lucid

I am walking down a driveway and hear a man talking about the benefits of meditation - how it builds the power of 'analytical awareness' to super high levels, through stages. I think that his description sounds a bit like the analytical parts of vipassana. I then think about Zazen and consider this might be better for awareness I make my way to the street and toward a main road and it hits me: I'm dreaming! I instantly fly up above the road and soak in the realism of the dream scene. The trees, street, and cars, are all very vivid and realistic and I feel that I have solid mental presence in the dream.I look backwards toward a black car coming down the road with a female driver - she smiles up at me as she slow, seemingly amused by me flying. I fly backwards and extend my limbs. I then turn around, continue flying and consider some dream goals. I'm super happy and can't believe how vivid and stable this lucid feels. I look way down the road and see the road stretching out for miles into the far distance, massive green trees standing on either side. Cars make their way to what appears to be a coastline with several houses with light red roofs adjacent to the coast. Tree branches a few stories high partially block the view. I think back to one of my dream goals of visiting a 'Heaven Realm' and receiving an important teaching. I decide against it, and reason that this feels enough like a heaven realm. I then decide to shout to the dream for more clarity and focus to see what happens - the dream doesn't alter at all. I consider how stable it is then tell the dream authoritatively that it's going to last for an hour, feeling determined. I make my way down the road continuing toward the coast, and see a massive oak tree several stories tall with branches coming over the road. I head inside of the canopy and am amazed by the network of thick branches and begin to feel the incredibly realistic, gritty texture. I consider making a portal to my goal in one of the branches, but decide to head down the tree, and toward the lake at the base. I fly down bit by bit, feeling each branch then stop a few seconds on one branch. I suddenly think that I shouldn't stop too long or it may become unstable. The dream begins to fade a bit. I enter a void an resolve to stay in it, aware, as long as possible until a new dream forms. I have a short FA before the next dream.

I am in a dark room, and I am thinking about lucidity. I check my hands and become lucid without checking thoroughly. I make my way down the hallway, and look out of a window with an arched top situated on the 2nd floor of a while wall. It is beginning to snow, and appears to be midnight outside. I consider what I should do as I take in the colors, looking over the banister. I wonder how long the dream will last. I glide over the reailing toward the 2nd story window. The moonlight and darkness come through. I phase partially throught the window, and partially through the white wall. The moonlight fills the outdoor area, providing a glow filled with very small snow flakes. A tree without leaves stands in front of me as I levitate in the air, taking in my surroundings. The dream begins to fade. I wake up

I have a FA following a void state from my previous dream. I head to [S] as she gets ready in the morning. Her face looks very real, but I just got up, and something doesn't feel right, so I hand RC. My hands look fine, but something still feels strange, so I nose plug and become lucid. I turn around and decide to head to a brighter environment. I look through the blinds and think "Marlboro...again". The colors are incredibly bright and vivid. The brilliant green and perfection of the grass fascinates me. I see the stone diving board on the edge of what resembles a body of water/simming pool. This area is right up against the grass. I jump out of the window and slowly glide out into the environment. I decide to shift focus to a dream goal. I try to conjure a 'lucidity orb'. No luck, and I'm on the ground at this point. I then try to conjure a stability orb to see if it could help stabilize the dream. No luck with this either. I decide to hold off on other dream goals as I feel teleporting/phasing may make the dream unstable. I want to see how long I can stay in the environment. I have the thought that it's amazing how natural LDers could experience this on many nights. I then think I can't wait to tell my brother about this one. I make my way back up into the air to get a more aerial view - the yard is very expansive. I make my way around a group of trees to the left. The yellows and pinks are simply amazing and appear as vivid as real life. I see a tall black light on the edge of the grass near the trees which is extremely realistic and similar to the one in WL. As I fly my way around these trees I repeat "You've got to be kidding me" as everything appears so super-real. In the moment I find it hard to believe this state exists. The dream feel very stable. I see a shed structure with two trees off in the distance, and I fly in this general direction. The shed structure is a light brown color. Around this point the dream feels as though it is beginning to fade. I quickly come back to WL and do a quick state check for gravity before adjusting anything. It feels like I'm truly awake so I open my eyes and hand RC. I turn to my dog, laughing, and say "You've got to be kidding me, Maya" .

