Nelzi's DJ

3 fragments. Feels like they somehow belong together to one big connected dream, although they are independent situations.

• I meet all the friends of my old clique again. My ex-GF is among them also. I am happy to see all of them and we are walking to some benches in nature to celebrate, we drink alcohol. I have this weird feeling of being unwelcome, as if i had to justify myself and my behavior. They seem very critical and disapproving. Somehow I want to show them that I am still awesome, especially to my ex, and that I'm doing really good without them. There is an enemy feeling that I have never felt among them before. There are some new people who are joining us, I presume they are new friends of them. They are all gangster and have caps and smoke weed and although they seem happy, I feel that they don't like me and that they look down on me. I start introducing myself, they are polite, but they don't seem interested. I am pissed and I make no secret out of it. My friends tell me that I have to sign a gift card for one of the others, so I do that reluctantly. I feel sad and go to two of my closest friends, who give me at least a little love. I am tired and want to sleep, but I am scared that if I do so, the others might paint my face and do weird stuff, after all they are drunk and have been so weird all the time.
  
  First unpleasant fragment in a long while. Vivid with many details and strong feelings/emotions.
  
  
• I am with another group of friends, the ones I study with. We are going to have a nice evening at their house. It is a big house with stairs, many large rooms and a long way to the ceiling. I lose track of where I am, it's so big. I find myself in a storeroom in the cellar without windows, not even with a door, but it is only accessible through a small hole in the wall. I am trapped there, can't come out of the hole. One friend comes and helps me out and we go and join the others, I feel weird among them, as if they got it all right and I am a failure.
  
  The house is completely imaginary, nothing I have seen IWL. Also unpleasant, but not as much as the first fragment.
  
  
• I am with yet another group of friends. We are having a party (third one this night lol. But this time there are only happy vibes). It is a small room, we sit tightly together in a big circle and have fun. One of my old friends even brings his father, who is a mixture of the one he actually is and another friend's father. I welcome both of them and they are happy about that. There is free food and munchies for everyone, there are steaks and pizza all you can eat.
  
  Short fragment, but I liked it very much.