the same I feel like the title fits her. Another path opens up in the wooded area, and I cut through it to find myself on top of a grassy hill over looking a mountain valley in the bright sunlight. No sign of the house I am looking for though. I turn left and see a pile of very large and smooth stones. I pull my friend in that direction and say out loud, "When I get to the other side of the rocks we will find a tunnel through them" Sure enough, on the other side of the rocks is a tunnel into the ground like what you'd expect to see in a fairy hill. We go through the dark hole, and it curves to the left with stairs taking us down. After a short sharply curved tunnel maybe six feet long, we find our selves out on a beach at sunset. I throw my hands up and then down in exasperation. "I'm never going to find him before I wake up at this rate!" My friend calls out to me, "Hey look! There's another tunnel here! should we try going through it?" I turn around to look, and yes, there is a tunnel, this one looks man made in the stone and I have a really good feeling about it. I run into the tunnel, grabbing her hand as I go by to pull her with me. At this point she turns into a little dark haired girl, she reminds me of Sailor Saturn from Sailor Moon, but I don't worry about it because I am still fully aware that it is a dream and that kind of thing just happens in dreams. The tunnel is another short one, maybe 6 feet long. It empties into a large square stone room with arched wooden doors all around the room and a man in knights armor standing guard in the middle. I tell the girl with me to stay here and not to grab the guards attention while I try to figure out where to go next. I panic a bit at first because I have no clue what door to go through, nor how to tell which one is right. I know I can try blindly trusting the door to lead to him, but that hasn't been working so well this dream. I really only worry this all for a split second though before I feel it, the pull I get when Kurasawa is nearby. I turn to my left where I feel the pull coming from, and say out loud, "There!" There is no door at that part of the wall though, and I don't know what the doors will lead to the right place, so I decide the best way to get right there without chancing a dream reroute is to just go through the wall. So I steel myself, and punch the stone wall as hard as I can. The stone crumbles around my fist leaving a roundish hole about 6 feet in diameter in the wall. The room I opened was small and stone. There's a door to the right and a twin sized bed on the left. I can see the covers pulled over a rather tall form sitting up on the bed and hear x-rated noises from the bed. I walk over and pull the sheet off the bed, and there's a very short and thin blonde on top of a dude with short dark hair getting it on. The girl screams and grabs the sheet as it falls, pulling it around her and flattening herself on the bed in an attempt to get away from me. I am really confused because I feel like I am right on top of Kurasawa, but the guy on the bed is not him, nor is the girl. The guys hair on one side (even his eyebrow) keeps flashing between black and blonde like strobe light and it is extremely distracting. I shake my head and turn to the small woman because she doesn't confused me as much and I know it's a woman holding Kurasawa from the last lucid I had. I yank the sheet off of her again, this time I am way more powerful than her and she's terrified. "I am looking for a man with long blonde hair and crystal blue eyes, Where is he?" She smirks at me, "Why would I tell you anything? You interrupted us, and I'm not about reward you for it." I reach down and begin touching and caressing her like a lover might, and she her nicer this time, "Please, tell me where Kurasawa is. I know he's here, I can feel him." She makes an almost pur like sound and moans that he's in the basement underneath us if I had just taken the time to feel for him instead of throwing my weight around I would have known that. I put one arm behind her and the other hand is looped between her legs to lift her off the bed. She cries out upset that I stopped her from being pleasured again, but I ignore her this time and will the floor beneath me to allow us to slowly sink through. In the room below us there are hundreds of people just kind of moping about looking completely hopeless and like they have given up on life entirely. Kurasawa calls out my name from behind me, and I drop the blonde woman on the floor like a sack of potatoes. I turn and see him, and can't help but run up and hug him. "I found you!" There's a noise behind me, and I turn back to the blonde chic that I dropped on the floor. She's the only naked person in the whole room, and while most of the people don't notice her, there is a guard in armor who saw us drop from the ceiling. He says something about how no one is allowed to be naked or make love down here, that all prisoners must save themselves for the witch. The girl gets all mad and haughty and says she IS one of the witches, but the guard doesn't recognize her. I know there is more to this dream, but when I woke up I couldn't remember any of it. I only had the feeling like a lot happened but it's just not there for me to recall

Dream One- I am hearing a story from someone about a girl I work with, we'll call her K, being in a changing room. She tried on a pair of tight pants and steps out to see what someone thinks. When she does, another girl from work, we'll call B, falls to the floor and crawls to her feet clawing up at her leg in some sort of terrifying urge to worship and destroy her at the same time. It was a very odd fragment, that made no sense.

6-11-16

All I remember is seeing a row of five small cherry trees with bright pink blossoms all over them planted along the back of my house.

6-10-16

Just a fragment, something about a convention and a speaker where I am earning something I didn't know before. Maybe it was UFO related? I couldn't remember anything but the room and the speaker dressed in light brown when I woke from the dream.

