lucid

I’m with my brother in an upstairs room in my childhood home. We’re sitting across from each other at a desk, and I’m telling him enthusiastically about the awesome lucids I just had. I continue to talk to him and I begin to notice something is a bit strange. My father enters the room very frustrated about something and begins raising his voice. Something clicks at this point, and my awareness breaks through the dream. I stand up, placing my hand out in front in front of him and say “I’m lucid…I’m lucid." The scene has a nice blue hue to it, providing an extra touch of the 'dream feel'. I don’t feel like interacting with DCs at the moment, so I exit the room quickly, cross the hallway, and enter into where my old bedroom was. I consider some dream goals I had written down as I approach the wall, and decide to ask the dream a question. I ask something along the lines of what my destiny in life is/ what can I become. I go to phase through the wall, and anticipate the answer. I enter back into the center of my childhood room, except now it’s empty. [I interpret this as my younger years being behind me, yet my future, and who I become is completely up to what I make of my life; it’s up to my own will and what I choose to put my energy into.] I enter into the hallway, and lose my awareness. I slip into a non-lucid.

I find myself at the top of the stair leading down into the basement of my childhood home.I begin heading down the stairs, and I’m amazed by the vividness of the scene as I stare at the collection of pictures on the wall going down, and get ready to turn right. The scene appears to be an almost exact reconstruction of the real life setting. I realize that something or someone is coming around the corner and I realize it could be anything. I make the turn, and a very young boy with a red polo and blonde hair walks up with a big smile. He appears to be in middle school or so. I’m very impressed by how real everything looks, and am getting a kick out of it. I finally make it to the bottom, and see a few more very young kids approaching. I feel almost as though I’m in a realm with ethereal people and am amazed at how realistic these figures appear. Out of interest I approach the upcoming two figures and pass my hands right through their torsos, and am fascinated by the transparency. I spot the diamond shaped mirrors on the wall in the same spot as in waking life. I decide to look at my reflection. I view myself as a child, roughly in middle school or so, expcept with more lean features as I have now, and shorter hair as I have now. I turn away and continue to make my way into the room toward a couch area. I see a large group of very young kids, possibly in Elementary school. It appears that they’re about to start a video game. I decide to ask them a question that’s been on some of my recent dream goals. I’m appreciating the vividness and stability of the dream, and feel no need to stabilize. I think back to Sageous’s posts and am amazed that he was experiencing states as this in every dream. I think about posting in the WILD class as I used a personal variation of a WILD technique in order to initiate this. I approach one of the youths on the left and ask him what my life purpose is. He begins thinking and chattering to the others then asks as if still considering.’you know my firend?’’ ‘I think you need to talk to him’. This doesn’t make much sense to me, and I reason that it just dream characters. I then turn to another and ask what my life mission is. He talks about meeting and hanging out with a celbrity of some sort. I find this comical again and tell him in a dry humor tone that next time I’m in a life conundrum I’ll make sure to chill with a celebrity. I decide to head away from the group, and work my way toward where my dad’s office. I find that it’s not an interesting area and turn back around, and look toward the wall unit in front of the group of kids. I consider teleporting to a forest at this point. There are many fantasy books lined up, and this reminds me about an awesome druid dream guide figure I met in a previous lucid dream. I ask them if there’s a way I can teleport to the druids. They don’t give a clear answer. The dream begins fading, I make my way to an in-between phase and begin trying to re-enter a lucid. A lot of HI starts forming, and I'm finding the state very easy to navigate as I hold strong yet uninvolved awareness. I soon wake up, not able to chain another lucid at the time.

I find myself appearing into the basement of large structure. It resembles the basement of my uncle’s house, yet a bit larger and more vacant. The dream is a bit blurry and dark, so I keep demanding verbally: “clarity!” “focus!”. I look to where they usual have a TV set up,yet there does not appear to be much in the area. The area feels very empty to the left as well. It looks like there are several room connected to the far end of the large empty room I’m in, roughly fifteen meters in the distance. The dream remains very dim, and I decide to LDEILD into another lucid. I lay down, and keep repeating the mantra to myself: “I’m in a lucid dream”. I return to an in-between state in which I am aware of vibrations within my head, ready for another lucid entry.

