nightmare

Still not much going on in the matter of a dream life right now. Waking life is getting in the way lol.

Dream One: I'm at the Cabin at the lake with a bunch of other people. It's got to be a party or something. I decide to walk down to the water, but when I follow the path to the water I end up at my moms old house instead. I go inside, and there are a lot of people there too. I turn left and go into the living room where my husband is talking to my friend L. They're talking about anime, and L is saying he likes bleach. I'm pretty sure in waking life he's never seen it lol. I start agreeing that I like Bleach as well and we talk for a bit about how bad ass Ichigo is. Then I get up to go to the bathroom. When I get to the bathroom though I decide I need to do laundry not use the bathroom. I open the bathroom door and it's dark inside, but when I go to turn on the light I hear someone say Woah! Some how L has gone from being in the living room to being in the bathroom and is completely naked. I try to apologize, but he tells me to turn the light on and get a better look. I laugh and shake my head not daring to turn the light on now that he's told me to, and then grab the laundry and duck out quickly and embarrassedly. I duck into a room that I seem to think is mine even though I never lived in that house with mom. I take off my clothes and put them in the laundry basket and grab a pretty dress with rainbow stripes. I throw on the dress and grab a bandana off the dresser next to me. I start trying to figure out how I'm going to wear it, wrapped up as a head band or folded in half to cover most of my head. As I look in the mirror trying to figure out what looks best, I find that my hair looks like it's shrinking. It's like it's growing in reverse, getting shorter instead of longer and at a really quick rate. Then I lean in closer and my face is getting dark and I have a five O'clock shadow coming in. I rub my hand on my face and freak out that I have a beard coming in! I watch as my face starts to morph and look more and more like my husband. I start to flip out and panic, thinking to myself that I don't want people to see me like this, looking like a guy. Then I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I start telling myself over and over to calm down, there is no way that I am growing a beard. I do not look like my husband and I do not have facial hair. This will go away. It works, and my face is back to normal when I open my eyes, though I haven't realized it was a dream. Then L walks in, and tells me that my dress is the tackiest and ugliest dress he has ever seen and he loves it. I make a sarcastic crack about how sweet that was, and then I wake up.

Dream One: I'm in some strange place, in the dream it reminds me of a community theater that I used to act in when I was in high school. Awake, it looked nothing like the place, lol. I'm texting the friend of a friend who passed away (and since they keep appearing in my dreams I'm going to call the friend who died C and the friend of C I'm going to call L) I can't remember much of what we're texting. I know I'm sending him pictures of things around me, and we're just kind of shooting the breeze, much like I do with my own best friend. For some reason there are 6 bathtubs in the room, each one in a different pastel color (blue, yellow, green, pink, etc etc etc) They are also numbered. I decide to take a picture of them and send them to L. I send him a picture of the first three, and he tells me he wants to see what number 6 looks like. I go to take pictures of the last three, but then realize that there are 9 and not only 6 and I wonder how i missed that to begin with. Then an old "frenemy" (a guy who was either my good friend or worst enemy, but not usually in between and constantly shifting roles) shows up (I'll call him B). He's now friends with L, and I suddenly wonder if he has ever said mean things about me to L because I'm not sure if he's my friend right now or enemy. I feel like becoming friends with L is going to make B give me trouble again. Anyways, when B shows up, I get all nervous and uncomfortable, and then B lets it drop that L has hurt his leg or something and can't hang out and be fun. I worry about this, but B doesn't tell me what happened, he's that kind of person that enjoys seeing others fret. So I go to text L and ask him what happened, but my phone is suddenly on a call with him. We both say hey, and then he starts to say something, but a little kid walks up to me adorably, and I blurt out "Hey little guy! are you lost?" then L is confused and asks if I just called him a little guy, I laugh and explain that no, I'm talking to a little kid that just walked up to me. Then I tell him I have ADD and my brain skips back and forth between what I'm supposed to be paying attention to and what's around me. But I'm still paying attention! He laughs and says ok, then starts to talk again but this time I see a unicorn and I'm in awe and interrupt him again telling him I'm seriously looking at a real live unicorn right now! Then, I feel bad for interrupting him again and apologize and promise not to do it again. I walk over to a wall where all I can see if the wall and not be distracted and ask him what happened to his leg. He tells me that he got drunk with B and B actually accidentally shot him with something. It didn't like break the skin, but left a huge bruise and swelling that's causing him to limp. This distresses me and I spin around to look at B, but he's not there anymore. Instead I see the kid and the unicorn and I have to Awwww about the kid petting the unicorn. Then L laughs again and tells me that I'm entertaining to talk to because he doesn't know what to expect to come out of my mouth next. I wake up.