I have a FA and something feels strange. I can't see my hands well, so I nose plug and I'm lucid. The room is very dark, so I continue on to the next. I see that there is a small riffle in the covers of the bed in the next room, as though someone small may be lying there. I become curious to see who is there and pull the sheets back. I don't see a head, and see small clothing, but cannot tell if there is a body inside. I turn away from the bed and head to the window to change the scene. I jump through and fall into a void/blackness which leads to a period of simply holding awareness before the dream fades. There is a strange void transition period I vaguely remember before another FA occurs.

I have a feeling of being bummed that I'm not lucid while looking at statistics from a Dream Views monthly competition . I look at the screen and see line graphs in green corresponding to the time Sensei is lucid within dreams throughout each night.
I get the thought that I may actually be dreaming. Nose pinch lucid. I immediately leave the room and enter the main area of the structure. It resembles the main entryway at my childhood home. Beautiful rainbow light spills in the main area of the building through the arched window on the second story. I float down to the first floor, turn around and head down the hallway. As I walk down the hall, I look back to my first dream goal, and try to conjure a lucidity orb. My right hand comes out in front, but nothing appears. I then ask it to come to me in future dreams and make me lucid. I then ask for a dream character to appear in order to find me in future dreams and make me lucid. No response. I am in the kitchen area of the house at this point, but turn from this area, head back through the hall to the main area. I phase through the white front door and into the outdoor environment. The colors remain very bright and vivid. I gaze around at all the colorful bushes and trees and down the street, and wonder how long the dream will remain stable for. I move toward the street, and the dream fades a bit. I feel that I might be feeling my physical body. I begin to feel for gravity as my initial state test. I wake up.

I am in a dark room resembling my bedroom following a transition from a dream of driving a truck through corridors at a military base. I stand up but something feels strange. I go to look at my hands, but it's too dark to see anything. I decide to go with a nose-plug and breathe - success! I try to brighten things up so I shout out lantern, hoping to get a strong light effect from a lantern appearing in the room. I do this a few times, but don't get any results. I am still int he near pitch black room, and see a small bit of light coming through a door very far down a hallway. Instead of changing the dream scene, I decide to sit and meditate. Whin seconds, I get an incredible transcending experience with my mind, as though its being pulled up through my dream head and, and I begin to expereince a mild state of euphoria within a surrounding of dim golden light. After a few seconds, I return back to my meditating body and consider looking around the room. As I begin to open my eyes, I'm concerned it will be WL and become cautious. The dream begins to fade.

I'm standing with [S] in the hallway talking about lucid dreaming. I look at my hands and realize I'm dreaming. I look up and take in how convincing S's face is. I ask her, "Why didn't you tell me I was dreaming?". She gives me a big grin, and turns her face to her left. We walk together down the hallway toward the far end. We are in my childhood home. I take the opportunity to ask her very specific questions we've been talking about in waking life. First, I ask "What is your main passion?". Next, I ask "What is the best way for me to become lucid". Finally, I ask "What's your favorite food?" (Not all that epic). We continue to walk down the hallway, and finally enter a room on the far end resembling my brother's. I look to the cabinet against the wall; it is 3 shelves wide with many glass windows. The cabinet contains many different interesting bottles with contents that seem equally as interesting. At one point I think something along the lines of 'wow... this is very realistic/stable. I consider going for one of the opaque creamy looking bottles to see what it is. I get a vague notion that it may help me with lucidity. I decide not to drink it, however. I don't see S for a short period and consider heading out of the window, yet she reappears in my vision very soon. I give her a kiss. The dream becomes a bit blurry, but I rub my dream body with strong intent and stabilize. I look on the bed and see a very small pile with some of her clothes. The dream ends shortly after and I wake up.

*I don't clearly remember her responses to the three questions due to moving my head a couple inches upon waking.