Dream one- I can't get my kids to sleep tonight, and I'm getting really frustrated and tired. the medicine I am on for my chest pain makes me feel like I'm going to fall asleep standing up, and they just won't sleep. My son asks for water, he's drank the first round I gave him already and just can't sleep without more water. I grudgingly get up and walk into the kitchen to refill his water bottle. My mom is standing in the kitchen with my former step brother, getting water from the fridge as I came in to do. I set the bottle down, really agitated that she's over so late and unannounced when I am already struggling to get the kids to bed as it is. "What the hell are you doing here?" I grumble. She replies, "I was in the neighborhood, and Dylan was thirsty, so I let myself in to get him a drink. I didn't think you'd mind!" I start to bring my hands up to my head in an expression of frustration and anger, then stop. My hands look weird, and she doesn't have a key to my house. I realize it's a dream, and try counting my fingers. I have five on the right hand, but seven on the left, and one of those seven is huge and misshapen. I shake my head, relieved, and tell her, "Never mind, this is just a dream. You can do what ever the fuck you want, I'm out of here." then I run through the kitchen and into the living room where I jump through the window. The window never seems to change, but I am able to pass right through it as if it doesn't exist. Part of me is still really unsure though. I know this is a dream, logically it can't be real, but my god it feels so real. usually my lucids still have a sort of muted dreamy quality to them. There may be one or two senses that I am focusing on, but all my others are normally quiet. Not this time, this time I smell the dirt and the grass, I see everything as real as life, I can feel the breeze and hear distant stormy noises, I can even feel my full weight of my feet on the ground below me. I think I'm going to try to force the unreal feeling by flying, but I can't get my feet to stay off the ground because I am struggling so much with how real it all feels. I notice the neighbors across the street have a trampoline in their front yard, and decide to try using that to launch myself into the air to fly. I run over and climb on, just to be completely blown away again by how much I can FEEL in the dream. I'm not just feeling the trampoline under my feet, I can feel the weave of the cloth moving below my feet, my hair moving around my face as I jump, and even the whole electric fear falling feeling in my arms and chest b/c I hate free falls. I try jumping higher and higher, noticing there's a trampoline in their back yard as well. I think maybe I can jump from one to the other and then take off in flight from the second trampoline since I can't get myself in the air on the first one. I jump to the second trampoline, and still can't get skyward. I decide to jump off the trampoline, the ground impact not hurting will surely break the whole "this is too real to be a dream" feeling, I land on the ground, feet first, with the impact throwing me slightly off balance so I end up on my hands and feet rather awkwardly and painfully. That totally didn't work as planned. I realize I have wasted a lot of dream time trying to force control of the dream, and I want to use my lucids to search for Kurasawa as much as possible, so I give up on control. I look for someone to ask about him, to find a direction to go. The neighbor has come out of her house, she's a middle aged black lady in the dream but I have never actually seen these neighbors in the whole year I have lived here. I walk towards her, and she stops as if a bit confused as to who I am and why I am in her yard jumping on her trampolines. I try to create a picture of Kurasawa to show her, but as hard as I try the square "picture" I am trying to draw into existence won't show up. I remind myself that I don't need to be able to see it, I just have to convince my brain that SHE can see it, and hold the air as if I am holding the picture. This works, and the lady stops, clearly in recognition, then takes an involuntary step backwards. "Hey, I'm sorry to bother you, but I am looking for someone. Have you seen this guy? and can you tell me what direction I can find him in?" She shakes her head, and takes a couple of steps back as I take a couple of steps towards her. She ducks under her clothes line, and starts retreating to her back porch. I follow her, imploring her, "I know you've seen him. I can tell you recognize the picture. Please tell me where I can find him!" She continues to shake her head, climbs the steps of her porch, then turns back to me. She takes a deep breath, then points behind her house, deeper into the neighborhood and up a hill (In the real neighborhood, the hill goes down not up like in the dream). I can't remember her exact words now, but they were something like, "He's up there, where she keeps all the ones she uses to control people. I can't help you." I start to ask her who "she" is, but the lady hurries inside her house as if she's afraid to be outside any longer. I walk up onto the porch as if to follow her, wondering on my way up the steps who "she" might be. Is "She" one of the goddesses I have dreamed about in the last year? Could she be the goddess Bridge that I have found myself calling my patron in dreams? Is she my own sub conscience? Why is she holding onto him? Is she trying to control me with him? On the porch I look out over the neighborhood and up the hill in the direction the lady had pointed. I can see lots of houses of the neighborhood, even some of the modular homes in the subdivision they built adjacent to ours. I notice the corner of a house tucked in behind those modular homes, and it just sticks out to me as important. It just FEELS like Kurasawa is there. I zoom my vision in on the corner, and it's as if I am not only looking through binoculars, but also pushing the houses between me and it aside to see the full house in better detail. At that moment, the overcast sky comes to life in a stormy rage. Thunder growls, lightning crackles, and the wind whips all around me as the sky gets darker and darker until all I see is black. Thunder claps, and instead of lightening lighting up the area, my vision flashes with clips of newspaper too fast for me to read. I realize that I am losing control, possibly even the whole dream it's self. I can actually remember in the dream that there were thunder storms called for, and I am sure this is the storm arriving in the waking reality and bleeding over into the dream reality. I try to cover my ears to block it out, too panicked to realize that dream hands can't block out waking life sounds. I fall, spinning, through the blackness and wake up.