Dream Two: I'm walking into a mall looking place, and I think I'm some sort of agent, or maybe I'm just looking for a missing agent. I find the agent I'm looking for, and tell him he's being looked for. He starts off down to an ally, and I follow him but I don't think he realizes I am. He goes down a secret staircase, and I follow there too. When I get into this base, I realize I shouldn't be here and leave. When I get back up to the street I walk back towards the mall like building. A security guard sees me, and starts chasing me though! I run down the street, and somehow end up in on a country dirt road. There's a cop car behind me, and I'm somehow outrunning it. A farmer steps into the road behind me between me and the cop car, and starts asking the cop what he's doing. The guy buys me time to disappear into the corn, and I'm really grateful. I decide to go back to the mall thing and try to find the agent again and ask for him to help me find a place to hide. When I get back to the mall though, a middle aged woman is standing at the door. She says she's been waiting for me, and then she literally shoots her hands off in my direction. I dodge them, and run into the mall hoping to find a place to hide from her and still look for the agent guy. The woman follows though, and her hands keep regrowing on the ends of her wrists and she keeps shooting them at me. I make my way through the mall dodging her hands and shooting beams of energy back at her from my own hands. I get fairly deep into the mall, and then there's an even older woman in there that the middle age woman calls mom. Apparently the middle age woman is asking her mom for advice on exterminating me since she keeps missing. I take that moment to run back towards the exit of the mall. I run right into the agent guy, who causes a big explosion, and then half picks me up and runs so he's sort of carrying me but my feet are still dragging the ground but I'm facing backwards so I can't regain my footing and run myself. When we get outside, he lets go of me and tells me to follow him. He climbs up a wall, and I follow. We jump over a couple of small squares made by this big fence and people are inside those squares. In one there's a few people all making out and in another a guy is sitting on a bench. He looks up at me and asks if I am who he's waiting for, but I'm pretty sure I'm not. I keep following the agent, and he leads me back to his secret stairs and down into an underground house. He brings me into a small den barely six by six feet, only big enough for a couch and a lamp table. He asks me if I'm ok, and I tell him I am. He asks me if I've ever been here before, and I tell him that I actually followed him earlier down here, but then left b/c I knew I didn't belong. He tells me that I do belong there, and that I should have stayed where I'd be safe. Then he pulls me closer and kisses me lightly, then I wake up.

Dream Three (Fragment): I'm shopping with my BFF and I find lots of My Little Pony shirts, but they're all Generating three ponies.

Dream Four (Fragment): I'm at my mom's house. A girl needs to use the bathroom, but the window has no binds so I have to hold a piece of paper over the window for her to have her privacy.


I didn't type this entry backwards, I really did have my longer more detailed dreams earlier in the night and the fragment this morning. Last night was weird for me, lol.

Woo Hoo, a lucid last night Even though I've probably had like 15 of these in the last four months, the magic never wears off!

Dream One: I'm securing a robot into a space ship. The robot isn't very happy about this, but he understands that he has done something wrong and this is the punishment by law not my choice. I'm sad because this robot is my friend and I don't want to send him away. He starts talking about how lonely he will be and how bored he will be with nothing to do but star at an empty space ship.Then, that when his punishment is over, no one he knows will still be left on earth. I want to do whatever I can to lesson his pain, so I go grab all of my favorite books. I bring them back to him and tell the robot that These are my favorite books. I'm sorry I have to send him off, but I hope that when he reads them he knows that back on earth we love and miss him. Then my husband gets a phone call. Hoping it's a reprieve for the robot, I rush over to see what's going on. He tells me that Kanone (Spiral the melody of logic, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-GaR...eature=related ) is in trouble and needs help, but no one knows where he is. I realize the robot probably knows where he is. So I go unbuckle the robot from it's space ship, and ask him if he knows where Kanone is. He says there are several places he could be, but he can check them all. I'm so grateful, and I tell him that if he does save someone, then his sins of accidentally killing someone will be nullified and he won't have to leave. I wake up. I can point out the origin of many of these elements. I watched the toonami April fools clips before bed, then read Star Wars The Clone Wars Secret Missions bk2 to the kids before bed... that's got to be where the robot and space ship came from. As for Kanone, Well Spiral sits on the book shelf over the foot of my bed, I see it (and all the Characters faces) every night before bed, lol. I think Kanone was the character to invade because he's my favorite :p

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm driving through the small town we live in.

Dream Three (Fragment): I'm hanging out with a bunch of guys, and they're all either gay or bi. I'm watching them all flirt with each other and laughing because they are so much fun to hang out with and totally no pressure. But then one of the Bi one starts hitting on me, and I'm not too comfortable with it. He makes the comment that with my short hair I can style it and be a cute girl or I can just brush it and look like a cute guy, and that makes me extra fun. There's a car at some point and we're all piling into it. We were also comparing pictures on cell phones and I forgot I had porn on mine and they all saw it

Dream Four (Fragment): I'm in my room at the house I lived in as a teen. My aunt is there, and we're sitting on the floor looking at my cousin's pokemon cards that he was getting rid of. I decide I'm just going to go ahead and offer to buy all of them from the kid because I feel bad for him trying to save money for a PS3.