I'm in the hallway at my childhood house. My hands come out in front of we while in the hallway and I notice six fingers. I become lucid. I begin to walk down the hallway to where my parents' bedroom is located. I decide not to enter the room as I get the impression that interaction with them would possibly wake me. I head down to the other end of the hallway towards where my brother's room is located. Once in the room a gaze toward the window, and become very interested in heading through the window due to the surreal appearance. The dream begins to fade, yet my awareness increases a bit and I stay in a void state. I resolve that I will maintain awareness until another dream forms. This goes on for about a minute.

*There is a period of time before the next lucid which I cannot fully account for. Shifting upon waking from the second LD caused much of the memory from the first to get jumbled.

Laying in bed, my eyes open and I do a reality check by looking at my right hand in front of me. Something still feels strange about the situation, so I do a nose-plug and breath. I'm fully aware I'm dreaming, and I get up but for some reason have a difficult time with the gravity in the dream. I think critically to myself that 'this is a dream, just get up!'. I realize that I am in a room strongly resembling my childhood room at night time. I look left and decide not to go down the darkened hallway as I am more interested in the natural environment outside and possibly changing the dream scene. I make my way over to the window, yet have a tough time flying for some reason and feel a bit frustrated, yet I grab on to the windowsill, propel myself out and I finally start flying. Flying is pretty easy at this point, and I make my away along scattered shrubbery to a body of water resembling a pool. I take in the surroundings which are at the dead of night. The environment is filled with bushes, hedges, and trees. This area looks very similar to my childhood backyard. I start to work my memory to remember dream goals and start working on them. I shout out to the dream to help me build my lucid abilities. I then try to remember part II of my goals as I look toward the dark trees at the far edge of the area. I begin to shout to the dream to ask how to become lucid more often, but the dream cuts out midway through this question. I find myself talking to a co-worker about a crazy lucid dream I just had starting with an interesting FA experience .

I am in the bathroom of a small apartment looking into the mirror. My reflection is nearly a perfect recreation of my face in real life. However, my eyes have bigger pupils and silver/gray irises that have a slight glow. I realize that this can't be real, and I become lucid. I turn and make my way to the interior of the apartment. I enter a small corridor area which is the kitchen. Sunlight comes in through the windows in front of me. I make a right and continue down the narrow kitchen and turn left to head out the back door into a two story alley way outside. I end up on the orange awnings on either side of the alley way, making their way up each level to the roof. I reason that I may collapse the dream by entering a portal at this time, and decide to climb as I am having a bit restricted from flying. I begin climbing the awnings. I begin thinking about dream control, and some of the DV audio and posts. I feel the incredibly detailed ribbed texture of the awnings in order to stabilize the dream a bit more. I make my way to the roof level, climb up and look left. A brilliant white light begins small in the center of my vision and grows quickly. The void comes at this point and I decide that I'm going to do a zazen meditation as this state seems to resonate most with the voids I experience. I hold this state of conscentration for ~30-40 secons, then I wake up.

I'm in a jail yard at night by some guards on the ground. Something begins to feel strange. I become lucid, and levitate upward ~50-60 feet and look down at the guards and to the right to see the two story concrete prison. The scene takes place in the middle of the night, and roughly a dozen guards are spread throughout the fenced-in entrace area. Concrete stairs lead up to the first floor of the prison. Protrusions of concrete surround the windows to each of the high windows. I think back to my induction technique, and decide to float back down to the ground. I tell the guards the won't be able to continue approaching me. I turn around and head toward the massive two story gate made out of chain link. As I approach the massive gate the dream becomes unstable, and I quickly wake up.

I find myself levitating on a hillside overlooking a descent into a valley below. At this moment, I know that this is not waking life. I am really excited at this point and shout "I'm lucid!" I quickly think of sivason's lesson "Resistance to Shock' and know I need to calm the excitement in order to keep everything stable. My emotions stabilize, and I become clear and focused. I soak in all of the details of this green, rocky hillside overlooking the rocky path to the valley. I continue to levitate ~40 feet off of the ground over an area of the mountain that is slightly cleared of any rock. Sections of grass are scattered around the clearing and the perimeter. There appears to be a small picnic area situated in the corner of the clearing. I get started recalling my dream goals. I shout out to the dream: "subconscious, help me develop my lucid abilities!" I am still levitating as I turn my direction to face upward toward the top of the hill. It appears that a building it is sitting toward the top. I begin rubbing my hands to ensure everything stays stable. After a bit of looking around, the dream begins to dim, and I begin to focus strongly and rub hands. I resolve to stay focused through if the void comes. I hold strong awareness for ~30 seconds through the void, then wake up.