Dream Two- I am on some sort of beach trip with many of the coworkers I interact with the most. The whole dream is very confusing because it jumps back and forth in time. One of the girls I work with has a new white car that is super fancy and all kinds of expensive. She is very proud and protective of it. We've got a really rickety house that we've all rented with many rooms. Every family has their own room. My boyfriend and kids are playing video games, but I want to explore the area. I go outside and find a forest oddly nearby. The forest looks almost dead and abandoned, but as I walk through it I hear my boss telling us about it as we unpack in the shack (like a memory I guess) and then I watch as he talks about the legend of faeries and elves bringing the forest to life, the forest in fact does come to life. I can even see the little fairies flitting around making it glow and grow. I twirl and dance through the forest like a cheesy movie scene just enjoying the magic of it. Then I am walking into a little beach shop with my kids, boyfriend, and boss. I need to pee, so I find the bathroom. As I am pulling up my drawers a lady and her handicapped daughter literally break the lock on the door to get in. Realizing the girl's disability though, I try to be as understanding as possible and just jerk my pants apologizing that I must be taking too long. The lady grunts to me that they just couldn't wait anymore because her daughter is special, then starts to use the restroom right in front of me. I stumble around looking for a sink to wash my hands, and when I can't find one the woman calls me an idiot for not realizing there just isn't one and getting out of her way. The daughter is grimmacing at her mom's rude behavior though, and keeps giving me apologetic looks. I bow to the daughter slightly and tell her I am sorry to have caused her any trouble, and that I think she is far more special in a far better way than her mother could ever understand. She seems to get that I am telling her that she is a way sweeter, better mannered person than her mother, and nods. I am grateful that she gets I am bad with words, but think highly of her for putting up with such a mother. I scramble out of the bathroom and my exhusband is in the shop. He starts fussing and yelling at me for who even knows what, I can't remember. My boss comes over and tries to get in the middle to defend me and my character, and I feel awful about it. I run outside and hop in my coworker's brand new fancy smancy car. My exhusband follows me, climbs in the car, and starts berating me again, this time getting so angry he's flinging his arms and fists animatedly around the car hitting the windows and dash and seats (he's not a violent person, so in the dream it didn't seem dangerous even though it sounds like it was lol) I show him out of the car as hard as I can, and tell him to get lost. He storms off after slamming the door, and I realize the car is in shambles around me. He's busted the seats open and dented both interior and exterior. I start crying again as my coworker comes out freaking out over her car. She cries too. At some point we start laughing about how funny it is to see the car looking so bad if you aren't attached to the situation. Then, I wake up.

My boyfriend and I are renting a couple of trailers on a lot in the back of a rural "neighborhood" One trailer, the one we are living in, is really old and just looks ugly and worn. The other trailer is very nice, but we don't live in it because the bathtub is broken. (An interesting parallel to our real life, we own our home, but the bathtub has cracks in it from before we purchased it. We've fiber glassed it over, but that patch is on it's way out after just a few months) I am walking around the nicer trailer, thinking that the tub shouldn't keep us from living in it instead because it still has a really ritzy shower system in the other bathroom, and it's just so much nicer than the place we were living in. I find myself in the room with a shower, and it's HUGE. The shower isn't even like a shower, but rather looks like a giant kiddie pool that gets about a foot or two deep at the most. It's probably five feet wide and at least ten feet long, complete with 4 shower heads and a seat like ridge all around it so you can sit in the shower and soak your feet in the kiddie pool like basin. I notice a large pipe like tunnel that leads out of the shower at the seat level, and crawl through it. It leads out to the front yard, to a multiple level pebble step waterfall. I go back inside the front door and walk back to the bathroom, and notice there is a little tv and advertisement demo on the wall as if the trailer was a showcase model meant to be walked through and not lived it. It shows a video about how you can turn the shower into a small swimming pool by pushing a button to activate some sort of low gravity field. It looks really cool, and I call my boyfriend in to see it. Only when he gets there, I can't get it to show the right video, it just keeps showing youtube like commercials that you can "skip add" but never loading the right video. I get aggravated and just walk away, this time through a door that wasn't by the pipe tunnel before. the door leads into a sauna that the pipe helps provide steam for, then there's another door. I go through the other door and find that it's a sun room surrounded by windows with two white metal chairs and white metal shelves that I imagine would make a lovely sun room for growing plants in. I then walk out a door that leads to the front yard, and the pebble step water fall is much bigger, it is more like a porch now with stepping stones so you don't get your feet wet. I make another round inside through the front door, this time not stopping to really look at anything in particular, but just walk steadily through admiring the whole set up. When I make it outside this time, there is a water slide leading from the shower through the sauna and sun rooms, then out to a giant pool in the front yard. I stop and look incredulously at the water slide. I speak to myself out loud, "Ok, that waterslide was definitely NOT there before. I must be dreaming!" I turn around to look at the front yard in front of me again, and realize that now instead of being a few steps above the ground level, the pebble porch is a full 15 feet high. My son runs out of the sun room dressed in his swimsuit and jumps off the edge of the porch into the now huge pool below me screaming, "Cannon ball!" all the way down. I want to jump, but even knowing it's a dream I am kind of scared to, so instead I decide to fly instead. It's been so long since I have had a lucid that I struggle with control a bit, finding myself unable to create wings. I decide to flap my arms instead, and find that I can only get a few feet off the ground before I float back down to the ground. I decide to take a different approach, and pretend that I am riding an invisible horse instead. That lifts me off the ground, and the invisible horse jumps from the porch landing safely on the ground with no jolt or hint that it was a 15 foot drop. The horse is running towards the road, and I notice a Knight on horseback with shoulder length brown hair. I think that I am going to catch up with him and get some fighting training, but he spurs his horse on, apparently terrified of the witch on an invisible mount. I think that I am going to ride behind some houses that he is riding in front of so he won't see me closing in on him, but after about three houses I remember that I've been trying to obtain lucidity for a reason and that as much fun as all this is, I need to get back on track. I stop the still invisible horse, and make it cease to exist. On my own two feet again, I look around for someone nearby. I can see the trailer turned house turned water park now in the distance, and a gorgeous lady with dark coffee skin and a bright red and white spotted bathing suit is only about ten feet from me walking towards the water park. I rush over to her and ask her if she knows where I can find Kurasawa. She tells me she doesn't know anyone by that exact name, but there is someone two houses over that has a similar name. I thank her and tell her she looks cute in her bathing suit. I run two houses down and knock on the door. A man in his twenties with tan skin, a mole by his mouth, and a curly almost afro-like but smaller hairstyle answers the door. There's a toddler holding onto his legs. I tell him that I am looking for Kurasawa, and ask him if he knows him. In the dream though I am losing lucidity. I am able to give Kurasawa a last night, but I can't for the life of me remember what it was now. The man picks up the little boy and holds him in the air above his head as he replies to me that he "does know a Kurasawa (different last name than I mentioned, but I can't remember this one either) who is going to college (some where I can't remember)." Lucidity is slipping, and I realize it because the last names aren't the same, and I am trying to remember how to focus and hold onto that lucidity. I close my eyes, and see news paper text on my eye lids, but instead of trying to read them I freak out that I might wake up now that my eyes are closed and too much like my physical self lying in bed. I open my eyes, and I'm now standing in the dude's kitchen, but I feel dizzy, like the whole world ins spinning around me. I mutter something about no, the names aren't the same, that's going to wake me up, and then I open my eyes to my dark room.