I'm in my childhood home, and approaching the window of my brother's room on the second story. As I begin to head toward the window, my awareness raises and I have the thought that when I phase through, I'll be lucid. As I pass through to the outside, I am floating in the air in the front of the property, aware of the dream state. I announce to the dream 'I'm lucid' to solidify it. I think back to the podcast that made the suggestion for the announcement. I begin floating across the yard while rubbing my dream hands, and consider some of my dream goals. As I run my memory, I decide against it and instead decide to explore a bit and stabilize. Everything becomes very vivid as I approach the sidewalk, and make my way to the back of an SUV parked in the driveway. I approach the trunk, and place my hands on it, feeling the texture. I have the thought that it's incredible that a dream could be so realistic. I continue to stabilize by feeling the texture of the trunk for a few seconds, then continue on and turn left. I make my way into the street, and the dream quickly goes to void. i'm very calm, and simply remind myself that a new dream is loading. I stay in this state for about three minutes, patiently waiting for the next dream scene. I go through periods where it feels as though a waterfall current comes onto my dream head, then periods where it feels like a light current of energy is moving laterally across my head. Finally, someone lightly shakes me and tells me I need to get up. I jolt awake on a couch and ask 'Is this a dream??'. S responds matter-of-factly no... it's not a dream. I take a look around and see the vividness of the scene; it's easy to believe her. RCing doesn't come to me for some reason, and I go on to tell her about my lucid.

I'm leaving a building, and head into a warm, sunny environment following a conversation with a co-worker. The word 'dream' comes into my mind as I begin floating, my awareness begins raising and I become lucid.I continue flying upward freely, raising many feet into the air. I take in the view of the small vacant plaza that I'm in. It has a light tan concrete floor without any sort of decor, and sits in the center of many tall buildings which appear to be apartment structures. The structures raise about 20 stories into the airs, and are light colored with small balconies outside of each room. Glass sliding doors lead out onto each balcony. Separating the two structures in front of me is a massive palm tree with green bark and canopy which extends slightly above the buildings. I continue flying upward, and consider some dream goals. I quickly decide against dream goals as I just wanted to explore this interesting tropical settings. I decide to head toward one of the balconies and head inside one of the rooms to start a conversation with a DC. I head up a few more balconies, the finally make it to the top one on my right. I approach the open door with curtains blocking the entrance. As I make my way through, the dream begins to go void, and with caution I back up slightly to try to gain back some stability and vision. I begin going to rub hands, but there's a slight resistance, although I gained some visuals back.The dream quickly goes void and I transition to waking.

1. I find myself in bed in the dark. I automatically go for a nose plug.. 'could I really be dreaming?'. I check twice to make sure and I'm lucid. I think of how awesome it is that it came so easily. I stand up from the bed, but everything is just a void; it's as though I'm wandering in darkness. I have a spatial sense, but no other senses are present. I have an easy time maintaining awareness here, and I decide to wait for the next dream to start. I stay for a few minutes and remain patient. I fell as though I'm standing, and see a small light colored rectangle begin to form then fade. I figure I must be at the end of a REM cycle, and riding it out, so I try to go to sleep in the dream while telling myself 'I'm in a lucid dream'. I close my eyes, lay down, and begin the mantra

2. I appear in a bedroom area and begin to explore. I notice a dresser standing close by my side.I quickly decide to fly through a wall and explore a bit outside the structure I'm in. I find myself in an outdoor area with an interesting green hue to the entire scene. There is a large screen encompassing the entire backyard. I begin flying toward the screen and bust through the first one. I then consider heading upward and make my way through the ceiling screen. I then get the sense that there is some ominous entity inside the structure. At first, I consider going even quicker through the screen. I then think to myself 'this is just my dream, I'm going to confront this nightmare and find out what it is. I lower myself back down, turn toward the house, and torpedo my body quickly back into the structure's first room. I make a quick right while doing this torpedo flight and enter the second interior room. I see a creepy dark figure standing in the center of the rectangular dim room. The figure is just over five feet tall with long black hair, at is slightly stooped over. This zombie-looking figure appears to be a female, and is facing away from me. I quickly torpedo at the figure, yet I do feel a bit creeped out by its presence. As I approach, I grab its shoulders, spin it around, and demand "Who are you? What do you represent". I see the figure's face: it is the distorted face of one of my co-workers, which quickly changes to a distorted blonde 50's looking female, then to another female. The character says to me "I'm your fear of silliness". I feel at the moment that I have a clear understanding of exactly what this character is trying to relay (although after a few hours of waking I thought of another possible interpretation). I turn back to where I came from, and return to my flight toward getting out of the backyard area. The dream begins to become a bit blurry and fuzzy as I enter the green-hue area. I start expanding my vision to try to stabilize, but the dream begins to fade. I get teleported back inside, yet the dream begins going to void. I recall my lucid dream count, and decide that I want to have another this night. I set my intention to have another one. I lay down to go to sleep and begin my mantra: "I'm in a lucid dream". My eyes open slightly, yet my awareness wavers, and lucidity drops a bit... Some co-workers are asking me to help out with some students. I'm aware at some level that I'm trying to begin at the start of the next REM cycle, and continue sleeping. They seem to find me sleeping unhelpful, and laugh a bit. I ignore it, return to my intention and wake up shortly after.

