Oceanboy

Did some dreaming earlier was a bit different than usual, can't remember the most of it, not now. I do recall at the end where I'd just entered a house at night. I was about to go upstairs where a friend of mine I've recently lost was waiting apparently...

I remember going up to the stairs, opening a couple of drawers on a dresser/shelf thing.... then that was it. Never got up stairs sadly.....

I layed down later due to depressing shit getting me down.... I barely recall though that when I dreamt... there he was standing off to the side. Didn't get to talk to him.... hope to soon though.

lot of city bits and driving, which is why i've not been interested in posting it.

Nothing trully lucid. Will say that some of the driving.... the roads are crazy sometimes XD.

to sum up last night, drove around the city, i saw guns and police at some point.... then leaving going to a dock like the one we fish near, some guy catching a nice sized fish... then some scene where I pulled over cause i see one large figure and a smaller figure kicking another smaller figure, when I approached and told them to stop they pulled out these http://www.kormax.com/images/YK-20-2.jpg, slightly longer. I just kept tellin em I couldn't let the two of em gang up on this what seemed to be a little kid, eventually they walked away. That be about it.

So, past 2 days have been thinking on the ADA, all day awareness.

First dream
Started with me n my bf just chilling in our room, n.... he started fapping me XD with the door wide open as usual. I told him to stop because i got paranoid his parents might walk back.... n just after I told him to stop, his dad calls him, n steps infront of the door. I guess he got some huge dog or something... XD I just remember (well among a few other things I won't mention XD).... the dog was standing up like the whole time.

This dream went to one of this city or something.... one from aprevious dream. This kind of town on the ocean with waterways inbetween houses/buildings. I remember once I got to the start of the area (area i remember from before) I started floating n started flying around the town. I came upon this black guy (dun rarely see people, let alone of other races :/ ) , n started asking him about these crazy murlock lookin things. He told me how they fought one another n stuff. I can remember looking down n seeing a large fish floating in the water, dead. After he was done talking I took to my floating again for a moment until, I stopped at one end of the city, there was this big tower with a monorail going across the sea. As I got in, my mind reminded me of this hate article on the dangers of rollar coasters... cause when I went to sit in the thing... there was this huge woman sitting in the back.... which made me wonder if I was gonna get crushed when the ride slowed n what not XD.

That ende dup not being the case, on top it was train like, riding on a rail, with a platform undereath the rail, so it felt somewhat safe despite the height. All I can remember is it picked up speed, and was just heading in a downward slope faster and faster.....

Then I was at some recreational center, with polls n stuff, I remember that I was there trying to get my medical card. When the elderly woman was done doing some shit with me I cannot recall, some kind of evaluation, she told me the charge for that day (200$ O.o wtf? for an evaluation n day at the center?) I asked for the year n she said 7000$.... I pretty much said that wasn't gonna be possible to which I looked off to the side disappointed, she then pretty much said i wasn't going to be able to get my card. Need-less to say, I got upset, I was to pay 200$ for the day and wasn't gonna get my card.... I pretty much blew up on her in tears, pretty much explained my week n then said "ya know... fuck you, you don't give a fuck, you just want my money yadda yadda yadda" n went outside... I eventually thought fuck it.... n went inside n sat down just being my sad tear-stained face self ya know.... hoping she'd come to me n tell me that she was sorry and would take care of me.

This dream faded like my dreams generally do. I was with my cousin at my grandma's house and I guess some place we'd burgled in some dream i'm trying to recall, the people were on to us from. I just remember a few moments of being outside in the snow with him talking about it (he strangely had shoulder-length hair), we were back inside n I was dreading about it n such. At one point I was back where we were talking outside.

It wasn't a snowy field anymore, now it was hill, to which I started riding down.... not on a snowboard, but in a snowboard like fasion, i remember hoping up, n using one of they fly-suits like they have in SSX n landing at the bottom. At the bottom there was a bunch of people waiting, some having already finished, that dream became the next with me at a gamestop, same people in the same positions, just the environment having changed.... I looked at a few games.... like this one with marvel super heroes on it, with like Goku and Vegito in the backround smiling, like it was a mix up bash kind of game. After that.... I woke up n just had to get up.

Having finally had plenty of time to rest I was able to get some major dreaming in, and i'm rather impressed by the general intensity it kept and for how long.

