memorable

This whole adventure stared with a normal dream that I can't remember the details of, and lead into a false awakening.

I woke up the same place I had fallen asleep, on the couch, to my roommates L and S and S's family getting home from the Chinese New Year Parade. I turn to tell S my dream, but in stead she mocks me for falling asleep instead of doing my homework. I told her I didn't plan to sleep for long, and she asked when the paper was due on the story I was reading. I told her there was no such paper, I just had to read the story. She gave me the face of "sure there is no paper" and began to walk away. I decided to write my dream into my dream journal and that reminded me to do a reality check.

I pinched my nose shut, closed my mouth and was able to take a full breath. "Oh my God! I am dreaming" I say with excitement. For awhile I was just nerding out that I knew I was dreaming and the dream began to shift. I looked through the house and saw sections missing. Not like the walls just weren't there, but a loss of detail in the dream. I if I had painted white over it with photoshop. Not many of the things in the room were retaining their detail. I thought it might be because I was not able to retain all the information within my conscious mind.

I began to wonder what I should do. I could do anything. I turn to see my roommates S and M on the couch. I turn to M and say "hi" in a silly way. (It almost a ritual irl to keep saying it over and over each time getting more silly) She turns and looks at me with a blank, neutral stare. Clearly not interested in socially interacting with me. I am not phased (for I am used to that irl) I say hi again in an even more ridiculous way. She smiles and says hi back, waving in a cute way. I start to tell her that I am in a dream. I decided not to try and convince her she is not in a dream, I just feel like I needed to tell someone . I open my mouth to speak, and words come out in a soft raspy whisper. It was very similar to loosing your voice. I thought of a speech from a brain scientist I say on TED.com where she has a stroke and is analyzing herself from the inside out. There is a particular part where she is unable to understand language that reminded me of it. (which I found interesting upon awakening that I was drawing from my rl memories) I try to talk a bit longer and words become a bit clearer, but I decide to move on to try other things before my dream collapses.

I turn to see M's computer in the living room. It is playing mabinogi (her fav MMO RPG) by itself. I think, that maybe she is just set on follow, since we have made the mistake before, but at a closer look it is actually fighting and wining. After deciding that that was awesome I step away from the screen to find that nearly the entire living room has disappeared. I feel exhausted, and I begin to have trouble focusing my eyes. I decide to concentrate, and begin to think of what everything looks like so that nothing collapses. It did not take long for me to feel back to normal and for the house to be restored. I again decide to move on.

As if to answer the question of what to do next I begin to float in the middle of the room. I smile, totally thrilled, because that is the main reason lucid dreaming is appealing to me, flying. I continue to float until I bump lightly into the ceiling. I giggle at the amateur nature of my flying, but decide to try anyway. I open the window, and begin to soar into the peaceful, foggy city of San Francisco. I almost start to cry I am so happy. I am lead into another false awakening.

I wake up on the couch again to everyone coming home and I begin to tell S about my lucid dream. She does not seem as excited as I expected, but I am having trouble telling the story because I am super hot and fumbling over my words. I feel sick and she seems to think I am also. She makes the comment that if I ever think she looks like she might be sick it is because I am sick. I remember saying that earlier (not irl) and realize I must be running a fever. I am unable to move most of my body very far, so I ask her to help me up. She grabs my hand and pulls me to a sitting position, but I only fall back down again because I can not keep my body erect. I try to get off the couch, only to sort of slither with my blankets onto the floor. I still can't move. S then asks me bout my lucid dream. I tell her about how I did a reality check. I actually went through the motions, but purposely left space so that I could really breathe. (I wish I hadn't because then I would have known that I was dreaming ). After I explain about how the world was not there, it seemed like it had been photoshoped away, she begins to say how I am sick because I am working to much, and how I need to slow down, yada yada yada. I begin to defend myself and wake up on the couch.

I do a reality check immediately to find I am awake.

(A dream from a few years back...The dialogue is not exact, but it is just about right.)

I walk into the kitchen, holding my pregnant belly, to where my mom is making bacon. (note: I have never been pregnant.) It is the exact kitchen I had at the time of the dream.
I feel my water break and stop dead in my tracks.
Me: "Mom, my water just broke."
Mom: "That's nice dear." I walk closer to her.
Me: "You don't understand, the baby is coming!" She does not even look up at me.
Mom: "How much bacon do you want honey?" I begin to feel the baby crowning.
Me: "Mom! It is coming!!"
Mom: "Not now sweetie. I am cooking." I am so confused as to why she is not helping. I feel the baby's shoulders begin to descend. As soon as the shoulders are out the entire baby follows. It is contained in a sac which I rip open immediately leaking water on to the kitchen floor. I grab my child and place it carefully on the kitchen counter. I put my hands on my legs to catch my breath and after a few breaths I turn to my mom again.
Me: "Mom, I just had a child...here in the kitchen..."
Mom: "That's nice." He turns to me holding the pan toward me. "You want some bacon?"