3. The dream yoga master leaves the room after having spoken negatively of the older lady's practice. She is a bit upset, but I kneel down by her side and try to comfort her. I put my hand on her back, and tell her not to worry about it. We both stand up, and begin to walk in silence to the next room. Once we enter, the room goes completely black. I'm here for a short moment, then it hits me I'm dreaming this. I'm in complete darkness, yet I stick out my hands and feel that the older female is still in this 'dream blindness' with me. I stay in this void-like state for a minute or two, anticipating a dream to begin. I simply hold awareness in this void. I then decide to go to sleep and try to begin a new dream. I begin feeling a physical body, yet it may have been a convincing FA which I missed.

I'm staninding in front of a group of people, outside of a large building we just exited. The group appears to be dressed lightly for some kind of battle, ready to encounter a group of some sort. My awareness quickly raises as I turn to face the group. I begin levitating as I become aware that I'm dreaming, and take in the sight of the group prepared for a battle. I tell them not to worry and that we're in a dream. I explain that I'm a dreamwalker with a smirk, and explain that I can control everything. They don't seem to comprehend how one could control it; they seem a bit reluctant to hear my explanation.I'm amused by the situation, and decide to turn to head down the black pavement. I turn and make my way between a set of one-story buildings, The group continues follow me. I don't feel the need to stabilize as everything remains clear, and I'm happy with the length of the dream as I continue walking. I don't think back to dream goals at this point, but simply explore the environment. I make my way around the corner of a building, look left, and see a large group with white jackets and robes in front of a building off in the distance. It is apparent this is the group they're about to have a skirmish with. I approach quickly and decide to try to telekenesis the entire group. I move my hand up to send out the ability, and have the thought that maybe I should stabilize. I stick out my right hand to begin the telekenesis, but but don't get to see to see the effects as the dream rapidly goes to void. I lose awareness and end up in a FA.

I'm on a yellow school bus heading down a road through dense woodlands. I stick my head out the window as we're coming to an intersection, and read the green street sign. It reads something similar to 'Frankilin'. I have the thought that it would look different if I was in a dream.My awareness begins to raise as I begin floating out through the window, and I finally realize I'm dreaming. The vividness of the scene comes full force as I take in the natural environment. The environment is very peaceful and I feel a sense of freedom. Dense woodland is spread out in all directions, with narrow roads continuing in three directions. The trees have sparse yellow, orange, and red leaves as though the end of fall is approaching. My access to memory is great and I quickly realize my couple day period without lucids is ending. i begin flying down the road taking in more scenery, appreciating the vividness, and enjoying the great flying control. I begin to think about the goal I set before bed and remember right away. I begin asking the awareness behind the dream "what is my gift" as I continue to fly down one of the roads. The road begins to bend back and forth down the woodland road as I fly and ask the dream, awaiting an answer. After flying down the road for a short while, and looking into the distant woods, I see a car approaching from far away with head lights turned on. I'm appreciating the length and continue rubbing my hands. I wonder what would happen to stability if I darted eyes around as I've tried in previous dreams. As soon as I try, the dream become very unstable, and I'm on the verge of waking. I consider doing a LDEILD as I heard from a podcast. I continue to tell myself I'm in a lucid dream as I stabilize my vision and allow myself to wake. I'm unable to return to a dream at the time.

I'm on the top level a stone structure with several levels. I'm trying to figure out a way down as I'm standing in the arched entryway at the top. I begin floating down, and it hits me: I'm inside of a dream The structure has many levels, progressing downward with out-cropped terraces. The entire thing is built out of sand colored stone, and many people are sitting on these ledges. I continue to descend in a spread eagle to the ground level of the structure, and continue looking around, taking in the environment. I reach to the very bottom, but stop my dream body before I hit the ground. I decide to levitate myself back up while getting everyone's attention by calling out. I'm interested in their reaction to my realization of the dream, and my ability to control it. I start letting myself fall again and fake a scream as though I'm actually falling uncontrolled, ready to catch myself. I notice immediately that this stimulated my physical body's vocal cords, and that it's waking me a bit. I hang in the air for a second or two before I wake up.