Of all of it, I liked going back to that town, gonna try to think on it some more.... it was rather beautiful.

So I took a nap earlier and got some recall.

First was up on this bridge where we pulled,me and my bf. We noticed a couple of cats with their kittens.....of which we were like "derp da derp lets have more cats :O" lol so in the process of loading them all up into the backseat, our dog noni ran off. I went down do the area where some people where chilling underneath, kept callin outfor noni, only ended up having this wooden door slammed in my face by what looked like a bunch of druggy buff people

I didn't wanna leave but I didn't think we could do anything more. Ended putting me in another dream, I was in some convenience store and i felt some kind of threat from some other people. I guess I didn't see in parking so... I'd parked like.... right outside the front doors. Heard some chick say "white boy thinks he can park anywhere" so I just turned and stared her down until she turned her face. I went to take my leave. Once I was in the care, all I can remember is being in a dark room and someone all of a sudden coming in, i thought they were someone trying to attack me so i made the first move, and they made movements that made me think they were trained as they just tangled me up then slammed me up against something, I then recall waking up on the table with one of them displaying a nice rather close to my face.

I thought that honestly I didn't care, but at the same time that if i said anything they'd likely end me right there, for all I knew they'd just caught there most recent snuff victim. I woke up though and decided to leave it alone to dream later. Day I become lucid these dreams will either no longer happen, or i'm gonna be entertained stopping them; likely just gonna watch everything till whatever going on acts upon me.

To which for each hand laid on me, I will not be moved, I will stand, look down at their hand, grab it with my own and smile at them. They will not know why I was not moved, and why, after I man handle them like the dreamer should to dc, why I just walked away, or decided to throw them through each wall between where I stood and mile whichever way I decide to try my hand at competitive bitch toss. Either way I'll likely keep it short n sweet.

Just as the title says.

The Green and White Snake
I recall this dream starting outside, it was during lunch with everyone outside. There was some commotion, I guess some kids had happened on a snake or something. I walked over and was amazed by its colors, generally don't recall ever hearing of a white and Green snake ya know. I noticed some people decide to throw a few rocks over to which I move over to shield the snake from, eventually I just picked up the snake n walked away. I recall then being in some kind of pet store, there was a woman that worked there (based off her khaki attire) showing me this kind gel like substance, saying that the snake would enjoy the use of it on her scales (I guess the employee knew the snake was female). And that was pretty much the end of that dream

In the Bush
This one I believe started with me just kind of walking through some jungle landscape. Eventually I came upon a solo velociraptor, (utahraptor size) Fileromie scale.png - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
I wasn't scared or anything, ended up following it to some kind of hut/in the ground kind of home. Became a little bit of an interesting dream from that point, so i think i'll leave it at that.

Death of meh mum
Pretty much just that, I recall that she Had died, now how, and the funural/service. The weird part of it all was that her head seemed all shrunken from view.... like it was there, but even though it was.... it was to small to see... freaked me out when I woke up back when I was so young, ended up sleepin on the couch waiting for my mom to come home from work XD

Choice (graphic, gore)
The oldest, and still kind of disturbing dream I can recall having, was way back when I was little. It was a rather dark one in my opinion, specially for being in early elementary school. It started with what seemed to be my mom, asking me, whether, because for some reason one of had "to go", which one she should choose, me, or my older brother. It was a fucked dream from the start, I didn't know what to say, I didn't want to die, I in my age told him her since he had experienced more life than I. Then I remember her asking my older brother "which one?" to which she pointed at a spoon and a serrated knife. Well I guess the means of taking his life was to be disembowelment, because I remember my brother asking if he could have something to eat, and being told that doing so would only lead to a bigger mess.

I've had someone recently suggest that lucid dreaming may be dangerous, because were not letting our mind dream as it wants to, as in showing you things you need to see, to "decompress" of which he says this is just him theorizing off of his own logic, nothing more. I'm sorry but I'd rather not decompress then, cause dreams like those leave you not in a good state when you awake, mainly because they are the True Nightmares, the ones filled with disappointed/dead family/friends. Ones within reality that you cannot see to be false during a sleep state with an untrained mind.