Dream Five (Lucid): I wake up in my bed. I slowly open my eyes, and just lay back and relax a bit longer, I always hate waking up and want to go back to sleep, lol. Then I notice I can hear something, so I roll over so I can see the foot of the bed. The TV is on. There is a commercial on for Pokemon Trading cards. I think that's weird and funny because I just had a dream about Pokemon cards, what a coincidence. Then I stop and think, wait, why is the TV on? I can't fall asleep with a TV on. Could this be a dream? Maybe someone turned the TV on... It feels really realistic... But then dreams often are so super real it's crazy. (The fact that the room is my OLD room from when I was a teenager and I don't even HAVE a TV in my room now didn't register) So I get up, and I start walking down the hallway. I think I need to reality check, so I try to plug my nose, I can still breathe. Then I question it, wait... am I pinching hard enough? Maybe I'm awake and I'm just not pinching hard enough. So I decide to try another one and count my fingers. I'm making it into the living room now and I'm counting on one hand, one, two, three, four, five, six, seven... then I start to move to the other hand and stop myself... seven? Seven fingers on one hand? Really? COOL! My grandma is sitting in a chair to my right, I turn to her and hold my hand out, "Check it out Grandma! I'm lucid dreaming! See? I have seven fingers!" She's a spoil sport and just says, "If you say so." I'm still doubting myself at this point too, thinking there's a small possibility that I might be awake (forgetting the fact I haven't lived in that house for seven years, lol.) But I decide I've done my reality checks and they failed, I just have to trust myself and DO SOMETHING. But I haven't had any lucids in so long, I can't even remember what my goals are and what I should do. So I decide that instead of trying anything big, I'm just going to try to get past my skepticism and take a risk. I walk to the front door and open it. Everything looks like it should (for that house). All the houses are in the right place as is the street. I feel really self conscious about the fact that I'm in a night gown still, but I tell myself this is a dream, it doesn't matter. I try to close my eyes and imagine myself in shorts and a t shirt. Doesn't work, so I just tell myself fuck it, it'll turn into a shirt and T shirt if I just keep moving and just assume that it is jeans and a T shirt. I walk out side, and down the front walk to the drive way. By this point my clothes are in fact jeans and a T shirt, just because I assumed they would be, yay! There are a couple of vans parked in the driveway. My cousins are in one, and my nephews in another, and my neighbors (from my current house) in yet another. Everyone is getting out of the vans like they're there for a visit. I wave, but don't want to quit moving and get sucked back into the dream scape. My aunt yells hello, so I yell hello back, then tell her, "Can't hang out yet, I'm in a lucid dream!" and she replies, "I know you are!" to which I laugh and say, "Of course you know, your just a dream character! You knew I was dreaming even before I did I bet!" (referring to seeing her in the previous dream) Then I make it to the road, start walking up it, and realize all my dream characters are following me. Even the neighbors in their yards are leaving to follow me.. Now that I'm awake I consider it pretty creepy having a 15+ dream character mob behind you, but in the dream I was like, "Oh, they're following me so we can do a musical number about the joys of lucid dreaming!" Suddenly I realize this is a good time to remind myself I'm dreaming, because I could way too easily get sucked back into the dream thinking about musical numbers, lol. I look up into the sky, now remembering that I am in fact dreaming. I see a flock of birds and I decide to try and shoot them with my fingers. I don't want to kill them or anything, just see if I can make them disappear because I've heard that you can make DCs disappear by pointing at them. I point at the birds. Nothing happens. I say, "Pow!" nothing happens. I consider doing the same to the DC in front of me, because they're all catching up now... but I reconsider, even if this is just a dream, I don't want to see any blood and gore if I mess up! So instead I briefly wonder if I need to stabilize, remembering that Ophelia had told me in the Lucid dreaming class that stabilizing might help my control. But then the only stabilizing method I can remember is the one where you crawl on the ground, and I really don't want to crawl on the road, lol. SO Instead I decide I'm going to try to make a Mcdonalds appear at the end of the road. I imagine a mcdonalds being there, but when I open my eyes what I get is a floating brown and yellow rounded cartoonish building (like this block set: http://img.auctiva.com/imgdata/4/0/5...3312892_tp.jpg ) and it has giant floating cookies for steps to climb to it. I start to climb, but then change my mind and turn back to the dream characters. I tell them, "I gotta go guys, I'm going to try and do something productive with this dream and I have a LOT of questions to ask someone." Then I grab the nearest DC, who happens to be a fat balding guy, and tell him, "Do me a favor when you leave ok? Tell Kurasawa I am Lucid and I need to talk to him. He can find me here at this McDonalds I just made." The dream character says, "Aight." then leaves (I'm in the south, everyone has a redneck accent, even me. Mines at least not as bad as most because people still refuse to believe that I am from here b/c according to them I have a "yankee" accent, but according to my friends up north my accent is most definitely southern, lol.) I start trying to climb the cookies, and it's just not working. They're wiggling and tipping too much. I get mad, and just reach up and grab the bottom of the door frame of this McDonalds and give it a good tug downwards. It falls to the ground, but suddenly looks like a kids play house. No way am I going to be able to fit in there, let alone me and Kurasawa. I grab the edges and start pulling and stretching it. I have to stretch it wide first, then I have to stretch the top to make it tall enough, then it's only like 6 inches deep, so I have to push on the back to stretch it out. There's no McDonalds furniture or people or cookware inside, and I'm annoyed. All that's in there is a little pink table with purple chairs and a regular white oven. I remember thinking that shiny white oven looks so out of place in this very pink and purple play house. That's about the time my kids woke me up.

Note to self, review Lucid goals at least twice a week from this point on, even if not Reality Checking on a daily bases b/c of being on vacation. Apparently it doesn't have to be the main thing on my brain for it to happen, lol.

Dream One: I'm walking through my dads old neighborhood. I can hear rapping behind me, but no music with it. I turn around to see a girl and boy walking behind me, rapping and tapping out a beat with their feet on the street. I really am not a rap music fan, but there are some songs I like. This song, I'd never heard before, but I remember in the dream thinking it was really good, especially considering it was being sung by little kids! I end up at a house picking up a little girl from a baby sitters. Maybe it was my daughter, but she was grown up to be around 6 or 7. I woke up as soon as I saw her and knew I was supposed to be taking her home.