I can't recall any dreams before or after that last night, my recall has been terrible since I haven't been actively journaling in years. all I can remember about the last names is that the one I mentioned had a K in the beginning and an R somewhere in the middle or end. I remember the one the dude with the toddler mentioned had a M in the beginning and an S in the middle. Just adding that in in case it is important later

Dream One - I am on a raft on a river, using a long stick to push against the bottom of the river to steer and move the raft. There is a young girl on the raft, she's maybe between 5 and 7 with long blond hair that's curly at the ends. She looks a bit like my daughter, but in the dream I know she is not my little girl. I am trying to take her home, though I don't know where her home is. I pass a man standing in the water neck deep, and in the dream I know him and say hello to him. He wishes me a good day as we pass, and I wave to another person who is also standing neck deep in the water farther down stream, but I steer the raft to shore here. There is a factory by the river, I don't remember what it made but I think it was either a snack food factory or a soft drink factory. The little girl and I walk past the factory and up a sparsely wooded hill that's almost big enough to be a small mountain. At the top there is a multistory brick building and we go inside b/c I feel drawn towards it. I walk into a room and feel the familiar presence of K, but there is no one in the room. I feel the pulling in my chest and follow it to a secret brick passage way. The tunnel turns left a couple time and leads up to a room maybe 8 feet wide by 10 feet long. There is a single twin sized bed to the left and a circular window to the right. On the bed lies K asleep. I walk over to him, smile, then bend over to kiss him awake. He wakes up, rubs his face, and asks me how I found him. I reply to him that I felt him and that I am a very determined person. The little girl speaks up now, and tells me that he is her daddy and that he protects her mommy and keeps her safe. I feel a brief flash of jealousy that I haven't seen him in my dreams in ages and it must because he's taking care of someone else. The flash of jealousy fades very quickly though as I remind myself that I've also stopped the constant search in my dreams and waking reality for the last few years. I turn to the window and absent mindedly ask the girl who her mother is. I wake up before I get an answer.

Dream Two - I am trying to buy pizza at Pizza Hut, but when I go to pay I remember I forgot my wallet at home. They are going to go ahead and make the pizza b/c I know the manager and they trust me, and I am going to go get my wallet while the pizza is cooking to pay when I pick it up. A little girl in the lobby with dark hair about 4 or 5 is playing with my bike, but hands it to me as soon as I walk over. I get back to the tall brick building, only I forget where I am going and ride my bike down the stairs. There are two older ladies talking about a mental health patient at the bottom of the stairs. Overhearing them, I realize I was supposed to go up and turn around to go back up the stairs. When I make it to the apartment I remember in the dream as being K's, I walk in to find a woman from work there going through both his and my wallets by a table that has pictures of he and I. Strangely, his hair is dark instead of it's normal blonde. I confront her, and she says she needs the money and he's too nice to tell her no even if she had asked for the money, and takes two bank cards from his wallet. She throws my bank card at me and tells me she doesn't need mine, she'll make do with his, and leaves me standing there speechless at her blatant rudeness and thievery. I feel bad because confronting her with words didn't stop her, and I know that K won't be mad at me because he knows I am bad with confrontation and standing my ground, and that makes me feel even worse. I go back to the pizza place to pay for my pizza, but the pizza isn't ready yet, so I walk into the store next door to kill time looking around instead of sitting in the lobby and wallowing in how bad I felt for letting his cards get stolen by someone I knew. I see the woman from work in the store, and confront her once again. She tosses one of the cards at me telling me she already used that one for lunch so I can have it back, but she still needs the other one for her shopping. I jump on her and try to wrestle the second card back from her, and wake up.

Dream Three - I am at my dead Grandparents house, down in the garden. There is a group of 10 - 20 men marching behind me in black leather armor with gold studs and rings. We are each carrying a cut Christmas tree. I slam my tree's cut trunk down into the ground trying to make it stand on it's own, but it falls over. One of the men behind me laughs and tells me I have to use my true power, my human form won't plant that tree. I try again, this time reaching within to find the feeling of control and power that will allow me to shove the trunk of the tree into the ground, and further more cause the tree to take root from the cut end. The men behind me do the same until we have a small forest in an almost tear drop shape. I turn back towards them and start to walk between them, until I meet in the middle with the dark haired K who is still carrying his tree. Together we walk back to the front of the formation where he plants his tree at the very point of the tear drop formation and cries out, "For Asgard!" I grow wings, jump into the air and fly above the men to the center of the formation once again, this time drawing a glowing line with my finger that opens a large swirly purple portal. I cry out, "It's the second coming of Asgard!" and wake up.