1. I'm in the road behind an apartment complex entering into the parking area. I spot my car, but something feels strange. I have the thought that my car is a dream sign, and I continue to consider my surroundings a bit strange. As I approach, I naturally do a nose plug, breath and I'm lucid. I transition right to my car and am driving down the road in the parking area behind the building. I head around the side and look up toward a massive tree to my right, and well as the corner of the outisde of a building to the left. I decide to fly through the windshield and get an aerial view of the entire area. I easily ascend through, and up above the large tree to my right. I look down at the roof of the large apartment building as I consider what to do next with my dream. Dream goals don't come to me at this point, but I decide to anchor myself through senses, and focus on expanding/concentrating on my vision. I continue to fly over and above the roof.

I soon enter a void and resolve to hold my awarness until the next dream, and not lose focus. I hold for a while and...

2.I begin to notice two brick pillars on either side of me begin to form. They have a very slight red coloring to them, and I'm standing on a cream colored concrete walkway. The scene is becoming slightly more vivid, and as I look down the walkway, I notice a co-worker make her way around the walkway with a few of her students. I decide to follow and begin a conversation out of interest. I turn the corner but don't see them. I consider flying at this point, but decide I'll stay on the ground and focus on stability while I explore. I look down the concrete walkway, and see that it enters a fairly large building by passing into it, almost like a small tunnel.I walk down while constantly moving my vision around, trying a technique from a podcast I heard the previous day. This help stabilize a bit, and things become more vivid. I walk into the building and look left and right. The corridor extends pretty far in each direction, and rooms connect to either side; it looks almost like a huge storage area mixed with an office. I think about how long the LD is lasting, and am pretty happy with it. I then realize 'wow, anything can come around those corners right now' and am fascinated by this. Begin feeling as though I have sensations from my physical body and wake up.

I find myself in a dark room of what feels to be the 2nd story of a building. I walk toward a door, but something feels very strange. This feeling stays with me for a few seconds, and I begin to recognize 'the dream feel'. I put my right hand out in front of me, and it hits me: I'm dreaming. I walk into the next room and turn right to see a second story railing overlooking the first, in what appears to be my childhood home. The area is very dark, and the vividness is a bit weak at this point. I ramp up my awareness at this point, and the clarity/stability becomes a bit stronger. I look down and notice the front door as well as the large window above. Instead of heading down through the wall as I've done in other dreams, I decide to go down into the first floor, walk around, and stabilize for a bit.I make my way forward, yet the visuals quickly collapse into black. I tell myself to hold focus and to wait for images to start up. I hold in this area for a bit, then clasp my hands and begin imagining energy moving between them while making a waving motion in order to replicate friction and stay anchored. I hold for a while as images begin to appear into my awareness, as though the next dream is ready to load. I see a snowy town with lined up houses and a few cars parked outside. It reminds me of my uncle's neighborhood in the winter time. Shortly after, I wake up rapidly.

I take my hand off of the silver car as the engine starts up, and turn away from the car as well as my brother. I begin to fly upward in the direction of a large pine tree. As I ascend and head toward the brancehs, my awareness begins to raise. I finally land high up on the branches, and turn back down to look at where I had flown from. Something feels a bit strange...surreal. I do a quick glance at my hand, but it's not very necessary; it hits me: I'm dreaming! I repeat to myself with the realization: "I'm in a lucid". I look at the pine branches and notice how vivid and blue they are. I glance up at the sky as well and take in the blue hue. I look downward and get a glimpse of the house I had flown from. The visuals quickly collapse, yet I hold awareness, and become determine to hold my awareness all the way through. I tell myself "Eric stay in this" then tell the dream "last an hour...last an hour". I continue to hold awareness in this void state, and remind myself mentally that it's just a 'loading area for another dream'. I rub my hands constantly to anchor. After some time I begin to imagine myself paddling a surfboard, and a wave finally reaching me and catching me. The feeling is interesting, but visuals don't kick in. I then decide to pretend I'm riding a skateboard. Again, no visuals. I suddenly realize I'm in a white tunnel/massive empty area and see a dark figure of a person begin to appear a distance away. I lose lucidity as the dream forms, and see myself walking toward my point of awareness with athletic clothing, and a slight limp as if I had hurt my left side. A tunnel area is fully formed at this point. The dream quickly jumps to an interesting fragment in which I'm explaining the lucid dream I just had to a middle aged man. He's wondering if it's a shared dream I experienced, and I explain how real it felt.