Dream Two: I'm at a mall, walking into a victoria secret with my husband. I take a quick look around, and instantly know I don't want anything from here. Not only is everything either white or green and totally not my style, but I just don't feel like depressing myself trying on lingerie that's not going to fit. There's a middle aged man behind the desk and he tells me I should look around because everything is on sale today and I will probably find a really good deal! I give in and think I'll probably find SOMETHING I'll like. I start looking around, and stumble across rain coats. My first thought was back to the conversation I'd had a few days ago about how when I was a kid they made coats for rain, and I never see rain coats in stores anymore. I see one of the raincoats is grey with black and white skull and crossbones patterns. I LOVE it, and my mom shows up and tells me to try it on. I decide to try on a medium because I know a small probably won't button. I can't button it on top. I start getting depressed again. I do not want to try a large because I know it's going to sag and hang around the arms and the bottom will probably just drop straight off from the breast making me look fat instead of dipping back in and being somewhat form fitting. My mom suggests that I could buy the medium and just not button it, or button it around the belly and leave the top open, saying it would be sexier that way anyways. I think about it for a second, then go ahead and decide to buy it. I go to check out, and the line is taking forever! When I finally go to check out, the guy tells me how much it's going to be, and I hand him my debit card. He then returns it and says their card machine has been broken for a week now and he can only accept cash. I'm mad at this point, because he could have told me that BEFORE when he told me that everything was on sale. I'm mad because I feel like I just went through all that body image trouble for nothing, I'm mad because I really wanted that rain coat, and I'm mad because it's embarrassing to be told you can't pay for something. I tell him he should have told me before, and he just shurgs his shoulders, so I say "Fuck you!" and throw the raincoat at him and storm out of the store. I'm ready to leave the mall completely, but my mom wants to look around a bit more. So I walk around with her a minute, then decide to walk by myself, for some reason I feel like being around her is only going to make things worse (a really good chance to get lucid, missed.) I pass by a display showing kids beach towels, and I notice there are hooded ones with Nintendo characters and Disney faeries on them. Those hooded towels are the kind of towels my kids like to use when they get out of the bathtub, and my daughters Tinkerbell towel was bleached out, so I think I'm going to find this store and buy a couple for them. The display says Fantastic Towels! on it, so I look for a store called Fantastic Towels, instead I find one called Fantastic Hair and Things. I wonder if that's it, and walk in to ask the clerk. It is, and she shows me the towels, but she's not sure which ones are hooded and which ones are regular beach towels, so we have to unfold them to check. I find the faeries one, and then I find the Nintendo one, and then I see one with a pink horses head on it. I Think the horse one might me a pony towel, and my daughter loves ponies too (so do I, but I was thinking of her at the time, I swear, lol) but when I unfold it, it's a sea horse, and it's head doesn't look anything like a horse anymore. The towel is black and says sea dragon on it in cyan blue with the powder pink sea horse on it. I think about getting it for my daughter anyways, but decide not to. I fold it back up and realize my mom is in the store behind me! I show her the towels I found, and tell her why I want to buy them. She says it's a good idea. I ask the clerk if they accept cards since Victoria's Secret didn't, and she said sure, no problem! But the towels aren't ringing up, and she's not sure why. I wake up. This is one of those rare dreams where I can point out where most of this came from. I had just had a conversation about raincoats with my husband and son yesterday when it looked like it was going to rain, but it was way too windy for an umbrella. As for why it was at Victoria's Secret and I was uncomfortable the whole dream, I had just had a conversation with my mom about the assets I had gained when I was preggo with my kids, and how I'd hoped they'd go away if I lost the 15 pounds of baby weight I put on when I was preggo with the kids. The hooded towels I was thinking about last night as well, and had told my husband we needed to buy new ones. Too bad all dreams aren't so easy to decode, ha ha.

Dream Three (fragment): I'm working at a grocery store and I am supposed to be taking food that is about to expire and is past it's sell date to the local food bank because we can't sell it anymore or something. Later on someone asks me if I took it there, or if I just took it home for myself, because apparently I could have done either. I took it to the food bank though, and they seemed kind of mad because apparently they wanted the food but it wasn't their day to take it. They must have been hoping I'd take it home and they could just go get it from my house or something.

Dream Four: I'm in a small boat with my husband and an Asian lady. The coat is TINY, like canoe size, and we're on a lake probably a hundred feet wide. It's the middle of the night, but the moon is full casting a lot of eerie light. Around the lake are these really, REALLY big creepy trees. There are also lots of these huge trees sticking out of the water as though they'd fallen over and were now growing out of the lake. There's some abandoned farming equipment here and there (big stuff, like tractors and combines and stuff), even an abandoned tank! They're all rusted, and look like they've been in the lake for years. I'm in total awe of how creepy and junky the whole place is, almost apocalyptic, but in the dream I knew the world hadn't ended or anything, the people where ever I was just didn't care about taking care of the environment. The boat was moving really fast through the water, as if it had a motor or something on it, but I couldn't see any motor and I was in the back. I held on tightly afraid it'd tip over. The lake was calm though, so the only waves were the wake from out boat. We were steering by leaning side to side, and a couple times we'd accidentally bump into trees, but we were able to grab the trees to steady the boat, it wasn't big enough to be too heavy to pick up ourselves. Looking over the edge, I saw fish swimming below, and they were gigantic. It was really scary when dolphin sized fish would swim under the boat! I was worried they've capsize it, and who knows if any of them were meat eating fish. We stopped at one point at a house, and went inside because it was someone the Asian lady knew. I remember seeing prints in frames on the wall, and thinking I have some by the same artist ( Princess of the Night : 8th Day Anime, ...and on the 8th day, there was anime <--- one of the prints I have, I don't have time to look for the ones in the dream, if he even makes ones like that for real, lol ) My husband also pointed out some of the DVDs on the shelf. There were a lot called, "The Promise of the Fallen" and I remember the title hitting a nerve, but not why it seemed to make me sad. I looked it up to see if it was a book or movie I'd read, and I didn't find it. (after posting, I remembered this dream, and now wonder if it's related? 6-1-11, Important dreams from the past: We are the star called - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views ) We also saw some dresses, like toddler sized dresses, hanging up and I thought they were oddly fancy and nice for the depressing and murky feel of the rest of the dream. When we got back on the water, we crashed into some trees again, and fell out of the boat onto the land. The lady was getting scared being on land, freaking out about the wild animals, and I kept telling her we needed to get back in the boat then, but she just kept clinging to the tree saying, "I'm scared, I'm too scared! I can't move!" Then I woke up. The dream probably wasn't very long, but I woke up so creeped out by how eerie the whole thing was. I went back to sleep after that, but couldn't remember anymore dreams.