I am running up the steps of the local science center trying to reach the top floor before someone on the elevator does because I know there is a great evil on the top floor and I must defeat it before the person on the elevator is harmed. The science center is far bigger than it is in real life, 23 stories verses 3. I stumble around corners in the stairways as they twist in odd ways and am never really sure if the next set of stairs will be to the left or to the right, yet still reach the top floor before the elevator, and I step out into the hallway. There are dead bodies and detached limbs laying all over the blood coated floor, and a woman stands at the end of the hall way covered in blood. The woman lifts her hands and causes all the bodies and limbs to rise up from the floor and reanimate into zombies that begin shambling towards me. I don't panic, instead I feel a power bursting from my chest (as a practicing pagan, I know that as the feeling I get when I am praying or connecting to the divine) The power in my chest grows, and I confidently will the woman and the bodies to be destroyed, and they burst into a poof of dust that disappears. I then stumble back, and fall into the elevator shaft. At the bottom of the shaft I land in a large dark body of water. I struggle for the surface in a panic and can't make it. I calm myself, and once again feel inside of me the divine power and pray for the goddess to help me understand what I am supposed to do now. The water below me pushes me up like a shock wave, and suddenly I can see blue sky above the surface, and swimming towards it is effortless. When I break the surface, I can see that I am in a public pool with people everywhere and many very thick pillars placed decoratively around it. I see K to my left, crouching at the edge of the pool. He extends his hand as if to reach out to me, but them pulls it back towards himself in a "come on" gesture before springing up and running off towards a pillar. I swim to the edge and try to follow him, however he has disappeared behind the pillar and once I get behind it he is gone. I see a couple nearby, a blond girl and her blond boyfriend. I know he doesn't really look like K, but suddenly I can't remember what K looks like, and in my doubt I go to ask the boy if he is K. The couple both laugh at me and act like I am crazy, so I walk back towards the pool thinking that if K isn't around then I don't have much reason for being here. I feel an urge, am inner tug, towards the diving board of the pool. I walk to it, then up on it. When I reach the end of the diving board, about to jump in the water, the water comes alive, pulling to the back of the pool like a giant water monster or tidal wave preparing to move against me. Once again I feel that divine power and will it to be destroyed. The water explodes into a billion raindrops that fall all around yet still manage to refill the pool. I jump in the water, and find myself standing in the home of my Grandmother and Grandfather, who died 11 and 4 years ago. Something doesn't feel right in the house, something feels evil, so I walk from room to room turning on every light until I am satisfied the house is full of light. I then walk outside into the night and look at the house from the back yard. There is a giant spider the side of several cars side to side on the roof, rearing back in an aggressive about to attack stance. One last time I reach inside of myself to call upon divine help and cause a tree to grow up through the house. The tree is not solid, but more like a swarm of teardrop shaped green leaves that grows up through the house, breaking the roof and branching out to grab the spider by each leg, the head, and the abdomen. The tree grasps the spider and pulls it apart, reducing it to the same dusty nothing the evil lady had been in the first confrontation. The branches then grab all the broken pieces of the house and pull it back together as it shrinks back into the ground as if nothing had ever happened. A delivery truck pulls out of the woods as the sun rises, and I walk next door to my aunts house to get my children that she was babysitting. I take both my children by the hand and as we walk towards the door to go home I am full of calm and peace and wake up.

By far one of the best feeling dreams I have had in a while. I am sure it was influenced by my renewed effort to pray daily, as opposed to just whenever I feel like I NEED to, as well as by the solstice. Wanted to make sure I have a record of it for future reference

I dreamed that I was at work. I wasn't doing my usual job, I was helping out in another department as I have done for the last two weeks. I put down the frame that I am inspecting and my tools, then turn around and start walking towards the door. As I walk through the plant towards the door, it gradually changes into a night forest and my coworkers begin to follow me, transforming into beautiful ladies around my age maybe as young as early twenties, all dressed in toga like dresses with a rope tied at the waist. My own clothes also change to this outfit. We stop at the edge of the forest, and a beautiful woman appears facing us. She stands taller than all the rest of us by a foot or two, but it doesn't seem odd to us. It just gives a physical representation to the power we can feel radiating from her. She names herself as Athena, and tells us that she has called us there to choose two of us as her champions. She chooses a beautiful blond girl and myself, and promises us that if we are victorious in the coming battle then we will win what we want the most. The trees on the edge of the forest grow together and form a large black wall with a white door. The blonde girl opens the door, we we both walk through. The room is the size of a tennis court with black walls and floor, with a thick white line cutting the room in half. On the other side, two more women walk through another door followed by another goddess who's name I can not remember. Athena follows us in, and declares to the other goddess that we are her champions, and the other goddess announces that the fight will be three rounds to the death. I definitely don't want to fight to the death, however two curved knives that reminded me a great deal of bolines appeared in the hands of all four of us champions. The girl directly across the line from me leaps towards me with her knives out. I fall back, scramble and dodge and try to argue my way out of the fight. I didn't agree to fight to the death, I don't want to do this! The girl leaps in again and I throw my own hands and knives forwards to block her attack, but end up cutting her hand off as well. The hand's momentum doesn't stop though it drops the knife, and the hand ends up grazing my arm as it keeps moving in my direction, smearing blood and fleshy pink gore on me. I jump back as the handless woman screams out in anger and pain, and look to the other champion of Athena. She's used the moment of distraction to take out her opponent, then looks to me and yells to finish her. I start stuttering that I don't want to kill anyone, but Athena reminds me in an eerily calm and motherly way that this is a fight to the death, it's her or me, and I am not doing her any favors by prolonging the battle and the pain. Realizing I have no way out and that she's right that a quick death would be far better than a slow and painful fight, I accept this fate and glide quickly and gracefully the ten feet between me and the staggering handless girl, and I slice her head clean off with both my blades. Then the other goddess calls out two more champions. I start to argue that she can't do that, we've already defeated her champions, but she reminds us that we have only won one round, we have to win three rounds to claim a victory. Once again, the blonde quickly jumps into the fight with her new opponent. My opponent is a quiet girl who looks a good deal like a stereotypical library chic who would do better with a book in her hands than knives. She is hesitant and I can tell she is scared, but I also know there is nothing I can do, it's her or me. I leap forwards like my first opponent had, catching the girl completely off guard and try to cut her head off for an instant painless death as well. I fail, and only manage to cut half way through her neck. Her face contorts in surprise and pain, and I curse under my breath as she starts stumbling backwards and farther away from me. I leap in again, this time finishing the job. I catch her body in one arm and her head in the other, and gently lower her to the ground and apologize to her corpse for not making it a clean death the first time. The third round goes much better, the girl is aggressive like the first, and I am able to simply hold my knives out as she leaps towards me and use her own momentum to decapitate her as she attacks. then the other goddess calls out another set of champions and I advance towards the other goddess with my knives defiantly telling her NO. She said three rounds, we have won three rounds, this stops NOW. Athena walks up to me, and smiles in a motherly way and nods gently to me saying, "Yes child, you are right. We said three rounds, and you have preformed exceptionally. Whatever it is you want, is yours." Then I wake up.