Last LD of the night. I begin from the FA following the last dream. I peer around the covers and notice that I'm in a small creepy basement room. I hear a voice explaining something about lucid dreams. Something feels 'unreal' about this situation. I do a nose-plug and breathe. I look up and see a strnge screen high up on a wall and a hallway behind me, to the right of the screen. There is a strange Sucuubus looking figure on the screen, with red clothing. I decide to fly through a window high up toward the ceiling on the left wall, and immediately decide to start working on dream goals. I make it through the window and end up in a town-like area. Stability goes down a bit, yet I rub my hands together, and imaging walking a visulas dip for a bit. The dream continues and I make my way to the top of the building gradually by floating upward. I appear at the backside of a building with trees on either side of me, and a small open grass area in front. I repeatedly shout "Clarity!" "Focus!". with a great demand at the dream /w moderate success. At this point I remember my intent to continue developing my lucid dream abilities. I shout "Subconscious, Unconscious, please help me lucid more often!" or some thing very similar. I make my way to the roof and soar off the building, flying for a short period (this short portion is a bit fuzzy in memory). I land in an open area which resembles my old college campus. At this point I feel intuitively that I should spin to increase clarity. I notice it's working very well and understand I must keep my eyes open and let all the visuals possible flood in. I notice small amber lights hanging off all the branches on the trees. The trees are situated in a row on either side of the walkway. The lights blur my visioin in streaks as I spin. I realize I should move my eyes up and down as well to flood more visual senses in. I couple this with singing. Then with smelling the environment. I stop spinning, and the clarity of the dreams becomes very high, and I'm really happy about it. I begin singing another song as I think it's a great idea for stability! I continue to soar low to the ground and decide to explore a bit. I approach a set of dorm building which are to my left - they have whilte walls on the exterior. I enter and am interested to see if I recognize anyone I know. I see a few people asleep. An old lady smiles at me, and I can tell she likes me. She says, "You know, I'd really like you to meet someone. Her name is [S] (my fiance). I turn, grin at her, and say "I wouldn't worry, I think I will anyway".

LD2 of the night. Details are a bit fuzzy as a FA followed by another LD occured. I am in an area with a large body of cold water, similar to a large outdoor pool. I am drifting around the perimeter looking at all the people inside of it. Something feels strange, so I do a nose-lug and breath!I turn left and head around the corner overhanging the frozen semi-frozen pool. I rise to an area which slowly ascends to the roof of a building. I shout to the dream to help me develop my lucid abilities and channel energy into my mind. At this point, the dream goes void, but I resolve that I will not allow the dream to end. I continuously rub my dream body while holding focus and remaining present. I try hard to stay cognizant. It is still dark for a bit, and I appear underneath a blanket with a FA leading to another LD.

Early LD of the night. I'm talking to a lady who's preaching about a religion of some sort. I shake my head and tell her I'm a lucid dreamer. I tell her "you need to do a RC". I plug my nose, breathe, and become lucid. I start running rapidyly down the street, interested that this scne is a much more hustle-bustle feel than many of my LDs. I find my way inside a building with a window situated on a second story wall with a blue light shining through it. I fly up to float through. I land on a patio in front of a bush resembling an area of my childhood home. I jog my memory and resolve to increase my lucid abilities. I channel electrical energy into my mind to do this. The dream feels as though it's fading and I begin rubbing my dream body to stabilize. It goes void, but I find my way down a city street and make my way up a set of stone stairs toward a hotel. I decide if I'm going to pass through the wall or fly to the top of the building. I also consider making a portal against the wall, yet decide with flying upward. As I do this, a void comes. I begin to visualize another scene to keep going, yet I wake up at this point.