Edited to add dreams from my nap. THey weren't very long so they don't really deserve their own entry.

Dream One: We were trying to figure out how to put a manufactured home on this property along with the house and get around the all new houses need 2 acres law that passed a few years back. We thought we'd figured it out, but then I woke up and realized that the lot and house in the dream didn't look anything like this lot and house. and that we only have 1.9 acres, not 2.9, so the idea to break the land in half and put the new house on the 2.0 lot acres and only give the already built house the .9 acre lots wouldn't work either.

Dream Two: I was hanging out with my bi friend and her boyfriend, who was someone totally different in dream than in real life. It almost evolved into a threesome, but I woke up while making out with my friend :/

Dream One: I was standing outside the grocery store, in the grass beside the parking lot. There's a stop sigh nearby, and a big hole in front of the stop sign. Not like a vertical hole in the ground, but it goes in at an angle like a tunnel. As soon as I walk up to it, I recognize it as my friend M's house. I call into the hole asking if she's home, and I see her boyfriend's shoes. He call ups she's not home but should be home shortly. I thank him, and then stand back up. My friend M drives by in a car at that moment and waves when she stops at the stop sign. I wake up.

Dream Two: I'm not sure why I can't go back to sleep, so I get up and go into the living room to read a bit. I pick up a book off the floor thinking my husband missed it when he was cleaning last night. It's my daughters barbie book. I start to flip through the pages for some reason, and find myself thinking that's not what this book was about! I wonder if I'm dreaming, but I decide that I can't be dreaming because I could read. The text wasn't changing at all. I put the dream back, and it's daylight outside. I get a call from my mom, and answer it. She's telling me that her friend still wants her and us to move into that big house and rent to own the place. I say ok, instead of sticking to my decision of no. Then I'm in the kitchen, but the kitchen cabinets are the color of the bathroom cabinet. And then mom starts saying the pipes in the big house were cut off, and I actually see the pipes in front of me as if I'm there looking at them. They're moving like that pipes screen saver windows used to have pre-installed. I wake up, and curse for not doing a second RC.

Dream Three: I'm talking to my best friend A about weather and looking at a weather radar. There's some sort of blue and red flashing circle above New England, and the edges of this blue and red area are bright orange. I ask my friend A what's up with the radar above New England? She doesn't know, so I zoom in. Then I see the map as a 3d satellite rendering, like Google earth. There's a big red line and it looks like a lava trail, except it's spinning. I wake up to my daughter screaming about dragons.

Dream Four: I'm in the car with my husband and kids, going home from a small town nearby. We're watching the weather radar, and there's a tornado coming. I tell my husband to go straight home, that the tornado is moving in the opposite direction, so we should be fine if we head home. Then the tornado JUMPS and lands in front of us. We quickly unbuckle the kids, then lay in a ditch with them, but the tornado doesn't hit us. It jumps again. We buckle up quickly and start going back home. The Phone rings, waking me up.

Dream Five: I'm at my high school, and for some reason I have alcohol in my bag? A friend from school that I was always in a love/hate type friendship with wants his alcohol out of the bag, and I realize some of the alcohol isn't mine but his. I give it to him, and wonder if I'm going to get in trouble for having it at school. Then I realize I'm of age, so who's going to have a problem with me having alcohol? There's a storm coming, and the overhead speakers blare that schools canceled and we need to go home. I'm wanting to go to a different building to get my headphones (apparently they were awesome Mario head phones too!) But the buildings are being locked and evacuated. The halls are tightly packed, and there's a stop light in the hall stopping people from blocking the intersections. I'm standing at a stop light, and the power flickers then goes out. I barely step to the side fast enough to avoid being trampled. When the crowd clears, my son is with me. I see my husband, and he says he has to go lock the river cabin before he can go home and I need to go pick up our daughter. I ask him why he has to lock the river cabin, and he says he was there last week. I get so pissed to know he was there last week and left it unlocked for a whole week! then he says it's fine, no one's going to care. I try to explain we had trouble with people crashing at the cabin, but he doesn't listen and blows me off. I'm mad, but I take my son outside to leave anyways, getting my daughter is more important! I hear a message over the loud speaker again, this time saying there was an accident and we've lost one of our students. I feel bad, but I need to get my daughter. I put my son in the car, then I notice someone laying on the ground. I walk around my car to get a better view, and there's a black SUV that has run this person over, and the drive is none other than my husband! The run over person gets up, he's just a kid in high school! He tells me that he's fine, but he's going to go to the doctor anyways and we're going to be hearing from his lawyer. My husband decides he's going to drive my car, and hops in the drivers seat. I notice he's driving crazy! He's saying he's going to end up losing his license now, and I'm like pull over and let me drive! We are arguing, making him swerve more, so I decide to stop and let him concentrate. As soon as we get to my daughter's school (she's not even in school, lol) I ask him to put her in her car seat. When he gets out of the drivers seat to do so, I climb over the center console and into the drivers seat. He can't drive now, ha ha! But then he refuses to get in the car. He wanders off into the storm. I'm worried, but then I tell myself he's an adult and he isn't stupid, he can take care of himself and he'll go inside somewhere because he's terrified of Tornados. I drive off, then park and go inside some church. I am walking in with the kids, and I see there's a wedding going on. the priest says something like, "I now pronounce you gay man and wife" and there's are two beautiful women getting married. I feel like I know them, and I am soooo happy for them that I'm actually crying tears of joy. But then a lady taps me on the shoulder and asks if I'm me, I say yes, and she tells me that my husband has been run over, and he's passed away. I'm in shock and disbelief, and then I start to walk out of the church just leaving my kids in there. The walls are suddenly while tile. There are red tiles that light up and stack on top of one another alternating between 2 and 5 tiles high. Every three white columns, there's a column with red lights, marking a trail or path. I follow the path to a bathroom, where I see my husbands back as he slips into a stall. I yell out to him, thanking whatever gods are out there that let him be alive. He tells me to stop, he's a ghost, and I shouldn't see him. Then I tell him no, he has to be alive, I need him! Then he tells me that's the problem, "I want need him, but it's not because I want him." then I wake up to the phone ringing again.