(again a dream from a few years ago, just filling in the blanks)
(I could feel everything)

I start the dream by waking up not knowing where I am. The room is dark and the only walls I see are bare solid concrete. As my eyes begin to focus I notice that in the room with me are many girls that look the same as I do and are about the same age. And a random food cart (this is the thing I am confused about and sometimes skip over because it seems out of place, perhaps from a previous dream that crossed over...or we are prisoners and need to be feed, something along those lines) For some reason I expected some kind of greeting but one began with: "Never cross that line" she did not turn her head to look at me, and only pointed when I asked what she was talking about. There was almost what seemed to be a read duck tape line across the floor.

I for whatever reason was extremely cocky in my dream and said something along the lines of: "What? This one? Why not." she replied: "Don't do it." She was cold and emotionless, until began to approach the line. She "Stop!" she said actually sounding a little scared and turning toward me. "Why? It is just a little line." I said. I walked over to it and poked my toe on the other side in a mocking way and then proceeded to step back and forth on either side of the line saying "I'm stepping over the line. Oh No! (sarcasm) I stepped over it." and other silly things of the sort.

All the girls begin to slink to the other edge of the room in terror, and I feel the presents of something behind me. A shiver goes down my spine, but I turn around despite my fear. There is a huge creature composed of a hard metal body an oblong head with two piercing red eyes and 4 fully pose-able tentacles,(that functioned as arms and legs) also made of metal. I stood still unable to move consumed with terror, for it stood a good 2 feet over me. Is squatted and leaped into the air. I could not move. It landed on my back and its tentacles began to constrict all of my limbs like snakes. He held me suspended in the air, suck in the tentacles (I could feel the cold metal inside but it seemed to have some outer organic layer, that felt sort of like leather) that were getting tighter and tighter. He held be there writhing until I could barely feel my body anymore.

A door in his torso opened reveling a syringe, that slowly revealed itself. It stopped, and then quickly stabbed into my back injecting me with the strange yellow liquid. I felt my body instantly go limp (starting with the injection point and moving out) and soreness replace the pain. I was completely paralyzed. The creature then threw me back on the other side of the line and I passed out on impact.

I woke up in a different place (after thinking it over, I think I was dead and somewhere else). The room had a gold glow and there were many animals in cages and aquariums. I began to wonder through confused, but not thinking about my body and what had happened at all. There is a huge wall that is a giant aquarium and an area of other non-specific animals. I come to the dog section and see that the clear plastic containers are getting smaller and smaller to the point where the dogs can move in them at all. On of the dogs was struggling and could not even move and inch in any direction. The dogs begins to scream and whine, freaking out that the cage is to small. There is suddenly a man behind the counter and I demand that he release the dog (I am pretty sure it is a dog I have seen in real life). He basically says: "no can do." So I steal the dog and begin to run.

I don't see myself leave out of a door, but I see an outside view of me exiting the area outside. I put the dog down and he begins to follow me. There is a cement stair case leading down to an enclosed pond. Suddenly the pond forms a whirl pool and the creature that injected me comes out of it only this time it is the size of a building.
I am terrified to the point where I don't even fight and decide I will only get hurt more if I do not comply. The creature grabs me and drags me into the whirl pool.

I wake up in the first room I ended up in (I assume later after wakening that I was resuscitated or something of the like). The room is much brighter and empty. There is an earth quake going on and pieces of the building are crumbling down. I run for the door to find and exit, and come by the creature sitting against the wall. It has clearly been attacked or something, and sections of the metal is gone revealing that it is a cyborg.

"Why did you do this to us?" I asked as I grabbed what would be the collar of its shirt in anger "Why?!" I yelled pulling it away and then smashing it back into the wall. It looked up at me defeated and sad. It had the look that it was accepting its own death and could never repent.

"I was once just a happy person" she said. She explains how she had a daughter. They were driving one day when they were struck by an oncoming car. Her daughter died instantly, but she was able to be saved by becoming a cyborg. She did not agree to anything, but just woke up that way. She said that she was began gathering girls that looked like her daughter to fill the hole in her heart.

I was silent and felt my heart sink. She put (what was now) her hand on my shoulder, and I could tell she saw me as her daughter. "The exit is that way" she said pointing "you better go." I stood there questioning if I should leave her, and the ceiling began to fall apart. I looked at her one last time and then ran for the exit that was nothing but one big light crying for the woman's loss.

I had to lay in bed for about an hour and a half before the soreness went away and I could move ok.