I noticed I didn't have this dream online, and it is one of the most current and frustrating K dreams I have had, so I wanted to go over my oddly very detailed dream notes and vivid memory of the dream and make an official dream journal memory I could go back over later, even when my dream notes have been lost.

I am going down the street where some of my paternal extended family lives. I see lights up in the sky, flying in very choreographed patterns. I am sure they are UFOs and near by. I half walk half run towards the lights. In a usually vacant field is a floating eyeball of fire, just like the eye in lord of the rings, complete with a lava tower beneath it and what looks like lava pooling out from around it on the ground. There are two girls with me, one's name is Melissa but I don't really know her or anyone like her in waking life, the other I don't even have a dream name for. The eye and lava tower become a man in a white robe with a giant eyeball mask on his head. He's running towards us throwing fire balls at us, and I happen to dodge and catch one of the robe sleeves throwing him off balance and knocking his mask off. Under the mask, he's just a nasty sweaty guy with a seriously runny nose. The runny boogers are so bad they are trailing a couple of feet down from his nose and when he tries to catch his balance sans the mask, the boogers whip out to land across my arm. Gross! We break into an empty home nearby to wash up a bit, and I take off the jacket I am wearing that got snot on it. The home owners are returning, so we run out the back door and through the woods behind the house. I briefly worry about my jacket that I left behind linking me to the break in, but my dream brain quickly stops caring. On the other side of the woods, we find a graveyard and it's sunrise. there's a truck parked out on a maintenance path, and there's a form standing outside the truck. When we get closer to the truck I realize the form is K, but his face and body are all swollen up from some sort of crazy allergic reaction to something. I wake up.

I fall back asleep thinking of the previous dream, and this time find myself walking back through the same graveyard. I am following K, though he is far ahead of me, and he quickly arrives at a house. I try to speak to him, but he is scrambling around and basically blowing me off muttering about dream research he has to do. He isn't swollen up anymore, and he looks older, haggard even. I go downstairs upset and trying to just get away from this unusual rejection. Downstairs, the basement of this house is filled to the brim with boxes and all kinds of old bikes and random junk. I manage to squeeze my way through over and around all the mess to a window. I open the window and climb through to find myself in the front yard. There's a yard sale going on in the front yard, and there are people that my dream self knew as friends sitting on the steps chatting, as well as a couple of little dogs running around the yard amid the items displayed for sale. K has walked out the front door and is still mumbling about dream research. I tell him that we are in a dream right now, and we could research better together if we could just find each other! The sudden admission that I am in a dream causes me to have a false awakening. I wake up with my cheek on a dark wooden floor facing a set of stained glass front doors. I walk towards and through those doors, and as I do the new looking floors age and become worn out looking as well as the rest of the house. When I am out in the neighborhood, I decide that K's house from earlier in the dream will be in this neighborhood, I just have to walk in the direction that feels right. I find the house with the yard sale, and K is on the front porch still. There is a rolling chair on the sidewalk near the steps he is standing and the friends are sitting on. I sit down in the rolling chair and tell him my name and the city and state I live in. He says something about "Faust" and "Curro", I am confused because his words sound muffled and distorted. I ask him to repeat them and I reach for a laptop on the ground nearby thinking I will look the words up as he tells them to me. Once again, his words are muffled and distorted and I wake up trying to concentrate on them too hard.

K was very out of character in this dream. Instead of the usual calm, collected, bad ass who always seems like he has everything under control and can protect me from anything my dreams throw at me, his allergic reaction and almost frantic mumbling about dream research made him seem very weak and very much a mess incapable of even caring for himself. In the end, he was able to kind of pull himself together and actually try to accomplish something, but even then the lack of clarity in his words and voice was very different from usual. I've contemplated that this was not really a K dream, but then no one has ever had the same feel as K in dreams, and there was no mistaking it in this dream. I have also wondered if perhaps I somehow made it into one of those random dreams we all have where our stresses and anxieties take over and we just fall apart where he was unable to control himself, assuming that K is another dreamer and not just a special dc. Then there's always the chance that my own fears and anxieties over hardly ever dreaming of K anymore caused me to dream that he was falling apart.