I had the first "can't get back to sleep until I check the whole freaking house to make sure it's safe" nightmare of the year last night. It kind of messed up my sleep for the whole morning afterwards, but I got some short and fuzzy dreams, so here they are.

Dream One: I'm in a hospital. Someone's just had a baby, and I'm celebrating with a bunch of people (family and people I don't know) by having drinks in the hallway. Yup. Alcohol in the hospital, I'm pretty sure that's illegal in the waking world or something, lol.

Dream Two: I'm on a boat in the middle of a small river through a city. It reminds me of when I went to Vegas forever ago and saw people riding the gondolas in front of that hotel, the Versaille? I can't remember what hotel it was, lol. Anyways, in the dream I'm on the phone with a friend, C, and I see a GIANT billboard advertising a new Otome game. It was like a dating sim game for girls, and the possible love interests in the game were actual anime characters like Sebastian from Black Butler and Setsuna from Gundam 00. I remember getting all excited, and telling my friend the game looked AWESOME! She agrees it sounds great, even though that friend doesn't watch anime or play video games o.O I go on about how I'm not a fan of Setsuna, and I wonder if it'll have any other Gundam pilots in it? But the game was worth buying to hear Sebastian's voice seducing you anyways.

Dream Three (Nightmare): I'm walking out of the kitchen behind my son when I notice something move under his feet. It's a Copperhead, IN THE HOUSE! I try to tell my son to stop before he steps on it, but he doesn't listen and comes millimeters from stepping on it. I rush forwards and grab him and stand him up on a chair, but the snake slithers under the chair after him. I tell him not to move, thinking the snake can't climb the chair I guess, and run to the basement to get a shovel to cut the things head off because there's no way I'm letting a poisonous snake who knows how to get in my house free so he can come back in again! (Non poisonous, it wouldn't have been a big deal. We actually have a HUGE black snake living in our attic/basement and I refuse to let my husband kill him because he's not hurting anything.) I can't find a shovel, but I see a ho, so I grab that and run upstairs. My kid has gotten off the chair, and I'm freaking out at him that he could have been bit, then ask him if he knows where the snake went. He points to my feet, and I'm almost standing on it! I jump, then start trying to hit it with my ho. It tried to escape in the basement, but I get him on the stairs. Then he transforms into my cat Lilly, and my cat Lilly runs up at the same time so there's two Lillys and I can't tell which is the snake. I wake up TERRIFIED. I actually made my husband check the house for copperheads when he got up for work before I could fall back asleep! The rest of my dreams reflect this anxiety as well.

Dream Four: I'm trying to park my car in our driveway in the nighttime. I notice my neighbors black dog is laying in the driveway, and he won't move. The dog is supposed to be in a dog kennel anyways, so I get out of my car and try to call the dog to put him in his dog lot for the neighbor. The dog runs off, and I get frustrated. I call him a few more times, and the neighbor apparently heard me and sent his kid out to catch his dog. Just as the kid is coming up to help I hear a noise in the woods. At first I think it's the dog, but then I see the moon reflecting off an eye, and I know it's too tall to be the dog, it's got to be a dear. I get in the car and holler at the neighbors kid to watch out for the deer, he wouldn't want to get trampled if it gets spooked. As soon as I say this, the deer starts flat out attacking the kid. It's a doe, so there are no horns, but it keeps headbutting the kid knocking him down and trampling him! I back the car up and shine the headlights at the deer, this causes it to get scared and run away. I check the neighbors kid, he's bleeding, but he says he's ok. I tell him he needs to go get a rabies shot because I don't think sane deer would attack a person like that. Then I park my car and wake up when I get out again.

Dream Five: I'm talking to my husband about my son starting Kindergarten this year. Apparently he starts in a week, and his doctors appointment for his kindergarten shots is on the first day of school. I'm flipping out that he can't miss his first day of school to get his shots, we need to get the shots this week and see if the doctors office will just let us come in for shots really quick and do the actual check up part on a another day. My husband tells me that won't work because my son needs X-rays this year? I wake up, momentarily freaking out, then realizing it's only April and school won't start until August, we got time