I am stranding in front of a mirror looking at a reflection of my whole upper body. I feel that something is not right; something feels strange. I keep staring, then decide to check my hands. They look fairly normal, even in the reflection, yet I still feel that something is strange and that I may be dreaming. I do a nose plug and I'm lucid. I instantly decide to jump through the circular mirror in order to change the scene. I dive through and I'm sucked into a tunnel which propels me a short distance. I soon end up in a void state, yet maintain strong awarenes and resolve to make it through until the next dream forms. I begin engaging my tactile sense my rubbing my dream hands. I demand myself to focus, consistently repeating word 'focus' verbally. I begin rubbing my dream body as well, and am interested by the mild electrical vibrations I feel when touching the dream body with my dream hands. I gain a mental representation of the energy field of my dream body by doing so. I continue going back and forth between these two activities in the void for about two minutes until I feel that I am transitioned back into my waking body. Upon awakening, I don't recall if it was a micro-awakening or a false awakening, although the sensation of a physical body felt very real.

I'm walking down a driveway in front of a two story structure as a narrator finishes speaking. I begin thinking about my awareness practice and wonder how good I'll be at lucid dreaming/dream yoga in three years if I keep working hard at it. I wonder if it'll all be worth it. My awareness raises as I reach farther down the driveway, and it feels as though visuals from my pre-bed meditation kick in. I become lucid as my hands come in front of me, and I'm good to go; no need to do a formal RC at this point. There is a slight shock at how clear/rational my mind feels at this point. I fly a bit upward and notice a street running in front of the property, dense woodland laying beyond. I continue flying, and make my way across the property and across the road. As I enter the woodland I make a point to use all of my senses, anchoring myself into the dream. I feel this area may be due to my first dream goal of heading to an astral forest. My stabilization feels pretty solid as I enter my way into the trees, gliding smoothly. I begin rubbing my dream body to practice this technique a bit. I feel all my limbs and torse get stimulated by hands as if a slight staitic is running through them. I consider using visualization to try a dream goal, but decide to explore and practice stabilzation instead. I continue my way through the trees, alternating between rubbing my dream body and using my senses. The branches are thick with pine needles. The dream gets a bit blurry but I hang in for a while. I enter a void soon then go into a short period of non-lucidity before waking. I attempt a DEILD, and get very close to my separation point, but I don't quite 'sink' into the next. I stay up for the day.

1. I hold my awareness through the 'sinking' feeling and stand up with my dream body once I feel I am ready. I find myself in a very dim room resembling my bedroom, yet with a longer extension to the left. I consider where to go, then decide to head through the window to the right and explore outside a bit. I find my way onto the wooden porch attached with a small set of stairs descending to the left. A small yard area with vivid green grass lays beyond. I walk a bit farther and notice that the area I'm in resembles a lodge of sorts. The building is mostly a darker red color, constructed of wood, with many rooms on various levels. I head toward the lawn then look to my left and see a large white square door. I continue on thinking about what I should do in this dream as I make a bit of progress toward the door. I feel the heavy feeling -similar to the last dream - holding me back; it feels like a strong resistance is hindering my movement. I remind myself that it's just a dream, and that everything is taking place in my mind in dream space - I can just will myself forward. I look to the left and notice a turning staircase connecting the various entrance ways to the bi-level lodge. I engage the five senses once again at this point. I continue my way floating up the staircase and head to go into one of the upper level rooms to explore. White light is spilling from under the doorway. I phase through the door and enter the room which is very dark. I quickly enter a void, but am determined to hold awareness through. I engage as many senses as I can, and maintain strong sense of hearing on many birds chirping. The scene begins to appear,and I make my way through a wall.

2. I wake up, hold completely still, recall the last dream, and feel I can enter another LD by relaxing my body once again. I relax and 'sink' until I feel that I have control of a dream body then stand up and walk to the foot of the bed. I do a jumping jack spontaneously to engage my sense of kinesthetics. I begin to head through the nearest wall, and try to imagine myself heading into a natural setting at this point. The dream is not taking me anywhere, and I reason that I don't have a dream incubated within my mind - I think back to Sageous's posts about having a dream 'on tap'. I continue to fall in this void state.

3. I wake up (yet am not fully sure if it was a real or false awakening). I continue the same sinking process from the previous dream, and once again stand up and begin to move around a room closely resembling the previous one. The dream quickly fades and I wake up.