I am tucked into a little indention of a dirt wall next to a dirt ramp. I have been dreaming for a while, but this is the earliest memory I have after waking. I peek around the corner to check for anyone coming. When I know the coast is clear I run down the ramp to a sheer drop on the path. I stop and look over the edge, there are two men on the lower level facing me but not looking up. One is very short and not very memorable, the other is sitting on a block or barrel or something. He has buzz cut light hair, maybe red or even dirty blonde, he's got a cigarette between his lips that moves as he talks and a grey over sized gun in his right hand that he's waving in the air as he speaks. I can't hear him, but recognition of danger strikes. I know he's after someone, and I know where that person is, but my brain is foggy and I can't remember the name of the man that I need to warn. I turn and go back up the ramp, passing my original hiding place and turning left to another ramp and indention in the wall maybe forty to fifty feet away. There's another couple of people there. I don't pay attention to or else don't remember the person farthest away from me because I am too distracted by the blonde man I am there to warn. I feel like my breath catches, and I struggle to find words through my brains fog. I keep screaming in my head, I know this man, why can't I remember his name? He's important, but who is he? The man asks me what's wrong, and I reply with a warning, "He's here, he's coming for you! I saw him!" The man tells me sternly to go home and hide in the closet. I express worry about him facing this other man, and he tells me with complete confidence, and almost order like, "I will take care of him. Go hide, now." Our dog runs up by my side with a toy in her mouth, and I start worrying about her being in the way and getting hurt, so I agree to hide, telling him he'd better come back because puppers wants to play with him, and I don't want her disappointed. He nods silently, and sings a gun off his shoulder. He heads the direction I came from, and I head farther up the ramp away from trouble. At the top of the ramp is the house I lived in growing up. It's been over ten years since I've lived there, but it doesn't strike me as odd. I take puppers into the house and go to my old bedroom closet. there's a ton of stuff and boxes in there, and I start moving them out and piling them up in front of the door to make room for me and puppers. the thoughts runs through my mind that it'll be easy to find us with all these boxes in front of the door pointing to us hiding there, but then I relax because I don't believe the bad men will ever make it past the man I warned, I trust him with my life completely. I notice a dog treat and a dog bone on the floor while moving the boxes and decide to take them inside the closet so puppers can chew on them and keep quiet. I settle onto the floor and pull on the bottom of the door to close it, then start petting puppers and talking to her all quiet and soothingly trying to keep her calm and quiet.

I wake up, at first paranoid and scared that I am still hiding. The fog clears quickly though, and I realize that I am in bed and that the important man who's name I couldn't remember was K. It bothers me somewhat that I couldn't remember his name even though I knew in the dream he was so important and trusted him completely. My boy friend and I spoke of it, and came to the conclusion that the lack of recognition is likely due to the lack of importance I have placed on my dream life, finding K, and learning from the experiences lately. Still, I feel like I have missed a great opportunity with this being my first K dream in months, and with the few K dreams I do have being months and months apart. The guns and ramps are likely due to playing lots of Splatoon lately.

I don't remember much about the first part of the dream. I can remember recalling earlier dream events later in the dream, so I know at some point in the begining of the dream K was telling me some history of a bridge. The first part of the dream I can really recall thought is being in the middle of a very small town, but the town had several really old looking Japanese buildings as well as a couple of newer looking buildings. There weren't really paved roads, it was mostly gravel and dirt drives. I was running around in a dirt square playing with some young kids like I was baby sitting or something. The kids were all ten or younger and wearing Kimonos and such. We're running around picking up rocks and playing tag. K is standing by a set of double doors at a new looking building watching us but I don't pay him much mind. When it's starting to get dark, I decide to go inside the building. K follows me. The first room inside was fairly small and looked like a den or a waiting room. There was a corner couch on the left with end tables and lamps. There's a young man with longish blondish brown hair on the couch talking to a little old woman. The woman tells K and I to sit, so I do sit on the other side of the couch but K positions himself against the wall watching the double doors we came through. Beside him is another set of double doors and I see that the guy on the couch has a clear view of it, and briefly think they're in spots to keep an eye out for danger or something. The woman is talking about our clothing not fitting in, and that the village would be happy to dress us like them so we'd blend in a bit better. I'm not really paying attention, instead I'm looking around the room. I notice a gift bag and some Bath and Body works things on the end table next to me and I "remember" that we brought them as a gift to the women of the village. Then someone comes in with kimonos and such for us to put on as well, and the woman leaves so we can change. I'm not at all bothered by changing in front of K or the other guy, and the old woman didn't seem to care that she was leaving me in the room with them to get changed either. I am facing the double doors we came through when I change but that's all I remember about changing. I know I had a jacket and pulled it on over the kimono because I felt odd and awkward in such clothes, and I had a pair of black gloves on as well, with red tips or stripes or something on them. When we're changed, we go through the double doors K was standing next to, not the ones we had entered through. There was a hallyway, and on the left was a gymnasium with folding chairs set up and people sitting in the chairs listening to a woman speaking. On the right were some drink machines and a door to a game room. The game room had a pool table by the door, and we went inside there. K and the couch guy took off their jackets and laid them on a chair then started playing pool. I stand next to the door and can sorta hear the lady in the auditorium talking, but can't make out what she's saying. I want to go listen, and so as much. K tells me to be careful and leave the door open so he can see me. I walk out and leave the door open, and peek into the gym. Its a highschool girl talking now, but what she's saying doesn't really register with me. Instead I get a gut feeling to look left. I glance to the left without even thinking, and see a white man with normal clothes on and a big expensive looking watch walking towards the pool room. There are two men dressed in black behind him. The man looks right at me, and then says something about the kimono being a good try to blend in, but that my coat and gloves give me away. He motions to the pool room and tells the two guys in black "The others would be in there" then starts to slowly walk towards me. K comes walking very quickly from the pool room to put a hand on my back and lightly push me so I'll start walking along with him. The man frowns and starts to follow us, so K puts hi arm around my shoulder and pulls me closer as he starts walking faster. I make the comment that if we're supposed to pretend to be brother and sister for this cover it's never going to work if he's holding me like that. He tells me not to worry about it, that it doesn't matter right now bc it's already blown and all that matters is keeping me safe. Somehow the couch guy is keeping the guys in black and the man with the watch busy so they can't follow us, but I don't look back to see how. K rushes me to the door we entered the building through, and stands me by it and tells me not to follow him, but to run away if the guys in black or the man with the watch show up, he has to go back and help the other guy. I stand by the door, and hear some people talking outside about being late for the town meeting bc they were out hunting for food. I took it as hunting game, not like looking for a place to eat lol. I look out to see whos talking, but it's so dark I can't make it out. The K comes walking very quickly again from the hall, takes my hand, and starts pulling me outside. I follow him, and a girl comes up and follow us as well but I don't catch her name or anything. We get in a car that I "remember" putting my rocks I collected in earlier, and we drive a couple of blocks, then park the car and start to walk away. K jokes that if he'd had a sword we wouldn't have needed to leave the village, but then I tell him I think owning weapons is illegal there and a sword is a weapon. He tells me that to be honest he doesn't know much about this place, that he only knows about the bridge because he wrote a paper or something about it for class once. Then I remember I wanted my rocks, and go back to get them. Neither K nor the girl are happy that I want to go back, but they don't argue with me really. When I open the trunk of the car I find that my rocks have been cut into shapes. There's a wizard made of quarts and a rabbit made of some sort of quarts crystal or something with brown spots. I marvel at them a minute, run my fingers along the rabbits rough surface, then realize I can't carry them all b/c they're too heavy. Around this point my mom called and woke me up >.<