Dream Six: I'm in the bedroom in my dead grandparents house where both my grandma died and my grandpa took his own life. Its a pretty creepy place to think about now that I'm awake, but in the dream I had no negative feelings about it. I'm sitting next to the bed, Ciel Phantomhive from Black Butler is on my left, and K is to my right. There's a guy who looks like the pig riding guy from the early Bleach Episodes there as well, sitting across from me at the bed. Ciel is ordering Pig guy to do something, and pig guy gets up and stomps off. I hear muttering coming from the hallways, and get up to see what it's about. K and Ciel are playing poker and talking about some sort of plot against us, but I'm not worried. I trust K to handle it all, and don't feel like I really have the experience needed to keep us safe but he probably does. In the hallway, I see pig man is lighting a bunch of candles and sitting them right under papers that will catch fire and burn really easily. He's muttering something like, "Burn in hell you little demons (devils?)" I yell out at him, "Hey, stop!"and he drops his book of matches and a lit candle and runs away. I go through trying to blow out all the candles before they can start a fire. K and Ciel come out of the bedroom and K is saying, "Well Phantomhive, it looks like you've been betrayed by your own man." to which Ciel replies that he knew it would happen, and we'd use the escaped traitor to lead our enemies to us where we can catch them in our own trap. I'm freaking out that we've got to get out of here before he tried to set fire to the outside. I'm trying to gather things that are important to me, extra shoes, a stuffed horse my grandfather gave to me, a pillow pet for my kids to lay their heads on (doesn't cross my mind they're not here in the dream, lol) and I'm trying to find more of the kids stuff. K just sits at the kitchen table playing cards with Ciel again. I'm getting upset, I feel like we need to leave now! K tells me to just relax, everything's under control. But I just can't relax, I'm freaking out! K asks me where I think we're going to escape to, that we have no where to go. I tell him we could go to his parents house, and he sighs and says Ok, if I'm so upset we can go there if it'll make me feel better. He sighs and throws his cards down on the table obviously agitated and I take this as a personal attack because I'm so on edge. I start shouting at him, "Just because you're an undying doesn't mean the rest of us can't die you know! You may be happy sitting here and being burnt or blown up because you'll regenerate, but I won't!" (An Undying is from the book series Kieli, I have often thought the main character Harvey reminds me of K because they both have that quiet and unintentionally harsh around people personality. Apparently this comparison was bleeding over into my dreams to make him fit in with all the anime characters, lol) He looks at me kind of stunned and confused by this outburst, and then my son wakes me up because he's worked the fitted sheet off his bed turning in his sleep. I'm glad that K showed up in this dream, because it put me at ease enough that my last dream was not a nightmare and I woke up in a good mood after all.

Dream Seven: I'm inside of a store, at first I thought it was Walmart. I'm looking at video games, checking out what they have for the PSP because I'm really enjoying Hakuoki and wander if there are any other visual novels for the PSP. A store clerk comes up, and asks if he can help me find anything. I tell him I'm just looking, thanks. Then he asks me what my name is, so I actually turn and look at him instead of half ignoring him (yeah I know, ignoring people is a bad habbit... but my social skills are so inept it's usually a lot better than trying to talk to them and getting overly stressed out, lol) I notice he's the guy from best buy the other night. I remember that My husband was the one who was trying to talk to the guy and ask him about some video game stuff, but the guy kept looking at me when he was talking to my husband. I was very flattered at the time, especially since he looked a lot like a guy I had a crush on in College, just with shorter hair. I even wondered if he was the same guy, but his name tag had a different name on it so I was pretty sure it wasn't. Anyways, in the dream I tell him my name and he smiles really big and cutely, and I smile back. Then I decide to ask him if he knows of any other visual novels on the psp. He has no clue what I'm talking about and apologizes like crazy. I tell him it's ok, and grab a game off the shelf and tell him I'll just try that game. The I checkout and leave. I feel like I'm being watched, and I turn around to see him and someone else watching me out the stores glass windows as I leave. I turn around and smile and wave to let them know they're being too obvious, then get in the car where my husband and kids are waiting. My daughter wakes me up this time, and it's time to get up.


And of course, because the copperhead dream had me so freaked out, I wouldn't let the kids get up until I could check the house again myself, then told them to watch where they step. We've not had a snake in the main part of the house before, but since we've had mice come up from the basement and down from the attic before, I know it's possible, it just hasn't happened yet.

Dream One: Dreamed of playing Mario Kart Wii with my little boy again. This time I was playing as Rosalina, the princess we had just unlocked yesterday through Super Mario Sunshine. There's a pattern here, my first dream of the night is usually about whatever I did before bed, lol.

Dream Two: The dream starts off with me sitting at home, knowing I was supposed to meet a friend so our kids could play. Problem is, this friend and I have been on the outs so I am really nervous, and want to cancel. Thankfully, there's no drama in dreams, at least not for me. My friend, Chas, shows up before i can call and cancel on her. I start to say the kids aren't feeling well, and she says that's ok, she left her daughter with a babysitter and just wants to hang out. She tells me to leave the kids with my husband, and We're going to go to a concert. I'm really uneasy about it, but I agree just because I feel guilty for being the one who stopped talking to her. I climb in her car and do a double take because the truth is my friend doesn't drive in waking life! But I don't over analyze it in my dream, so I don't realize once again that I am dreaming. We drive to a big building that I can only guess was a mall, the details are fuzzy because I had this dream about 4 hours before I woke up for the morning! We go inside, and there's a large lobby area with lots of young adults and teens, some looking as young as 14/15is and others looking as old as 27/28ish. They're all lounging around on the floor on giant pillows and in bean bag chairs. There are also blankets and things lying around, like they had been camping out there for a while, maybe even over night. We see an empty couch and start to go sit on it, but then my friend gets a text from some guy asking her to bring him his guitar strap. She texts him back saying she has the strap in her purse and she's already at the concert location, so he could find her when he got there, she'd probably be in the baby department. Then, instead of sitting down, she asks if I'd mind going to the baby department to look around with her. I agree, and say that'd be fun. We head to the baby department, but are only there for a moment before she gets another text. She says she needs to go meet the guy she's supposed to give the guitar strap to, and pulls the strap out. I note that it's black and red plaid. I Start to follow her, and we go down a set of stairs into another lobby, this time there are only two guys lounging in the lobby. I feel something hit my foot as I step down the stairs. I bend over to pick it up, and it's a copy of the newest Blue Exorcist Manga. I ask the guys lounging in the lobby if this is their copy or if it fell out of my bag, and one of the guys reaches in his oversized pocket and pulls out a copy of the same Manga. He says, "I got mine right here, so it must be yours. Good choice!" Then he makes a silly clicking sound and winks at me. I roll my eyes, but then notice Chas has left without me and I'm alone. I decide to back track to the first lobby and wait for her there because I think that's where the concert is supposed to be. I get there, and she's already waiting on me. She says she can't stay for the concert after all, but she'll take me home. We get back into her car, and once again I think, wait, she can't drive! That's when I woke up.