Even the ones of war and undead, the ones I play games of when I get bored, even those have become tiresome, because they are a waste. Sure it was nice in the one where I was with a group, despite not being able to put faces to them, that I was able to help them for the brief time I was with them. Sadly the majority of them are me by myself, just moving at break-neck speeds, stopping to grab this or that and then onward.

I just.... want to go to peace ya know. Just a nice day up on some grassy knoll, with the single tree on a bright sunny day, maybe some coconut chime in the back-round clanking occasionally, calmingly. Shit maybe even have a picnic, nice large white sheet out on the ground with a bottom-less basket filled with all the noms you could ever want. Maybe when we finishing eating well say who cares for the mess of the white sheet we've left, n just decide to paint on it, as to hang it later for remembrance.

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Just something nice ya know.

First one I could remember was rather early. I can only realy grasp a little of it, gets graphic near my end dreams

Where we were living, we had these 2 airplanes side by side, one facing north/south the other facing the other way. They were pretty much non-flyable, setup more as a hangout.

It was an early one like my first lucid, I seem to noticed i'm losing out on whats going on.... and make a concious decision "must remember this".

After that I have vague memories of just.... a lot of different guns. I can't remember if I was in either a war or undead situation, just remember inspecting the different weapons.

The last dream was the most real visually. Me and my bf came up on what I thought to be like a bus stop or somethin.

I just remember seeing some large bodied... i don't wanna say officer but i do wanna say security guard. I remember getting pegged with a rock in the head, not nicely, n i turn to see some young girl sitting in the driver seat of a truck, likely around 15/16 tops, I just turned back to the guard n said "should stop her now, only gets worse from there". In the mind i had in the dream, it was a rather deliberate intentionally painful kind of rock.

(warning: drug/sexual references)

Then all of a sudden I me and my bf were in a room with them , the girl n the truck in the guard, and some other older chick, seemed a bit closer to the guards age/size. Pretty much chillin like you would with your friends, in this trashed room (just stuff strewn all about). I remember holding this bong/somethin that had like.... 3 inch diameter bowl, just filled with nugs on it XD..... I kept remembering I was wondering who had a lighter. Then all of a sudden I notice the guy and the younger girl are smoking fking crack.... I say nothing, just thinking what I had said to the guard earlier in my dream. He goes to hand me some n I just say "nah, I'm good, only smoke the herb". He seemed, and I wondered if he was offended.

I'm stuck in that for a moment, before turning and seeing the larger woman pretty much going to town on my bf with her mouth, him seemingly trying to climb away, at which point I stood and just angrily said to him "alright, cmon, time to go".

As we turned the hallway..... I noticed We had our own room right on the other-side of theirs, all of our stuff inside it. To which I think I got some fear, like hell was about to break loose. I thought "i'll get the owner of the house", so I go to the final door, and I see some gaunt shaggy blonde haired dude mounting n stuffing (in the sexual sense) this other chick over hte side of his bed. Seeing this I immeadiately went to close the door and and thought "busy...."

I went back to what felt/seemed like my room, I told my bf to get the shotgun as I picked up a bb gun n looked around the corner back towards the first room.... after moment I noticed a bb flying towards me.... I remember it annoying me, but no pain of course. I pulled back into the room and just told my bf to hand me the shotgun. I had the thought to go back to the first room and start making some demands but, I woke up before I tried doing so and before it possibly got ugly.

Unless Everyone just starts dying, I don't think it'll get worse from here. Ended up having to fight off someone close to me literally, cat got hurt so I had to take her to the vet, from which we are now trying to deal with a 1000+ bill for..... and then after all that... I discovered someone very very dear to me had passed on.

The dreams have been fleeting, specially with staying up to feed n take care of our second kitten.... like the first its made sleeping at night not really doable for someone like me.

After the fight..... that night I had dreams of someone else, my step dad, slamming me into stuff in his bedroom in the dark, like.... a printer, computer desk.... I just remember yelling out to my mom to stop him before I start fighting back. Then that dream went to one of my actual dad, and I was in a vehicle with him arguing.

Only other dream I can recall having right now was one from last night where my bf's mom came in and asked him to fill out some paper work and he just shook his head and said "nope, don't really feel up to". Which just reminds me of how he was telling me how annoying it is when she or her family, or some friends of his always ask him to fill out disability or unemployment forms for them..... not really any kind of significant dream.... but thats pretty much it.