Last night I was lucid for a few short moments. First lucid in a month or so I think. Today I started reality checking again so hopefully I will be lucid again soon I've really been slacking since the beginning of summer and none of my goals are being accomplished and I feel like I'm getting no where lol.

The first part of the dream I can remember, I am on a road next to a little forested area with a pond. For some reason I'm chilling out with Eliza Thornberry from the Wild Thornberries. She tells me that the animals in the area are sad because their pond where they get water is polluted. I walk into the forrest area to the small pond to see if I can clean it up, and I see HUGE oak leaves in the water. A little dog with long hair that I actually saw at Petsmart a couple days ago is trying to drink from the water, but keeps licking leaves in the attempt. I try to move the leaves, but find that when I scoop all the leaves out of the pond there are dark blue Milk crates sunk in the water. Upon closer inspection, I find that the milk crates are full of green and rotting raw steaks that are breaking into little pieces and polluting the water with nasty germs and bacteria. I tell Eliza that there's nothing I can do, and she tries to argue, "But what about the animals?!" and I tell her that it's beyond my ability to clean and I start walking up the street. As I walk up the street I stop and think for a moment that I'm crazy for walking up a street in the dark. Then I realize I might be dreaming. I reach up and pinch my nose, I can breathe! At this point I get excited, "This is a dream!" then before I can do anything about it, a girl comes running at me yelling about something. I'm ignoring her thought bc I know this is a dream and I don't want to deal with her I want to do something, but she won't be ignored! She is reaching out at me and grabs at me, I pull back and then panic for a moment. I close my eyes and tell myself it's ok, K will rescue me so there's nothing to worry about. I feel hands clawing at my face and shoulders. I try to tell myself the girl is going to turn into K, but the clawing continues and when I open my eyes the girl is in fact a boy, but he's not K. I decide to try and run away. I quickly think I can run into a wall to skip out of this dream and into another one where I might find K. The street I'm running on actually looks like the high school I went to now, but I don't remember when the scene shift happened. I try to run through a wall, and instead I find myself faltering and getting dizzy, tripping, and falling against the wall. When I hit the wall the room spins and it feel like the wall becomes the floor and while I can see my fist against the wall in front of my face, I know I'm waking up and I curse and bang my fist against the wall. Then everything goes black and I wake up.

I'm back writing for the night before last because I happened to have a K dream and I like to keep a record of all those It's been a couple days so I don't remember as much as I did when I woke up, and there's some stuff to explain about my waking life as I go so parts of the dream will make sense.

The dream starts out with me in the house I spent my preteen and teen years in. I'm in the little entrance way (Foyer?) about to go out the front door. I notice that what should be a solid door with a stained glass window is instead the glass storm door we have at the house I currently live in. I stop myself and say, "This door shouldn't be see through.." But before I can continue that train of thought I notice there are people outside. My mom is on the porch sitting in an adirondack chair with my grandmother, and my kids are in the yard playing. However after I note them I feel that familiar tugging feeling that I need to look to the side followed by the warm and familiar feeling that I know all too well from my dreams. The first thought I have is, "This feeling that I am going to meet him soon was right. He's here!" (Now, to explain, randomly during my days I've started having that same warm and familiar feeling like K is close by, but without the tugging telling me where to look. I like to look at it as a reminder that I'm getting closer to unraveling these dreams and finding him again) So in the dream I go out the door, and as I do he turns and looks at me. I say hey, and he tells me I look familiar, and I tell him yeah he does too, and I am pretty sure we know each other even though we've never met. He asks me if I'd like to take a walk and talk, and I say yes. So we walk along the sidewalk in front of the house to my uncles property next door. There's a fancy playhouse/swing set/slide combination thing on the property, and none of the kids are playing on it, so K starts to climb up the ladder into the little club house part of it. I ask him while he climbs up what his name is, and he replies with Kale. Before I can question him any farther, I notice there's someone climbing a tree across the creek that splits the property. K asks me whats wrong because I have a funny look as I watch this person in the tree. I tell him there's someone building a tree house on my uncles property and I don't think they're supposed to be there. He offers to go an tell the guy to stop, but I say I need to ask first. I start to go ask my grandmother if that person has permission to build on my uncles lot, but then a kid kicks a ball into the creek and I run to get it, but the kid gets it first. Then I am distracted talked to the kid about the ball, then I wake up.