Dream Three: The third dream starts out in the toy store with my husband and kids. We're looking at bikes. I decide that since the kids are being good riding in the buggy, and Bikes are really more of my husbands interest, I'll go look at something else. I start walking towards the girly toys, when I overhear loud talking. I stop in an aisle and pick up a toy pretending to read the box and listen to the conversation. One woman is talking to another woman. The first woman says, "There's nothing physically wrong with this kid. We should let him go, he'll probably find his parents on his own." The second woman says, "He's got to be sick, look at his eyes! If we just let him wander off to find his parents he'll get the other kids in the store sick." the first woman says, "If he's sick, we're at risk of catching it by being near him. He's probably just one of those mentally challenged kids escaped from his teacher. I'm sure she's right around the corner and He'll stop thrashing about if we let him go and stop scaring him by keeping him trapped." The second woman sighs, and then agrees to just let the kid wander around the store on his own. I hear a clinking sound like a cage opening, then the women scream and start running. Scared by the scream, my first thought is to get my family out of the store because something bad is about to happen. I start walking quickly, almost running towards the bike section, but then out of no where this kid looking like a zombie steps out. I gasp because his eyes look white and cloudy, and he's even reaching out in front of him like a zombie would, moaning. I think oh crap, that one lady was right, this kid is sick, he's got the zombie virus! I start to run, and the zombie kid follows me, also running. I think to myself I didn't think zombies could run, but maybe because kids are so full of energy zombie kids can. Then I think that if I keep going this way the zombie will not only get me, but also my husband and kids. i stop running, and turn to leave the store. The zombie grabs me, but it doesn't try to bite me or anything, instead it just grabs my legs like my kids do when they're scared. I wonder to myself if this kid really is a zombie, because he's not trying to eat me, and his skin looks too normal to be a zombie. Then I have this sudden memory of a man named Luke who is a lycanthrope (yes, my dreams create memories, lol) and I decide that if anyone would know what this kid is and how to help him, Luke would. I reach down and pick the kid up, and he's incredibly light. I carry him out of the store, and turn left. I remember walking across the parking lot, but I know I must have walked farther because the scenery changed so fast. I'm standing in front of these two small cottage looking buildings, but they're probably each the size of a storage building. They have green siding and white lattice work. I walk up to the glass door that's broken into many different squares, but my hands are full carrying this kid, so I can't open the door. Instead I balance on one foot and kick the bottom of the door lightly. A tall tan guy with long dark hair and black clothes opens the door and steps aside. At this point I don't pay much attention to him because there's a desk in the center of the room, and sitting at that desk doing paper work of some kind is Luke. Luke is a short looking guy with thick, shaggy, dirty blond hair that covers his ears and keeps falling in his face. He looks up at me, and sort of shakes his head to get the hair away from his eyes and I see he has on a pair of reddish brown glasses as well. He says "Hello. What've you brought in today?" and I hand the kid over to him. I start to tell him what happened, but before I can finish the first syllable, the kid turns into a big fluffy white cat with matted fur. Luke grabs the cat by the scruff of the neck and moves it around a bit trying to get a good look at it, then he sets it on the desk, and proceeds to pet it while explaining to me, "This poor fellow has an unstable case of Lycanthropy. It can be fatal if contracted, but I think he's going to be ok. If he were to die, it would have been the first time he turned." I nod, but then the cat startles, and jumps off the desk and runs out the door I had forgotten to close. Worried that it would spread the unstable lycanthropy disease I chase after it out the door. I catch up to it, and pick it up, but it bites me and I drop it cursing in pain. It runs again. I make it to the street, and can't see it anywhere. I start crying, afraid that I'd fucked up royally. The dark haired man walks up behind me and puts a hand on my shoulder. Suddenly I remember his name is John. "It's ok, don't cry." he starts, "Luke wouldn't have wanted you to know, but that strain of lycanthropy is no longer contagious. It will only effect and possibly kill the first 1000 people in contact with it before the strain becomes so diluted that it can be destroyed by the bodies immune system." I look up at him through teary eyes and ask, "How many people have been in contact with it?" He moves the hand on my shoulder behind my back and pulls me into a side hug, "Luke estimates around 1,600. The last 600 people haven't even gotten sick or tired, there's nothing to worry about. You will be fine, and so will anyone else who comes in contact with it." I wipe my tears, relieved. Then I realize that if Luke and John knew so much about it, they had probably been aware of it before I even encountered it at the store. Before I can call them out on letting it hurt people without stopping it before the first thousand people caught it, I wake up.