Been doing multiple reality checks a day now, I've a reason to go into the lucid stage now more than ever. Didn't get to say goodbye to him, never thought I'd have to, someone so nice, considerate.... giving. Regret not telling him sooner my feelings, by the time i found out he felt the same it was to late. On one hand due to the butterfly effect things could have been different, at the same time, if i'd been with him and they were the same..... I cannot imagine how I'd not follow him. So I am here, and he may or may not be somewhere I hope I can visit. Dream character or not, anything for one more memory.

Will let you all know how that goes.

as i'd figured, my lack of lucidity wasn't goig to make this a doable task

I still dreamed

Was mostly negative shit with my dads, so other than getting tossed around a little theres nothing else to note. Just need to keep doing reality checks n not give up on them.

It happened, it happened as randomly as I thought it would. There I was dreaming.... when all of a sudden I look down, raising my arm and i say/think "this is a dream".

I was dreaming before and after, but after that realization, all I can remember is my view fading behind me, going to 3rd person, then darkness.

But I could not forget. My dreaming eventually came back, which generally excessive dreaming leads to losing the ability to remember the early dreaming, but the moment of lucidity was not lost. .................................................. .................................................. .................................................. ................................ banana :O

Had a bit of a dry spell.

Since getting a kitten, keeping up with her feedings has put me in a sleep schedule that makes me dream a bit; been to the usual places.... had a rather sick space dream and one where I was focusing on flying rather well.

other than that nothing really specific

I will note that i did talk to someone, they were like "oh wow your able to fly" and i was like "yep watch" n flew away :3

I only had one real "situation/event" otherwise I was mostly exploring environments, specifically this snow covered mountain.

Only thing i remember though, was getting on my knees and boxing with a small duck, was pretty amusing all the slow motion and "quahhhhhhkkkk"

This is a scenario for dreams i've had before, where I'm back trying to do school n such, and of course I feel dread because i've got shit for grades and am about to just quit. However, in the mix of all this, some buff bastard with glasses decided to sneak up on my while I chillin in the class and..... try to choke me out.

To this I sighed... despite having a arm wrapped around my head. I could tell he was trying to pull at me.... So i just sat there "really? i'm here trying to do school, dreading over fucking grades and your trying to choke me out?" i started going throuh my bag, unable to find the paper stating my grades. In the end I just kinda of sat there until finally i stood up, walked a few feet with em on me, slipped down out under him n turned around. To be honest he looked like a more buff me, more european, with blonde hair and glasses. I was at that point fairly annoyed, and decided i was jsut gonna open up on him and box em down, but the dream faded as I lunged out at em.

Just another dream I recall from my last moments of sleep.

Apparently I was in some kind of hospital or something.... and like with leaches, they found this... centi/mili pede like creature.... that had these poking metalic retractble pincer/pokers in its mouth, apparently it was used to repair.... orifices XD.... I'd be a bit more creeped/bugged out (XD get it... bugged out ), if i hadn't been watching a trippy as episode of the X files, that was very similiar to "the thing" with a parasite trying to go between the hosts, pretending to be one of them as they all tripped.... trying to figure out who had the parasite. Yeah, in the show the parasite causes them to go crazy eventually, in my dream they were used to repair people from the inside.

I remember cats being in my dreams, possibly because it was here, where I live, wehre there are a bunch of free roam cats.

All i can remember is being at the vehicle, when some little girl comes looking for her rabbit/whatever, turns out it had hopped into the vehicle while iw as cleanin or something. For some reason the rabbit turns into 2 rats, and I decide im gonna get a cage for her to house them.... I can remember them nibbling on my fingers a little roughly occasionally.

I remember standin gi my room, when... a snake I vaguely remember having caught in the dreamer earlier.... just darts out from my behind/right n goes for my left foot, my right raising as my.... arm comes down and snags it right behind its head, stopping it mid bite as its mouth hang over, and its fangs stare right down at my foot only a inch or two lower... I remember like for a second trying to properly grab it, so it couldn't turn and bite me but damn.... crazy looking snake, a silver one that seemed to made out of grey pointed diamond shaped stones.... its face resembling that of a horned viper.... just grey

more mountains lately

all i can really recall